20.oct.2024

“youre studying in bed? be careful not to fall asleep!” i have insomnia actually so-

10/11/2024

Ambulatory block this week.

The workflow details and all the little things parents ask about feels overwhelming 90% of the time but I’ve been surviving and getting reassured by my attendings that I’m meeting expectations.

Intern year is fun, exhausting, frustrating, and rewarding at the same time. 😵‍💫

I had extra time this morning so I treated myself to my favorite breakfast sandwich from the cafe down the street: fried egg, refried beans, pico de gallo, avocado, hot sauce on a Kaiser roll. It’s the little things in life. 🥰

Honestly, what's growing more and more is the desire to drop out of history school and study for a degree in biological sciences. But what's holding me back is the question of time. Whenever I feel like changing my major, I think that if I don't pass the entrance exam first time, and when I do get in, it'll take me another four years to graduate, and the expenses my parents have had so far will be thrown away like that.

It's these and other things that I won't let go of, and it's more for the others that I keep going than myself, and that's a pain in the ass....

small things i did today to still feel human around my 9-5 💭✨

listened to a studio ghibli piano playlist while i worked. it's amazing how much better i can focus when i do this. otherwise, i get distracted by everyone's conversations in the office.

really cherished my morning coffee. sometimes i get a coffee and a small breakfast and eat it very quickly while i work. i'm trying to have it before i start work, so i can appreciate it more.

ate my lunch outside. it was mostly sunny and a little windy but that's okay.

went to an exhibition opening event after work. i love going to these because it doesn't feel too weird to go alone, you get free wine, and often i see people i know and get to chat with them.

planned a new menu for the next few days. lately i've been in the habit of eating the same thing for dinner most nights. while this meal is tasty and healthy, i know it would be even better for me to have more of a variety. so i wrote out a small menu for myself with some new recipes and some old favourites i haven't made in ages.

took some time in the evening to write my short story and read my book <3

Is it the finals week or my final week, stay tuned to find out fellas!

It is time to take the books and start studying, you will achieve your goals!!!

we are bodying anki as academic weapons today

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