cyno saying this tells me that during their student days, haitham and kaveh weren’t the most diligent when it came to attending their classes, and though it’s implied in canon that the four of them only became more familiar with each other after they graduated (with kaveh as haitham’s bridge to the two besties), and has gotten closer since the last sumeru archon quest, i wouldn’t be surprised if cyno would notice this detail about them since both haitham and kaveh are well-known in the akademiya even when they were students: haitham was popularly unpopular due to his unusual approach to studying, and kaveh stood out from his peers because his talent and intellectual prowess earned him the label, light of kshahrewar (and of my life, too 🤲🏻 hihihi). cyno probably had an idea who they are back then, but never really formed any bond with them until they were all out of school already.
(i do remember reading in his character story that haitham frequently skips classes since he finds independent study more efficient and effective for him, which is strangely frowned upon by the academe itself. i don’t know about kaveh since he’s always struck me as that student who will still show up to class even if he’s feeling under the weather just because he’s supposed to show up for classes.)
or it’s possible he just can’t believe the two of them aren’t arguing for once, that’s why he can’t help but comment. love it for the two of them (haitham and kaveh), honestly, and i mean it in the most platonic of ways (as to why i stopped shipping them romantically, i’ll save that story for another day 😌). i do feel like even if haitham and kaveh’s current relationship is a mixed bag (as kaveh said so), when duty calls for them to cooperate, they can hold their tongues and personal opinions until they accomplish what they’re supposed to do. it’s like those “the body remembers” kind of moment, if i’m making any sense.
anyway, it’s been a week since i finished the cyno story quest (because i have little self-control when kaveh is mentioned. i miss my best husband okay!!), and i found the entire quest heartwarming, though a little too fast for me? anyway, i’m so excited for sethos to join the boy band, too. i shall now call them my 5umeru bois.
(i also just recently finished the last of my requirements for my job clearance so i’ll catch up on keeping a record of my genshin, star rail, and animal crossing ✨gameplays✨)
last saturday, i took some time off my games and work to assemble a small flower made up of entirely building blocks (they're not really lego pieces so i won't call it lego). the tiny flowers and the flower pot kept falling off every time i add a piece, but after the initial frustration of having to restack the tiny parts each time they fall, i found myself too absorbed completing everything, and even added a few pieces to add more details. now i want to buy another one, and buy an acrylic casing to keep all of the tiny building block models safe from dusts and our cats at home.
ofc there's going to be a photoshoot of the final output with pocket kaveh (´。• ◡ •。`) ♡
the recent limited event in genshin reminds me a little bit of honkai's aetherium wars and man how i dislike aetherium wars with a passion (⊙︿⊙✿)
(still finishing aetherium wars over at honkai because i started late and i just want to work on my honkai backlogs (⊙︿⊙✿))
in my (f)unemployment season (so far), which is both by choice and not by choice because i chose to resign, but i also got rejected in all of the job applications i’ve applied for so far (so far, because we still be looking, and it’s only been two weeks since my last day at work) so unemployed not by choice, but by circumstance (?). anyway, this did allow me to catch up on some stuff (besides cleaning my room since i was 15 so that i can sleep soundly and not wake up with a bad case of allergies), and by stuff, i meant the regular rotation of the games i play:
here are updates no one asked for but i will update anyway!
rushed the month-long animal crossing new horizons’ museum event to celebrate the museum and galleries month. we also have our national cultural heritage month on may so that’s another reason to go back and visit my acnh museum since i wasn’t able to do so in real life ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु not even blaming work since part of my last responsibility as a resignee is to finsih and submit all the necessary paperworks and other requirements for clearance (or i won’t get the last of my salary, and the Lord knows i need those funds to sustain me while i go looking for work), but i digress. anyway, usually i do drop by galleries and museums when i can during may since most museums and galleries do have their entrance fees revoked the entire month as a way to encourage more people to drop by so i’ll just do that next year irl.
i’ve been playing acnh since the year it was released, and if there’s one place in my island that i still love going around when i’m done with the intended tasks for the day, it’s the kemeroot museum (my island’s name is kemeroot, btw). ofc i took screenshots on my switch. here’s my character as she crams the stamp rally on the last day.
i remember how i used to play this religiously on the year of its release, that i was able to amass around 2k hours of running around kemeroot, terraforming, planting, landscaping, renovating, and decorating but i’m still not yet done with the ✨final form✨ of kemeroot. i’ve yet to check the number of hours i have alloted for this game now that i’ve been playing it again frequently.
june and july are months of hydrangeas in acnh, too, so i intend to do a lot of photoshoots and redecorating in my island because i love hydrangeas irl and in games.
another favourite in-game activity for me is visiting the cafe inside the museum, too. it’s only in-character for my acnh character to enjoy coffee the same amount as i do.
i totally forgot about the 10-photo limit tumblr imposes on mobile so there’ll be another entry that centers on unsolicited updates about genshin and star rail. and here i am thinking i could type them all down in one entry 😭
i was in the middle of grinding for stellar jades so i can (finally) get argenti in the limited character banner when i didn’t expect to actually do and finish his companion quest, and all i can say is as much as argenti is indeed befitting of being a knight of beauty, he is so goofy i want him in my roster of characters and in my 2D husbands club.
i love beautiful and goofy characters a little too much hihihi.
this is my favourite argenti dialogue in the entire companion mission, btw. he’s such a mood.
march 7th’s a mood here, too.
oh, in spite of how i've been feeling and thinking recently, i am actually grateful for may.
last month, i made my resignation at wok official and this month will be my last month with them. my reasons include both personal and career-related ones, though the personal ones weigh so much more. it feels freeing, though quite emotional having to leave people i've made friends with at work, and my students, too. i don't think i'll ever be "good with goodbyes". ( • ᴖ • 。 )
i'm also grateful for getting the chance to watch one of my favourite japanese bands perform live at the start of the month! radwimps just left the country a few days ago, and i'm still on a high thinking about the concert, rewatching the short clips i managed to record while immersing myself to their songs, and playing their asia setlist on repeat in spotify. i remember writing it on my original bucket list that i wanted to see one of my favourite japanese bands in a concert so for it to actually happen feels awesome! \\\(۶•̀ᴗ•́)۶////
Daily Gratitude
May 2, 2024
Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)
I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.
All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.
Prompt (if you want): In what way are you grateful for May?
today i found myself feeling unusually productive in carrying out my task avoidance list: i decided to update my CV, create a skeleton for a website where i’ll post my art (original and fan art), muse about my online accounts and presence, and so this main blog just went through a mini-overhaul. sana ganito rin ako sa work, but i’m not gonna talk about that atm. even my overthinking at work has reached burnout levels, i don’t know how to recover swiftly from it.
and because i’m working on a website for my works now, i’ve decided to use my main blog for more personal posts! mostly when i have no time and energy to get my journal and when typing feels more convenient than writing. this’ll be an archive of sorts.
anyway, i know i’m not really obliged to explain the reasons for my doing things, but i’m just wired to do so, i guess?
i try to be grateful for many things, but the most grateful i’ll always be is for my hands. as an artist, my hands are definitely something i can’t (and don’t want to) live without. my mind conjures, and my hand creates. it is with my hands that i’m able to keep dabbling and rekindling my love for art making.
(kind of a shameless plug about some of the things i’ve done, but who else should celebrate my works but myself, right? right! ♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎)
another H that i am grateful for is my friend, whom i’ve kept in touch with regularly since i left one of my previous workplaces. not a lot of my friends have witnessed my most depressive state (and honestly, i wouldn’t be comfortable with most of my friends seeing me in that state since i know not all of them can fully grasp or even have the headspace to try to see things from my side just because of differences in our stages of life), but this friend has seen it, and still chose to remain a friend up until now that i’m beginning to heal from my previous season. i’ll always be grateful for her presence, support, and friendship, and i’m glad our paths ever crossed.
whenever our schedules aligned and we have time to meet up, we catch up over food, drinks, and art.
Daily Gratitude
September 25, 2024
Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)
I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.
All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.
Prompt (if you want): Show gratitude for something that starts with the letter H.
not me delaying the rest of the trailblaze mission because the ✨death flags✨ are so real ( * ಥ ⌂ ಥ * )
2022 wrap up collage | 2023
normally i draw my wrap up journal entries, but during this time, i was still recovering from covid (i never want to get sick of it again), and had little energy to spare to make my usual year end illustration. during this time, too, i was in my trying to dabble in collage era, so i figured to do one for a change, and to keep up with the wrap up tradition as well.
the spread is from an old A5-sized notebook, and the papers and some of the stickers i used were mostly second-hand craft materials gifted to me by one of my friends at work. i tried my best to utilize the quote stickers to capture the recurring thoughts and feelings i've had the past year. it's quite a challenge considering most of them didn't really make sense, but that also worked for me as it embodied the chaos i found myself in (intentionally and unintentionally 🙃)
i’m not yet done with the entire trailblaze mission of the recent update but m a n
AVENTURINE ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु
fought him in battle the first time and lost but i am still too emotional to build my characters and to try again ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु aventurine my beloved ƈ ͡ (ुŏ̥̥̥̥ ‸ ŏ̥̥̥̥) ु