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Help My Friend Survive In A Refugee Camp

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Help LGBTQ Refugee Survive Camp, organized by Nerves Nebula

Hi I'm Judas (internet name NervesNebula) and I'm an American fundraising for my friend … Nerves Nebula needs your support for Help LGBTQ Re

My friend Abdul is an African LGBTQ+ refugee who needs more help than I can give him to survive at his camp.

$6,000 seems like a lot, and it is, but he would really be grateful for anything. If you have $1 to spare he would absolutely appreciate that. this is not a circumstance where not reaching the goal means it was pointless. I don't get paid much because I'm a full time student but he always appreciates and needs what I can give him.

He needs everything you can spare.

If you can't use GoFundMe for any reason I also take donations through these other money transfer services.

Ko-fi: Nervesnebula, Cashapp: nervesN, and Venmo: @nervesnebbin

I'll try to update this post with how much I've raised through these apps at the end of every day. I'll also try to post updates I get from him tagged as #Abdulfund on this blog, if he has anything he wants to say. Thank you.

$492

raised via ko-fi, venmo, and cashapp

Ao3 campaign filling up in a blink of an eye is a joke

T Journey Journal #7

Days Since Start: 61

Damn I’m getting bad at updates with these, honestly to my own detractors more than anything, like one other person reads these and it’s my favorite toxic yaoi ex (luv u 4realsies u know who u are) but I digress-

The body hair is body hairing!!! Like it’s starting to be visible enough for other people to see it and I don’t have to be 3cm from the mirror to see it:)) Right now my happy trail is what’s most visible but my mustache is a close second:)) Haven’t seen any evidence of a beard but one thing at a time:)) I’ve also had my voice drop once and that’s super super exciting:DD It happened like a few weeks ago so I’ve had time to adjust and all that jazz:)) Don’t know if I’ve had any like jaw changes or anything bc 1. My jaw is already Super Chissled and 2. I’m on gel so all the traits are gonna show up super slowly. Either way I’m happy with where this is going and I can’t wait to see what else happens:))

And I have a much much better general life update this time, I’m getting an apartment:DD With a partner of mine nonetheless:DD Our move in date is the 29th of this month, which is also trans day of visibility funnily enough (they’re non-binary:))) so hopefully next time I’m blogging it won’t be about my mom making me feel worthless or anything like that, it’ll be stupid gay stories and such:D

Also funny little tidbit, I have some friends in their 30s and such who found out I had a tumblr acc and that the site was still active and their reactions have ranged from “that’s still a thing??” To “why are you at the devil’s sacrament??” And it’s honestly kinda funny:)) But yeah seanie-boy out I’m like on the clock for my job and gotta do stuff ab it((:

Everyone told me testosterone would make me angrier. My family has a habit of attributing any anger I feel these days to the testosterone. I didn't feel any angrier, but my mother would still tell me that no, I am angrier now, and testosterone did make me angrier and *she* could tell.

A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.

I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.

And then I thought.

Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.

And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.

And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.

All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.

I feel like I should be angrier about this than I am. I know how angry I used to get. About everything. I just felt it again for the first time in a while. For once, it would feel justified to be that angry. But I'm not. I'm not mad. I'm just... disappointed, I guess.

After more than a month of disconnection, we are finally back...

-These photos are from today, 11/3/2025.-

Today, I am sharing a glimpse of our new life, where we have started again beside our home that was destroyed by war. Despite the pain and loss, we have not lost hope, and our determination to build a better future for our children remains unshaken.

This Tumblr house we now live in is not just walls—it is a testament to our resilience and to the love and support of everyone who has stood by us. You have always been a community full of kindness and generosity, and today, I share these moments so you can see how the light continues to shine in our hearts despite everything.

-This clip was made yesterday by my daughter Lian to make something for Amir to sleep in and the experiment was successful. This is Amir sleeping.-

But life here is still very difficult. We are still trying to stay strong, and we have built a simple shelter to live in—I will attach photos. We are waiting for the border to open so we can travel, hoping for the day when I can see my children wearing school uniforms, going to learn, playing in safe, undamaged places, eating clean food, and drinking safe water.

For now, we are just trying to survive with what little we have, as the border remains closed to everyone except those with severe medical conditions and critical war injuries.

We need your support once again. I will try to stay connected online and keep sharing photos and videos of our new life. Thank you to everyone standing with us—you are our hope in these difficult times.

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something i've noticed. people seem to think the most nature-y nature is forests. so forests are always prioritized for conservation, and planting trees is synonymous with ecological activism. my state was largely prairies and wetlands before colonization. those ecosystems are important too. trees aren't the end-all be-all of environmentalism. plant native grasses. protect your wetlands.

ICE raids happening in Chicago on Tuesday January 21st. Get organized and get prepared.

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from @.mprnews on Instagram.

Not sure how many of y'all saw this, but the combined misogyny-ableism-transphobia was off the charts. I am glad that he did get his top surgery, has support, and that its pursuing it's goals to advocate for other disabled + trans people.

So apparently last year the National Park Service in the US dropped an over 1200 page study of LGBTQ American History as part of their Who We Are program which includes studies on African-American history, Latino history, and Indigenous history. 

Like. This is awesome. But also it feels very surreal that maybe one of the most comprehensive examinations of LGBTQ history in America (it covers sports! art! race! historical sites! health! cities!) was just casually done by the parks service.