Seashantyslxt - Waves Of Panic

There's something just like this in San Francisco too! It's called the wave organ here.

The Sea Organ is an experimental musical instrument that is located in Zadar, Croatia. Beneath the white marble steps, a series of tubes create a system that could be described as a large piano. When the waves or the wind flow through the holes, they interact with the organ to create random harmonic sounds. (Source)

You can listen to the sounds that the Sea Organ produces here.

sorry that i ended two consecutive messages with "lmao." i don't know why i did that. it looks really dumb doesn't it. i'll edit one to get rid of it. you can end my stupid pathetic life if you want

Update: I called again and got a referral for a therapist :)

Anxiety is soooo cool, I called my providers mental health line to finally get some help and as soon as an actual person started to pick up I panicked and hung up.

when i was a teenager it felt very revolutionary to be cruel to myself. like some kind of slow passive protest against how much everything hurt. i starved myself of sleep and food and tenderness because it felt right. it felt sharp and angry and radical and i wanted to be those things. adulthood is the realisation that the world is already working to cut into you well before you learn how to do it yourself. caring for yourself and others is the real protest

Love it when my brain makes me feel like i dont fit/ belong anywhere.

Waking up horny is the worst when you have nobody to wake up with. Guess I'll just lay here and pout about it.