Ticci Toby trying to understand a s/o with Chronic Pain
no hate to you but im still not quite comfortable with writing romantic for toby!/nm wooo first creepypasta request of this batch lets go we're returning to this blogs roots yipee! this post may be a little blugh since i only just started allowing myself to write for toby and im still trying to get a hold on how i want to write his personality
one of the first ideas that came to my head when i first read this when it was sent in a few hours ago is that theres some level of disconnect... for lack of a better word. i mean toby himself doesnt feel pain, and he has mixed feelngs about it. on one hand he knows it makes him different and that often makes him feel like an outsider. on the other hand, he uses it as an advantage to power through things. the topic is complicated with him, and when it comes to you he doesnt fully understand why you're so careful with yourself; its not as if youre made out of glass
lack of being able to relate, you know?
not to say that he completely invalidates your pains. no, i think the opposite would be true. he cares about you a lot and hes going to hold onto you, and not let go. he is clingy and he is going to be obnoxious about it
i think he makes little notes to remember what helps with you (the admin totally isnt self projecting and giving toby horrible memory, definitely not), as well as leaves little notes for you to find throughout the day. cute ones, encouraging ones.. a little clunky and awkward but hey its the thought that counts!
^usually does the little notes for you on days where hes not going to be available for whatever reason, be it he needs to be put to work or what. honestly i dont think its uncommon for him to go MIA for a few days at a time given the nature of his work as a proxy
totally doesnt shoplift things that you like/will ease your pain. meds, snacks, stuff like that. that he paid for, obviously! nooo its not weird that hes asking to hide out at your house for a few hours he didnt do nothing!
offers to do your chores and stuff (with varying success) so you can lay down and rest. tends to only really offer them on your worse days, again in part to him not fully being able to grasp the level of pain youre in every day. hes trying his best!
gets you movies and games.. sometimes books, heating pads/blankets, things like that as well
less of a comfort guy and more of a distraction guy, definitely not a solutions guy; asides from getting (stealing) things for you, thats about where a lot of his comfort/solutions end, hes more so better prepared to keep your mind off of the pain with conversation and jokes and the aforementioned movies/books/games
definitely helps him to understand if you explain whats going on with you, be it simply saying whats hurting and why or even explaining your diagnosis, gives him something more solid to digest and work off of instead of just basic labels
pride pfps for toby!
Ben Drowned
Ticci Toby headcannons
Kinda just what I see him as :)
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Does not like cars-kinda bc the accident
He grew up in Germany for the first 15 years then his dad got a new job and they moved to the states
He has a scar on the cheek but it’s only still there bc he gnaws at his cheek when stressed(he has bandages on his fingers to keep him from graying thru those)
Sense he can’t feel direct pain but only feels a tingling sensation in the area,his pleasure can be sky rocked,witch means he might have a small porn addiction,just for the pleasure
He does it bc he wants to feel something even if it’s disgusting pleasure
Sometimes he sings a German lullaby his mom taught him
Loves bunnies (all animals but he has smt for bunnies)
He does have a sweet and silly side like the fanon version but it’s very rare unless your his close trusted comerad
He carries two hatches on his waistband normally but if he has to he has a axe in his room
I headcannon that he does not like to use that one Beacuse that’s the one he used to kill his mother
He’s a pyromaniac yet has a lil bit of trauma to fire
Sleeps on a cheap silk pillow just so his scar doesn’t infected (more than it is)
Does not know about mh -only that hoodie and masky knew each other beforehand
Attachment issues 100%
Hates his mask bc it rubs the skin off his scar and makes it ich
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”Ich liebe Dich” my loves!
Tell me if yall want more!
they need to film more vaguely threatening nature documentaries :))))
this came to me in a vision,, im sorry to my friends and family, im gonna look back at this and regret it but oh well
hitblade/oli by @pink-key :3c i think ur boy walked into the wrong room
i kinda wished i made a y/n version
Side profile practice of toby
(I love the hair, probably my favorite part of the whole thing)
WOOO FINALLY finished Lyra stuff💥💥💥 she has this "early 2010s cool older sister" pack
and
do you think their menstrual cycles are synced up