I stepped away from tumblr for a while to really seek my Self fully and put into practice what I knew because I was tired of constantly re-identifying with the body. You can’t experience it a few times and ruminate over it 10x more than you experience. It’s only simple when you experience, NOT when you think about it. You have to experience it as many times as you need until it becomes your permanent identification instead of getting swayed by the body/mind again. So anyway I started doing guided meditations to release emotions first. Now I don’t really feel the need to do a guided meditation I can just acknowledge and release an emotion as soon as it comes up. Now I am more so focused on abiding in Self, consistently returning home, because when you return to your Self all the emotions and thoughts leave, even if just for a split second. Now when I start getting invested in storylines I’ll automatically snap out of the hypnosis and it’ll go quiet lol. And even when my mind doesn’t automatically go silent, I can just consciously observe it being noisy. It’s funny when you step back and observe, you realize the mind is like a tape recorder, just looping the same thoughts again and again, usually about the past or the future. When you realize the thoughts are just an observation and you are the observer, it really sounds ridiculous, like a broken record. Remember the end goal is complete surrender and death of personal identity.
https://www.tumblr.com/seraphic555/748492710225346560/no-reason-to-stop-living-life
but what if things i wanna do are not possible in current physical illusion? for eg, i want to have an established business without the hassle of starting it etc.. that puts me in this weird cycle of wanting this “change” in illusion but
wanting means not having, and since we are THAT, everything already is
so im back to trying to know mySelf but then there is no trying and no seeking.. its all a very weird cycle..
please help
Seeking your Self is valid, because if you didn’t seek in the first place you wouldn’t even be here and you would just be like everyone else.
“And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”
- Matthew 7:7 KJV
Seeking is necessary until you find yourself. And Permanent identification with God is necessary to do the works of God, and you can do this by returning again and again until it becomes more “natural” than your human identification. You can’t be the same limited human as always and suddenly have the power to change things.
Y’all just because you discovered ND doesn’t mean you have to stop “living your life” and do nothing. Go follow your dreams, you can have a career or go to college or be a scuba diver idc, you don’t have to spend all day trying to figure your Self out (a mistake I made) because you’re always your Self regardless of what you do or don’t do. Don’t be afraid to take risks and do whatever you’ve always wanted to do. We’re here for a reason (at least I believe that), let’s live a little 🤪
I think it’s easy to get into the doomer/nihilist mindset when you take anything too seriously lol
“Getting”Desires 🪐
Guys when you think about something and desire it you are creating 2 characters, one who is desiring and one who has something. The truth is one does not have to change to become the other even tho you make it seem like Character #1 wants to become Character #2 it’s just part of the play. You are always Character #2 because both the characters are in your mind. Don’t fall into the trap of becoming/getting. Only identify with Character #2 right now in your mind (the source of all creation) do not try to become them bc you are still being Character #1 by doing that.
Uk I can hear a voice in the head, idk who is it so I keep going back and forth 😭 that's why I can seem to lose the sense of I...
How is the voice you if you are the one watching it? Are you the songs that play in your head too?
Hey!
I'm really sorry deep into this that I got lost...
Sometimes I understand everything but then next moment I gave into those doubts 🙂...
But then next moment I read that I'm not even giving in, it's all appearance
So I'm letting these empty appearances doubt myself and always be dependent on others 😭
I don't want to
Don’t take this too seriously or look into it too much all you need to know is that you are Brahman and all “things” are illusions. Doubts, too. Take a break if you need to
"You've been somebody long enough. You spent the first half of your life becoming somebody. Now you can work on becoming nobody, which is really somebody. For when you become nobody there is no tension, no pretense, no one trying to be anyone or anything. The natural state of the mind shines through unobstructed - and the natural state of the mind is pure love."
-Ram Dass
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