My Son Who I Hate

It's a him!!

WELL??? THE FIRST POST HERE EVER?????????

i've just started listening tma and i'm desperate to make friends who are in the fandom :]

i really like michael (the distortion one tehee) and and and doorkeay seems really cool too??? jon is also one of my favourites!!!👉👈

i'm mostly used to twitter tbh, everything's new and scary lmao,,,, SO UHH LET'S BE MUTUALS!! i'm planning on posting my art and headcanons!!!

here's a michael (not rendered properly) as my offering :]

hamlet x ophelia mixed messages amv

Still think this is the funniest Hannibal post I’ve ever seen

GIRL you are KILLING IT! GIRL i don’t think it’s MOVING ANYMORE. GIRL you can STOP BITING

spent a lot of time on tumblr as a teenage boy and due to my interests/ general culture of the site back 8 or so years ago, I would see a lot of radfem stuff and kinda just took it all on board uncritically ? I feel like it might’ve destroyed my self image + ability to socialise because I have this feeling like I am inherently evil no matter what. whenever I talk to women I can’t get out of my head that they are afraid of me/ think I am predatory. every interaction I am hyper focusing on my behaviour to make sure I am coming across as non-threatening. to the point where this is all I am concentrating on in any given interaction. this is just in normal social contexts btw, idek how to navigate a close friendship or anything romantic/sexual.

idk how to explain it apart from I feel like I’m evil and I need to ‘protect’ everybody from myself. so I try so hard to be easygoing and stay out of others’ way. and if somehow a person is interested in me, I think ‘this is what evil people do. they trick others into liking them’ and I will back away from the person as a way to ‘save them’.

I honestly wish I was a cis woman sometimes because I know that I would never have to worry about coming across as predatory/threatening.

it stresses me out so bad and there is no one irl I can talk to about this cos I don’t know how to properly explain it without sounding insane.

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TW for blood and presumably self harm. Uncensored pic under cut.

This takes too long to finish but here’s my take on Grace Chasity in a Moral Orel AU, as a big fan of the show. Go watch Moral Orel guys, it’s on YT!

Would I be an avatar of the Stranger, Archivist?

But I don't know anything about you! ...Oh