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Maksim Trzin

These cats need protection

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Just a little off the top

🍎 🍉 🍑 🍏 🫑 🍆 all of these... blab to me about mr. nick from 2009 hit game left 4 dead 2.... 🥰❤️

THANK YOU LOVELYYYY I love having moots with the same excellent tastes <3 These have been wonderful character explorations to me so I went uhhh sicko mode lol. Griddle rambles about their pookie time let's fuckin GOOOOOO

🍎 - what's your f/o's favorite drink? any drink, alcoholic or non alcoholic!

🥞- A lavender old fashioned made with a high quality whiskey, and for non-alcoholic it'd be turkish coffee :3 He'd be a big liquor AND coffee snob uwu he's definitely got a dry bar at home and mixes drinks nightly for himself. Pics included for funsies!

🍉 - is your f/o religious? what's their opinion on religion or spirituality?

🥞-Nope, he's an atheist! It's one of the few opinions of his that he's not loud about. He's always been quiet about it to stay out of trouble. It's just one more thing for people to judge you about in his eyes. He sees most religion as a way for people in power to manipulate others, or a means for people to feel better about being shitty since they can just ask for forgiveness later. Was probably raised Catholic or some other traumatizing sect of Christianity, my friend suggested he be raised Mormon for my personal fic and honestly....it's tempting to HC because that would be SO so much to unpack lmao. The thought of him making a joke about soaking kills me dead.

🍑 - is your f/o more comfortable giving or receiving gifts? why? do they have any preferences on gifts they like receiving?

🥞-OH he would be SO uncomfortable with both....I think he'd be better at receiving them because when you give a gift there's that chance that the other person doesn't like it so in a way it can be a bit vulnerable for the giver. Especially for someone like him who never really gave gifts like ever...except to his parents who were probably ungrateful a lot of the time.... He'd still feel pretty uncomfortable getting gifts too because he'd always have that feeling of owing the other person something in return. An instinct he developed because of his parents but also his career...he's had several experiences where gifts were just a means to manipulate the receiving party into doing something for the gifter later. The closest thing to "gifts" he'd have gotten in recent years pre-outbreak would have been strangers buying him drinks or offering him drugs...I think in Dead Center when he shares first aid with the others he's got that in mind, like "I'll get you now so you HAVE to get me later" before he realizes that no, the other's aren't thinking like that at all. Despite being uncomfortable receiving gift's he's always super grateful and eventually learns how to accept them without looking stressed about it. He leans more minimalist so he'd be extra grateful for practical (weapon attachments, a nice quality melee weapon, protective gear) or consumable gifts (cologne, liquor, cigars), fancy dinners, experiences (wine tasting, perfume class, aquarium date), or trips (Beaches, Hot Springs, Scenic Drives) some of those are pre-outbreak ideas and some are post-outbreak but you get the idea. BUT he's just grateful to be thought of regardless of the gift. He definitely gets emotional when it's something he really loves but he never shows that.

🍏 - if you have any queer headcanons for your f/o, how did they realize they were queer?

🥞- YESSSSS several...easily lol. He's just a big bisexual bear to me... doesn't have any real reason for being Bi over Pan, it's just the word he grew up with. I think in high school he would have crushed on guys and gals, and he'd have some shame to work through due to his upbringing but I think after getting out of his parents house he'd work through it pretty fast when he realized he didn't actually give a fuck lol. He doesn't care how someone IDs, he's attracted to all kinds of people and doesn't really have a "type". BUT I also think he's demiromantic...it's part of why he's got divorced. He broke a lot of hearts before he realized he had a weird relationship with romance. I think he'd have to be with someone for awhile before he felt actual romantic love for them, but he'd still be loving before then. He doesn't have much experience being with anyone very long term so he get's uncomfortable when he gets to the 1 year point in a relationship. He probably divorced his ex wife after 2 years for pushing him for kids, which made him realize he didn't really love her like that. That man does NOT want kids lol. He prefers not to use labels and just let things be whatever they are, especially post-outbreak. He's also non-monogamous/polyamorous. I think the L4D2 gang ends up as a sorta unspoken polycule eventually, I imagine that's a common arrangement in zombie settings. That's not to say everyone is romantically and/or sexually involved with one another, but they're just closer than good friends because of the situation...so social norms are thrown to the wind. I also just want an excuse to imagine bein in that cuddle pile tbhhhhh <3

:bell_pepper: - how does your f/o feel about death? are they afraid of it? is there anything specific they'd like to do before they die?

🥞-Before the green flu he wouldn't have cared one way or another. He cried when his mom died but since then he'd never thought twice about dying. But now? He'll never tell a soul but. He's terrified, not of Death but who he'd be leaving behind....even moreso, he's scared of death taking one of the others before HE goes. He just wants to get to the PNW coast with the others, establish a stronghold and enjoy what little joys you can squeeze out of a zombie apocalypse before his time is up....

🍆 - does your f/o have a favorite scent? why is it their favorite? do they have a least favorite scent?

(had WAY too much to say about smells so had to include a page break lmao)

🥞- YESSSSS I HAD A WHOLE WRITE UP ABOUT THIS ALREADY LMAOO SOOOO imma just copy it here and add onto it. It's probably my personal interest that I project the HARDEST onto him but...it's so fitting. I can't help myself :3

I’ve been SO obsessed with fragrance lately so I got ALOT of thoughts about his schmells...I'll wanna eventually make a post about the others too but I mean the guy complains about smells multiple times in game, I HAVE to think about it! He's super sensitive to icky smells of course, he's probably biting his tongue to not make MORE comments about it in game. Least favorite smell...sewers...yea....BUT outside of like, obviously gross smells I think he'd hate artificial coffee scent, like how it smells in a candle. Also "grandma" perfumes. He would have real strong opinions on designer fragrances, absolutely hates the weird ones with like...blood or dirt notes...if he was an internet guy he'd be writing the most SCATHING reviews on the fragrance forums lol He worked at a cologne stand from ages 16-23 and at some point his mob stuff ties in with it (smuggling stuff disguised as cologne probs) and when he starts doing well enough with that he quits. He occasionally goes back to pick up a new scent and see the older women he worked with cause they doted on him so hard (and still do <3). SO alla that to say...he's obsessed with fragrances, like this man will leave this house without his keys but will NOT forget to put on some cologne. Carries travel sized ones on him at all times too, just incase. Smell can contribute to image just as much as looks do! He's not the kinda guy to own lots of stuff but he does have a pretty big collection of scents, he's got em on a stand and everything! He rotates out scents by seasons but has a few favorites that stay in rotation. He wears woody smells in the fall, spicy & boozy smells in the winter, florals in the spring and aquatic smells in the summer. He even has specific picks for being around work guys vs running cons. THIS is his signature scent though. It's his favorite because it smells like the kind of life he wants live, reminiscent of a luxurious casino or a late night in a smoke lounge. It was the first nicer cologne he bought for himself while working in HS, it took him awhile to save up for a full bottle.

I smelled this, bought the sample then found the description online and? It’s so spot on??? the line about the suit...it's literally him!

"Welcome to your new obsession, where opulence meets shadow, satin is black, and midnights are foggy. Elegant, mysterious, and complex, Jet Black Enigma is blended to perfection. Rich with Ginger and Cardamom. Wrapped in Saffron and Vetiver Root. Crowned by Cyprol, Cashmeran, and a delicate, rare Oud that wears on your skin like a well-tailored suit. Embrace the magnetic lure of Enigma to luxury, decadence, and your darkest desires."

Ways I Show a Character is Emotionally Burned Out (Before They Even Realize It Themselves)

I love writing characters who think they’re fine but are actually walking emotional house fires with bad coping mechanisms.

They stop doing the things they used to love and don’t even notice. Their guitar gathers dust. Their favorite podcast becomes background noise. Their hobbies feel like homework now.

They pick the path of least resistance every time, even when it hurts them. No, they don’t want to go to that thing. No, they don’t want to talk to that person. But whatever’s easier. That’s the motto now.

They’re tired but can’t sleep. Or they sleep but wake up more tired. Classic burnout move: lying in bed with their brain racing like a toddler on espresso.

They give other people emotional advice they refuse to take themselves. “You have to set boundaries!” they say—while ignoring 8 texts from someone they should’ve cut off three emotional breakdowns ago.

They cry at something stupidly small. Like spilling soup. Or a dog in a commercial. Or losing their pen. The soup is never just soup.

They say “I’m just tired” like it’s a personality trait now. And not like… emotionally drained to the bone but afraid to admit it out loud.

They ghost people they love, not out of malice, but because even replying feels like too much. Social battery? Absolutely obliterated. Texting back feels like filing taxes.

They stop reacting to big things. Catastrophes get a blank stare. Disasters feel like “just another Tuesday.” The well of feeling is running dry.

They avoid being alone with their own thoughts. Constant noise. TV always on. Music blasting. Because silence = reckoning, and reckoning is terrifying.

They start hoping something will force them to stop. An accident. A missed deadline. Someone else finally telling them, “You need a break.” Because asking for help? Unthinkable.

Богдан Шемакин - Bogdan Shemakin 🇰🇿

Is nick dreaming about being an emo girl or just thinking about any emo girl 🤔

ermmm u should totally draw annick

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I’m playing Dead Rising 2 rn and its all I can think about