This Is Hot!

Absolutely not

Adrenaline at its peak...

But can he beat Frank West in terms of Bearness because Frank is huge well wide.

”he would not fucking say that” but it’s he would not fucking be skinny

I saw ur tags on my post and consider….Autistic Nick…like high functioning, smells and gross stuff being sensory issues, having stims like smokin and fidgeting with his gun and/or rings, his shirt being silk cause texture issues etc etc. but curious about ur takes about the gangs neurodivergence! :3c I think Ellis being ADHD is canon for sure lol

WOOOO I GET TO YAP ABOUT MY FAVS HUZZAH:

nick:

definitely picky sensory-wise, but decent and high functioning socially. maybe a bit too blunt but it comes off as he's just a bitch instead of he's just autistic (those two ideas coexist btw. he's a autistic bitch)

arguably the world's number one hand sanitizer fan. but still particular about the kinds he'd use even in an apocalypse, just because there are some that don't dry right on his hands, don't smell good when opened, etc etc

EXTREMELY particular about his clothes. no wonder he complains about that 3000 dollar suit whenever he gets shit on it, it's the 'safe' one

(also only one considering the situation but shhhhh)

(i'm sure pre-apocalypse he had like 5 different pairs of the same suit)

fidget king. turning his rings on his fingers (definitely comfort items even if he doesnt admit it), unloading and reloading his guns, unbuttoning and rebuttoning his jacket. there's so much he would fuck with

he can make rings and shit when he smokes it's impressive

(i had a lot to say abt nick oopsie)

ellis:

my glorious adhd king

"I don't know what hd is but my doctor said I had 80 of them bitches"

he thinks too fast for his mind and body to keep up with so he'll just say shit (that's not even a headcanon he just does that)

IF we are entertaining the autistic ellis headcanon as well (we are) his special interest is cars. both mechanical stuff and stock car racing (nascar and the like)

((i may or may not have an f1 nellis au in my brain because l4d2 and f1 are my fav things rn... idc if a nascar au makes more sense f1 is more epic))

collects the mini hotwheels stock cars. just hotwheels in general. look at him he would

can and will list of everything he knows about any given subject he likes, but he'd get distracted making a reference nobody understands and then explaining it with another reference nobody understands

im projecting idc

struggles socially just because he lacks the ability to understand subtle social cues. you have to say it directly to his face and Then he'll get it

nothing is a sensory struggle. he fucks w literally everything even the weird shit. maybe the textures and smells of certain foods (probably fish)

rochelle:

honest to God i don't think she realizes that her dear survival team are all neurodivergent (but I doubt they even realize it themselves)

token neurotypical it's a hard job but someone has to do it

accidentally mimics the actions of the people around her (intentionally just to give them shit for it, but it becomes habit overtime). nick will fidget with his rings, she'll mess with her bracelets. ellis will stand with a wide cowboy stance, she'll copy.

would also be the type to respond for someone else just because she knows what they'll say, but in a very bad imitation of their voice

just rochelle imitating ellis' fuckass accent. (literally everyone imitating ellis' fuckass accent. nick does it in game bro)

nice enough to pick up on the tiny things of everyone else and offers little trades for preferred weapons and such

coach:

oh coach... how I love you...............

adhd

a similar vein to ellis where he just has a lot going on in his brain at all times, but since he's grown (possibly medicated) he has a better grasp on it

definitely talks to himself under his breath tho, it helps him lock in

struggles with volume level definitely not based on me and my friends playing with the loud coach friendly fire mod but he tries his best and will shut the fuck up when asked

coach telling dad jokes.... not even a related headcanon its just on my mind

really elaborate ones but he loses it midway thru and remembers like 4 hours later (but forgets the intro to the joke)

(now it's related)

would attempt to help ellis manage his adhd better but that guy does not listen (or care to listen)

this was an accidentally very long post (oopsie). send more asks l4d2 fandom i could yap for DAYS

I love to see all the posts and asks about your training and maximums and stuff, and I’d love to know how you spend time with such a powerful heart like that when it’s just chillin out. What do you appreciate most about its feel/sound or what’s something u like to do when it’s beating at its slowest?

I've actually really begun appreciating and enjoying how my heart functions at rest the past year or two, I've been such an intense "heart maximalist" chasing high rates and intense arrhythmia that I didn't really get into it until my heart started slowing down and enlarging. (That and my heart literally cannot go as fast as it used to. I would kill to go over 200 again.)

My heart is big. My heart is especially big for my body. It's rubbing against both lungs, my ribs, my spine, my pushing my diaphragm enough to move my liver, my right ventricle even protudes into my sternal notch so that my stomach pulse is actually not just my abdominal aorta but actually partly my beating heart.

Because of that I don't just feel my heart beating at all times, I feel it in detail. I can feel the shape of my left ventricle inside me, I can feel the right against the back of my sternum, I can feel my atria higher up in my chest. Partly from the size and partly from my heart obsession. Possibly also the "mind muscle connection" a lot of bodybuilders use, which is just a practice of hyper awareness of movement inside the body.

It feels *amazing*. I'm honestly so glad I'm a cardiophile because I think it would drive a normal person insane. I have to actively tune it out sometimes.

I really love my heart rhythm at rest. You get used to it, but feeling your heart just sort of hanging loose and full inside of your chest, waiting almost 2 full seconds between beats, actually feels really good when it's in a healthy context. It's like the thrill i get seeing myself pass a mirror and seeing how muscular I've gotten, just kind of a 'wow' moment. I feel very accomplished.

My heart has also gotten fairly irregular at rest. I had it checked for this and it's definitely benign, so I just enjoy it. It's because my heart is so slow my heart's backup pacemaker (AV node) will start competing with the primary (SA node). I get a ton of random, lurching, intense but brief flutters. I just love being able to feel one of my heart chambers overfilling or spasming. It makes it feel huge and powerful.

Often at rest I just like to sit around and feel it beating inside me, occasionally palpating all the spots on my chest where it nearly sticks out of me.

On audio, I love how you can hear how long it takes my heart to fill. A noticeably long time between valve closures as my heart lets itself hang open. It's really cool to compare to other people's resting hearts, you can hear how my pump is taking big lazy gulps where others sound very snappy. I also love comparing it to my heart working hard, you can really hear it working harder at increasing exercise load as my heart continues to increase its stroke volume along with the rate. Then the rapid deceleration as well. It's wild to me to think of people exercising and their hearts are still taxed and fast for almost an hour later. I max my heart out and it's down to 60 in 3 minutes, back to the 30s within 5.

Sheesh i love talking about my heart lol

rochelle thats been on my drafts for a while...

louis fanart

i love louis, he's one of my comfort characs