in which your bf is even more awk then you..
authors note: f!reader so scared 2 post this.. i feel like its so ugh also not proofread! 2.2k words! m.list <3
You and Yuji were always so awkward around each other, to the point that it led to completely red faces and twitching fingers.
Sure, he was a lot more outspoken with strangers and friends, while you were always on the quieter side. And when you did get comfortable with someone, you tended to talk too much.
You envied Yuji a bit. He always knew exactly what to say, and even when he didn’t, he had the charm to make it work anyway. But it was more than that—he had this boyish charm that sent you reeling, making you kick your feet in your dorm room late at night, squealing into your pillow while playing Beabadoobee on repeat, thinking of him.
You still remember the first time you saw him—pink hair, wide brown eyes, and the cutest smile ever. You were smitten from the beginning. Too shy to talk to him, though. Then, during a mission, you had been paired up with him and Nanami. He kept trying to talk to you, making funny remarks or simply attempting conversation. At one point, he had stared at you, scrunching his face in pure confusion, as if analyzing some small detail. Then he pointed to the corner of your eye, where your glitter eyeshadow shimmered, and said, "That's really pretty." All while rubbing the back of his head with a sheepish smile.
He was the only person who ever really talked to you—aside from the forced interactions Gojo pushed onto others. You figured there had to be something wrong with you. You were too odd, always saying the wrong thing, laughing at the wrong time, tripping over your own two feet. No matter what, you never seemed to fit in or draw anyone’s attention.
That was until you met Yuji.
Even after that compliment—after the pale pink dusting your cheeks at this super cute, jacked boy noticing you—it still didn’t feel real. This only happened in shoujo anime, right? Yet, despite your awkwardness, despite the way you choked on a simple thank you like you were forcing down thick cherry cough syrup, Yuji just laughed it off. A deep chuckle that reverberated through his body and yours—light, airy, utterly intoxicating. You wanted to hear that laugh for the rest of your life.
He had rambled about makeup, specifically special effects makeup, explaining how he was a huge movie lover. Then he got super engrossed in talking about the behind-the-scenes aspects of some of his favorite films—Human Earthworm, which, he eagerly added, was a trilogy.
You barely said a word, too shy to contribute much. But he didn’t seem to mind. It was like all he wanted was someone to listen.
A few days after that mission, you had been speed-walking out of class after an awful day. Some girl from a higher-up class had made crude remarks about your appearance, and you swallowed them down like bile, trying to ignore them. But you had barely managed to hold it together because, later that morning, you had to present in front of everyone. Your hands were clammy, your words tumbling out like a mess of jumbled up alphabet soup, and the tiny class of sorcerers had laughed at your mishaps.
Then, not even twenty minutes later, some guy knocked into you, spilling your matcha all over your clean uniform. And, oh yeah—did I mention you had spent your last seven dollars on that matcha?
You grabbed your leather tote bag—buckles adorned with a Nana keychain, your purple jellyfish Sonny Angel peeking out for good luck—and rushed out of the classroom doors, heading across the open field back to the dorms.
Then, a strong hand and a voice too sweet to ignore stopped you in your tracks.
"Hey! Hey! You, uh, dropped thi—actually, I’m not sure what this is... A naked baby, it looks like? But it fell out of your bag."
Your entire body froze. Your heart pounded in your chest. You knew that voice.
Yuji Itadori. The sweetest, kindest boy ever. The boy you had a massive crush on. The boy who absolutely could not see you in the state you were in.
Panicking, you turned around, clutching your purse up to your face, burying yourself behind it in a weak attempt to hide your tear-streaked, mascara-smudged disaster of a face.
Yuji blinked, looking around the empty courtyard, then up at the clear blue sky, as if trying to understand what you were even hiding from.
"Hey, uh—"
"Ilooksgrossrightnowthatswhyimhidingmyface," you blurted out in one breath, voice muffled behind your bag.
Yuji just laughed—a full, lighthearted fit of laughter. "It's okay, but I think you’re always pretty."
Your grip on your purse loosened slightly, your face still half-hidden as you peeked at him through your lashes. "You do?"
He gave a sheepish nod. "Yeah." Then, after a beat, in a soft, hesitant voice, he asked, "Can I see your face? Um, uh—if that's okay with you or whatever."
He paused, then quickly added, "We can count to three if that helps?"
You swallowed hard and gave a tiny nod.
His hands hovered slightly before reaching out, hesitant but warm. "Can I, uh... help you with it?"
Your voice was barely above a whisper, but he seemed to hear it anyway. You nodded again.
His fingers wrapped gently around your wrists, steady and firm but not forceful. Then, with a soft countdown—"Three... two... one..."—he lowered your hands, revealing the mess that was your face.
Your beet-red cheeks. Your raccoon-like mascara stains.
Yuji’s eyes widened slightly as you hiccuped, trying desperately to suck in the snot threatening to form a bubble.
"My face is beet red, isn't it?"
He let out another laugh, this time softer. "Yeah... but so is mine."
You blinked, taking in his expression. The dusting of pink on the tips of his ears, the slight blush running up his nose, the way his eyes crinkled nervously.
You quickly began to rub at the smeared mascara around your eyes, flustered, when he hesitated—then took a tiny step closer.
"I can help?" he offered, voice quieter than before.
You nodded, unable to speak past your pounding heartbeat.
With delicate care, he lifted the sleeve of his uniform and gently wiped away the mess on your face.
Ever since that day, you and Yuji hung out more and more. He even introduced you to his friends, and you and Nobara quickly became best friends—though she heavily expressed her distaste for you dating Yuji, simply because “he’s gross, and you’re too good for him.”
Yuji was loud, outspoken, and seemingly everywhere at once, yet when he was alone with you, he was different. He was quieter—more hesitant.
Laying on your cramped twin bed, adorned with every single plushie he had ever won for you in the two months of dating, he looked so much softer. Your shabby dorm room at Jujutsu High was practically his at this point—he never left, always finding some excuse to be curled up next to you, legs tangled, warmth mingling between your bodies. Whether it was coming in late from a mission, all beat up so you sat him on your toilet to bandage his wounds because you knew he wouldn’t care enough to do it himself, or a simple, “I miss you.. and the way you smell.”
But despite this level of comfort and closeness, you were both still utterly awkward around each other. Even now, lying in bed with your pinkies barely ghosting the space between, desperate to touch but too afraid to bridge the gap. Sure, you’d wake up tangled together as Yuji hogged the covers, but that was always after exhaustion had taken over—when neither of you had the energy to be nervous. But this? This was different. You were both awake, wide awake, too aware of every movement the other made. The soft shuffle of his weight against the bed, the slight twitch of your fingers, the low whirring of the crappy fan in your room, the faint vibration of his unchecked phone.
Yuji only ever got notifications when they were important, and you both knew that. But he didn’t care. It was like nothing else existed outside this moment. Whoever needed him would have to stomp into this room and physically drag him away from the dim glow of your orange-pink lamp, from the scent of your perfume clinging to the sheets he was laying on.
When seconds felt like hours, you finally turned to Yuji to say something—anything to break the tension. But just your luck, he turned at the exact same time.
His brown eyes bore into yours like he could reach in and grab your very soul with gentle hands, rewriting your entire being if he chose. You both stared, studying every subtle movement, every shift in expression, until the weight of it became too much. Suddenly, you were both too aware of each other.
The weight of it had both of you snapping your heads away, blushes creeping up your necks.
Yuji was always an awkward mess when he was alone with you— from fidgeting with the hem of his red Jujutsu hoodie, to walking around your room picking up random objects and pretending to be interested, like a kid trying to play coy.
He’d constantly go to grab your hand, only to let it fall last minute. He was completely different from how he was around others.
And now, here you both were—blushing, internally panicking over each other—until, when you turned to face him again, he was already hovering over you, peering down as if you were a fish in a fishbowl. You sucked in a breath, eyes wide, and whatever confidence he had for that split second disappeared in an instant. Because now, seeing you up close, so close he could count every speckle of glitter from your makeup, he lost all nerve and buried his face straight into the crook of your neck.
Which only made things worse.
Your shampoo, your perfume—the warm, sugary scent of it all sent his mind reeling. It made him want to kiss you even more than he already did, which, at this point, felt nearly impossible. He had been waiting for the right time, telling himself over and over that it had to be perfect. But the truth was, he had been thinking about it for months—spacing out in class, staring at your lips, wondering if they tasted like strawberries from the gloss you always wore.
And now here he was, completely surrounded by your scent, his hands twitching with the urge to pull you closer.
Before you could think, your fingers moved on their own, shaking slightly as they inched toward his hair, aching to tangle in his soft pink strands. But just as you moved, Yuji suddenly lifted his head, mustering every ounce of courage before blurting out in one rushed breath:
“Ireallywannakissyoucani?”
Then, immediately after, he smacked his hands over his face.
You let out a breath you hadn’t realized you were holding, heart hammering in your chest as you whispered, “Yuu…”
Slowly, you reached for his wrists, gently prying his hands away from his face. His skin was warm under your touch, his fingers trembling ever so slightly. You didn’t have to say the rest—he already knew what you wanted.
He pulled his hands from yours, biting at his lip as he laced his fingers with yours instead, pinning your hand to the pillow above you. He shifted, slotting his leg over yours, his other hand lifting to cradle your cheek, thumb rubbing soothing circles against your skin.
Your eyes flickered over his face, watching every shift in his expression as he leaned closer, breath mingling with yours.
“You’re so pretty,” he murmured, voice low, almost reverent.
He leaned in, inch by inch, breath mingling with yours. But before closing the gap, he hesitated. “You sure this is okay?”
You didn’t answer—not with words. Instead, you curled your fingers into the nape of his neck, tugging him forward, crashing your lips against his.
And it was everything.
The kind of kiss that made you slam your door shut before sliding down it in a fit of giggles.
His lips were warm and soft, tasting faintly of brown sugar. It sent your stomach swirling, the kind of feeling that made your chest ache in the best way possible.
When he pulled back slightly, a thin trail of saliva still connected you, his pink cheeks flushed, eyes lidded, like he needed to look at you just to make sure this was real.
Then, with newfound confidence, he kissed you again.
This time, when his tongue slid past your lips—hesitant, waiting for permission—you let him in without a second thought. The sensation sent a shiver up your spine, and a soft, involuntary moan escaped you. That sound alone had Yuji’s other hand moving from your face to your waist to grip your body closer to his.
Kissing Yuji was like ladybugs dancing on your skin. Like the jingle of the ice cream truck on a summer afternoon. Like the mist from a sprinkler lapping at your feet on a hot summer day as a child when your only care was scoring the best popsicle flavour. Like the first sip of hot chocolate when it grazes your tongue and cocoons your body in warmth, as you come in from the bitter sting of the cold. It was like being wrapped in blankets cozied up with a book. The only sound echoing is the pitter of the rain on the window.
It was everything good, everything sweet, like the taste of cotton candy melting on your tongue.
p.s i based the title on bea's lyric from glue song "don't forget to kiss me, or else you'll have to miss me"
“so how did you two meet” funny story, i traveled universes
this would be an amazing way to write affirmations for a shifting subliminal
✧ I was literally in the biggest slump yesterday it's not even funny but i'm feeling a lot better now! 🥹 I just. wanted to shift. SO BAD. SPEAKING OF WHICH!
✧ idk if anyone has thought of this before, but I made up this exercise(?) or whatever (i'm not sure what to call it HELP) during math class bc I was bored and I wanted to do smth in regards to my shifting journey.
✧ I like to write in a shifting journal everyday, so this time I was like "I don't know if I should keep using affirmations." but I was also like WELL I DO wanna use them for revision... so I thought of the idea to ANALYZE MY AFFIRMATIONS! because tbh, I have this limiting belief that my affirmations won't necessarily mean the same to my subconscious (even though they will if you believe it!) which is why I initially wanted to avoid them altogether.
✧ so basically what I did first was write down the affirmation I was using. for me, I have been trying to use imagination to shift for the past week, so i've been using the affirmation: "I shift instantly through imagination."
✧ THEN, I defined each word of that affirmation. for example:
I = Me, my consciousness, and my inner self.
Shift = The shift of my awareness into a reality.
Instantly = Within seconds with zero resistance.
Through = Using something.
Imagination = Thinking of something using your senses without pressure, with the idea that what is being thought of is real. (Or the 4D/true reality but I don't like the 3D/4D terms for me.)
✧ I tried to define them myself with how I felt about each word. I feel like going by how you actually think of each word really helps because it can pinpoint how that affirmation will work for you!
✧ the last thing I did was combine each definition!
My consciousness shifts its awareness into a new reality within seconds with zero resistance by thinking of a reality with the idea that it's real.
✧ I TRIED WORDING IT BETTER BUT HOPEFULLY YOU GET THE POINT
✧ basically it's like creating a bigger affirmation for your affirmation! obviously you don't have to use the longer version HAHAH i just thought it would help if people could actually SEE what they're affirming and what it means to them!
✧ you could use this with negative thoughts, too! "i can't shift" = "my consciousness is unable to shift it's awareness to another reality" etc. etc.
✧ LIKE, IT'S NOT THAT INTRICATE, BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT HELPED ME A LOTTT! I feel like it can also help people make up their own affirmations! :D but even then, words are just words and they can mean whatever you want them to, like I could literally say shoelaces and it could mean I shift on command HELPP but this is for people like me that enjoy using affirmations that say what's wanted!
✧ I REALLY HOPE THIS HELPS!! NOW GO AFFIRM AND SHIFT!
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bucketlist of things you want to do/experience in your dr
what everyone thinks of you/thought of you when you first met
favourite memories you have experienced in your dr
favourite posessions (wardrobe, trinkets, etc)
map of your dr
new places - a shop exactly for your style, a restaurant with only your favourite foods, etc
daily life / routine - a day in your dr selfs life
quirky habits
legends / history of the place you live in
school - where you sit, which classes you take (timetable), scenarios, people that have a crush on you, what the teachers and people from your class are like, fun assignments youre assigned, what your bag and uniform look like, what your school looks like, who you talk to at school, map, extra events
events - plan your birthday, a talent show, any extra holidays you made up, a garage sale, etc
hi this is for the frank ocean ask game!
you should answer 💫 or 🍊.
hey gorgeous!!! thank you for the ask omgomg ໒꒰ྀི ≧ ᗜ ≦ ꒱ྀི১ okay, i already did the orange in my last post, so ill do the little star!! (is that what it is???)
𐔌 . 💫 ⋮ 'BOUT YOU ֹ ₊ ꒱ what do you reminisce on late at night? is it a person you had to leave behind? someone who left you? why are you still reminded of that past? are you upset with the memories? do you regret them?
vinsmoke sanji; my pretty boy, my ex, my enemy, the man i regret yet still let my eyes linger on for that tiny extra second. he’s the definition of the man that occupies my mind, no matter what we are.
there’s one memory that sticks with me. my one true y/n moment, if you will. i’ll shorten in down for you, cause if i didn’t this’ll be 40 paragraphs.
y’know that one scene where steven and paige dance to moon river by frank ocean in the summer i turned pretty? it was like that. but in a kitchen. and a lot more stupid and less… movie esque.
i’m a giggly person, it doesn’t take much for me to smile, so i probably looked like a total loser, but lord i felt like i was in a teenage coming of age movie. like MY favourite song??? dancing??? in the kitchen??? shut UP that’s like my dream. and that happened. in another reality, but it happened, with a pretty guy.
then we kissed. well, we would’ve, if his dad didn’t walk in. the cock blocker. he told us to get on with the dishes. but cute little moment!!!
…. anyways, there you go. memory story time over. cough cough. i feel awkward now.
jokes aside, here’s part one if you wanna see other responses and access to the original post by the lovely laylasverse!!
The only thing that would heal me is moments like these with my s/o
i give you a category, you relate that word to your dr in any way you please. wherever that be the concept of your dr, things you own, a memory, or people.
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⟡ music . . .
⟡ adrenaline . . .
⟡ colour . . .
⟡ love . . .
⟡ happiness . . .
⟡ touch . . .
⟡ mess . . .
⟡ items . . .
⟡ sentimentalism . . .
⟡ art . . .
⟡ adventure . . .
⟡ quiet . . .
⟡ home . . .
i hope this made sense!!! please tell me so i can explain in some better way . . . . . . . . . like for adrenaline you could talk about a memory, someone who makes you feel that way, a dr which induces that emotion... get creative, yk. yeah idk. UUHHH
If you still think shifting's hard, read this.
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You’re simply remembering.
For years, there’s been this huge misconception that shifting has anything to do with the body. I’m here to tell you—it doesn’t. When you shift, it’s your awareness that’s shifting, not your body.
Take symptoms, for example. Just because your body is tingling, itching, or whatever, doesn’t mean you have shifted—or that you haven’t. If anything, that’s just your body falling asleep.
“But why does it only happen when I try to shift then?” Because you’re forcing your body into a state it’s not normally in—making it do things it doesn’t usually do. Whether you’re meditating, levitating, gyrating, or castrating. The body reacts; it doesn't shift.
It’s confused—just trying to keep up with what your mind is doing. Because that’s the only part of you that truly matters. When you shift, your body isn’t going anywhere. It’s your mind remembering the life you’ve always been living. You’ve been there this whole time.
That’s why shifting is easy. You’re not traveling—you’re remembering.
i shifted
it’s so weird to be writing a blog about the fact that i’ve shifted, i’m so happy and honestly still in shock. it’s so real and so strange to see myself through a new body, a new room, a new lifestyle, and to have all the memories as if it’s always been my reality (I know this reality has always existed and it’s just a shift in consciousness, but you see what I mean?)
i shifted during the night of april 5 to 6, 2025. i was just so tired of this reality—just the thought of spending another day here was making me "angry". personally, i don’t use any method, no subliminals (except sometimes), i don’t visualize super well, i can’t focus 100% on anything. all i have is the deep desire to shift and fully dive into that reality.
i looked at my pinterest boards, quickly went over my script, watched a few videos related to my dr, then closed my eyes. i put on songs that brought me closer to my dr, i thought about what i was going to do once i got there, what I’ve already done, i imagined the next day—what my day would be like (i didn’t script where or when i’d arrive in my dr), there are some dishes i can’t wait to try — i was already imagining myself ordering them and eating so much of them.
i was just there, daydreaming about this reality
i repeating affirmations to myself a few time: i am aware of my desired reality and i am in my desired reality.
then suddenly, i felt like i wasn’t in my room anymore, and when i opened my eyes, i discovered my new room. I didn’t feel anything, see white flashes, hear voices, or anything like what I’ve read here. I was just there.
i touched my hair, looked all around me—guys, it’s so real. it’s not a lucid dream, i even did the five fingers test + pinches.
how real is it? you see the way you’re lying on your bed and you feel the sheets all along your body, sitting on your chair, you feel the texture of the seat, and you’re looking at the room you’re in — you see that 3d, that vividness, the details — it’s like that. there’s absolutely nothing dreamlike about it, and it’s incredible how real it is.
i’m not planning to stay long here (I plan to shift now tbh.), and most importantly, i’m a permashifter now. but please, guys, don’t give up! you deserve to live your dream life, i shifted so you can.
idc shifting is as easy as you make it, if you want it to be as easy as breathing then it will be. If you want it to be as complicated as you possible can make it it can be.