Having ADHD to me is spending so much time avoiding feeling bad instead of feeling good
Like sure I can work under pressure, and that pressure involves getting homework in on time to avoid a negative consequence, forcing myself to go to class to avoid that negative consequence, making myself go to work so I get paid which I need to live, trying really hard to not fuck up in group settings so I don't feel guilty, doing household chores because I have to-
But I rarely get actual senses of accomplishment from any of it
Because it's all baseline stuff I have to do to avoid feeling bad. I get a sense of relief, maybe, but not the actual good/yay/charge from it that apparently others do
I only get that from what I call extra credit stuff, which are things I want to do like creative/fun things, or exceeding expectations in something like I worked ahead or something turned out really well
Which obviously isn't all the time
So i plod along most of the time just doing what I literally have to and then I STILL ask myself to do more so I don't feel like a failure/empty/like I did something I personally got a kickback from and not just oh, yeah, perfect grades are my expectation so I don't feel Proud I'm just relieved it isn't bad
Anyway. I don't know what to do about it/maybe I can get my brain to release some kinda Good Job chemicals for things that aren't just extra credit/fun to me but. Cries
One thing I don't think the Spoon metaphor has helped able-bodied people understand is that you can overdraw.
Generally, for most conditions, running out of spoons doesn't mean you collapse, doesn't produce an effect they can actually see. What it means is that you run on life support, quite possibly unsafely, until you get to a safe place and can stop. But you'll owe those spoons back, with interest. You'll have hurt yourself to do it.
Sometimes I hang out with a friend and they'll be like, wow, I'm really glad you had a good day. And I have to decide whether to make them feel bad by explaining that in fact they did not catch me on a good day, and tomorrow will probably be bad. I just made choices.
Well this took me almost exactly a month longer than i planned but it's finally done
I thought i'd be done in a week or two max but then i just kept adding things i didn't even know how to draw
Like any kind of background. I genuinely think this might be one of the first proper backgrounds i've ever drawn and i'm really surprised and so proud of how well it turned out
Anyways, here is my long overdue addition to the probably mountain of fan art for the end of @ayviedoesthings insanely cool dragon hrt story
I fucking love dragons and the whole therian/otherkin hrt trend (idk what else to call it, pls correct me, calling it a trend feels wrong but i can't think of anything else) is so fucking cool >^w^<
Turned out a lot more purple than i originally planned but i like it
I gave them a beak cause from the side their snout looks like it ends in a little bit of a beak and when i tried it it looked cool so kept it
Also there's a little smiley hidden somwhere so see if you can find it :3
Drew some scarlet :)
I love her as a villian, she’s great
Here’s some versions w/o lineart bc I think it looks cool, and I put my sketch in there too
Yeah!
HEY, FELLOW HATERS OF INSANELY-BRIGHT CAR HEADLIGHTS, SOMEONE HAS STARTED A PETITION TO REGULATE THEM.
It's an official petition through the Australian Government's e-petition page, which means if it gets enough signatures, it will be tabled in government.
You do have to be an Australian citizen to sign it, BUT!!! PLEASE REBLOG THIS EVEN IF YOURE NOT, because these kind of things have a roll-on effect, and if Australia legislates LED headlights, then other countries may follow.
FYI, the petition asks only for your name and email, and once you've clicked the sign button, they'll send you an email to confirm your signature --- you need to click the confirmation link in the email to have your signature counted.