"The Brothers Karamazov", Fyodor Dostoevsky (translated By Constance Garnett)

𝔠𝔯𝔞𝔳𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔠𝔱𝔬𝔟𝔢𝔯

One day...I am going to wake up, look over and find you peacefully asleep beside me, I will admire how beautiful you are and I will draw you closer, showering you with tender kisses.

“Not all men, but some men.”

It feels like a lifetime ago that we had you, and it feels like a decade since we have lost you. The world was cruel to you but I’m glad, we are glad that we could call you ours. My dearest baby, you will always be our first child, my first daughter that I could never have. You came as a blessing but left like an unforgivable curse. The past 6 months were beautiful with you, and right now it’s just a silence that no one talks about whole heartedly of the void that got created since the day you left. My love, my dearest dear child Yukio, I miss you every single day that it simply stings my heart when I realise you aren’t next to me. Your dad still griefs about you but doesn’t have the heart to talk about it since he lost you. We did cry, whole heartedly to realise why we don’t speak about your absence so much even when it speaks volumes in this unforgiving silence. As they say why parents have their favourite child, and you made the two of us realise that it will always be you, no matter what. Rest in peace my doll, please be playful the way you were with us, and hopefully get the warmest blanket to cover yourself up as you fall asleep my dear.

I love you so much as much as I miss you unconditionally my child❤️‍🩹

— Nizar Qabbani

Old room, old images; 2023 was 2 years ago. Dangerous how the time flies by.

The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, J.R.R. Tolkien

Howl's Moving Castle (2004)

I loved you in ways you’ll never understand. In the way I remembered your favorite songs, even when you forgot mine. In the way I stayed. Long after you didn’t ask me to.

wired headphones >>> airpods