AVA 11

IT DOESNT MATTER BABE. DAN SAID, “IT DOESNT MATTER BABE” LIVES HAVE BEEN CHANGED

its time

me fr (i think my friends hate me)

my spotify wrapped came early this year?!?!

reblogging to save this because i need to read this fic IMMEDIATELY and then fall into a spiral of sonadow fics 🫶🫶

plunge you into never ending darkness

companion piece for [Tenebrae]

reblogging cause luck posts are not to be passed, but also its still sweet to see the ways people getting lucky :3

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

does anyone else have moments when your train of thought get really existential really fucking fast and suddenly youre thinking about why we even exist and life and death and existence or a lack thereof beyond that and it lowkey feels like youre drowning and so you just freeze until youre brought back to where you are?

ill also happily inform you my first thought after my recent spiral was "i should post this on tumblr" so i guess the gay post app is just in my brain cells now ;p

binging s2 of arcane next week but ive seen about 4 episodes of s1 that i barely remember so thisll be fun uh ill probably keep this as a core memory until i turn 25 when i decide to watch the series from start to finish and go "I REMEMBER THAT SCENE" and "OHH IT MAKES SENSE NOW" (i did this with cyberpunk edgerunners and ill do it again)

píxel art

take responsibility

something i think about a lot:

when dark and cho fight in the showdown, i (and others) headcanon this being their breakup

i think beforehand they had worked out their feelings after blue screening and escaping alans pc, theyve dated, but the dark lord doesnt mention something important.

subsequently, chosen doesnt know how hard it is for dark to exist like this around him, and it never even crosses his mind to consder it.

it is so intertwined in darks code to "kill the chosen one", but he fights it because of how he values the relationship he has with chosen. he may not have experience but something about it is so pure and special to him, plus why not defy alans stupid ass commands?

but he gets exhausted

he consistently wakes up in a bad mood and finds himself with a blade at the sleeping chosen ones throat-

his chosen one

-and oh how it hurts him so.

he loves the chosen one. he makes him feel free, feel like his own being, more than a weapon against the other hollowhead. he finds every moment of exhaustion and effort worth it to be with his chosen one.

which is why it hurts so much when chosen attacks him without second thought.

all it took was a plan too much for chosen and his morals. no matter that the dark lord suffered for him. no matter that the dark lord sacrificed himself for this feeling. why would it matter if he wanted to pursue something of his own?

it hurts when he realises how stupidly easy it is to fight back.

of course his code remains. this feeling is still there, but maybe its more of a curse than anything else. he wants to kill the chosen one, he wants to erase his code from the face of the inter and outernet in such a primally disgusting way that it hurts the dark lord.

it hurts him to do this, but its so so easy to just let himself fight. let the instinct take over.

was it all for nothing?

thanks @krayters for plaguing my mind at this hour, i love these headcanons so much

and dont mind the colours, i was having fun :)