I Hate My Writing. I Hate My Ideas. I Hate My Everything

“Are you really going to watch that again?”

Indeed I am, and I’d appreciate it if you’d kindly walk that judgement way the hell back, please. I’m here to dissociate and heal at the same time.

i’d like to report that i am still in the depths of hell

my inspiration for this fic faded months ago but my desire to finish it has not

i’ve been writing this fic since january and i’m only 50 pages in it’s constantly on my mind which is insane bc im pretty sure my good omens hyperfixation ended a couple weeks ago (i still love it, the obsession has just gone away)

this stupid fic is never not on my mind but i can’t get myself to write it im in the depths of hell rn

12K WORDS IS NOT SLOW BURN YOU COWARD GIVE ME 30K WORDS BEFORE THEY EVEN TOUCH HANDS OR ELSE I DONT WANT TO READ IT PLEAAAAAAAAASEEEEE

since we’re on the topic of bookbinding, i’ve been wanting to get into it but i haven’t actually done any research (yet) other than vibes, so do u have any tips for complete beginners?? :)

@geminibookbinding is who inspired me to finally look up the whole process and figure out where to start! this is the super helpful tutorial i got from them

i had dabbled with binding before though, using Sea Lemon's tutorials to make blank sketchbooks yearsss ago. i still use her text block and diy hardcover videos as a refresher/reminder while i bind!

the biggest thing that stopped me from learning to bind printed fiction was not understanding how to print the text from home, specifically how to get the pages in the right order for signatures. it's actually so easy with some very simple to use programs: QuantumElephant for PC users (free), and I use BookletCreator on Mac ($20)

i want to go into more detail about my process and supplies from a beginner perspective, i hope this helps:

format the text in a word processor

export your document as a single page PDF

enter that PDF file into Quantum Elephant or BookletCreator, to rearrange the pages for your signatures. your program will give you a new PDF file that you can then print.

4. double sided printing: i was so so scared of this at first, but it's incredibly simple. no matter what printer you have, somewhere in your print settings will be an option to print even or odd pages.

print all the even pages first, then when the stack is finished printing, flip them over, insert them back into the paper feed, and print the odd pages.

5. fold the signatures together so you have a stack of little booklets, then mark on the spine where your sewing holes need to be. manually punch the holes using an awl, or diy an awl by stuffing a cork on the end of a straight needle.

6. sewing: take regular sewing thread and run it over a block of beeswax. this makes the thread easier to manage and holds it in place better while you sew. a curved needle is also much easier to use than a straight one, especially for a kettle stitch (using Sea Lemon's tutorial)

7. gluing: glue decorative pages (or plain, but thicker paper) to the front and back to create your end pages, then press the book flat to apply PVA glue to the spine. press it overnight so the glue dries flat. (optional: glue a ribbon to the top of the spine, then sew on headbands) finally glue an additional piece of paper (or mull) around the spine to strengthen it.

8. optional: trim the edges of your book down to create a smooth edge. this one's given me the most trouble because it's very hard to get right with a knife, and the proper supplies are expensive. check your local stationery shop (i.e. Officeworks, Staples) for an industrial guillotine service

9. cover: once you have the final measurements of your text block you can start making the cover. this is essentially gluing cardboard, binders board, or plywood etc to a sheet of fabric. the fabric either needs to be bookcloth, or have some kind of non-porous back so the glue doesn't seep through. you can diy bookcloth from any fabric with tissue paper. then glue the decorate end pages to your cover to attach the textblock!

Hello Neil,

in S2 we see Crowley in the bookshop throwing books mindlessly away when something gets his attention. Even thou it is so Crowley it leaves me shocked each time he does it (I'm a bookseller).

Are those real books? What would Aziraphale say if he ever finds out?

Hope you don't mind me asking. -Shen.

While those were real books, they were also highly trained stunt books, and they had rehearsed the bit where David Tennant threw them down, so none of them were hurt.

writing long adoring comments on fics is my passion

hi bilv!

i’m curious, do u ever go back and reread your own works? for me, i can be suuuper critical of my writing during the process and it’s rly interesting revisiting old projects several months later and realizing “huh. these actually don’t suck.” just wondering what it’s like for you!

hope you’re having a lovely day :)

I DOOOO. i love my stories a lot and i write what i want to read, so i've reread my fics to hell and back 😂 usually only when i first finish them tho

i'm kind of the opposite, i get so into flow that i like pretty much everything i'm writing, but when i come back to it later i find everything wrong with it. it makes it hard for me to feel confident about my earlier stories, so i rarely promo Black Vitrum knowing the prose is objectively much weaker than what i write now 😩

I know we all think Aziraphale is gonna come back from heaven dearly missing wine and food and good music but I think he's gonna come back and immediately crawl under a blanket because he is severely overstimulated by the fucking Big Light energy in heaven.

Those fluorescent overhead lights and the sheer brightness of this place absolutely do not mesh with the autisms, I mean look at his bookshop!! Dim and muted. Poor thing

reading straight fanfiction feels icky

inaccurate good omens part 10

inaccurate good omens master post