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sorry i dont have anywhere else to post this. tw for threats of violence.. and me venting

mom wonders why i dont tell her things. i mention intrusive thoughts and she thinks its from YouTube when i dont watch things like that. or how i have poor memory. now she is wanting to get an electric pattle and or taser so she can sap me everytime "i forgot"..

ive been diagnosed with adhd and several other things but she thinks its bullshit because of an issue she caused. aka too much internet at a young age. but its not. ive experienced these symptoms for my whole life but ive masked because dispite my mom being physically disabled she is abliest. its ok for her to forget and lash out, feel worthless and shit but when i, a 17 year old who has tried multiple times to kms, had multiple panic attacks and memories i know happened but always gets met with a "i never said that" or "that never happened.".. so know i cant tell what really happened 5 minutes ago or not.

i mentioned i have intrusive thoughts and she snapped at me "no you dont this is bullshit"....

i so badly wanted to say "oh, so you've never one thought of stabbing yourself well holding a knife? or someone else. oh or turning the car into the other lane?". why doesn't she understand that intrusive thoughts are a part of the illnesses i have, that she cant read my fucking mind and that I'm the one that has to live with my thoughts. not her.

i hate her and i want to move out but i can't because i just cant live alone, i cant go out alone for two long without having a panic attack. god i just wish i took the chances to leave when i could. but NO i was too worried, dwelling on what she said years ago. that being "if you leave ill kill myself".

i just want out. i want to be useful. i want to be like everyone else and be able to function...

you know what? my gender head cannons for sans and papyrus in aus. (now ageswap is cannon but the others are just my head cannons. if for ageswap you have headcannons for their genders please tell me. im just curious.)

classic!

sans is genderfluid. their fine with any pronouns and normally wont correct you but somedays they will be like "heya, can you please use (insert pronouns/neo pronouns)? thanks"

papyrus is Agender. "THE GREAT PAPYRUS DONT HAVE THE NEED FOR GENDER!". does let sans use brother for simplicity sake.

underswap-

swap is bigender, both male and female. someday she feels more like a girl and others he feels like a boy.. swap experiences varying levels of dysphoria relating to gender.

stretch, trans male but will use neo pronouns along side he/him/his such as bone/bones/boneself.

underfell.

fell. one of the few cisgender ones. but like stretch will use neo pronouns ONLY with friends as underfell isnt really a safe place to express yourself. these are red/reds/redself.

edge is non binary with a feminine lean. they can and will kick ass in heels and a skirt without batting an eye. fell is the only one who is allowed to use brother and masculine pronouns for edge outside of the house. (fell only does it cause its harder for him to get use to(he is trying is best.yes he slips up but he has gotten good at using sibling instead of brother) as he pretty much raise papyrus).

swapfell

blackberry is transfem. not much else to say.

bqq/mutt is cismale as supportive of his older sister..

fellswap gold!

wine says he is a cisgender male but is questioning their gender.

coffee is a demiboy. they use xenogenders to help them understand their own gender better.

ageswap.

age(I'll think of a better nicknme for ageswap sans later.) is genderfluid. they are quite comfortable expressing their gender. they also use neo pronouns and xenogenders because they feel right.

guard(again ill think of something better for ageswap papyrus.) is agender. again not much to day.

have a nice day!

-_- why ya gotta do me like that swapfell papyrus? let me have this!

Y/N: I think I’m missing something??

Undertale Sans: self care

Underswap Sans: SOCIAL SKILLS!

Swapfell Papyrus: your ability to create relationships with people other than fictional skeletons

me to me

Dick: Oh, fiddlesticks.

Jason: Look, I understand this is a tense situation, but let's watch the fucking language.

facts about age swap frisk, chara and monster kid! also explaining about the player....

also tw for parental death.

frisk!-

they are 14. they were 10 when the fell down.

frisk was born a girl but is non-binary. they use they/them pronouns but are ok with any other the she/her.

they did start and nearly finshed a genocide run but broke down when sans showed them genuine kindness. (yes toriel and papyrus did but it didnt feel like it to frisk at the time).

frisk isnt actually controlled by the player. the player's puppet falls down when frisk is 15 and is controling a character they name.

frisk wasnt abused physically by their parents but extremely bullied at school and felt like the black sheep out of their cousins. if only they knew what happened to their parents after then fell down mout ebott.

frisk is actually distantly related to chara.

frisk fell down in 2110.

they primarily live with sans and papyrus well toriel and asgore sort out their problems.

frisk can use magic and is able to pick up on it easily. including uncommon things like sans' short cuts and papyrus' gravity defining magic.

they have dyslexia so chara, the ghost of a 6 year old, had to read and translate signs for them.. lets just say toriel was able to actually meet frisk at the leaf puzzle and help them through the rest... on the pacifist route. on genocide chara refused to help....

frisk is smart, just with more hands on things.

they take pride in being independent. that being said they struggling with asking for help and accepting they can't do everything by themselves.

they are best friends with monster kid, who is slowly helping frisk with letting loose.

frisk is doing better in monster school then they did in human school.

frisk sometimes steels sans' smokes and booze to use. if they dont they go to to grillbys.

chara!-

chara is intelligent for a 6 year old.

when chara notices someone is upset they will leave a flower were the person can see it. do not ask how.

chara can now leave frisk's side again and float around the underground but chara can still feel what frisk feels and tastes what frisk tastes.

that being said when chara feels upset, mad or angry flowers and flower petals appear around both of theirs location.

chara's birth sex as been long forgotten.

chara was a daddy's kid, clingy to asgore's well they were alive. they love toriel its just asriel wasn't really close with asgore and chara felt bad so they vowed to themselves they would be asgore's little one.

chara can posses frisk's body but doesn't do it often.

chara has a purple cape with a gold emblem.

chara makes themselves known to everyone by doing harmless pranks..

monster kid!-

monster kid goes by MK for short.

monster kid is an orphan in this au, however no one knows as he never reported them falling down or dying.

monster kid was never given a proper name.

monster kid is the same age as frisk. 14 years old..

monster kid is street smart. yes he is book smart but he its not his strongest point.

MK is frisk's best friend, the one to talk them down from something stupid or help them relax well also bring them smiles and laughter.... and pranks wars. lost of prank wars...

MK had wings but they got crushed by bolders after he took a nap on a water fall... there was no way to repair them so they had to be amputated... now he keeps them on his wall above his bed.

MK is always optimistic....

he doesn't remember resets but he does get dajv. when frisk killed him on the genocide run and yes they killed him as undyne didnt get their in time, he cried saying "mom? dad? is that you?" before turning to dust.

he isn't the most magical gifted in most feilds of it.

MK can breath fire tho! and has two little nubs were horns will grow..

MK uses He/they/it/zem.

MK is a stoner. it started off only at night to help them sleep but now its a all day thing.

thank you!

i made them strawberry themed because know in sweettale monsters are based of candys they embody and flare likes strawberries.. so that manifested into the their appearance.

i probably should have added before the original post that, depending on what the person doing it prefers, when licked they can taste like strawberries or mint.. or in a few extremely rare cases something that isn't even a candy or sweet, like mustered. Mentha doesn't like being licked though.

hello! this is a ship child of mint and flare!.

Mentha, the first part of Mentha spicata subsp. citrata which is a strawberry mint.

(i wish i could make them digitally but my phone screen and my patience is too small for that)

they indeed does have a strawberry and scoop of ice cream. there is a strawberry sause that mixes with the ice cream (idk what flavor to have it..). the strawBerry's leaves are similar to their dad, flare's fire. however they dont grow insize and its hard to tell unless your actually looking.

they prefer their long sleeved hoodie, that has fake plastic claws on them. it can change its words kinda like fresh sans' (who Mentha actually enjoys messing with. ) but unlike fresh swear words will appear like "fuck", " fuck yeah!", "fuck no!", "...shit".. often when they are in trouble, think of a bad, but funny plan or hears someone else say a dangerous plan.

Mentha prefers they/them/theirs or it/its but will use he/him/his for people who dont know how to use his prefered ones.

Mentha, dispite pulling pranks and liking to cause trouble, hates confrontation. hence them having separate pronouns for those who dont know how to use their preferred ones.

they dont speak much. their sentences tend to be short and to the point.

they struggle with regulating their empathy. what i mean is that they'll be unable to comfort you over a dead family member or a break up but will be sobbing with you over your dead pet, missing stuffed animal, or anything small.

blanket horder. you better hide your blankets when they aren't in use, they will jump aus just to stell a blanket.

can stay in the anti void but its too white so expect them to be making a blanket fort or near any source of colour, like error's bean bag...

mint belongs to @hheisa

flare belongs to @melaton1nx

will do. that mfer deserves it for putting me in a flesh sack on this stupid planet against my will!

humanhater96?

i didnt draw age swap alphys or undyne. but here are some facts about them!

alphys:

-she his atustic but has less needs then sans.

-she also has social anxiety, ptsd from the DT experiments, and self esteem issues.

-she is 32. but still acts a lot like a 25 year old, just with more back pain.

-baggy clothes because she hates her body.

-her lab is always around 90 degrees inless undyne is over. then its 70.

-her bedroom is messy but organized at the same time. like she knows were EVERY thing is but if you move something or clean her room (even if you show her were you are putting things) she will not be able to find anything..

-mettaton has to remind her to take breaks before she burns out.

-weekly dump crys and searches.

- is always covered in goopy dog fur(thanks endogany)

-flusters easily.

-doesn't khs on most neutral runs. only if you've killed undyne, been rude to her and killed mettaton.. no one but undyne ir mettaton. if you kill papyrus too she stays alive to make sure sans is ok..

-is there for everyone else but doesn't think she is worthy of someone supporting her.

-self deprecating jokes 24/7.

-demibisexual, panoramic

-infodumps so much about anime in general but mostly kissy cutie.

undyne:

-adhd but its MOSTLY under control.

-hates not having background noise, so if she has house work she will call papyrus or alphys. papyrus to come over and be a body double or alphys as background noise (aka has alphys infodump).

-can actually cook. (and somwtimws cooks for asgore as he has trouble at times).

- really active in the community, making sure kids know to stay in school, helping elderly monsters, ect!

-lesbian.

-her skin is mainly a dark blue but its has sloches of light blue...

-is still missing her eyes.

-twirls spears when bored.

-can mimic voices down to a T.

-25 years old.

-sees papyrus as her equal and friend.

-dating alphys a few months before frisk fell down.

-suspects asgore had raised a human child before but isnt sure.

- keeps a special eye on monster kid, especially when she visits the school.

-is smart, almost as smart as alphys but failed most of high school because of how boring the work was.

- she doesnt like puzzles but does them to make papyrus happy. (what she does is often test runs of his puzzles.)

-is like a big sister to the skeleton brothers despite being younger then papyrus.

-her hair is in a braid rather then a ponytail.

-she knows of flowey but not what he is. papyrus has brought him up a few times by accident. she thinks flowey is just some monster she hasn't met yet.

does anyone know about an au were papyrus od the one that snaps after endless genocide runs instead of sans?.

i dont mean Dustbelif, dustswap, swapdustswap.

i mean an actual class papyrus is the first to snap and kills everyone, including sans. is that an au yet? i feel like it should because their is more prove papyrus is aware of resets and endings.