as someone with a lot of experience taking antidepressants and dealing with family members who Do Not Understand how depression works, it really struck me how octavia deals with discovering that stolas has been taking antidepressants.
presumably, he has been taking these for a VERY long time and based on the evidence in this episode, nobody in his life knew about it- clearly not blitzø or octavia, at least.
i don't see stolas as someone who has been to therapy - this reads to me very much like someone who saw "happy pills" and decided to self-medicate because he thought they would fix him, not as someone who was prescribed a medication and a dose to take (we've seen him downing handfuls of these pills on several occasions in past episodes)
octavia is (understandably) unsettled when she finds this giant box of pills, and despite all her complicated feelings for her father she IMMEDIATELY goes to find him to bring him his pills
octavia is smart!! yes she is pissed off at her dad and this implies that she could have gone to see him at any time when he was calling her, but this discovery kind of goes beyond any argument- no matter how she feels, she ultimately doesn't want stolas to suffer
then we get the big fight scene, which ends with the devastating argument between octavia and stolas where she says "was this my fault that you needed these?"
i adore the amount of nuance in their interaction here for so many reasons, but specifically this vein of "i love you but clearly you don't love me or else you wouldn't be depressed" hits very close to home for me and i love the way it's shown as messy and neither stolas nor octavia really understand the way their words are hurting one another
so it kind of breaks my heart that she closes herself off to him but leaves him with this bottle of happy pills because he does need them. and she knows it, and she cares enough to want him to be happy.
she just doesn't think that happiness includes her, because in her mind she's nothing more than an obligation to him.
ugh the day these two reunite i will be reduced to a pile of mush i just love how complex their relationship is it's so tasty
Updated lamb reference, they like feeling fancy and Narinder indulges them. Some more headcanons/facts about my lamb!
wool was shorn after their capture by the bishops
they were originally pulled, horns started growing after resurrection
teeth became sharp as well
they take their “appearance” as a god very seriously. Even while their bad period Narinder does still keep making their clothing/keeps that in mind
has been gradually growing taller since ascending, will eventually be Big
they do have a name, no one know it them.
oh my god, may he rest in peace :(
ever since i discovered this game one of the main reasons that made me adore it was his music. It's saddening to hear he passed away and my condolences goes to the massive monster team & to his family. He will be remembered every time i hear the fantastic work of art that is the Cotl soundtrack.
Rest in peace, River Boy. We’ll listen to you, still.
Edit, and for context:
Yesss more of aus of different TOWW !! (i’m currently making one myself :>)
I've been getting into the Cult of the Lamb Fandom a little bit and decided to make my own Au. I'm calling it "Cult Anchor" for now, but It might change. Anyways, here's the au version of the "Lamb", well, rather the leader of the cult in this Au.
So essentially, in this Au, Kallamar took the fall for Narindar, but Narindar was kinda a jerk about it to Kallamar. After the Prophocy, that one from Kallamar's lands of Anchordeep would liberate him and exact revenge on the other bishops. Slowly, the bishops had the creatures of Anchordeep slain, but one Axolotl managed to meet Kallamar and become the vessel of the Blue crown.
The Axolotl is called Ancor, and their a sweetie pie, unless you cross them.
Idk if anyone has done this before, but I'm definitely enjoying making my au.
OOOOUUUGHHH
i will literally never get over narinder being shamura's favourite btw.
do you think shamura had times where they forgot what had happened? they become so accustomed to his presence, even if it waned in the centuries past the religious purges, that their first thought is to try to find him. a strange sort of sickness crawls through their skin and clenches at their lungs as they search and only find rooms that have been entirely rearranged and every aspect of narinder scrubbed or scorched or scratched or or or just seemingly erased from existence. and when they finally gather the courage to ask their other siblings just what exactly is going on, they're met with "you forgot again, didn't you?"
The tags,,,,,im so ,,nor,,normal🧎♀️🧎♀️
are you sure?
HELLOOOO ??? THESE ARE SOO PRETTY??
The Bishops
OOOOOUGHHHH
(YOU GET IT 🫵🏽🫵🏽)
MY wambert philosophy
Parvena: Bishop of Peace🦋🧡
Interesting facts:
- Parvena is the opposite of Shamura.
- Parvana is a "monarch butterfly".
- Parvena is the second most senior bishop (she is older than the Bishop of Fertility, but younger than the Bishop of Order).
- The cult of Parvena is located on the treetops in the "Red Forest", because the followers of her cult think there are a lot of dangers and enemies on earth, so the cult is located in trees and hidden by dense foliage.
- Parvena, despite her status as an "Elder Sister" and "Second Bishop," is the calmest and most balanced of all, she always tries to avoid conflicts and quarrels in her cult and between her brothers and sisters, trying to get rid of them through words or compromises. Because of this, Parvena's brothers and sisters treat her with kindness and affection.
- Parvena loves her older brother like a Ptah, because he is always ready to protect his older sister and worries about her life.
"The Bishops gave their order, and none could question it. The lambs were to be dragged to the slaughter, each and every one- no matter how innocent."
COTLtober Day Twenty Eight: Genocide Cold and flu season seems to have finally caught up to me- I am feeling very blah right now. I decided to be very fast and loose with this day's drawing as a result, so pardon the sudden drop in quality. Not sure if I'll be up to doing art for the rest of the prompts either, but I'll see how I feel. At the very least, I want to try to get out rough sketches or quick flat pieces like this to potentially revisit when I feel better.
i have been interested in your au’s characters before but i wasn’t able to understand the lore behind them, but now that i understood that they’re HERETIC OCS i’m INVESTED✨✨✨
not much people in the fandom really focus on the enemies in cotl and i reaally find your version of them interesting.
SO KEEP EM COMING YA GOT ANOTHER FAN ✨✋🏽( whenever you feel comfortable sharing ofc 👍🏽)
OKAY, PART ONE. sorry for the white void there was meant to be a better bg for these but its a REFERENCE SHEET and im so DONE rn i just need kitty titties out and proud rn.
As for this aus official name now that theyre not called “guardians” (bc there was too much confusion abt the guardian enemies and the guardians and it made them seem like they had more authority than they actually do have. also chess, knights and bishops r next to each other on the board, heheheh) idk. idk. LEAVE ME ALONE.