Himbo Next Door Or Sam Chan

looks like today is going to be a busy day and I can't sleep thinking about it, oh my god I feel like I just want to sleep all day.

How a1/a3 got their face from :

An ode to the cherished

(Transcript below)

0:00 - "You're pushing yourself, Ryan." 0:09 - It's okay. 0:14 - If I go just a little harder... 0:20 - ...I'll be worthy. 0:26 - "Worthy of what?" 0:30 - Of being Me. 0:34 - I'll be worthy of who 0:37 - I'm supposed to be 0:45 - "You'd be doing me a huge favor, and you'd be really useful." 0:51 - "But I was rather hoping to see ?????." 0:57 - "Your friends should help you too." 1:05 - I can't afford that. 1:12 - No. No. No. 1:14 - I can't afford to be weak useless. 1:19 - ...not anymore. 1:28 - "Enough, young Ryan." 1:31 - Please, just give me another chance! 1:34 - "Ryan-" 1:37 - I'll prove myself, just- 1:40 - "I said enough. You must be exhausted." 1:45 - You can let go now.

Song: Mice on Venus (Extra Nostalgic) Inspiration: @ kcelestyna (instagram) Thanks for watching <3

Edit: Realized this wasn't showing up in searches and am trying to fix it. Notes will be included down here instead! The three tenders at 0:37 belong to Spencer, Gordon, and Flying Scotsman. Locations featured at 1:12 are Arlesburgh West, Arlesburgh Harbour, and Harwick. Featuring quotes from Ryan And Daisy. Rolling stock at the end includes a breakdown crane, a mail train, and Captain Calles' Pirate Ship.

You ever wonder if the reason why Flying Scotsman calls Gordon his "Little Brother" is not because he was built first (because he was not, Gordon is older by virtue of being their class's prototype, and the second oldest would be Great Northern who was the first properly finished A1 Pacific, followed by Sir Frederick Banburry and THEN Flying Scotsman), nor because he's bigger than him (both locomotives are the exact same height and length), but because he was technically an older brother once before all his little siblings's lives got cut short?

Think about it. We've seen Gordon's side of things in the Railway Series. We saw how badly he was handling finding out that all but one of his siblings were decommissioned and cut apart for scrap. Surely Flying Scotsman was also trying to handle his grief... It would certainly explain why the Fat Controller managed to book for him to come to Sodor on such short notice (perhaps Flying Scotsman's owners and crew were also having difficulty getting him to run properly while he was mourning, so the chance to see his one remaining sibling was one they took with paid expenses because they hoped it would help him move on).

How can we be sure Flying Scotsman wasn't struggling just as much as Gordon? Sure, we know Gordon is the one engine who shuts down the most when it comes to change... But do we really know what goes on in his smokebox outside of the personable mask he wears for the public?

Maybe calling Gordon by that nickname is a (bad) way for him to cope because admitting to the fact he's not moved on from his own sense of loss would be absolutely mortifying. Maybe he feels like saying he needs more time or more help would somehow mean he failed his owners and crew, who arranged for that meeting all those years ago and spent "way too much" time and money doing so. Maybe he feels like he's somehow dishonoring his family's memory by not being the strong and unshakably powerful engine he's meant to be. The thoroughbred record-breaking Gresley A3 Pacific he was designed to be.

When everyone has this idea of him that he has to maintain in order to keep running and upholding his legacy (or so he thinks anyway...), it's probably very hard to be genuinely honest about his own struggles. And inevitably something has to give... Perhaps his and Gordon's bond as siblings.

at the end of an engine’s life, Lady will appear to shunt you, willing or unwilling, to your fate.

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