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More coping with the lovechild pt 1 💕
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My anxiety feels more like what i would imagine having a mini black hole in your chest would feel like
It centers around your heart and pulls, the pressure and stress trying to pull you from within rather than exterior pressure weighing down on you
Your lungs stuggle to inflate because they must pull against this black hole. Speaking is hard because it's gravitational pull grips at your throat and holds to the back of your tongue.
It makes you hunch, pulling your shoulders closer, forcing you smaller, your hands fumbling to grasp at anything thatll pull you free from its grip
Your legs like lead as they fight to keep your knees from surging to your chest, lest they give in and you fall prey to this black hole's terrifying depth
Your head tilting down, glancing wildly for help or danger, your thoughts pressed flat against its temporary seige
Sometimes it's a roaring energy that settles heavy in your cells, demanding safety in its purest and devestating form
Sometimes it's quiet, like a small breeze, where you can tuck your sleeves a just little tighter, and it was like you never felt the tug at all
And yet its silent, invisible. You are the black hole you are desperately trying to escape from.
Funny how people assume, then, that because they cannot see your black hole, that it cannot be as bad as you say it is.