Hmmm Which Will It Be Today, Total Numbness Or Emotions So Intense They're Tearing Me Apart From The

𝐈𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐈’𝐦 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐭. 𝐈’𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞.

excerpts from a book I’ll never write

If I have to live, at least let me start over

L. A. Johnson, from "Birthmark"

Every time

i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

It’s this or I feel nothing at all

"My red flag is isolating myself when life gets dark & messy. I'd stay silent, pull away, push those I love away & hide.

but, It's also when I crave being found the most, where I long for a heartfelt convo & pay attention to every gesture of kindness."

This really would make my heart melt 😭