1: Black Planet (Sisters Of Mercy)

More photos from when I did corpse paint last Tuesday. More silly corpse paint shenanigans coming soon. Guess I'm becoming more involved in social media lmao.

Tbh because of everything that's happening with the world I am really going between escapism and discussing and thinking about it a lot.

fuck school

i'm in my second year of college and i gotta say that "i'm gonna burn the school down" statement that we tell each other is becoming a pretty nice one. my depression and anxiety have become waaay worse each time i go back from vacation and to school. not to mention how fucking abelist the system is. the vice principal has been harassing students for a while and she fucking terrifies me. she could be nice and actually try to do her job without becoming a menace everyone hates because she's so confrontational all the goddamn time. i'm told to attend my classes and do better when i tell them explicitly that my mental health cannot take all this pressure. the students bully us and call us names, backtalk and chuck stuff at us witch resulted in my dear friend fighting back then getting suspended until next semester all because she pulled a weapon she didn't use because she felt unsafe. i got so angry but went back to school the next day anyway because i had no choice. They punished poc and immigrant students for jumping on the table once but not the bullies that illegally posted videos about us online witch was cyber bullying. we put posters in bathrooms and hallways as a form of protest against their fucking bullshit that is them punishing the victim vs the bully. it's like they give waaay more of a shit when their poor ego and reputation is bruised but won't do any actual work to fix themselves. also the racism is fucking wild, they belittle immigrants and find any reason to punish them when they overlook the popular kids doing way worse things. classrooms are very overstimulating and there's barely any space to relax except the library wich isn't good either. they won't take down the gender markers on the toilets and when i ask for a break my grade is taken down for not attending. i try, i really do but if they continue like this i will get worse. i have way more things to say but that's all for now.

cant believe i am forced to do HUMAN things why cant i hang upside down from the ceiling? why cant i lay in bed like its my coffin? why cant i prowl around and lurk in the shadows? sigh.