Pretty Cool Imo . Some Of The Specific Sets That Arent Nounself Can Trip Me Up Sometimes But They're

i'd love to see it if you ever share it :] my watcher experiences arent very vivid but it'd be cool if we had anything in common that i do know

I'm making my own Watcher biography! Since I can't find any accurate information on my source other than the same unhelpful "Just watch the EVO series and the Life series to get lore", I decided to take the advice I got on The Centaurus Festival and just... write my own canon from my own observations, memories, feelings, etc.

Then I'll try to either print it and bind it or just save it for future reference. I just want to have a place with all of my identities written down, with all of the history and "lore" of my source. Which, for me is not lore... It's my life, my memories, and my world

from my main ^

btw yall im gonna try to not be on tumblr as much so . sorry if you arent getting as much from me

looks at my once-human but now unrecognizable hearttypes... (watchers/keepers)

(btw since mine is a ""human"" character I consider transspecies, I feel the need to clarify: go by YOUR understanding of your hearttype for this poll)

so i just discovered a new. uhh thing.

"new" because ive known about this series since i can remember. griffin and sabine. my deadname is sabine.

only time i will ever say that. do not call me it despite what this post is about

griffin and sabine is the first in a 6-book series about two people separated by an unknowingly great distance.

plot summary i guess; griffin believes sabine is a figment of his imagination, who he writes letters to. sabine proves herself to be real blah blah they merge into one being in alexandria.

years later, matthew and isabella are two lovers who know eachother to be real, but are long-distance due to their work. they too must merge into one. now, they have griffin and sabine to guide them, sabine is part of matthew . an opposing force is after them.

i have not read all the books in full, but i have a gist. and.. i think i have the energy of all four of them. no, i type that and it sounds wrong. but..

one of them has my name. my name that i dont like. cannot be mine. but i relate to her. she's beautiful in my mind.

i just looked through these books , so im talking like them a little. oops

i love them though. they call to me. the energy feels natural to everything i know.

this is so weird. its not a kin. it is not so . modern and online. she's in my heart, younger pre-transition me, old soul me, everything

im like matthew i guess. she's there.

alt vers under cut

related to that reblog thing i was blabbin on. about experiences and envisage shifts.

i recently had my strongest shift in a while (although thats not saying much, mine are weak as hell) while in my friend's car. a song started, and when i realised it was a song i didn't like that much, i felt and saw two antennae flatten against my head in upset.

maybe a coincidence, but the song was numb little bug. like.. bug antennae. idek. of my known types, idk what it would be.

i think theres already a term? its like paw something

PETITION FOR "AESTHETIC THERIANTHROPY" TO BE THE TAG WE USE WHEN TALKING ABOUT MASKS, QUADS, ETC

need to visit an old friend (magnolia tree at the park)

offering a virtual hug if you want one. its so horrible that roadkill has to even be a word. take your time if you need it

Tw: mentions/topics of animal death, description of gore (kinda), subjects of death, mild description of traumatic experiences, trauma art (blood and a bit of gore included)

Yesterday i saw a black cat run across the street. I knew this cat. I've seen it often running around in the bushes. I also pet it a few times.

Today around 7:40 AM it was dead. It's insides across the street all bloody. It traumatized me and I've been distressed the whole day. Couldn't focus on anything and zoomed out constantly.

Normally I don't have a problem with seeing dead things but seeing this kitten looking like it's stomach exploded gave me flashbacks of past traumas (my first 2 cats got hit by a car) and a new trauma. The whole day i was thinking about what the owners of the cat felt when their found their beloved pet like that on the street. The kitten was still very long and could've lived way longer.

But seeing this also distressed me bc i also had a dream about dead animals that night and someone trying to murder me and my family (I'm not going to describe the dream as it would be too long and probably too graphic).

I've also been thinking about death a lot recently. Not like my own death, but much rather about the death of my beloved ones. My family, friends, pets, etc. I'm not scared of my own death but I'm scared of the death of the people around me. Mainly about my pets recently because there are a lot of dead rats lying on the streets in and outside our village and a few days ago a dead dog was found in a field.

I'm so scared that moppi and Garfield could die anytime soon. They are the cats that have lived the longest with me. I've had moppi since 2017 or 2018 and Garfield around 2021 or 2022. I've bonded with them more than with my other 3 cats I've had before and I'd be lying if I'd say I don't feel some kind of guilt even though their deaths wasn't my fault. But to me it would feel like that i loved moppi and Garfield more than eddie, ignatz and örni even though i love them all equally the same.

But what also made it traumatic for me was that I've figured out how i died as a cat in my past live. One of my theriotypes is a black mainecoon cat. I never knew how i lost my life as one but i was pretty sure i was killed by a car or something (but never was 100% sure). I got flashbacks and memory shifts that were new to me (but not nice ones). Walking across the road, worrying about nothing until a big engine with bright lights hits you in seconds, not even having the time to run away or figuring out what is happening, until it all went black.

Theriantropy isn't always nice as a lot of people say. As you can see it can also be really traumatic depending on your experience

When I'm coping with something i draw it because i know the paper I'm drawing on won't and can't judge me for my feelings.

It's just scrabbled but it's not meant to be beautiful. It's meant to be meaningful.

I couldn't bring myself today to finish cat drawing requests or any of my art that includes cats. The only thing i was able to do today was draw this.

guys.. me

Alterhuman coining: Othermarrowed 🦴

[pt] Alter human coining: Other marrowed [/pt]

🞜 Definition 🞜

[pt] Definition [/pt]

Othermarrowed is a term for those who are in-between being otherhearted and otherkin in some way.

Possible reasons for this include:

Having had a past life as a certain creature/being, but not fully identifying as such in this life.

Rejecting humanity to the point that one feels more like their hearttype than a human.

Experiencing frequent or highly notable phantom limbs or other shifts surrounding one's hearttype.

Becoming so connected with one's hearttype that the lines between identifying with and identifying as feel blurred.

Not fully understanding the difference between otherhearted and otherkin, making one feel unaligned with either label.

And more!

I've seen this idea talked about a few times, but I couldn't find any actual term or coining anywhere. So apologies if this exists already!

Cambikin is a similar term; however, one who is othermarrowed is typically not shifting between being otherkin and otherhearted, but are instead typically stagnant or only somewhat fluid between the two. (Those with a fluid sense of identity may still use othermarrowed, of course!)

I went with a bone theme to kind of play off of the "it's in my bones" and similar sayings. "Marrowtype" would be the othermarrowed equivalent to "kintype / hearttype."

🞜 Symbol & Flag 🞜

[pt] Symbol and flag [/pt]

A rhombus shape was chosen for the symbol as it is somewhat in-between the shape of a heart and a star. The two lines inside represent both otherheartedness and otherkinity, and are also meant to look like bone marrow inside a bone. And the wavy line is meant to look like a bone, as well as represent the spectrum of identities.

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Also made a flag. The stripes don't really have any special meanings, just chose cream cuz bone color and then colors I thought would look nice.

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