Rob Zombie and Sheri Moon Zombie.
Hi dad. I got an angsty one for ya.
How would the slashers (anyone you wanna write for, as many or few as you want) react to a reader who they've kinda fallen for and acts comfortable around them, but is really just putting up an act to stay alive? maybe the reader could fall for them, but they're scared out of their mind and Stockholm syndrome isn't happening. đđđ
Trigger of love
âBrahms Heelshireâ
âMichael Audrey Myersâ
â Jason Voorhees â
â Jesse Cromeans â
Tw: major character death, description of injuries and bones breaking, canon violence, mature language, toxic relationships, mentions of blood, description of mental illness
A/n: THIS IS THE JUICIEST TASTIEST ANGST REQUEST EVER BRO. so happy to finally have the opportunity to write it, even tho it has taken me ages but I'VE DONE FINALLY. That's my shit right here, really tragic stories with really tragic endings and never ending dramas ANYWAY ENJOY
I genuinely think brahms would end up killing you
LET ME EXPLAIN OKAY? DON'T COME AT ME
he wouldn't do it on purpose, it would be something accidental. Your behaviour would bring out the worst tantrum ever in historyÂ
Not your fault bro I know but it is what it is
The fact is that everytime brahms does something bad it has some sort "justification"
Like Idk if it makes sense but take greta for example
He did all those things at the beginning cause she was breaking the rules, and he killed Cole cause he was hurting herÂ
You're not doing anything wrong but at the same time he's hypersensitive to people's behaviour so he knows you're not really doing it because you love him but more because you fear him
It's like living with his parents and even tho there's some sort of comfort in it because it's all he knows, he still wants to feel truly lovedÂ
You don't try to escape but don't let the Stockholm syndrome kick in either and you don't even give a chance to actually believe he's not going to hurt you
Which again, not your fault cause his tantrums are enough on their own to make someone shit themselves, and he knows itÂ
We love a self-aware king
So he finds himself in this shitty in between where he can't say he doesn't has what he wants but neither that he's happy
For once in his life, having his own selfish need of you staying ecc it's not enough and he wishes for you to be happy as well
You do everything and beyond to keep him happyÂ
Never once broke a rule, never once tried to get away, never said no to giving him affection or anything he asks for
You have even taken care of him when he was sad ecc
But he can still see it in your eyes how scare you are of him
You flinch away everytime he just as much as lifts his hand, you always tremble slightly around him, your eyes has never stopped being glossyÂ
The only time he sees any other emotion in you besides fear is when you're alone and he's not really sure how much better that is cause you look so defeated and sad and overall depressedÂ
Needless to say the guilt is eating him alive, to know he's the one who has ruined you like that will never leave him a moment of peaceÂ
It's literally driving him crazy
At first he was like 'yeah whatever, fuck you. You'll stay anyway and I'm not going to say sorry'Â
Oh boy if he did regretted it
Once again, he feels like he felt while living with his parents all over again and after a while he develops this fear of you killing yourself like they did
My man here is collecting trauma like pokemon cardsÂ
He tries everything like everything for real
He becomes more patient, he tries to take care of you instead of making you take care of him, he treats you like you could break if he's not careful enough
At this point my boy doesn't even fuckin wants you to be in love or for you to get the Stockholm syndrome, he just wants to show you he's sorry and that he has learned his lessonÂ
It's like living in some sort of loop from hell where he can't fucking make it right even if he really wants to
He has even stopped spying you and invading your privacy without you having to ask for it
Has even considered to let you go but he has found out about this underlying fear of someone telling the police everything and making him end up in a much worse situation than being a prisoner in his own houseÂ
Funnily enough his insecurities about his face ecc are subsided by how much of a monster he feels on the inside
Like you have made very clear you're simply scared of him as a person, not because of his face.
And that's something he will never be able to get overÂ
After countless months of trying and being in his best behaviour he just kind of snapsÂ
You haven't seen him all day and you didn't felt observed either which made a very appreciated break from your hypervigilanting and stressing routineÂ
Just when you thought everything was calm and you decided to head up to go to bed, there he was waiting for you at the top of the stairsÂ
He seemed calm but you could seem the slight trembling of his body, one you recognise from numerous fits of rage he had in the past
He didn't straight up started to yell but you sensed there were like wrong and right answers to each question he was makingÂ
He kept asking you if you loved him truly, if you were happy or if you wanted to leaveÂ
To everything you always answered what he wanted to hear even tho the feeling that you were saying the wrong thing was only growing more and more
'You're scared of me, aren't you? You'll never want to be here'
At this point he knows you're lying and for a second something seems to switch in you
He has stopped wearing the mask around you so now you can freely see how pained he actually looks
You have never noticed before how tired he looks too
You have spent so much time being scared of him that now that you see it and you like really look at him you can see how defeated and miserable he has been
There's no trace of pretending or lying or trying to manipulate you in any wayÂ
Now you're still scared but not as much and for once you actually decide on your own to try and help himÂ
You can't stand to look at him crying like that, it looks like he's going to die from a heartbreak anytime soonÂ
You start to go towards him with your hands up forwards so he knows you mean no harm
It's really like trying to get a stray animal to trust you
He has his hands covering his face and you can see how violent are the sobs, you actually take a minute to let yourself be amazed by the fact that even with such a hard and brutal crying he's able to conceal the noiseÂ
He's used to do it since he was a kid and it shouldn't surprise you that much but in some way it doesÂ
When you finally reach for him that's when he pushes you away screaming
Which scares the shit out of you and makes you lose your balance
It's a cliché but he swears it all happened so fast but at the same time so slow
He saw how you made yourself trip backwards and your face contorted in panic as you felt the void behind you, realising you were about to fall down the stairs
He tried to grab you but you were trying to hold on the rail so you just completely missed his handÂ
You basically flew down the really long staircase and all he could do was watchÂ
He had that paralysing feeling of guilt and fear clawing at his guts as he watched you fallÂ
But when he heard the disgusting sound of your neck basically snapping against the hardwood floor, that's when he really felt sickÂ
He almost wanted to run away and pretend nothing has happened cause in his mind, if he got near you now that would make you dead for real
For now as he watches from afar you could still be aliveÂ
BTW baby bro here is not stupid and I'm not talking basic level of knowledge nono
I'm talking he has studied and read about a lot of stuff including books about medical things like injuries eccÂ
Basically he's like really smartÂ
That being said, and I know you know where I'm going with thisÂ
From the moment you fell he knew you wouldn't survive.
Either that or you would end up disabledÂ
He knows too that when you snap your neck you don't die on the spot but you feel a ridiculous amount of pain until the injure does its course of action
That's yet another thing he feels guilty about your death
He should've put you out of your pain at least but he didn't, he just stared at you while shaking and crying silentlyÂ
He didn't even dared to move in case some invisibile and unnoticed force of the universe would notice what he has done and decided to punish him for it
Which thinking about he felt like he was already being punishedÂ
It's kind of sad cause he didn't actually meant it, it was truly an accident but he will always blame himself for it as if he was the one actively pushing youÂ
Now he knows that no matter what he does or how much he changes he's always destined to be the cause of the death of the people he loves.Â
Which he should've seen coming since not even his parents could bear his existenceÂ
Tbh he's not that shocked about it
I mean bro at least acknowledges the fact that he is the fucking boogeyman and everyone will always find him scary
He doesn't even tries to excuse himself because he knows he kills and he's a overall unhinged man and that's something a normal person will never get overÂ
What bothers him is the acting niceÂ
When you both met, you really didn't knew who he was
He happened to have been badly injured and was like bleeding the fuck out on your backyardÂ
yes, you basically just took him inside as if he was some sort of stinky and pitiful ugly cat
That and the fact that you're taking care of him stirred him away from the idea of killing you
No shame in being oblivious to the most juicy gossip in town but bro was really just waiting for you to recognise him
When you did, and you started to act all nice and scared ecc he has to admit he took advantage of it
He knew how to scare you into never running away and never snitching him to the police so he could use you for food ecc
At some point he was impressed by how well you're able to keep up with thisÂ
No lashing out, no crying and you have never broke downÂ
He could tell tho that you have never been this stressedÂ
Your hands are always trembling, you don't sleep well at night so you're getting clumsier by the minuteÂ
When you drop stuff, burn food ecc he doesn't mind much but as time goes by it's hard for him to not get attached to you
Which it frustrates him cause he it makes him even more aware of how you see him
He has come to know you by invading your privacy a little bit
He had to since you were not exactly open to let him get to know you
The more he finds the more he likes you
And the more he likes the more he realise he has basically killed you from the insideÂ
It's hard to think all of those things he has found out are about you cause now you look more like a shell of what you used to be
And he definitely feels the guilt of being responsible of you losing your spirit
You're the first person he really cares about and loves like really truly loves
But that goes against everything he is now cause he can't possibly choose between be with you or killing
He starts to dwell on the past too much and the more he thinks about it the more he gets mad about the situationÂ
Before you he has never really care too much about the injustices he has sufferedÂ
As a matter of fact he has never really grasped the fact that so many people have failed him and that's why he will never have a normal life
There was a time where he kind of did but that was long ago when he was just a kidÂ
At some point he just accepted what everyone said he was, that he's only purpose and role in life was to be a monster to everyone
Whether he wanted to or not it wasn't really importantÂ
No one would help him nor he could make people change their minds
Besides, his reasoning is that if so many people is saying it then it must be true
And in his own selfish way he thought that the only one who got the consequences of it was him and the idiots who happened to be killed by him
Now that he sees the result of what everyone and himself has done with him on you he just feels sick
He finds himself spending hours observing you and daydreaming about how a normal version of him would've lived a normal life with you
He tries really hard to show you he can be gentleÂ
Spends hours observing other couples and what normal people do with their loved ones to understand better how he should act in order to get closer to you
It's so frustrating for him cause he literally doesn't has a choice anymore and he sees in you everything that's wrong with him that he can't change
He feels for the first time as broken as he really isÂ
At some point he wishes you could just drop the act of being nice, treat him like trash so he can tell to himself you're like everyone else therefore he doesn't need youÂ
But even if you were to do that he knows he would never be able to kill you
Everytime you touch him even if it's by mistake he gets a bubbly feeling of hope inside that maybe you're starting to see him as something different than what he isÂ
But then he looks at your eyes and he sees the same glossy and sad scared stare looking right back at him
He knows there's like nothing else he can do and for the first time he just gives upÂ
He needs to like get used to not be able to see you so he starts with small steps
He starts to staying out for a couple of hours more than usual, then hours turn to days, days into weeks, weeks into months and months into a yearÂ
Everytime he comes back and you see him he can immediately see the shift in your behaviour and how you lose all the already weak sparkle you have gathered from knowing he was far away from you
That's the worst part of it for him
He needs to see you, he wants to spend time with you and looks forward to see you for the last few times before going away frÂ
But you on the other part seem to flourish when he's not around, to count the minutes and seconds until he's goneÂ
It kinda makes him feel like he felt when he was a kid and he wanted to see his parentsÂ
The day he finally came back for the last time after a year you were asleep
He didn't even sit on the bed, nor did he woke you up or did anything that could steer you away from your sleep
He sat on the floor near your bed in complete silenceÂ
He took off his mask knowing that you would never see him and he just stared at you
He wanted to look at you, take in every detail of your face to burn it in his brain so he would never forget youÂ
He just wanted to look at you not as the shape, but just as Michael. Even if just for one time he wanted to pretend he was just that and that you were being stared by a person and not a monsterÂ
For once his difficulty in expressing his emotions was useful because if he were to let go of all the things he was experiencing he could swear he would just explode or melt awayÂ
The only thing that came out of him was a tear, which he swiped away slowly before getting up and putting on the mask again
After that he never came back, obviously you were over the moon and he was just well going on with itÂ
He occasionally stalks you but after some time he stops cause it makes him feels sickeningly aloneÂ
Here something to think about if you need to cry: sometimes he thinks back at when he was trying to get closer to youÂ
One of the things he wanted to do the most was holding hands but you always looked so scared when he tried to do that he just dropped itÂ
He understands how it might look to you that this tall ass bastard is trying to hold your handÂ
That and the fact that he wasn't really good at being careful and gentle didn't help his causeÂ
So from time to time, when he thinks about it he stares at his handsÂ
You know when you like pretend to be holding someone's hand while holding yours?Â
Well he does that and finds ironic the fact that he has learned to do it gently now that he will never be able to do it with you
Listen, LISTEN
I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK, IM A JASON APOLOGIST FIRST AND A HUMAN SECOND
jason my beloved what are this foul gremlins making me do smh
He is one of the few slashers I genuinely think could change for you and try to make things better
Jason doesn't kills just for funsiesÂ
He kills because his sense of duty and to protect himself and his home and all that jazz
I don't really think he genuinely wants anyone fearing him
If anything it's the opposite. He has been treated like a monster his whole life, no one has ever gave him the opportunity to be something else
Like why would he enjoy ending up being what everyone has always thought of him? Doesn't make any fucking sense mate
Like I said he has to, he genuinely thinks there's nothing else for him to do and there's no other place in the whole world for him
IM GONNA CRY BUT LIKE HE'S AT LEAST GRATEFUL OF HAVING A PURPOSE CAUSE HE GENUINELY THINKS HE'S SOME SORT OF SICK JOKE OR MISTAKEÂ
 So my Wild take of the day for which I'm ready to bet my own ass is that if he could he would very much appreciate to just be left alone and live a normal life, not bothering or harming anyone
The fact is that much more like so many other slashers he can't really communicate to tell you at least his reasons for being a murdererÂ
That's something that torments him daily, to know that in your eyes he's merciless and overall really evil
Assuming you survive being hunted down by him, he would do near to everything to show he's not a threat for you
You must have been someone who he didn't deem fair to killÂ
Like you were respectful, you didn't seem to be a fucking moron messing around and ruining his homeÂ
Once again, I'm gonna assume you just don't know about him and crystal lake ecc
cause otherwise for you to be there is pretty much a death wish from your part
That being said, if you don't know anything about him there's a good chance that the scariest part of Jason (sadly) it's his appearance and behaviourÂ
JASON BABE YOU'RE HUGE LIKE SCARY BIG, WHAT THE MCFUCK IS ONE SUPPOSED TO FEEL SEEING YOU CHARGING AT THEM LIKE A FUCKING GRIZZLY BEARÂ
The whole being chased around like a fucking animal is not a vibe i guessÂ
LET ME BE DELUSIONAL ABOUT THE FACT THAT WITH ENOUGH TIME HE COULD BE QUITE NICE TO BE AROUNDÂ
I won't let anyone ruin my mental image of him being a sweetheart once you know him
THAT MAN CAN'T BE THAT EVIL. YES, I CAN FIX HIM. IF YOU THINK YOU CAN'T THAT SOUNDS LIKE A YOU PROBLEM
Now, jason may be shy and a gentle giant but he's not stupid
He knows very well how you think of him and how does he looks like to anyone who sees him
He can see through your act, you can't fool him
He can see the same scared look in your eyes he used to see on other people's face when he was a kid
The only person who has always looked at him like he's just well a human being with feelings is his mother
And maybe it doesn't makes sense and It may be controversial but deep down jason appreciates the nice actÂ
Like he just can't bring himself to care anymore. At least someone is trying to be niceÂ
Keep in mind this man has known nothing from the world beside humiliation, pain and lonelinessÂ
Idk if anyone ever thinks about it but it torments me a great deal the thought of Jason's miserable life
Being stripped away from your humanity, having to choose a path of violence to protect yourself, having to witness how they kill the only person in the whole universe that could ever love youÂ
That shit it's just not fair and even if he knows you're scared of him he sees it as the most caring and thoughtful anyone has ever been with him in a long time
Think about it, anyone who has ever seen him has either tried to kill him or has been incredibly cruelÂ
The fact that, even if out of fear and self-preservation, you try to still reach to his human side and treat him with respect at least it's already enough
I think he could be one of those slasher that could make you fall in love without falling for the Stockholm syndrome type of infatuationÂ
HE IS, OKAY? I WILL TAKE NO FUCKING CRITICISMS. YOU WILL GENUINELY FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM OR ELSE I'LL STEAL YOUR FUCKING PET
Jason would literally try everything to get you to feel less stressed around him
It breaks his heart to see your eyes glossy or your body shaking because of fearÂ
In the process he gets clumsier by the minute so at the in of the day you're both stressedÂ
He is because he's scaring you just by breathing and you bc obvious reasons
You can notice how different he acts tho and somehow, his efforts manage to go through your thick layer of fearÂ
You could swear he almost tries to make himself look as harmless and gentle as possible
You can see him trying to take as little space as he can or bringing you things that might cheer you upÂ
He cleans up from blood and gore before getting back homeÂ
He even makes his cabin more homely for you so you feel more at home and less kidnappedÂ
And at some point it worksÂ
That plus you somehow piecing together what has happened to him it's starting to make it easier for you to not relax but overall feel less terrified around him
He would spend so much time watching you from afar because he knows he will never get to know you or see you without fearÂ
The days where he can observe you without you noticing anything are his favourite. He gets to see a version of you more relaxed and natural
He would literally spend an eternity being far from you if it means you can feel betterÂ
He would spend his free time improving the cabin and daydreaming about what it would be like to be liked by you
Not even like dating you because he feels it would be wrong for him to even think about it
Please for the love of God, try to be friendly with him
Having the opportunity to know him better is taking away some of the fear
You know very well it's not Stockholm syndrome cause it feels genuine
One day you take a good look at him while he's taking care of his flowers I'm the gardenÂ
You observe every part of his rotting being and you can't exactly explain why but you feel your heart ache and your eyes glossyÂ
Not for you, but for him
It's almost like some sort of illumination comes to you and makes everything painfully clear
You have obviously noticed he's not alive cause we're stupid but not that muchÂ
You take a really good look at his clothes and body, at his mask and everything you look at to get more details about him
Everything in his appearance screams hurt, wounded and mistreated. A whole life and a afterlife filled with getting hurt and abused by the worldÂ
His bright blue eye has always a layer of sadness in it even when he's doing something that makes him happy
It hits you just now how little human he must feel.Â
And that leads you to realise that he has not only changed so much just to please you but has distanced himself as if he's very own existence could be offensive to you
From that day you started with small steps like saying good morning or good night to him, keeping him company when he tended to his garden, trying to get closer to him even if that means just being in silence and standing next to him
That grows into "talking" with him, taking walks around the woods, spending evenings reading inside the cabinÂ
You insist in eating together, tending his wounds, mending his clothes and overall doing anything that could make him feel less like the shell of a human beingÂ
At first he doesn't really get it but the more you do it the more he silently realises how much he craves those types of things.Â
I personally think that with enough patience you both could build a good relationship and you could even talk him out of killing people and settle for just scaring them away
He's favourite thing to do is curling up next to you in bed, his head on your chest so he can listen to your heartbeats while you mindlessly caress his back while telling him about anything you wantÂ
đ¶DADDY LET ME KNOW THAT I'M YOUR ONLY GORLđ¶
Some funzies before doing some emotional terrorism
Since you all want to be a menace with this requests I'm going to use post accident Jesse
To say this man is on the verge of tears every single day is an understatement
So long story short you were jesse s/o
He was like the love of your fucking life and you were his
His whole world goes around you, you're the only thing that makes him genuinely happy besides his work
You found out about the whole chromeskull thing in the worst way possible
He was scared of coming back after the accident with his face so he just kind of distanced himself
Everytime you would ask when he was coming home he always had an excuse
You both went a long time of just calling each other's, spending time on calls and sometimes even falling asleep with the phone still on
He missed you so much but he couldn't bear the thought of you looking at him like he was monster
It was killing him to know he was so close to you but couldn't reach you
You find out who he really was on accident
Cleaning around to distract yourself you ended up gathering many things that needed to be put in the attic so that you did
Once you were there you found some tapes. You checked them out of curiosity and oh boy you regretted it
You felt so sick you almost threw up
All those girls, there were some many of them in each tape and each one of them different from the other
It was horrifying to watch the love of your life mercilessly torture and kill helpless and innocent people
Now everything made so much more sense and It actually made you feel even worse to know that this whole time, while you were talking with him, Jesse was killing people
What hurts the most is feeling like you've been played, like you were something he has used to entertain himself until he finds a new victim
Needless to say you didn't stayed in your shared apartment a day longer, you didn't even take with half of the things you own
Most of them were gifts Jesse bought you so bringing them with you was only going to make it worse
You were scared out of your mind. So scared that in fact you couldn't even find the courage to go to the police, afraid that maybe that would end up with your being another one of Jesse victims
Obviously no one told Jesse what was going on. They all collectively agreed their boss was dealing with enough shit to keep adding more
They all needed Jesse to focus on work
That didn't worked well cause as soon as you stopped answering the phone he decided enough was enough
He needed to check what was going on so he found the courage to overcome his insecurities and go find you
He was heartbroken when he found you left
He immediately thought that you just got tired of waiting for him, that he has drawn you away
Long story short he went after you to find you and try at the best of his abilities to explain everything and win you back
He did not see the coming all that panic and terror in your face when he knocked at your door
He did think it was bc of his face so he tried to calm you down and explain
Needless to say you didn't calm down and he being the man he is, just kind of kidnapped you
Now onto business here
He knows you have every right to feel like this but it still upsets him deeply to know that he will never get the chance of being with you like before
He thought that you being scared and acting crazy every time you saw him was the worst but now he is kind of rethinking it
You started acting like this after he "snapped" at you
You were panicking and screaming while he tried to tell you something, that lead to you taking his mask off accidently which ended up in him pushing you off too hard
After that things went really fucking downhills
It wasn't like you were still out of your mind but the look in your eyes is unbearable
The first time you started the whole acting nice thing he almost thought you were starting to at least tolerate him but then he saw it
It's the same look some of his victims had while trying to gain his trust, seeing it on you was the worst thing he has ever experienced
He just couldn't stand it anymore, his face, you hating him, his favourite victim who was the one that has damaged him so badly killed by that cunt of Preston and now this? Mate is done
He has tried everything and anything but now he just kind of gives up
You notice the shift in his behaviour, how he comes by just to bring your meals or things you may need, he doesn't even goes near you or talks and his eyes are always anywhere but on you
I gotta be real with you guys, I don't think there's like a way to make this up
HE'S HURT OKAY? BRO'S EMOTIONAL DAMAGE IS BIG AF
He would even start sending his assistant to take care of you so he doesn't has to face you at all
It's just painful cause he already feels like his life is ruined and everything is falling apart with him not being able to fix it
You know what? I'm gonna fix it cause I can't take it anymore
You have probably grown used to be basically trapped at home, it's not like you're suffering with god knows what kind of abuse cause you basically have all you need to distract yourself aside from going out
Jesse comes home very rarely and as much as you hate to admit it you have been feeling less and less scared of him
You still think what he does is horrible but the thing that bothers you it's him lying to you
You do have to admit you miss being with him. Not like when you were scared but like when you didn't knew and he was just Jesse
You wonder from time to time if he's angry at you for how you have reacted since he hasn't shown himself for quite sometimes
As if on clue you hear something break in the bathroom and what seems like someone crying
That would be another of Jesse's mental breakdowns about his face. He thinks he looks so bad he can't even bear the sight of himself in the mirror
You slowly try to approach the bathroom and putting your ear against the door, you try to hear what's going on
You have never heard Jesse crying nor making any sort of noises come out of his mouth so it's actually quite shocking to hear him sob so hard
When you open the door the scene breaks your heart and in that moment you don't see chromeskull or the homicides, you just see your Jesse, the same one you have always loved and that has always helped you when you were down, on his knees bawling his eyes out and shaking
You just do what comes naturally aka you get closer and you just hold him as tight as possible
He tries to hide away, panicking bc he doesn't want you to see what he has become, but you just keep hugging him and saying that it doesn't matter
The moment you hold his face on your hands and look at him with the same understanding gaze you used to have it's the moment he feels his heart beating right again
It's not gonna be easy to accept everything but at least you're coming around it and he makes sure you know how grateful he is for it everyday
Pretty woman
Y'all don't understand the obsession I have with this particular fanart.
art by @/kcokaine_ on X
Just here to share the Italian judo winner kissing her girlfriend after the match, in front of our fascist, homophobic, disgusting prime minister.
We won this oneđłïžâđ
Credits to: @apriteilcervello on instagram
I'm amazed by this bad boy, truly â€
Feral smoking Ghoul
From the Wikipedia page about the Fermi Paradox: Given the high scientific probability for alien existence, why can we find no evidence of their existence whatsoever?
kate bush during a performance of âwuthering heightsâ (1978)
2017-04-18 ZurichÂ
Ghost stories around the city whisper about a creature in the forest. They describe it as a moth like monster that only brings misfortune and death.
But what will you do as you learn these silly ghost stories are true flesh and bone⊠and now haunting you?
pairing: satoru gojo x f!reader
wc: 12.9k
warnings & tags: 18+ only MDNI, monster x human relationship, loose interpretation of the mothman legends and stories, death mentions, protectiveness & obsession that can be read as slight yandere like, lot of bug discussion, monster transformation with a touch of body horror, wound licking, blood & tear consumption, magical healing, car accident, allusion to f!oral receiving, kidnapping, character deaths (this ends happy I promise) feral and lovesick Gojo, if there is anything I missed please let me know!
a/n: this is my first submission to @willowser Haunted House Collab and Iâm so honored to be part of this! Thank you for putting this together dear Willow! The title is from the lovely Hozier song. Also a big thanks to @skeletoncowboys for letting me scream about this monster & to @stellamancer for always being my dearest comrade in Gojo hell, enjoy and thanks for reading! Stay spooky!
Your grandfather once told you he believed butterflies were fairies and moths were angels.
It made sense to your child logic that butterflies could be fairy creatures. You even imagined fairies had butterfly wings. But, you had argued back in disgust that moths couldnât be angels.
âNow now,â your grandpa had laughed. âWhy canât moths be angels?â
He gently explained moths were mainly seen in the evening and around light. He believed moths were the forms angels took to keep watch over everyone late in the night when no one believed they were being protected
âAnd,â he told you with all his sweet patience. âSomething like a moth that loves the light canât be bad.â
Scientifically you now understand moths mainly were nocturnal as a survival instinct for less predators and more opportunities for prey. Some were even active during the daytime. But your grandfather's words stay with you, etched into your heart.
He is why you are here after all.
The campus at night always holds a certain hollowness.
However, the storm that blew in yesterday continues looming with ominous clouds in the sky. It cast an early darkness against the city. The thick haze feels as if something could slink out of the shadows.
When you slip out of the research lab building there, against the light outside, one lone white moth flutters in the air.
Quickly glancing around the campus stretches out before you a vacant lot. In that moment of surveying, delicate wings rapidly flutter fast and wild against your face.
âAck!â A surprised squawk leaves you at the mothâs sudden charge.
âI told you!â You hiss out waving the bug away. âYou couldâve waited for me at home.â
The moth, outraged by your words, rushes against your face harder. Silk wings flap hard while it continues waving around your line of sight in a flurry.
âCalm down, you big baby!â You snap back annoyed and start stomping towards your car.
Now the little insect stops its fluttering attack to gently land on your face. As the bug travels across your cheek, its presence is a gentle tickling sensation. It finally stops and rests against you.
âHappy now?â You mutter low praying no one spots you with a large white moth on your face.
âIâm gonna pick up dinner. So are you getting in the car or meeting me back home?â You speak casual yet still within a low mutter.
With a delicate tickle again, the moth scurries across your cheek then across your nose making your lips twitch in a slight giggle.
Then the creature flutters away, your answer.
The pizzeria you end up at is adorably cozy. You spotted it during the drive to and from campus. Once you read the online reviews and got their blessing you decided to check it out.
Christmas lights hang from the takeout counter where you wait for your order. Thereâs even a quaint bar-like area. But what catches your attention is the small section of things littering the walls behind the counter.
It reminds you of a scrapbook.
Various newspaper clippings clutter one side. A few blurry photos are folded and pinned to the board. Plenty of hand drawn images scatter among the collage and they range from adorable to terrifying.
All of these things are about one single moth creature.
The board itself is even titled -
The Mothâs Nest.
Moth nests can be disastrous. They infect fast and are hard to exterminate. Plus once they create a nest, infestation is soon to follow.
âAh, looking at our board.â A smooth voice purrs into the air and you turn towards it in slight embarrassment.
A beautiful blonde woman grins at you from behind the counter now.
âI heard the town had a moth thing but thisâŠâ from the drawings, which all included a strange humanoid like creature, this is far from the high moth population count it was known for.
The woman barks an amused laugh and it crinkles her rather lovely eyes.
âYou could say that,â she grins. âYou new here?â
âSort of.â You nod. Youâve been here for almost a full semester now and you wonder if the newness will ever melt away.
âWell then, welcome to town!â The womanâs name is Yuki and for being a newcomer she pays for your pizza.
âEven though you got this for takeout, why donât you stay? Eat here and keep me company.â She winks and you happily slide into the open seat she pulls up for you at the checkout counter.
âSo whatâs a lovely thing like yourself doing here?â Yuki asks smoothly and you almost choke on your first bite.
After she cackles a warm charismatic laugh, you swallow through your surprise and tell her.
âAn en-tah what?â She caws confused like a bird and even her furrowed brows make you snicker.
âAn entomologist,â you clarify.
In simple terms, you study bugs.
âOh!â Yukiâs eyebrows fly fast up into her bangs as her eyes twinkle excitedly. âSo youâre all about the creepy crawlers then.â
âNot all of them,â you reply back friendly.
You favored Odonatology and Lepidopterology.
The studies of dragonflies, damselflies, butterflies and in this case-
Moths.
âWell now,â Yuki grins and turns to glance at the board. âLooks like youâre in the right place to find moths.â
It was one of the reasons why you chose this program. The university boasted a plentiful and hands-on ecosystem to explore right within the townâs backyard. You just never expected an urban legend to come attached to the critter population.
Curiously you nudge your face towards the odd journalistic collection and ask about it.
Yukiâs face melts into a wistful look that casts a surprising shadow on her.
âItâs a creature that apparently lives in the woodsâŠâ she begins, low and steady.
No one knew how or when it began inhabiting the forest. Some argued itâs a simple folklore meant to scare rowdy kids from venturing into the woods.
âThe stories say itâs an actual demon.â Yuki explains.
âThereâs a belief that anyone who sees it either dies soon after or calamity befalls the town.â
Yukiâs words conjure up a poisonous fear. She adds how any sight of the cryptid, even in the strongest of nonbelievers, brought a sense of unease.
âBut,â Yuki shrugs easily turning back to you. âSome people say that thing is a hero.â
The word hero gets tangled in your ribs
Your new friend explains there are those who have seen the beast and lived to tell a different tale.
Multiple children on different occasions have got lost in the woods. Yet, they always found their way out. Most of them claimed the moth creature helped them.
âThereâs even an elderly man who went hiking and still swears up and down that thing saved him from getting attacked by a mountain lion.â Yuki comments.
âThatâs a big claim.â You admire the thought of this monstrous creature possibly being a silent guardian. However, it festers something dangerous in your heart that weaves a sticky web.
The pizza on your plate grows cold. The lone drink you were nursing now is a watered down mess. Youâve lost your appetite and decide to head home.
Thereâs not much for your mind to process. It feels like the same sensation of walking out of a horror film and trying to understand what you saw. You try to rationalize this disorienting simply the same sensation youâd also get hearing ghost stories at sleepovers.
Yuki urges you with a warm charm that youâll come and visit again, you promise her you will.
Walking out with leftovers in the box, the night greets you with a soupy fog. The lingering storms coat the streets in a mystic cloud.
You wonder if this clouded fog is inside your mind as well.
Youâre about to take a step out into the parking lot when a horrifying animalistic shriek pierces the air.
It sounds distorted, a static shrill cry summoned from an ancient abomination.
The screech shoots straight into your bones startling you and making you jump in a pause.
In that moment a car speeding way too fast for a parking lot flies by you. It drives by with a whirling speed rattling the wind.
The noise, the shriek, stopped you from stepping out into the carâs path.
You mind buzzes, maybe too much. The gloomy air seeps into your skin and brings a heaviness over your body. You exhale shakily trying to just settle yourself as you head home.
When you return to the tiny closet of your apartment, there outside against the balcony door your white moth flutters furiously waiting for you.
Sliding the door open youâre about to greet your extra house guest until the text chime on your phone draws your attention away.
As you check your phone charging on the couch, a sudden thud lands against your apartment floors. The flapping of wings flutters into the room.
Before you can even turn around, a shadow falls over you. The presence of something large looms like a ghost, silent and steady yet radiating a chill besides you. Then a firm fuzzy face suddenly dives into the side of your neck burrowing against your skin.
âYou need to be more careful.â A voice crystal and aware, yet flickering as if it speaks through the branches of the woods, clicks at you.
You think of the car that blazed by.
âIt happens and Iâm okay.â You reassure.
The inhuman face hiding in your neck draws back. Then a firm head soon enough gently butts against yours. The action jolts you out of your thoughts and you rapidly turn towards the heaviness leaning against you.
Crawled straight from the shadow of the woods, from the whispers of terrified stories, the creature before you still doesnât seem real.
You think of Yuki and the mothâs nest board at the pizza shop. All the pictures depict the creature with haunting crimson eyes.
You wish you could have told Yuki the monsterâs eyes arenât red, but instead a piercing sky blue.
And instead of two eyes, the creature holds six beautiful eyes all over his face.
All six eyes of those eyes blink at you with the depth of a haunted lake shimmering within their gaze.
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âWhy do you want to study insects?â
Discovering the cryptid could talk was honestly more surprising than discovering he was real.
Also, he had a name.
âSa-to-ru.â He had told you, pronouncing its syllables as if your little human brain might not get it. It made you scowl. Yet the name itself sounded like something that fluttered out of the forest breeze.
Currently the moth creature, Satoru, sits happily on your apartment balcony under the dark cover of night. You have articles you need to read, lab reports to finish. But, you stay sitting on the floor beside him.
âMy grandfather studied them.â You explain, giving the same answer you always do when this question is asked.
âHe loved almost every type of bug there was.â
âSounds like my type of human.â The moth amusedly chitters. âLove to meet him.â
âHonestly, he wouldâve loved to meet you too.â You truthfully admit and almost grin thinking of how excited your grandpa wouldâve been to see this creature.
âUnfortunately, he passed away a few years ago.â You add simply.
âOh.â The cryptid replies quietly. âIâm sorry.â
You politely thank him.
âIs he the one besides the moth?â
Youâre surprised Satoru even noticed that.
The frame sits on your eclectic shelf filled with books and trinkets. Thereâs two pictures in that frame. One is a photo of your grandfather during his days when he moved out here to teach at the university you currently attend. The other photo is you and him both holding up big nets when you were a little weed of a thing looking so happy besides him.
Besides those photos is his favorite sketch.
âItâs a luna moth, right?â Heâs right again. Though, youâre not surprise he recognized it.
âYup, the lunar moth was his favorite.â You fondly agree.
Actias luna.
Your grandpa used it as his example of how beautiful and lovely moths could be.
âHeâs a man of good taste.â The moth compliments and for some reason it tugs at your lips. You can almost hear your grandfather's voice warmly boasting in pride.
âI wanna show you something, little human.â The moth quickly changes topic and when you turn to him, you find him grinning.
Rows of dangerous sharpened fangs flash within his mouth. They are a visible warning to not trust this creature, but you do.
âAfter your class this week, Iâll take you somewhere.â Satoru urges.
âAre you going to eat me?â You ask a bit stunned.
Satoru laughs, a flickering chirping noise that bounces off your apartment balcony.
âOh little human, if I did eat humans I wouldâve done that already.â
You glare at him but sighing you agree to whatever he has in store for you.
On your last class of the week, there outside against the campus street light your white moth flutters excitedly.
You think about how dangerous it is that he sticks around campus, even in this form.
With a rapid flurry he flies around your face. You canât help but snort at the tickling sensation.
âYeah Iâm here, letâs go.â You tease.
Under the twilight hazee, you follow the moth into the woods.
The setting sun casts a shadow over the stretching forest. The trees silently watch your hesitant trek as you follow the moth further into the thickness.
Eventually youâre in the heart of it. No noise greets you, not even the rustling of birds or the fleeing of other animals. Itâs as if in this depth all life had stilled. No movement or sign of life encroaches into this space. You realize this might have been the most ridiculous idea, following this cryptid myth into the unknown.
Suddenly the moth stops in front of a large solid tree.
âThis is what you wanted to show me?â Youâre a bit confused. The insect flutters around you in a huffy flight then goes to spin around the tree.
Satoru himself now slides out from behind the tree in his humanoid form.
âItâs not just a tree.â His six eyes narrow at you annoyed. Your eyes roll exhausted with him already.
âDo you trust me?â
The question surprises you.
Hesitantly you nod, a quiet yes. Satoru then effortlessly scoops you into his arms as if you weigh nothing.
A wild squeak escapes you. His firm arms hold you in his grasp and your mind starts scrambling being this close to him. The fur of his body tickles your arms and the solid warmth of him curls around you.
Satoruâs chittering laugh bounces among the trees.
He then takes flight.
You swallow back a petrified screech threatening to escape and simply let the wind rush around you. A solid thud comes, a landing.
âOpen your eyes, little human.â Satoru whispers excited.
You hadnât realized you had closed them.
The nest before you is a cobwebbed cocoon. You had never seen one this big. The opening of it is carved out wide, a webbed open maw with secrets trying to draw you in.
âGo in, you can see more.â His wistful voice skitters out playful, so light it could get caught in the tree branches.
Heâs eager to show you this.
Hesitantly you lean into the nest just to glance inside.
Itâs actually rather cozy. Webs and branches twist in a delicate pattern to create a solid enclosing. Leaves scatter the inside floor that is rather large. You can even imagine his large form curled in here cat-like as he sleeps.
âSo? What do you think?â He asks with an anticipated edge blooming in his voice. Heâs showing you his home.
You remember when he first showed himself to you, even gave you his name.
The logical reasoning within you thought many times about studying this cryptid. There was even a fleeting moment you considered capturing him and returning him back to the lab.
Now you are here discovering his home. You find yourself wanting to unearth as much as you can of this incredibly infuriating but wonderfully interesting creature.
âItâs nice!â You earnestly admire the space. Yet, the truth whispers a harrowing fact.
The bigger the nest, the bigger the infection and danger.
So you instead turn to glance out to the forest around. Youâre so high above in the canopy of the trees. Silence seems to settle thicker here among the sky and it mingles with the evening darkness.
The forest, even as tranquil as it appears, holds a sense of loneliness you canât fully describe.
âHave you been here at this spot for long?â
He chirps a humming yes.
âThe high placement keeps me safe and away from prying eyes.â Among the trees and leaves he is simply a shadow.
âDo people try to hunt you?â That grim thought arrives.
âA few try, but no oneâs even come close.â A cocky pride brims in Satoruâs tone.
You understand why people would try and search for him. But to hunt him like some prized sport? So you have to ask why.
âBesides some humans believe killing me will solve and save them from all their disasters, a select few who want me for other purposes.â Satoru muses as his antennas twitch.
âWhat other purposes?â You glance back at the cryptid perched on the solid large branch beside you.
In the dark, all six eyes glimmer with an animalistic reflection, a haunting gleam and reminder of the creature's true nature before you.
All those months ago, these multiple eyes stared at you from the edge of the woods by your apartment and the campus like silent terrors. Now they watch you with intent safety right by your side.
âThereâs an old legendâŠâ Satoru answers. âIt says my kind could bring someone back from the dead.â
The words spark a curious flame in you.
âWait, really? Is it true?â
The moth being simply shrugs, an action so human you almost want to laugh.
âSome believe it. Thatâs enough to hunt my kind.â
So many questions cluster in your mind. You wonder more about his kind, about him. Yet there is no way to scoop all those questions out.
All you can do is gaze out at the scenery before you.
The trees pierce the darkness with their own spiked tendrils. The night sky blankets above you with twinkle stars, glimmering pockets of faint light so clear.
Yet, for some reason this again feels so lonely.
Even with the stretching comforting woods, you canât shake the sensation of solitude slipping out.
âSo why do you still stick around?â You suddenly ask not even understanding why yourself.
âWhat? Around you or here?â He asks.
âBoth.â
A chirp of a sigh comes, heavy with an ancient weary.
âIâve thought about leaving, migrating somewhere else, somewhere safer.â His voice drops gently, a small click in the wind.
âButâŠâ His voice trails off even more delicate.
âSomething just keepsâŠpulling me back here. Like Iâm meant to be here. That Iâve been waiting for something.â Youâve never heard him this wistful and distant.
Then his response also has you curious.
âDo you have any idea what it is?â You cautiously and gently press.
âNo idea.â His answer is rapidly too casual that you snort, shaking your head.
âAnd why am I still hanging around you? Who knows, maybe I just like to bug you.â
The pun isnât lost especially on you and you groan annoyed even though a smile twitches at your lips.
Among the shade of stars and shadow of the forest, you sit with a creature of the darkness.
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The moth had first appeared at your window balcony dancing around the light like an ethereal wisp of a spirit. It happily flew around you and even spun around your entire apartment. You eventually had to shoo it out.
For a while, it was simply you and this strangely persistent moth.
After that, six eyes began appearing at night at the edge of the woods. Strange clicks like howls erupted in the air, haunting lingering sounds that rattled you.
That same week the moth showed up to your apartment flying in a bit of distress. The wings of it flapped slower and you wondered if it was dehydrated or dying.
As you had opened the sliding door to the balcony, thatâs when you first witnessed it.
Like butterflies, moths go through a similar life cycle of emerging from a pupa or chrysalis. The new adult insects must crawl out of its old cocoon. The process is the blend of life and destruction.
You discovered the same applied to moth creatures.
The wings fell first then the twisting and emergence of a body from the small frame transformed to life a fully formed creature.
That first time the moth creature metamorphosed on the balcony you screamed so loud your neighbor across the hall came worriedly to check on you.
You had hoped it was all just a bad dreamâŠ
Now when you return home early, that monster rests in your bed instead of lurking under it like all the scary stories whisper where monsters lie.
Curled within the sheets, burrowed deep and taking up the entire frame, the creature slumbers. You barely can spot Satoru underneath all the pillows. A few of your shirts peek out from the swirl of blankets and you try not to linger on that.
The messy twisted bed cocoon however does make you think of the grand nest you saw.
A faint snore grumbles out into the room. The muffled animalistic noise should frighten you. Instead it echoes a soothing rumble as you go to make dinner.
In the meditative process of cutting, claws scratching against the tile floor startles you. Your heart skips at the sudden noise and your face whips to the entryway.
In this form, the moth cryptid has to hunch from touching the ceiling.
Satoruâs imposing frame fills up the entire space even with his thick wings folded to his body. The intricate beautiful antennas on top of his head flicker curious. Among the monstrous features, human-like qualities are visible in his arms, his legs, and the core of his body. Yet even in that familiarity, he is covered in sleek fur.
The sigh of this unbelievable being in this tiny kitchen almost has you laughing. Months ago this would have made you scream in terror. Now, his existence has settled into your life a strange blooming metamorphosis.
Then all six of Satoruâs clustered eyes go wide in terror.
His talons rattle rapidly on the floor as he scurries to your side.
âYour hand.â He comments sharply.
Glancing down, blood trickles over your hand and drips softly onto the cutting board. The cut thankfully isnât deep, simply sliced the top of your finger.
âGuess that means Iâm ordering out.â You mutter.
However your new companion immediately snags your hand.
Satoruâs grasp is hard, a terrified clutch as if heâs worried the cut will worsen. Flickering your gaze to him now, all six eyes focus at your hand with a startling petrified seriousness.
âIâm fine.â You reassure. âLet me just grab a band aid.â
The creatureâs firm hold is unrelenting, refusing to budge even as you tug to release your hand.
âHey-â youâre about ready to chide him and urge him to let go-
Until the moth cryptid leans down and with a long thin tongue begins licking at your wound.
Air gets knocked out of your lungs.
You mind canât process the sight but the wet tickle of his tongue swiping along your skin grounds you. Satoruâs tongue swipes frantically and fast, a panic.
A dangerous heat runs up your arm and claws at your chest. This shouldnât feel this intimate. Yet, it does.
You canât even exclaim in surprise because in the small dimly lit kitchen, the moth has you under his spell.
Instead of the panic, thereâs now an eased almost lazy and leisurely lap at your skin. The way his tongue slides across you is as if heâs trying to savor you. It slithers with a reverence between your knuckles, across your fingers, and your mind slowly melts.
Then with one last slow deliberate lick, Satoru draws back.
A daze has fallen over your foggy mind filled with smoke until you blink and notice your cut is gone.
Blood faintly lingers around his mouth, coloring the white fur of his face and it should scare you. And it does but the fear comes from how gorgeous he looks, and knowing itâs your bloodâŠ
The thin tongue immediately darts out to lick at the bloody traces.
The sight teeters into an overwhelming sensation and you forcibly break your focus to glance back at your healed hand.
âYou have healing powers?â You croak out trying to process the sight.
âNo.â For a creature that lives in the woods, he understands sarcasm rather well.
You glare at the creature who now tilts his face away. He avoids your eyes as he fiddles with the edge of your shirt.
âMoths can't heal.â You comment.
âIâm not like a typical moth now am I, little human?â
That damn nickname.
Annoying as Satoru is, you still canât believe the sight of your healed fingers.
âThank you for healing me.â You mutter still not able to process but are grateful all the same.
The moth creature hums a proud amused thing you quietly ignore.
Moths didnât have healing properties. Hawk Moths could recreate antioxidants in their body to replenish themselves. You wonder if thatâs how Satoru operates with his abilities.
Another part of you, one that sounds warmly like your grandfatherâs voice, whispers that the creatures of this world simply hold mysteries we may not ever know.
You suppose the cryptid refusing to leave your side is the solidified truth of that.
Suddenly Satoruâs head softly plops against the top of yours.
With soft gentle rumbles he rubs his face into your hair.
âYou know,â you begin softly as your fingers itch to run up against his fur. âYou donât have to keep sticking around here.â
âHm?â Satoru hums out a bit dreamily.
âYou can go back to where youâre from. You donât need to keep staying with me out of obligation for freeing you or feeling like⊠you have a debt you want to repay.â You breathe the words out firmer.
The nuzzling against your head stops.
âOh?â Satoru begins with a curious chirp. âThatâs not why I stay.â
His confident reply stills you.
âLike I said maybe I just like bugging you.â He grins coy. âAnd besides, I stay because eating the fabric of your clothes is pretty nice free food and I like scaring away any humans that might come by.â
âYou bring me closer to buying an electric fly swatter!â You screech and swat him away.
âAw, donât be like that!â He whines and flutters his wings almost taken back.
You ignore him and his annoying clicks vying for your attention while you order dinner for the night.
âI forgetâŠHumans are so easily annoyed. You most especially.â He says bristly and itâs the last straw.
Healing your arm or not, this creature manages to wiggle under your skin in a way that no one else has. You blame the damn moth for how on edge you feel. Yet the truth lies in the strange unfathomable heat still brewing under your skin.
As you leave you get food you stare at him hard. You sling the balcony door open, a silent demand he leaves. His multiple eyes, shimmering sapphires, search your face.
âI see...â His reply is a brisk breeze.
Turning your back to him, you head to grab your keys. You donât even see him leave and instead stomp to head out.
You even fully close your bedroom window. Itâs the crack of an entrance youâve recently been leaving open that allows him to flutter in when heâs a smaller moth.
Now as leave youâre thankful for the momentary space from the infuriating infestation.
Against the early night sky the pizzeria glows an electric beacon against the darkness. Clamoring chatter and an upbeat song greet you when you step inside. Youâre not surprised itâs packed on a night like this.
Yuki yells a bright excited welcome at you from across the restaurant and it warms you.
Now leaning at the bar your attention can't help but find its way to the bulletin board by the entryway. Even with the annoyance and conflicting desire, seeing the arranged clutter about the local moth creature draws out a strange sinking feeling within you.
âYou interested in the bug?â
A deep rumble of a voice drips out smooth and breaks your focus immediately.
Turning to the side, you discover youâre not alone at the bar.
The man is thick, solidly built and strikingly handsome. He seems older than you, with an aged weathered dignified presence about him. With only black hair and a scar across the corner of his lip, he sits looking bored at the counter with a toothpick in his mouth.
âItâs interesting.â You admit truthfully.
âThink the bug is real?â The man questions with the faintest hint of curiosity.
You shrug again. âAnything is possible I guess.â
âIndeed it is.â Now his voice holds an interested purr that sticks to your skin in an uncomfortable way.
Your eyes flicker back to him and you find his attention however is on the board.
âSome say itâs a demon.â He suddenly adds.
âIâve heard.â You agree calmly.
âWhatever it isâŠitâs bad luck.â The mystery man says briskly.
You heard that as well.
âSome say itâs not.â For some reason, a small protective spike rises in you and you even think about Yuki calling it a hero.
âYeah well, everyone can read an omen wrong I guess.â His words cast a dangerous thickness into the air that slithers up your skin.
âBesides, thereâs an old legend I heard once.â he continues.
âIt saysâŠif a moth flies into your home it means someone is going to die.â
Dread crashes into your body and consumes you quickly. Youâve never heard that saying before and it bubbles an awful bile in your stomach making you feel sick.
âThatâs awful.â You canât help but answer back sharply it even surprises you.
You think of your grandfather, his belief moths were angels, and how that guided you to where you are now.
And you canât help but think of the moth in question.
âSorry, didnât mean to upset you.â He leans back into his seat to stare at you.
No response for him seems to come to mind. If anything, a strange chill trickles down your spine as if youâre staring down a creature surveying and waiting to strike.
Yuki calls out your name and breaks your focus.
âWish I could stay and chat but weâre a bit busy tonight!â She winks at you and now you grin, eased at her presence.
You wish her a good night and begin gathering your order to leave.
âBe careful out there.â The stranger mutters. Your eyes flicker to him. His attention is back on the slice of pizza before him.
âDonât know what might be out there trying to fly into your house this time of night.â
His words create a sticky cobweb of emotions in you. You simply take your food and rush out.
Driving back to the apartment you glance at your hand fully healed and still lingering with the phantom sensation of the mothâs tongue licking at your skin.
You think of how effortlessly this strange creature carved a space in your life.
Now a sense of danger prickles against your skin, like the way the air tightens electric before a storm.
When you arrive home, a silent apartment greets you. The emptiness clouds your space and the walls creep in close and cold.
A piece of you expected him to return, maybe even hoped. But trying to sort through those emotions again bubbles a strange ache in your chest.
Before you go to bed you slightly open your bedroom window and settle under the covers. Closing your eyes, you accept the silence and solitude lingering in your room and heart.
Sleep trickles in faintly. You fade in and out of being awake.
Then your bed shifts.
A heaviness immediately curls against you. The softest brush of moth wings graze your arm. Soft chirps, faint and delicate, float into the room.
Satoruâs face burrows against the top of your head, a silent apology.
This is new.
Heâs never done this before. Heâs never slept on your bed with you. But your heart races too fast in your chest and your mind still feels so clouded from this night that you canât even react.
Or, you donât want to react.
This is new, yes. But a wild desperation inside of you sinks its claws into this new proximity. You simply keep your eyes closed and shift to settle deeper into the bed, deeper into his warmth.
The smell of the brisk forest, clear and earthy, lulls you to sleep.
Waking up the next morning, youâre alone.
A part of you wonders if you dreamed his return.
Yet on your nightstand rests a sweet plucked wildflower that wasn't there before. It greets you a bright good morning.
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Your open apartment balcony door brings in a warm evening breeze. A favorite series of yours plays on the television as you grab another mouthful of popcorn.
âCan I have some?â Satoru whimpers.
âNo.â You answer through the mouth of popcorn.
âSo mean! Why are you so cruel to me, little human!?â He pouts and you simply ignore him.
Even with the moth creature crouching on the floor his body still looks frightfully full and large. His fur is fluffed out more and he almost looks adorable like this simply sitting beside you.
His presence should create a distorted sense of reality. Yet no sense of panic rises within you. If anything, only more curiosity has started gnawing in you.
What kind of moth species did he originate from? Where was he even originally from? Did he have a family?
âWhatâs your favorite human activity to do?â It seems you were not the only one curious.
Recently Satoru has begun pestering you with a plethora of questions from what foods did you like the most to these more strange human specific ones.
âDonât know, I have a lot.â You answer truthfully.
You rationalize all the questions you have and that he even asks are mutual inquisitive curiosity about the otherâs species, a chance to learn.
Except, for you, the source of your curiosity masquerades as a yearning you donât want to hunt out yet.
âHumans are terrified of the oddest things.â
Satoruâs comment breaks your thoughts.
You turn towards the creature who stares at the television with all six eyes.
The series you had put on had been an old favorite of yours, supernatural and fantasy based. The main heroes in this episode were being terrorized by monsters that came alive from a childrenâs book of old fairy tales.
âWell this series is older so the effects and monster makeup isnât all that impressive.â
âNot that.â The moth corrects you quickly. âI mean that creature isnât even scary.â
You want to make a comment about how of course a creature that crawled from the woods and haunts a town would not find this terrifying.
âWhat are you afraid of?â Again the moth humanoid questions.
You shrug. âA lot of things.â
âYou donât need to be afraid of anything.â He chirps so matter of factly it surprises you. âEspecially because Iâm here now.â
You canât help but roll your eyes at his cocky boast. Yet your heart flips at the protective claim.
âButâŠI do think humans may be the scariest creatures of all.â Satoru notes with a wistful distance in his voice.
You wonder if heâs trying to tease you or even be a bit poetically pessimistic.
âI agree.â You nod reaching for popcorn. âHumans can sometimes be scary.â
In all the beauty that comes with being human, you know there is a darkness that comes with the territory. The lovely prickle of rain starting to fall soothes you as the episode jumps to the next.
Itâs one of your favorites. The main character gains a secret wish stone that transforms into her love interest because she desires and wishes for him most of all.
You rise to the kitchen to grab a drink.
âWhat do you wish for most, little human?â
His words stop you frozen. They come out so simple, a curious purr almost.
Your mind tries to reach towards something noble and grand like to wish for world peace or wish for climate change to end. You think of wishing for a better car, better apartment, to get rid of your money problems.
Yet it all cultivates into a simple easy response.
âLove, I guess.â Itâs a simplified answer.
âThat?â Even Satoru sounds dubious.
âYeahâŠlove. If you have love, then everything else sort of just falls into place.â With love at the cornerstone, everything can build from there.
A chittering like sigh dances into the room.
âBoring. At least say something interesting like an endless supply of sugar or something like that.â
You canât help but snort at such a silly answer.
âIs that youâd wish for then?â You now ask the creature.
âMhmâŠmaybe. Or maybe something extra special your little human mind couldnât comprehend.â Such a coy response only makes you roll your eyes.
But for some reason, that answer feels heavy like it needs to be unearthed. You donât push the answer, or him.
As you clean up around the kitchen, you glance back to the living room. There Satoru rapidly consumes all your popcorn as fast as he can.
âYou freaking pest!â You screech annoyed and he simply blinks his six blue marble eyes at you as if he did nothing wrong.
âIâm not a pest.â He replies innocently and it annoys you even more.
âYouâre literally a moth! What is more pest-like than that?!â
Satoruâs monstrous face flickers. It faintly crumbles until his eyes hollow out a cold downcast.
âRight there? You just sounded just like every other human.â His words, low, raw and sharp, rip through you.
He doesnât say it but you hear the undercurrent.
I thought you were better than that.
A festering ache swells in your chest as the weight of his words drag you under.
Quietly you start making two bowls of popcorn now. You grab the chocolate syrup. Satoru had a fierce sweet tooth. It took you by surprise when your gas station candy treat went missing and his sticky fur said enough.
So you drizzle plenty of chocolate over the salty snack then you quietly speak.
âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have said that.â
A moment of silence fills the space.
âItâs alright little human... Sometimes I forget your little human brain makes so many mistakes like that. I canât get too mad.â He chirps so bored.
Youâre tempted now to throw away the chocolate popcorn.
Thankfully the air seems to lighten as you head back to the living room two popcorn bowls in hand.
There Satoruâs multitude of eyes are entirely glued to the television now. The familiar dialogue comes and you whip your attention to the screen as well.
The big realization between the main heroine and her love interest unfolds as he realizes what her wish manifested as.
The moment is heated, drenched in undeniable chemistry. The magnetic pull even has you entrapped. Then the love interest without hesitation pulls the heroine and kisses her with a fierce released love.
Now it feels so intimate, too raw to watch. You turn away under the guise of grabbing more popcorn.
âIs that how humans show affection?â Satoruâs voice is a curious twinkle of a chirp.
âYup,â you weakly agree while you check your phone hoping to seem disinterested.
âSeems aggressive.â For some reason his disgusted comment makes you snort.
âUh, it depends. Kissing isâŠâ thereâs much you can say on the manner but you simply shrug.
âItâs nice.â A simple but true answer.
âWhatâs it feel like?â The question drips with an inquisitive click but for some reason it slithers dangerously under your skin.
âUhâŠagain, it depends. Thereâs different types of kisses for different situations and the emotions can change with them.â You explain.
âSounds complicated.â Satoru muses and you snicker relaxed with the episode ending.
âI thought you knew all about human interactions?â You now ask, curious yourself.
âNot in that way.â Thatâs fair.
âOr reallyâŠIâve just never been interested in seeing humans interacting in that way.â He adds rather low.
âUntil recently.â That addition he gives cuts across you as if itâs covered with sharp glass edges.
âGuess this series does that, even to moth creatures.â You lightly try diffusing whatever shift starts to swirl in the room and drag you into its current.
Satoru stays quiet, curled into himself and his wings. Very faintly his antennas droop, enough that you notice it.
Rain now steadily prattles on peacefully mixing with the episode playing. Yet in the silence your skin crawls with something unspoken you canât evade.
You close your eyes hoping to avoid any more questions and pretend youâve fallen asleep. Naturally, a nap overtakes you and you jolt awake when a text message brightly wakes you up.
âSo what episode are we on?â You sleepily ask, noticing the cryptid hasnât left. Evening would be arriving soon, the time Satoru normally slipped back into the woods.
âA weird one.â He mutters and now curiosity flickers in you over which episode it is.
Your eyes widen.
Of course it would be this one.
The heroineâs best friend falls in love with a monster living in a cave. Itâs another one of your favorites. Now, the obvious reality sinks its fangs into your throat.
âThis is the most ridiculous one by far.â Satoru scoffs. âNo human would actually love a monster like this.â
His words deflate something in you. All the nerves and prickling emotions scatter.
âI donât know.â You offer back lightly. âMaybe thereâs something extra human to love a monster.â
All six eyes rapidly blink towards you. Their glassy yet sharp attention focuses so intently and itâs unnerving.
âYou donât mean that.â He snips and it distorts his voice more than normal.
You shrug.
âWhat do you mean by that?â He annoyingly asks, persistent.
What you mean is sometimes humanity can see through what society deems as monstrous and instead love the core of what a being is.
âI mean, itâs like what the episode says,â you nudge towards the television.
âIf love is fanged even between humans, why canât a monster find that same love?â You quote it vaguely but enough to capture the core.
The same goes for humans you explain.
âCause like what we said earlier, humans are a bit scary from time to time right? A little bit monstrous ourselves?â
So why not settle with a love fanged and coated in the shadows.
The episode takes a shift when the heroineâs best friend greedily kisses the bat-like creature. An electric desire jolts across your spine as it dries your throat.
âI never knew humans couldâŠdesire something like this.â Satoruâs eyes now unabashedly stare at the television with a religious focus almost afraid to look away.
âSome do.â You try sounding casual, but your voice croaks.
A heavy fog clouds your mind. Before he can ask or comment anything else you brightly announce youâre going to take a shower. You scurry to the bathroom without even once glancing at the moth monster.
Itâs a pathetic excuse but itâs early evening now. This decision isnât entirely out of the blue. You just need to cool down and take yourself away from the moment.
However, under the weight of the water, under the heat of the steam, you try washing away the festering arousal seeping into your veins.
The episode flashes in your mind. Except this time you picture yourself in the arms of the towering moth creature.
This danger has been brewing well beneath the surface and now slips past its shackles.
It rips you open raw and wild, unrelenting in a way that a slick heat already pools between your legs. You should not, by all rational means, be attracted much less so attached to this monster. Yet, you are.
You remember how easily he swept you into his arms, how solid and built his frame is. He is stunning. You canât even deny that.
You even think about how comforting a presence he was in your bed. Those thoughts melt and mutate dangerously.
Now, you imagine how warm and solid he would feel against you, between your legs. What he looks like drunk on pleasure-
Exhaling shakily, you turn the shower as cold as you can.
When you return to the living room after the shower, the sliding door is still wide open. Rain continues to twinkle its beautiful song into the living room, a living room now very vacant.
No moth creature is in sight and the bowl of chocolate drizzled popcorn remains untouched.
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In the research lab you grade quizzes from the class you work assisting with. This time during the week the lab is thankfully empty and it gives you time
to catch up on your articles and work.
A surprise knock however disrupts that peace.
Your advisor walks in with a warm grin. Besides her is the man from the bar.
A confused anxiousness seizes your heart and you try keeping your face composed.
You politely smile as your advisor calls your name.
âThis is Toji Fushiguro. Heâs an agent from the local conservation group trying to investigate where our dear little moth friend went.â Your advisor explains polite and casual.
Your heart sinks rapidly.
The unknown moth had been in a large observation box the first time you saw it.
It had been a new and recent find. Being a first year in the program, you simply were allowed to watch and observe the new species.
Bigger than a typical silk moth, the unidentified moth had beautiful intricate designs on its wings youâd never seen. The little creature was also incredibly feisty. On multiple occasions it flew into the side of the box as if trying to push its way out.
Now that glass enclosure sits empty.
âDo you think it would be alright if he asks you a few questions?â
You happily agree hoping that cooperating will divert any attention from yourself.
With a grin your advisor leaves the room to give you and Fushiguro space. Now alone with the man from the bar, he sleepy grins a coy amused thing.
âSo, we meet again.â That deep voice sulks out with a lure that feels poisonous and sticky.
âWe do.â You nod politely.
âShouldnât be surprised youâre a bug fan.â He scratches at his jaw and for some reason his casual attitude towards you twists your stomach.
You want to make a witty comeback but nothing comes to mind. Instead you stare down this mysterious man.
âWhat makes a cutie like you get into bugs huh?â He asks casually.
âMy grandfather.â You answer truthful and curt.
âHm, thatâs nice.â Fushiguro nods understandingly.
His eyes begin scanning the lab with that same boredom he wore at the restaurant bar.
âSo when did ya let the moth escape?â His relaxed question makes you choke.
âExcuse me?!â You snap. âI didnât let the moth out.â
Except you had.
The first night you stayed late at the lab you accidentally forgot to close the windows.
In that mishap, the moth escaped. You were thankful another class used the lab after you and disrupted the possibility of anything being pinned to you.
The department of course was a bit disheartened. However, everyone warmly joked about half of the job of being an entomologist is chasing after things way too fast to catch.
That happened months ago.
âIâm going to be honest with you.â Toji Fushiguro leans against the table with a brazen ease. âIâm here looking for that thing cause itâs dangerous.â
For some reason, you donât fully believe him.
âRemember what I told you about moths? Theyâre bad luck.â His stare is unwavering and cold.
âThatâs arguable.â You surprisingly fire back.
Toji Fushiguro shrugs. He slides his hands into his jogger pantâs pockets.
âIf thatâs all you wanted to discuss, then I need to ask you to please leave. I have work to do.â You answer sharp and composed.
He simply shrugs again and pushes himself off the table he leans against.
Without another word Toji Fushiguro simply heads to the door. Before he leaves the man stops.
âThat bad luck I told you about? Sâgonna catch up to you soon, pretty. Just want to give you a warning.â
It sounds like a threat instead of a warning.
At his words a venomous bile pools in your mouth and you almost want to snarl at this man. He leaves with just a casual wave of his hand and not another word.
The rest of the time in the lab you canât focus on anything. You simply float in this strange inertia.
When you leave, no moth flutters outside to greet you.
A new wave of terror wiggles through your stomach.
Your apartment is also deadly silent. Worry prickles all over your body as you slide open the balcony door. You even peer out into the woods hoping to find six gleaming eyes staring out.
Yet only the darkness, eternal and empty, stares back an ancient unforgiving warning.
So try pushing aside this rattling worried energy. You try to make dinner, even put on a favorite movie for background noise.
Your mind however canât leave the thought of Toji Fushiguro. Mainly, you worry about the absence of your moth. Fear eats away at you as if an actual creature has crawled inside.
And maybe he has.
You miss him. You miss Satoru. Youâre worried about him.
Heâs become a staple in your life, a strange fixture pestering you. You canât imagine a day without his presence now.
Then a realization trickles in a slow and sticky truth.
He is a creature of the woods, a myth of the darkness. Maybe he never meant to be yours.
Now here you are. A selfish human simply trying to keep him all to yourself.
A sudden clash of something solid rams into the balcony rail. You canât help but shriek.
Thee moth creature rapidly shoves his way into your living room. He crawls inside feral like something out of a horror movie.
âSatoru!â You cry out his name and rush towards him.
Satoruâs piercing sky eyes, all six of them, are wide and frantic. His gaze darts around the room. Then he begins sniffing around the space.
âSomeoneâs been in here.â Satoruâs voice drops, a waterlogged frantic gurgle.
âWait what?â You ask terrified. âHow do you know?
You start glancing around the room now and follow Satoru as he continues rapidly smelling the space. There are no signs of someone breaking in and entering. Nothing even seems out of place or stolen.
âI smell something new. Itâs not either one of our scents.â Satoruâs voice drips with a sharp dread and it chokes you.
âWhat does that mean?â You croak trying not to get caught up in the terror and panic, but their current is so strong.
Suddenly Satoru whips around.
There in the hallway of your apartment he completely consumes the entire space with his imposing frame. The darkness of the hallway and dim lighting casts a grim shadow over him. His wide frantic eyes are animalistic, more than youâve ever seen.
His shoulders heave with rapid breaths. In a blink Satoru suddenly crams his body against yours.
This giant of a monster curls down to crouch into you. His face begins rubbing against yours. Soft growl like purring rumbles into the air.
You canât help but whimper his name as fear has you in its maw.
Whatâs going to happen? What could you do?
You try to voice these questions, these worries, but the words get tangled in your throat.
âNothing will harm you.â Satoru snaps deadly as the edge of his tone wavers into a frayed growl.
Those strange humming clips and chirps he makes float into the air while he continues comforting you.
Clawed hands curl into your back with a noticeable pressure. Thereâs a hint of danger in his tight grasp. But then you realize youâre also clutching onto him with an iron hold.
Frustratedly you try blinking away tears managing to stubbornly spill down your cheeks.
Satoru, who still rubs his monstrous face against yours, immediately notices your tears.
A distressing chattering noise comes and youâre readying to reassure him youâre fine.
His tongue instead moves to lick at your tears.
The action stills you immediately. The slick appendage rapidly slithers across your face trying to quickly wipe away your tears.
You think about when he healed your hand, when his tongue wiggled across your skin to lap at your blood. Now here he is again, consuming you, trying to heal and comfort you.
His tongue however slides down across your cheeks tasting the salt of your skin. It immediately sparks to life an intoxicating heat that drowns out the panic.
A part of you wonders about the danger swirling around him and how there might be a possibility that doom is seeping into you.
This might be your doom, to adore a creature composed of myth and nightmare.
You blink and a few lingering tears rapidly run down your cheek straight to the corner of your lip.
Satoru, fast as ever, moves to lick them up. In the process his tongue slithers close to your lips, running across the edge of them.
You inhale sharply and your eyes canât help but snap open wide. Youâre breathing heavily. The way Satoruâs large shoulders begin heaving, so is he.
Suddenly he breathes out your name and it gets tangled in your heart.
âMine.â Then his voice, animalistic and monstrous, cracks the air with a low possessive growl.
His tongue begins running across your lips without hesitation. The wet wiggling intense sensation has your eyes closing in absolute bliss. You sigh and want to open your mouth to let his tongue slip inside.
âYouâre mine.â He snarls out feral and wild. Those strange clicks of his come faster and soon enough his claws draw you closer.
Suddenly Satoru inhales deeply against your skin.
Then he groans a terrible wonderful noise that makes your knees buckle.
âOh you smell so good.â He slurs. He continues to smell every inch of your skin, trying to map and memorize your scent.
A whimper escapes you and Satoru rumbles out a comforting click.
He begins dragging his down your body with a focused intent.
âStronger, itâs getting stronger.â He mutters against your clothes.
âSatoru-â you say his name a bit worried.
The moth creature shoves his face unabashedly against your clothed sex. He groans loud, almost debauched and all thoughts float out of you. His antennas rapidly twitch.
âOh itâs here.â Satoru mumbles in awe, possessed, as if heâs found a deity. âYou smell so good here.â
He growls frustrated as he tries burrowing his face closer and closer to your dripping arousal.
You croak out his name waterlogged.
Satoru snaps to look up at you from his knees. All six eyes are glossy and frantic.
âPlease? Please, my little human, can I have more?â He begs.
Thatâs when you notice his mouth is wet drenched with saliva. Heâs drooling at just the thought of you, drunk on your smell.
All you can do is nod, caught in the same intoxication desire.
Effortlessly he claws apart your pants at the seam and dives in. You canât even chide him for that.
Your mind goes blank, consumed by pleasure and lost in its woods. As you cry out while his thin tongue runs up and down every inch of you, you realize Satoru is right.
You are his. And maybe he is yours.
Satoru arrived in your life and never left. He instead stayed in the safety of your light with you under the cover of his wings.
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âDonât go to class today.â The moth mumbles.
Satoru has been glued to your side since the discovery of your intruder last week. He barely leaves the apartment and when he does itâs only because you need to leave. Currently he sits on the bedroom floor with wide sleep deprived eyes.
The antennas on top of his head flicker quickly. Heâs tried been pushing himself to stand guard even during the day.
âIâll be fine, itâs just a lecture.â You reassure him.
âBesides, you should take this time to sleep. You need to rest.â
âIâll be fine.â He mirrors your words back to you.
Your monsterâs six eyes hold a daze focused like heâs trying to be aware of everything all at once. Slowly and delicately you let your hand run against his soft face.
The delicate fur, now a tangible dream under your fingertips, is so sulky. The touch jolts the creature into awareness.
Satoruâs eyes all flutter you and instantly his face melts against your hand.
âDonât go.â He whispers a static like mumble.
âIâll be okay.â You even lean down to kiss the side of his face.
âFine, then Iâm going.â He snaps a firm unwavering decision and you canât argue with him.
As you walk to the lecture hall building he flutters so swiftly and dizzying in his normal moth form. He even flies all around your face, another angry urging for you to not go.
You gently hold out your hand. Slowly the moth flutters to land on top of your hand.
He is gorgeous in every form including this one. Shimmering wide eyes, large intricate wings, all composed in this sweet creature furiously crawling over your hand.
âI know youâre still upset, but Iâll be fine.â You softly reassure him for the hundreth time.
He stops and stares at you. Gently you run a finger across his fuzzy little head careful to not touch his antennas.
He flies from your hand and lands immediately on the corner of your lips.
A goodbye kiss.
Your lips twitch amused and deeply fond.
âIâll see you when class is over.â With that you head to class.
Walking into the classroom, one of your peers excitedly speaks to everyone present in the room.
âDid you guys hear?! Someone just saw the mothman thing on campus a few minutes ago?!â
Terror unfolds in you and your heart collapses among its cage. He must have transformed in the woods, or in flight.
âReally? Are you sure?â A skeptic quickly emerges and you cling to their words.
âNo I swear! Everyoneâs been talking about it online! So many people saw it fly into the trees by the woods!â
You havenât been this terrified since the contained moth was missing or since you first saw six reflective eyes staring at you from the dark.
Chatter breaks out immediately with so many discussions. Some of your classmates show their disbelief while others eagerly ask for more information.
You try to keep your composure as you slide into your seat.
âHey,â someone says your name. Your friend that sits next to you stares at you with a scrunched up face of concern.
âYou okay? You look kinda sick.â She frowns.
You wearily smile and use the excuse that you have been under the weather. A cold chill even runs up your spine.
âThen head back home,â she comforts you with understanding eyes. âIâll send you the notes from today and let you know if you miss anything.â
Grateful you wearily thank her and she nods warm, reassuring, wishing you rest. As you turn to head out you catch the last bit of conversation bubbling along with your classmates.
âWellâŠif someone saw the moth thing, doesnât that mean something bad is gonna happen soon?â
âYeah thatâs what the legend says.â Someone grimly agrees.
Scrambling, you shove yourself out of the classroom before you hear anything else.
Now out of the room you shakily exhale trying to calm yourself down.
At this time in the evening the hallways are deathly silent, harrowingly so. Unlike the lab building, so open and light with its many windows and expanded hallways, the lecture hall buildingâs tight corridors create a haunting clustered stillness.
That stillness seems to be creeping in more and more.
As you walk towards the elevator, sudden footsteps begin stomping behind you.
They are solid and firm, staying a decent pace away from you. The anxiousness from these past few days create an unbearable itch that crawls over your skin.
So you turn around.
And the hallway is dead empty.
No one walks behind you.
Fear tastes icy and rotten as it infects your body. Instantly you whip around to rush to the elevator.
You clash straight into someone.
The collision knocks you out of your thoughts and you quickly blink into focus.
A rush of apologizes stammer out of you.
âHey, itâs okay.â The man you ran into warmly reassures you.
You finally get a good look at him. Heâs handsome with a strong jaw and a faint mustache. He looks official in his suit. The smell of cigarettes surround you.
âActually, I was wondering if you could help point me in the direction of the main office.â The man smiles warmly.
This had to be the source of the footsteps you heard. The dread you have slowly simmers at the sight of him.
âOh course.â You grin weakly at the man, thankful your fear is calming down. âYou have to go down to the other end of this hallway-â
A sudden hand comes up from behind you.
It slaps over your mouth with a painful grip. Then something sharp pierces your neck.
The scream from your throat fades along with your focus.
The last thought flashing through your mind before you fade into darkness is that Satoru was right.
You shouldnât have gone to class.
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The jostling of your body wakes you up.
Groggily you blink into focus. You first notice itâs late at night. Next, youâre laid across the back seat of a car and your hands are tied.
In the front seats sit the man you ran into at the school and Toji Fushiguro. You go to scream but a tightly wrapped cloth blocks your mouth.
âYouâre awake.â Toji drawls out slowly and surprised.
You screech at him through the material.
âYeah, I knew you were with the moth this entire time.â He grins at you through the rear window.
You continue to scream as best as you can, sounding feral and panicked as tears fill your eyes.
âGuess living with a monster makes you sound this wild.â Toji Fushiguroâs accomplice mutters without even glancing once at you.
He begins typing away on his phone.
âWe got more buyers willing to pay if we bring the moth in alive.â The man comments.
Everything clicks.
They were after Satoru. And youâre the bait.
Maybe Fushiguroâs accomplice is right. Maybe living with a monster has leaked into you because the noise you make doesnât sound human.
Your scream, still stifled, carries so many emotions. Your pain, terror, anger and frustration, all of it courses through your veins and rips out in waves.
âHey.â Toji Fushiguro glances back at you from the rear mirror. âKeep it down. I donât wanna get too aggressive, but I will.â
He casually pulls out a gun and waves it around.
The horrifying casual threat causes your eyes to go wide and now all the fight you had trickles out.
âWatch it!â Suddenly the man in the driver's seat screams out.
Your eyes flicker forward.
Against the darkness, illuminated by the carâs headlights, a looking figure stands in the middle of the road.
Six eyes stare out from the darkness a brilliant terrifying electric blue. Delicate wide moth wings flare out and break against the night.
Through the fabric you scream out his name, except it gets drowned out by the revving of the engine.
Toji speeds up with full intent to hit the creature.
âWhat are you doing?!â The other man cries out.
You even scream in panic. Your moth however flies up, missing the impact.
Heâs gone from sight.
A solid clang lands on the roof.
A sharp stab pierces the top of the car with a snap. The screeching of metal being ripped away follows fast. The eyes of the monster stare into the car with a disastrous terror.
Satoru smiles wild and gleeful at the men, a predator that's captured its prey.
ThenâŠEverything happens in a blink.
The car swerves. The speed makes you feel as if you are flying. The colliding noise of scraping metal and then a solid impact. Everything becomes distorted as if you are in a snow globe spinning and trying to focus on a dizzying fuzzy world.
An unholy monstrous scream rips into the air. Itâs all you hear as you fade in and out of consciousness.
You blink and suddenly twigs from the forest floor press against your body. A sharp object pierces your side. Every inch of you screams in pain while also a numbing sensation starts creeping in.
An inhuman roar screeches out and your eyes snap open.
Off to the side along the trees you see the faint edge of Satoru within the darkness. Faintly you hear a wet ripping sound. Itâs visceral, like a vulture digging into a macabre carnage.
You watch his clawed hands viscously dig into whatever he stands over. You try gathering your voice trying to say something, anything.
Then six electric eyes snap up to you from the dark forest. He is the terror of the woods, a feral monster interrupted from its hunt.
Your vision however goes blurry and it gets harder staying awake.
A wreck howl of your name breaks into the air.
Tender clawed hands scoop up from the ground. Youâre cradled against him gently and tight. The fabric in your mouth gets ripped away and now the metallic taste of blood fills your mouth fast.
You wheeze out Satoruâs name. Thereâs so much you want to say. But youâre getting so tired.
âStay awake!â He snarls desperately sensing your exhaustion.
Nothing feels real. Even staring up at your creature, his six eyes seem to become twelve, like clusters of galaxies carved out in the night sky.
But youâre fading. You know and he knows it.
Breathing hurts and now a cool chill runs across your body from the inside.
Your grandfather's words about moths being angels float into your mind.
You recall how terrifying angels are sometimes described. Some of them are composed of wheels of fire, with many wings.
Yours has many eyes.
Youâre grateful Satoru is here with you at the end. Youâre grateful this angel found you.
Water droplets plop onto your face and you wonder if itâs raining.
Satoru screams your name with absolute anguish. A darkness crawls over your eyes. Soft and peacefully, you fall into its waiting arms.
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A soft steady beeping pulls you out from the darkness.
Wearily you open your eyes. But the bright light of wherever you are immediately has you shutting your eyes tight.
A cold hand touches your arm.
The touch jolts you awake. In a panic your eyes immediately snap open and your body shoots up only to find yourself tangled.
Tubes run from out of your arms. One tube even rests under your nose. The beeping noise you faintly recognize is a heart monitor and realization hits that youâre in a hospital.
Then when you turn to the side, a man you donât know sits beside you.
You have never seen a man as gorgeous as him. Striking cloud white hair, a chiseled jawline, broad shoulders and thenâŠ
The brightest blue eyes, clear as a summer sky, stare at you so frantic and hesitant.
The man says your name, his tone faintly pleading.
For some reason his voice sounds vaguely familiar. But that thought is put on hold when the door to your room opens and a nurse walks in.
âOh thank goodness youâre awake!â She sighs genuinely warm to see you and even seems a bit surprised.
What happened? You were dying. You were sure of it.
âDo you remember anything that happened?â The nurse asks gently as she checks your vitals.
âIâŠâ your voice wavers as the memory clips at you, terrifying and heartbreaking.
âItâs okay if you donât.â The nurse says comfortingly. âItâs common for accident victims to have a foggy memory. Plus after the one you were in itâs understandable.â
Weakly you question about what happened, how you got here.
With soft eyes the nurse explains it all.
You were the only survivor of the car crash. A part of you vividly remembers Toji Fushiguro and the man with him. A part of you dark and hollow gleams grateful they are no longer here.
You however didnât walk away unscathed. You have a few broken ribs, a very bad concussion and light internal bleeding being monitored.
âWe even found damage near your heart that couldâve been deadly-â
Yet, you were alive.
âAndâŠ.â The nurseâs eyes twinkle warm and adoring as they flicker to the man behind you.
âThis man found you and brought you in. Came into the hospital with you in his arms like some kind of bloody guardian angel.â
You whip your attention back to him as well. The manâs blue eyes stay so intently focused on you.
They remind you so much of the pairs of six eyes that watched you with the same unwavering gaze.
Then the nurseâs words click.
An angel.
No. This couldnât beâŠ
The idea so wild and unbelievable barrels into you fast. It knocks you breathless that you canât help but cough out.
Everyone instantly scrambles to grab you something to drink. Itâs your mystery man who hands you a cold water first and you guzzle it down with a frantic speed.
âIâll let you get some rest. Please hit the call button if you need anything.â The nurse squeezes your shoulder and you thank her with a weak cough.
Now in the quiet safety of the hospital room, your attention snaps to the man still intently staring at you with glossy blue lake eyes.
You take the jump. It might be the most far stretched idea and you can blame the concussion but -
You whisper out Satoruâs name.
The white haired man nods fast and a sob escapes you.
Itâs him.
Through tear soaked questions you ask him how.
âRemember that legend I once told you? About us being able to bring someone back from the dead?â
His voice is now clear, so distinctly him even in this form you canât miss it now.
His words are a chilling breeze.
âI died.â You whisper the cold realization.
And he brought you back.
âBut youâŠwhat happened?â Your eyes so clouded with tears scan his very beautiful and human face.
The Satoru before you is so familiar yet so different. The deep inhale he gives moves his shoulders. Youâve seen it before when his wings moved with the same exhausted exhale. Instead now a weary weight, a very human one, colors his stunning features.
But a sudden eased smile tugs at his lips and the sight is stunning.
âWeâre allowed to bring someone backâŠitâs just at a little cost.â His voice flutters out light and his words get trapped in your throat.
You canât fight the tears. They come in waves and your shoulders shake as you cry.
âWait,â Satoru rapidly panics as he slides closer to you. âWhatâs wrong?!â
He gave up everything. His form, his livelihood, his essence as a creature of the myth, he gave it all for you.
That solid truth rips so much sadness and guilt through you all you can do is angrily cry, frustrated.
âWhy are you crying?â He asks concerned and a bit confused.
âBecause,â you hiccup. âBecause I did this to you.â
You would carry this guilt for the rest of your life.
âWhat? Donât like the way I look? I thought I was pretty handsome in this form, yeah?â He lightly teases to perk you up.
You give him a look of disbelief wondering if you should call the nurse to escort this headache away from you.
âOkay okay,â he says, thankfully understanding your heartache.
Gently Satoruâs hand moves to rest against you on top of the itchy hospital blanket. Fondly he runs his hand over your leg. You watch as his eyes follow the path of his hand like heâs trying to solidify your presence beside him. A sadness shimmers within his blue pools.
âIf anyoneâs to blameâŠitâs me. I did this to you.â
Quickly, through a teary blubbering mess you reassure Satoru he did nothing wrong. His hand softly squeezes your knee.
âDo you remember when we were watching that weird show and you asked me what Iâd wish for? What I wanted more than anything?â
Suddenly Satoru speaks firmer, eyes still not facing you.
âI wished I could be with you. I wanted to live a full life by your side.â His answer is low, but so beautifully clear itâs like dawn breaking over the forest.
Those endless blue eyes turn to you.
Gingerly Satoru raises his hand. He runs his fingers against your face with a tender touch, a delicate brush like that of a mothâs wing.
âNever feel guilty about what happened. I would make this decision over and over again. I donât regret it and never will.â He says firm, absolute and devoted.
Tears return again but this time for another reason, one so beautifully overwhelming it consumes you.
Satoru gently draws you into his arms to hold you steady against his sturdy chest.
âCan't get rid of me now, little human.â He teases but the faintest edge of emotion cracks his voice.
A laugh escapes you among the tears.
âYouâre a little human now too, bug boy.â You joke as the new nickname comes so easily to you.
âThereâs nothing little about me, especially in this form.â He deeply purrs.
Youâre about to snap at him for being crude until he shrieks.
âAnd bug boy?! You never even called me that before! If anyone is the bug freak itâs you!â
You laugh, truly laugh, and a warm buoyancy floats within your entire body. He joins in alongside you. His laugh is such a wild and free noise you want to keep it forever.
âThis being a human thing,â he suddenly mutters against the top of your head. âMight take me a little while to get used to it.â
âItâs okay,â you whisper back, fully resting against him. âWeâre all still trying to figure it out too.â
Satoruâs hand begins rubbing against your back effortlessly, so human and natural.
âYou already seem to be doing a good job.â You mumble feeling sleepy again.
He hums amused. âI know. Iâm just that good.â
You want to make a snide remark but then Satoru kisses the top of your head. Your heart jumps at feeling his lips.
âI get to do this all the time now.â He whispers slightly in awe, like he spoke a hidden thought out loud.
You canât help but grin giddy.
Before, you had begun experimenting very enthusiastically about getting to learn how to kiss him in his old form. But you understand.
This felt right. It always did, even when you never wanted to admit it before.
âNo more mothman.â Satoru mutters a quiet realization and you clutch his shirt.
âYouâll always be my pest.â You reassure him.
âHey.â You can hear the mock frown in his voice and you snicker.
You think about Satoru as your cryptid emerging straight from legends.
If he was seen as a harbinger and warning of danger, it strangely has you thinking about love.
For what is love if not a warning? A âbe careful, donât run too fast, please be safe, please let me protect youâ warning morphed into a wish and want to keep someone safe. Horror and love sometimes walk hand in hand together after all.
In the arms of your harbinger, you wearily start falling asleep. Satoru senses it too and places another kiss on your head.
When he gently moves to rest you back on the bed your eyes glance to the window. The dark evening night stretches out deep and wide
Against the glass, you notice a fluttering movement.
Soft green delicate long wings catch the light from the hospital room.
Actias luna.
More tears brim in your eyes.
The beautiful lunar moth dances against the window, against the darkness, as if to greet you a warm hello and wish you well.