I Am Going To Explode I Need All Of Them

those who know

anyway,. back to your usual queue'd posts.

Do I Not Disgust You?

It is okay if my existence is so vile?

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The portrayal of gender dysphoria is typically limited to a surface level, physical sense, so I wanted to explore a possible social/emotional aspect to it through Mizuki

Mizuki sees their inherent (transgender) existence as a curse through what can be implied through Bake No Hana through lyrics such as “My punishment for having been born” or “it’s cute but it tastes like sin.”

The song itself just reeks of disgust and self-hatred; in combination with Mizuki’s comment about what others would think of Ena and Mizuki just existing together, I couldn’t help but ponder the thoughts possibly fueled by dysphoria/society’s views on their identity that Mizuki would have racing through their mind.

It is a common experience for trans people feel as if they are disgusting, vile, even “sinful” just for existing and while piecing together lyrics and dialogue with Mizuki, I don’t believe she is excluded from this feeling.

I have fallen for the world of fanfiction and I fear there's no way back

identity crisis

Little summary of today

- Depression

- Carnation Recollection making me cry

- Fun lunch with family

- Depression

- Oh I just learned anatomy I can conquer the world

- OH MY OH MY WARRIOR CATS YUMMY FLUFFY ART OH IT IS COMING BACK OH MY FAV BOOK SERIES I NEED TO DRAW A FURRY RN

- There's school tomorrow I'm going to commit die (acceptance)

When you choose "I'm bald" on a poll this is what you're saying

Might log off earlier today school comes back tomorrow so I'm currently procrastinating a panic attack! ★

guess my favourites

I AM RIPPING MY SKIN OFF MY BODY AND FINALLY FREEING MY SKELETON THIS IS SO CUTEEEEEE

randomly found ena's new birthday side story on youtube and i have to yap about it.

first of all: SAKURAS. immediately gagged.

look at her. she's incapable of getting annoyed with mizuki anymore, even when she's being teased. it's like she can't help but smile softly whenever she looks at her.

SHE SAID IT. SHE WAS ABLE TO SAY WHAT SHE COULDN'T BACK IN SECRET DISTANCE. excuse me while i cry.