double date
People who ship to a character who has no technical canon ship, but with a ship that the fandom treats as obvious and canon, are braver than any us marine
you know i don’t think we often talk about how difficult it actually is to suddenly realize that a belief you thought was good and moral and correct was actually really fucking toxic. how you have to look at something and go ‘oh shit, oh i fucked up. oh this is going to take probably years at minimum to deprogram from my brain because of all the little ways this shit pervaded the rest of my beliefs’
so. to all the people picking up all the pieces of a recently shattered world-view and trying to figure out what is safe to keep and what has to be thrown away and started over
to all the people having to relearn how to even listen to other people
to all the people putting in the work to do better while struggling with the guilt that comes from finding out you were the asshole
i’m proud of y’all.
it’s hard to admit being wrong and even harder to change in the aftermath. just keep doing the best you can and just know that the effort is appreciated. everyone can change. everyone can do better. keep fighting.
Me, trying to sleep: I wish I was a bird. 🙁 a nice little carrion bird, preen the feathers and play in the rain. Mmm viktor would be a robot, I think. So no rain for him.
Two days later, I am still living in that nice little world
OH BUT THE DOPAMINE WHEN YOU ARE PERCEIVED FONDLY!!!!!
Wow I forgot how nerve-wracking it is to make yourself perceivable!! Like- hiii!! It's me!!! Here I am again!!! Hope you aren't secretly really pissed to see me!!!! OK I gotta go, I'm filled with Fear, bye!!!
Well fucks? Get to it!
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Unfortunately, much like the narrative, I love watching him in situations. Unlike the narrative I prefer him to be in HAPPY situations :[