So I'm Making This Character, And I Really Wanted Her Ability To Be Called 'Mad Dog' Because Of The Connotation.

no-purpose flour

if its all the same …

WIP because I've been trying to figure out colouring it DJDJDJ

Confessions Of Memories. | • 3.

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Li Jing wished she hadn't taken the route.

She feared for him.

Of course he had lived hundreds of centuries that had built his immunity to wounds, there was nothing wrong with being cautious.

"We'll get to rest soon." She said subconsciously to the two.

Xiao nodded, whilst the Traveller was silent. Who is Mei? They looked to Li Jing, who beamed at them. They looked to the path again.

Li Jing was greeted by a little girl as they finally got to the circular village. The girl tugged on her sleeve.

"Are you staying over again? Everyone missed you. You barely visit after last year's Spring!"

Li Jing chuckled lightly. Her face fell flat, as she beckoned for the two to follow her. The path curved into a lively place, one of yellow hues and humble faces. As they settled in, she couldn't make contact with him.

He remembered; she could feel it in her swollen soul.

"So why did they need you right now? Couldn't they have asked someone else?" He murmured.

Li Jing looked at him for a moment before bursting out with laughter.

"I didn't know you whined." She pinched his cheek, prompting him to scoff.

He buried his head in the nape of her neck, his hands firmly around her waist. She hummed, filling in the last of her scroll. His affection was a plea for her attention. The ink finally finishing. They walked through the back of the village, leaving them to the stars.

His head laid in her lap, she stroked his hair. The moon smiled at the two, willing them to be together.

Except they weren't. The sunset stuck in the sky, unwilling to move for them. She dropped her things in her room, kicking it in so the door could close. The dust stuttered in the air as the door settled in place, leaving the three of them in the open area.

The birds chirped, the crows squawked.

"Make yourselves at home- for now."

"Going somewhere?" Xiao asked gently.

"Mhm. I won't take long."

She didn't have to walk far to find the rounded mound of grass and mold, littered with broken white roses and unfailing snow. Sunrays lulled on the grass, quietly expecting Li Jing.

She kneeled beside the mound, her hands curled up into delicate fists. The snow dampened her dress, as she scraped at the snow to mold a heart. She placed it ontop, and stood.

"I wish I could remember your face."

The path she walked back was one that left her empty, and senseless. She stepped back into the room, unravelling her hair. She placed her hairpins on her table. Li Jing stretched out the scroll, placing a weight on either end.

She loaded the ink.

There was a faint growl, one of pain. She paused, hearing the scraping of wood. Li Jing approached his room, his hoarse breathes filling the room.

A smooth wave of paralysis unclosed around her, hand outreached.

She hummed, like she would always do. She would just have to improvise for the harp that wasn't being played. Her throat grew brittle, as she stood from a distance, waiting for him to show any signs of relaxing.

His shoulders drooped.

A heavy silence filled the room, as they failed to make eye contact.

"I'll leave you alone. Call me if you need anything."

-

He poured hot water on the herbs, carrying it to her study. His hand hovered over the handle. Either way, he would still find her in her study, her hair like a black curtain over the book. He placed it beside her.

"Oh, thank you."

"How is the book coming?"

"Finding the memories that fit with this book isn't as easy as I thought."

"Maybe you need a break then."

She smiled to herself, closing the book as he sat opposite of her. She glanced into the glass, the hued water letting the petals fall to the bottom.

"...Sorry. I'm sorry for saying that. " She murmured.

Xiao crumpled his face, and turned to the side. What was he to say? I don't have feelings anyway. I don't deserve them.

"You don't need to apologise for that."

Her face grew faint, as she took a sip. As her tongue burned, she realized just how much she want to tell him. She wanted to tell him the truth.

-

Borrowing town memories was easy. Yet, as she sat in the place where the author once was, she could not remember. In fact, she was beginning to forget. Her eyes dulled, waiting for midnight to strike.

"It must be difficult being a historian. You constantly ignore your life to record others."

Li Jing looked at the Traveller. She smiled gracefully, fixing her posture.

"You could look at it like that. I like to look at it like an escape."

The Traveller sat beside them, resting their hands in their lap.

"I wanted to ask,"

"Who's Mei?"

"I'm not ready to answer that." She faltered, fiddling with her fingers.

"Is that why did you become a historian?"

"That wasn't because of her. I'm just naturally indebted to Liyue."

"Naturally." They thought to themselves.

"You're lucky to have a fate of your own." She chuckled.

The Traveller quipped a brow, to find Li Jing's gaze averted to the sky.

You're lucky,

To have parents who wanted you.

-

Okay I was thinking recently about the fashion within BSD, and what if the creators of their clothes are creators of fashion books? Like the one immediately coming to mind is, 'The Glass of Fashion' by Cecil Beaton??

I craved desperately some great savage joy, no matter how immense the suffering that might ensue…

Dazai Osamu, No Longer Human

>> TRUSTED DONATION LINKS FOR TURKEY EARTHQUAKE VICTIMS !!!!

(Disclaimer that I will be updating this post a lot.)

• AKUT

https://www.akut.org.tr/en/donation

• KIZILAY

https://www.kizilay.org.tr/Bagis/BagisYap/43/general-donation

• AFAD

https://en.afad.gov.tr/earthquake-humanitarian-aid-campaign

• AHBAP

https://ahbap.org/

There is the donation link of AHBAP too, but sadly the site didn't let me in. Here is also a donation guide on tumblr. If you can't still donate to the sites above then try these;

• Events?? This is my first time seeing the site :(

https://events.softgiving.com/donate/HasanAbiForTurkeySyriaEarthquakesFund

• "Turkey Earthquake Relief Fund" Donation opened by Barış Özcan, It's under the description of the video.

https://youtu.be/-BvS6PZbCws

• A guide on twitter to how to send products to the areas affected by the earthquake in Turkey. (With the app named "Getir".)

>> USEFUL CARRD'S

• Carrd made by @.simmerbroke on twitter.

https://turkeysyriaearthquake.carrd.co/

• Carrd made by @.616LEBAUS on twitter.

https://helpturkeysyria.carrd.co/

>> FOR TURKISH PEOPLE

• (In Istanbul) Materials are being collected so that the earthquake victims in Kahramanmaraş can be fed, and stay warm. Along with food, blankets, baby diapers and handkerchiefs are being collected too, In the news couple AFAD workers also said that their in need of garbage bag and medicane too. The stuff are being collected at "Avcılar Mesleki Teknik Anadolu Lisesi" on the European side and "Üsküdar Türkan Sabancı Görme Engellileri Okulu" on the Anatolian side. (I live extremely close to Avcılar Mesleki Teknik Anadolu Lisesi It's like a 1-4 minute walk so, my mom went there to give diapers n' handkerchiefs for the earthquake victims.)

• A post by @.tittyblade on tumblr saying that there is a urgent need of voluntariy translators.

that light i thought was blinding brought me here♡