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Don't worry girls I'll save you from danganronpa hell

here's a big doodle dump of some danganronpa ships that have been on the brain recently + some mini headcanons about them.

I'VE BEEN WANTING TO DRAW SOME OF THESE MFS FOREVERRR i say that about every character i don't draw on the regular though so take it with a grain of salt. regardless these were fun i'll probably add this style as a commission option when i update my carrd in july

i'm like super curious if y'all can guess my favourite dr character based off these... might surprise you

sunrise (fairytale ending)

zakkura week. pt2 of sponge.

mornings were for cloud to make sure zack still loved him.

pet his head, comb fingers through hair then use them to trace all the scars and bruises.

just for him to appreciate his love in the comfort of their bed.

first class suites were spacious, lavish. cloud had gotten used to their comfort by then.

the light from the rising sun, coming segmented through the blinds, hit zack's face golden.

the light in his eyes was an alarm, making them flutter open and greet cloud's smiling face cherishing him.

“good morning, zack,” said in a whisper, “are you still sore?”

when he shook his head, the black spikes of his hair rubbed into cloud's chest.

he hummed. 

zack didn't speak much in the mornings, only cloud knew that, his brain was still whirring from sleep on the shore between dreams and reality.

cloud's words were all that grounded him in this state. it was almost too easy.

“i was gentle with you, wasn't i?”

inclining his head to kiss the top of zack's, his thumb circled bronze skin where the sun didn't reach, the touch stimulated and relaxed him all at once.

zack sat up, but seemed ready to rest his head on the other's shoulder and be out like a light.

“hey, cloudy.”

his soft murmurs always, without fail, thawed cloud's heart.

it reminded him that it was all worth it.

everything he did, to keep that gentle voice and bright smile all to himself.

his lips were soft but flakey as they kissed along zack's jaw, down his neck, across his chest.

everywhere. 

cloud could spend the entire day kissing every part of zack, but he made a point to only kiss over where he'd made marks, watch him squirm.

“you slept like a baby, you know?” his lips soothed over the hickeys decorating the base of zack’s neck, made haphazardly and possessively, scattered drops of blood. “no bad dreams?”

“no, none.” zack’s speech gained clearness, coherence, seemed he was finally waking up. “it’s like you said, spike, i don’t get them after we…”

“mhm, because you’re too worn out for nightmaring. your mind doesn’t have the power to torment you anymore,” cloud explained. well, he was lying, but it counted for an explanation nonetheless.

the mystical and proven cure to zack’s depressive, horrific, guilt-ridden nightmares was to let cloud fuck his mouth, then swallow his release.

or for cloud to fuck his ass. anything worked as long as it got cloud off— sorry, as long as it tired zack out. which was inevitable because yes, cloud was putting shit into zack’s drinks. too little for zack to pass out five seconds into giving head, but enough to lose consciousness sometime after they were done.

of course his nightmares had stopped in his sleep, he wasn’t even sleeping, his brain was shut off.

that was cloud’s little secret, though, that and the many others. crafted to protect zack, pull him out of his sadness, make him smile again.

zack needed this, or he’d be back to the weeping husk of a man he was before cloud, hugging his knees in a corner as he looked between his buster sword and the blood on his hands.

cloud thought that was a waste of his valuable SOLDIER time.

white lies never did any harm.

“i’m so happy, zack, i really think you’re getting better.” 

holding his hand, holding his chin, planting a sweet kiss. their tongues touched, only a little, and cloud was able to taste himself from the previous night before he pulled back. brisk enough to beg for more.

“yeah, cloud?” there’s the cute grin cloud loved. “it’s all because of you.”

 zack accredited his healing to the other boy with all the sincerity in the world. such a good boy. 

“you saved me.”

his soft, dark mess of morning hair was held out of his face by cloud, allowing him to see it. the gratitude in his eyes was gloss, making blue shine all the brighter. this sight, just for him. cloud had earned it.

“i know, i did.”

quarter to twelve. 

cloud looked away from the clock and he was completely sure there was no one who adored him more.

no one in the entire world.

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*cw: this theory deals with child sexual abuse and has mentions of suicidal ideation and eating disorders.

*If you or anyone you know is going through this, you can find resources here, here and here as well as a list of international hotlines.

Obanai is probably the second most hated character in the fandom, and just like Sanemi, he’s one of the most misunderstood. I think the hate he gets from the fandom is unwarranted; he’s accused of being a dick, a horrible person, a simp and a character who only exists to be Mitsuri’s love interest. All of which is unfair, sure he’s prickly and unapproachable, but he’s not as bad as the fandom makes him out to be.

So, in my quest to draft a defense for our favorite snek boy, I reread his backstory and in doing so, I realized something sad

Unhinged theory

Obanai is a sexual abuse survivor

Let me explain:

Obanai’s backstory and aspects of his character mirrors that of someone who’s been through sexual trauma. The evidence I'm going to present is a combination of my own knowledge about these matters and information I got from forums and websites for male survivors of sexual abuse. So let's examine them...um spoilers

The snake demon

I believe that the snake demon is a metaphor for a sexual predator. Her inclusion in the family could also be a metaphor for how these predators insert themselves into family units-or most of the time are family members themselves-and abuse the children for years and even generations. Obanai's relatives sacrificing their babies to her could signify the real life actions of families who are unaware or, turn a blind eye to, or sometimes actively participate in the abuse of their children.

The sacrifice in exchange for wealth speaks of how families in real life ignore the abuse of their children to maintain the wealth and status they obtain from being related to and associated with the abuser.

Even her decision to wait, ordering the cutting of his mouth so he would look like her, could be interpreted as her 'grooming' him in a sense.

Even her design has a certain sexual, predatory aspect to it that's different from the other demons.

His relatives

Obanai describes his family members as being 'disgustingly' affectionate and bringing him lots of 'greasy' food that made him sick. Food in media is often used to depict love, affection, connection and sex, and Demon Slayer is no different.

There are plenty of instances where food and the giving of food has been used to denote friendship (Tanjiro giving Zenitsu, Inosuke and Genya meals in an attempt to bond with them), connection (Giyuu wanting to give Sanemi ohagi), love (Tanjiro's love of cooking and the satisfaction he shows when his meals are enjoyed by others) and pleasure (Mitsuri's large appetite). I'll make a post about this later.

With this context, we can interpret their bringing of rich foods, their overbearing attention and affections as them objectifying and even being sexually inappropriate with him.

The sexual abuse

Non-physical.

The first instance of abuse is non-physical, but that doesn't make it any less important. Being constantly visited by the snake demon in his room at night, Obanai described his feelings of terror, being paralyzed and watched. His body would break out in a sweat, and he would be unable to fall asleep.

His descriptions of the experience and his body's reaction to it reminded me of some survivors' stories I read, where they talked about how in the initial stages of the abuse or when the abuser was first introduced into their lives, their abuser would give them unwanted attention, would stare at them in a way that felt creepy, gross and wrong.

Some had their abusers come in to their rooms, maybe under the guise of 'checking in on them'. They described feeling terrified, freezing up with the hopes that the attacker would leave. Some would take measures such as sleeping with the door locked or with a heavy object against it, sleeping with a sibling or parent, sleeping in a hiding spot that the attacker knows nothing about or not sleeping at all.

Physical.

The specific age that the snake demon plans to 'eat' Obanai is never stated, but from what we've seen so far and in the sexual context, we can assume that she's waiting until he hits puberty. Some studies state that the average age of victims of female sex offenders usually falls around 14 years, but there are cases where the female predator waited until their victim reached sexual maturity before they carried out their abuse, like in the case of Mary Kay Letourneau. Here's a video that breaks down an interview she did before her death.

Obanai was 12 when he was dragged out of his cell to be subjected to what I believe is the first physical abuse. He had his mouth slit from ear to ear, with the blood collected and fed to her. The snake demon decided to have him live a little longer, which again, fits into my theory of her wanting to wait until he reached puberty.

Bodily violation, violence and blood are common allegories for sexual assault used in media and in Obanai's backstory we see it being used when his relatives drag him from his cell, literally pin him down, cut his mouth and feed his blood to the snake demon. The act of feeding on his blood could also be a metaphor for the snake demon sexually abusing him.

His escape and the resulting fallout

Obanai managed to escape, and although he was tracked down by the snake demon, he was saved by Shinjuro Kengoku before she could kill him. His cousin's response was to blame him for all that happened, asked why he ran away, and said that he should have 'allowed' the demon to eat him.

This could represent how some victims are rejected, ostracized and criticized for speaking out against their attacker, exposing the abuse to the public and getting help. Their families would say 'you should have just let it happen', 'you destroyed the family', 'why did you run away, tell people?' and place the blame on the victim.

Obanai's reaction

There are three aspects of his characterization that are similar to the common reactions noticed in adult survivors of sexual assault, especially male survivors.

His appearance.

His behavior.

His beliefs.

His appearance

Obanai has a small frame that he hides with his baggy uniform and haori. I can tell it's baggy compared to that of the other slayers because of the width of his pants vs the width of his lower legs. Desexualization or hypo-sexualization is a common response among some survivors of sexual trauma, this usually involves wearing clothes and taking measures to make themselves look 'unattractive'.

'But this side feels more comfortable for me, like the baggy clothes I wear, which hide my body, and the long sleeves which reach past my wrists. I promised myself no man would ever touch me again, and whether it was a moment of triumph, or a moment of defeat, I still don't know.'

'I'm thin, shy. I seem easy to dominate. I've grown a beard. That's helped a little. I dress in baggy clothes, covering as much of my skin as possible. That makes me feel safe.'

This not only helps regain a sense of control and power over their body but also serves as a protective measure against sexual advances so they don't get abused again.

In Obanai, given his history of receiving unwanted, suffocating and 'disgusting' attention from his female relatives, it would make sense that he would want to dress in a way that makes him unapproachable and hides his body from the opposite sex. We can see his attempts to desexualize himself in the picture below:

His behavior

'Iguro has difficulty with girls. Due to his experiences growing up, he was unable to conquer his fear and animosity. Plus, the firls who joined the Demon Slayer Corps often put on brave faces because of their sad backgrounds, so he felt sorry for them, making him uncomfortable in a different way.' - Taisho Whispers, official English translation.

'Iguro-san isn't good with women. Due to his upbringing he has a fear and disgust towards women. (I couldn't overcome it easily. The women who joined the Demon Slayer Corps have painful stories of determination. I felt sorry for them and I didn't get along with them in a way that was different from the way I got along with my family)' - Taisho Whispers, direct-sort-of-shitty translation via Google Translate.

Male survivors who were victims of childhood abuse by female perpetrators often talk about how the abuse greatly affected their relationships with women or lack thereof. Some going so far as to say that they became afraid of women, being around them and how sometimes being touched by women would trigger panic attacks and remind them of the trauma.

Here are some quotes posted in a thread on the Male Survivor forum. Full thread here.

'Once that happened, my genophobia became more intense. I couldn't ware short trousers in summer, could never go swimming, got paranoid if I touched a woman's arm or even brushed against one, would always stand at a distance from female friends, and would literally leave the room if anything explicit was discussed.'

'I have started to have strange, deep discomforting feelings as I remember some of the assaults and I have gotten to a place where touch from a woman makes my hair stand up, makes me nauseous, and gives me chills and feelings of dread.'

Obanai has similar responses when he finds himself in proximity to women. We're only told about it in the main manga, but it's shown in the Gakuen. I know the Gakuen takes place in an alternate universe, but aside from the events, the behaviors of the characters are based on their actual personalities in the main manga, so we can safely say the reactions he displays in the Gakuen is canon to his character.

His beliefs

Adult survivors of sexual abuse often struggle with feelings of guilt, rage, and shame. In the manga, Obanai talks about being held back by the decaying hands of his family members, which could represent the long-lasting effects of sexual abuse and how some survivors carry these burdens all through adulthood or throughout their lives.

There's also the thoughts about himself that echo the heartbreaking thoughts shared by some male survivors.

Guilt:

"As the member of a filthy family, I too was corrupt. My sins were deep, so I could not live a normal life"

Rage:

"With no other outlet, I turned all my rage on demons in a grudge of intense hatred. By risking my life for others, I felt as if I could in some way become a slightly better person."

Shame:

"Unless I die and come back in a different body in which this filthy blood does not flow, I have no right to be with you."

Suicidal ideation(mild):

"By risking my life for others, I felt as if I could in some way become a slightly better person."

"I want to die defeating Muzan." (He's the only character that I know of that outright says this.)

He also kind-of expresses his feelings of being weak during the fight with Muzan:

"I've accomplished less in this battle than anyone! I wish I could deliver a more effective attack."

While this quote isn't exactly definite, a feeling of being weak, or being 'less of a man' is also a common experience shared by male sexual assault survivors.

The scar and It's symbolism

The scar is a physical manifestation of the lifelong effect that sexual abuse has on its victims and the stigma it carries. For Obanai, it's not just a painful reminder of the trauma he suffered at the hands of his family, but also a reminder to him that he's like his attacker, the snake demon. The bandages he wraps around his mouth symbolizes not just his attempts to hide his trauma, but also his inability to talk about it due to shame and fear, which is unfortunately an all too common experience of male survivors.

Another struggle survivors often experience is with intimacy, romantic relationships and sex. For Obanai, I believe that this struggle is represented by his eating disorder. The link between food and sex is a well established belief in many cultures, people with large appetites can be seen as having equally high sex drives while people with small appetites have little or no sex drive.

As he grows older, his little appetite is basically him curbing his growing sexual desire, which he sees as ugly, like the scar on his mouth. But the thing is Obanai wants love, he wants to love and be loved, to be intimate with another person, but he feels he doesn't deserve it, after all he's filthy, shameful and probably a predator just like the snake demon. So he starves himself, suffering in silence with the belief that he was disgusting, that no one would ever love him, that he was destined to and deserved to be alone.

Then he met Mitsuri.

In Conclusion, Obanai is way more complex than the KnY fandom gives him credit for. This is a man that went through immense suffering, and it's really sad to see people hate on him because he isn't 'nice'.

Well, that's just how life is. Trauma doesn't exactly make nice people. We can't all be like Giyuu or Tanjiro(bestest boy ❤), a lot of us are like Obanai, Sanemi, and even Shinobu, a lot of us are angry, and why shouldn't we be?

...

*Phew, ok so this one has been in the drafts for a while because I was scared to post such a dark subject matter and also I needed to be really sure I wasn't just talking out of my ass but after rereading his backstory and analyzing aspects of his character, I'm more confident about this.

Can't express how stress free being open minded is.

Some lesbians use he/him? Oh cool.

Some people have people inside their head and sometimes it's fictional chars? Sick your brains like a pirate ship they're all working to run.

Some people like being treated like a pet dog? Bark bark bro.

Being fat isn't unhealthy but a perfectly normal type of body to have? Kinda beautiful how different we can all be.

Something doesn't make any fucking sense? Cool an opportunity to learn. And even if I can't figure it out it's cool we still have mysteries today.

On my work break drinking my tea and smoking zakkura

I think if I have to dream about work I should get paid for it. That being said I’ve dreamt of nothing but werewolves and killing my enemies in the past few weeks. That’s just for fun

Cat & Dog

when the curse is lifted

being a scavenger animal must be so fucking great. imagine if every time someone died a new restaurant opened up downtown.

This is a short comic I drew last year—Sephiroth explaining the concept of binary stars to Cloud. It was inspired by Night on the Galactic Railroad.

Sorry for the long silence! I’ve actually been drawing a lot, just haven’t been updating here or on Twitter. One reason is that my comics have gotten longer, so it’s been a bit of a hassle to stitch the panels and translate them. Some of the content is also leaning more toward R-16. If you’re interested, all my latest updates are on Instagram!

I don't know why this keeps happening but I keep meeting toxic heterosexual couples who experiment with polyamory and are heavily into funko pops, board games, Disney princesses and Burlesque stripping and the man is always a withdrawn bearded dude and the woman is always a passive aggressive control freak with an Etsy shop that sells lawn gnomes styled after Dr Who characters and they don't really even seem to like each other but they're always exactly the same. this has happened four times

This is my favorite stock photo guy He does everything

day 1 at the communal puzzle club: i see a puzzle with a sign next to it that says "please help with our communal puzzle" and i say to myself "don't mind if I do" and did the whole thing

Me: See, when Cloud asks Aerith if she and Zack were serious and she responds "Not really", she's not actually lying. While obviously she loved him and he loved her, Zack wasn't really a loadbearing part of her life, and with the hindsight of being an adult she can look back and acknowledge how little their lives intersected. However, Aerith was and is a much more important person to Zack, because she was basically his only friend outside of Shinra, and representative of the life he should have been leading instead of being a child soldier. Their interactions throughout crisis core are baked with a sense of normalcy, something Zack is in desperate lack of, so he views his relationship with her as the only thing "safe" from being in the military. That's why, when his life of being a SOLDIER crumbles around him, the only thing he can really think of is reuniting with Aerith. Aerith is the only haven he had away from it all, and stands for the domesticity he has been so violently robbed of. Aerith is the personification of his dreams, in much the same way Cloud is the personification of his honor, and his mindless chasing and protecting of the two represents Zack trying to cling to the last shards of his identity he has left.

My coworker Jeff: I see. And those reports I asked for?

Me: Irrelevant.

HOT AUTISTIC ADULTS IN YOUR AREA ARE UNSURE IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO THEM...CLICK HERE TO ESTABLISH CLEAR INTENT

Zack: What animal are you least afraid of?

Genesis: Fish.

Zack: Animal.

Genesis: ...Fish.

Zack: I'm talking like a real animal, like-

Genesis: A fish is an animal.

Zack: That's like saying an ANT is an animal. Like- You wouldn't go to a zoo and see a fish.

Genesis: ...There's actually so many fishes-

Zack: THERE'S FISH ZOOS? YOU'D GO TO A FISH ZOO.

Genesis: There are so many types of fishes, that they have their OWN FUCKING ATTRACTION, called an AQUARIUM

Zack: That's different, that's like sharks and shit-

Genesis:

FISH!!

Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII resting under glass on the floor of the Square Enix showcase in Shibuya, Japan. [source]

Would being called big dog fix me? Who knows?

i think avalanche checking in and touching base with each other after the events of OG / during the ac dirge era is like this

refseek.com

www.worldcat.org/

link.springer.com

http://bioline.org.br/

repec.org

science.gov

pdfdrive.com

Barret: Do you ever think before you speak?

Cait Sith: Sure! I think ‘Wow, that’s hilarious’, and then I say it.

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"if tumblr dies you can find me on bluesky" "if tumblr dies you can find me on Instagram" if tumblr dies you cannot find me. It's over. I'm free.

Cloud: Mom this is Zack. My... work friend.

Zack: *whispering* Work friend?! I've been inside you!

Cloud: *whispering back* Please just go with it.

Zack: Hi there~

Claudia: I've heard so little about you.

Zack: Let's fix that immediately.

christian rock bands are a backbone genre in the amv scene

this is my peak nothing else i make will ever be as great as this