Dear Neil Gaiman

I just want to draw something for  zosan.

Whatever makes you say that, dear anon?

I’d say that right now Mo is confused and unsure about what’s he’s feeling, but he’s definitely beginning to become conscious of it and it scares him a bit, that’s why he’s so prone to yell that HT pisses him off.

For once, let me say that for Mo it’s practically impossible to quickly develop attraction and feelings for another person. Mo has been bullied since a very tender age and his natural response was to clam up inside of himself. It’s very human and very relatable, and quite typical for the victims of bullying. He has been ostracized. He has been used by people like She Li. Life has let him down and he’s grown weary and distrustful of those around him. More importantly, he learned how to cope by himself and not rely on (or need) anyone else. 

To Mo, He Tian is one of those people, who are responsible for the shit happening to the underprivileged like himself. He believes that wealth leads to people abusing it in all the wrong ways. And, let’s be honest, He Tian’s behaviour, in the beginning, did fit this mould. We as readers know that He Tian genuinely wants to help him, but Mo doesn’t. For him, He Tian is just a popular spoiled brat, who bothers him just for the kicks, and Mo has no reason to believe that somebody like that would take a genuine interest in himself. That there’s kindness behind his actions - remember, Mo used to say that HT is fake? The reason for Momo’s disbelief is that he grew up with such a world view, and it’s not easy to shake it off. It’s not easy to overcome trust issues.

Luckily over time that belief started to waver. He Tian was probably the only person in his life who bothered to help him without asking anything in return. Who cared for him (even in a roundabout way). He Tian was ready to do some martyr-like shit for Mo. It didn’t go unnoticed, even if Mo may not fully realize why HT would go so far for a street kid.

If Momo hadn’t liked He Tian, he wouldn’t be constantly blushing at the slightest physical contact. It may be just a physical thing, but it’s definitely there. If Momo didn’t care about HT, he wouldn’t have rushed to his apartment, when HT sent him “bloodied” hand. When He Tian disappeared after sending him to the hospital, Momo wanted to know his whereabouts. Momo wouldn’t have been checking his phone all the time. If he didn’t care, he wouldn’t have held his hand, when HT was having a nightmare.

And lastly, let’s look at one of Mo’s dreams. He’s dreaming that he’s being bullied by a mob again until He Tian appears and saves him. Lots of people pay attention to the butt grab, but the truly important thing here is the fact that Momo actually cries in HT’s shoulder. I think that says more than anything that he actually sees He Tian as a source of his comfort. Would he see somebody he didn’t like this way? I think not.

Anyway, I don’t think Momo can rationalize his feelings right now. He definitely doesn’t dislike HT and he’s definitely getting physical reactions. He’s also quite a bit of tsundere and would deny it to the very end, and it would take plenty of time for him to come to terms with what’s he’s feeling.

Whoa, that’s a wall o’text again, srry.

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What if Mo knows that he is gay and just think that He Tian joking around with him?

I doubt that Mo is aware of his sexuality, anon-san. These boys are what, fifteen y.o.? That’s just about the age when teens are discovering their sexuality, and I doubt that Mo can say with 100% certainty that he’s gay or straight or bi or whatever else. “Knowing” that he’s gay would imply that he has experienced attraction to the same sex before, which I doubt is the case. With Mo being a victim of bullying, I think that he probably has troubles feeling drawn to others and developing emotional attachments. That’s just part of how psychological defences might play in his case.

Here’s what he says supposedly about girls that he likes:

And here’s how he reacts to He Tian talking about liking him more and more:

Not to mention his reaction upon seeing that infamous dikpik. Which was pretty vivid, lol.

So, again, I really doubt that Mo is aware of his sexuality or that it is set in stone. Yet.

As for playing around part, that’s spot on. With Mo being suspicious and constantly on his guard, it’s a likely mentality. Victims of bullying quite often develop some form of paranoia and believe that the world is hostile. He certainly believes that He Tian is bugging him out of boredom, and all of his gestures of kindness are but another ploy. Maybe he thinks that HT gets kicks out of making a street kid do his house chores and etc. Hell, he probably believes that all of HT being nice to him is yet another way for HT to use people (like types of She Li did): get close to Mo, get past his defences, and BAM! backstab. I think OX stressed this during the subway scene, where the girl bumped into HT. After that, even HT noted that Mo looked down. 

OX used here deliberate framing: we are shown MGS face on purpose. The reason for this is that Momo (against his better judgement) gotten used to HT’s attention, and HT suddenly taking off to chase a girl just reminded him of the fact that he is (in Mo’s perception) just a plaything for a spoiled wealthy brat. That’s why he looks so frustrated and pissed here. I know that a lot of people interpret it as jealousy, but to me, it rather looked like Momo thinking that he’s just a toy. This feeling was exacerbated by the fact that Momo accidentally let it slip that he’ll remember He Tian forever. To someone like Mo, it was akin to showing underbelly.

So yep, he does believe that HT is toying around with him, but it doesn’t necessarily carry romantic/sexual subtext. 

I hope this answers the question~

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