Summatun - SmaTn

“Nawww.. Summa, you are the best girl I ve met over my past 24 years. I have never had this kind of relationship b4. The only closest woman in my life ever was my mum. Now you are the second person. I no ur stressed about placement. I feel your sadness due 2 ur sister going to departure and of course ur parent’s disapproval. But you know what, take this as a test. And take me as a your fellow study partner, we ll get through this hardship together and believe in your heart that we will have a really strong unbreakable bond. Life is not always for the most fastest, smartest and gifted. Life is about finding coping mechanisms to adapt to new challenges. Hence we become the most dominant species on earth. Also I am sincerely sorry for the relationship mishaps between you and your older sisters. They dearly love you a lot and it is one of my biggest no go zone to get in between family relationships. Please know that I can not change anything regarding my race, culture and traditions. Stay hopeful and keep the faith my beautiful girl. You will always be in my heart for as long as the sun rises and the moon laminates. Enjoy the time you have your family especially your Saki, you are in a time were hardship is prevailing ur wits but ill be by your side. I will be ur savior, lover and a guide. Enjoy today with new motives and forget wats been said and done. We only live once and we only live in the present. I love you dearly my Summa. Ill catch you around yeh!”

The country of my people

It’s almost always worth getting up early. #myanmar on Flickr.

Where to now?

You know that saying 'when one door closes, another opens'? Well I'm in this predicament except without an open door of opportunity, not just yet, and don't know when. So I'm just going with the flow. Living within the usual routine. Work, home, see friends, eat, sleep, repeat. The idea of moving on from the last chapter I can't grasp. Maybe I'm just afraid to actually grow up and start making a living. I kind of don't want to yet. The thought of waking up every morning and going to work really is unpleasant. I want to go into the world and grow up this way. I don't know why people go to uni and get into the work field straight away. I'm the total opposite. I just finished my degree and I don't want to work. It's not because I won't enjoy the work, it's because I don't want to start working as of yet, I feel like this may take away the opportunity for me to be gypsie (a person who moves from one place to another). I don't think there's anything wrong with this pathway. The best way to grow up physically, mentally and intellectually I believe is through the interactions with people of different cultures, to be in an unusual environment and to fully seek the unknown. This will be the new door open to me and I will happily walk through it.

And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it’s all in my mind.

Lonesome Traveler (Jack Kerouac)

The story of us:

I’ve been single for over two years now and I haven’t been fussed about getting into a relationship at all. People constantly ask why I am still single, there is not answer just simply because I wasn’t bothered by the fact that I was single, I am happy and I don’t need someone to make me happy because really only I can make myself happy. 

Recently someone i vaguely knew as a child walked into my life, it was very un-expecting and I had no intentions on getting into a relationship. He fooled me as it was Aprils fool, I instantly found myself smiling at the situation because it was so funny. He made me laugh without even knowing even when I was rejected as it was a joke. This moment was the beginning on a journey I didn’t plan.

I obviously had expectations to the person I would want to make a life with, hence why I’ve been single and haven’t let a soul into my life. I’ve always wanted someone who I could openly be myself with, someone who knew my whole life journey, someone who understood my beliefs and values without judgements, someone who had a gentle soul but with strong moralities, someone my family would love, someone not only attractive on the outside but also on the inside. But most of all, I wanted someone who I could potentially spend the rest of my life with. This is why it makes it hard for me because how do you know its the right one? Does the right one even exist?  

I can honestly admit that I’ve never felt love. What is even love? Love really has no meaning because to me love is everything. I wonder where this journey will take us... perhaps I might find the love of my life? 

One day I wish to have something like this

Awasi Patagonia, Felipe Assadi

Keep walking, you’re almost there. on Flickr.

I want to witness this :)

Open your mind. You will be amazed at what you learn. Listen to your heart. You will be amazed at what you already know. 🌻🌾🌳🍃🌞