Sunny-downpour - Books, Bands And Bad Decissions

oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and

~✧°+* 12/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.08.2023

Today was chore day. I got a lot done, just nothing for school, sadly.

I also rearranged one of my book shelves! (As you can see above) Space is always a problem in this apartment so I'm preemtively rearranging for future books

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked a warm meal

cleaned the kitchen

changed the sheets

did the laundry

packed my siblings' birthday presents

Hours slept: ~7hrs 45mins Screentime: 4hrs Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 33/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

05.09.2023

(this post is written several days in retrospect)

Whenever I visit my family for longer periods of time it's usually around bigger events. Christmas, Easter, birthdays. This time around it's my sibling's birthday and an air of planning, organizing and setting things up in advance controls my day. In all actuality, it has more of an indirect effect on me. I think what I'm experiencing is called waiting mode? This state your in when you have something planned later in the day and can't do anything in the morning because of it. That's what I'm going through at the moment, just that what I'm wating for is days ahead.

Positive things I did today:

put some things up on ebay

did the laundry

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~700

I think I'm ready to crawl out of my 6 month long, dark, lonely burnout hole once again to grace the Internet with some original content, some finely curated, self made posts.

But I'm out of ideas. Or maybe I've just become to insecure about all the things my brain conjures up. But I long for community.

Romantic academia:

Going on study dates to pretty libraries, fighting to find a seat next to each other.

On discord listening to them go through a powerpoint the night before their big presentation.

The Arts/Humanities one proof-reading the STEM one's motivation letters/long emails.

Reading through interesting research in bed together, sharing the one phone screen.

Alternating between who is the one making tea for the study session. (Bonus: matching study mugs)

Study breaks include marveling over some super niche knowledge acquired during the study session.

Emailing an article as a pdf, and titling the email "I thought you'd find this interesting :-)"

Setting a timer for a cuddle break when the assignment work gets too overwhelming. Celebrating together when the assignment gets done.

Sharing the excitement of finding a new productivity app / stationary shop / study hack.

They never want to stop

Every time I walk into a bookstore and immediately get flashbanged with Colleen Hoover I feel like I’m a medieval criminal stripped naked and displayed in public on a breaking wheel for stealing apples and I’m being bludgeoned to death with stones

Laurent of Vere be like

(Seriously we need more art of Laurent in this pose👀)