Sunny-downpour - Books, Bands And Bad Decissions

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They never want to stop

~✧°+* 39/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.09.2023

My younger sister started school again today! She graduated earlier this summer and is now starting vocational training. I am super proud of her! She has some health issues that affected/affect her development and because of that many doctors predicted that she wouldn't ever be able to get to where she is now. Despite all that she worked hard and got far because of it. She'll have to keep working hard and it won't always be easy for her, but I believe that she's going to accomplish great things <3

I also did some self reflecting those past days. My mental health declined a little bit ever since I arrived at my parents'. I'm pretty sure it's mainly stress and the change of environment that is messing with me, but I do believe that my diet is playing a part as well. My family eats a lot of processed food as well as a lot of animal products. When I moved out last year I changed my diet quite drastically. I don't eat animal products often anymore and rarely buy candy and so on because I know I tend to over-eat on things like that. Now that I'm surrounded my all those foods again I gotta make more of an effort to watch what I'm eating. I really hope that'll help.

Positive things I did that day:

started research for my big essay again

continued looking for internships

got some work done for my job at the university

watched Breaking Dawn part 2

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~600

How to Finish

I drew this poster for Jon Acuff and his FINISH book tour. Big thanks to Jon for this collaboration, his book has some great ideas about how to complete creative and life goals.

28 March 1914, Aleksandr Blok (1880-1921), Selected Poems

i am just a girl i should not have to “fulfill my course requirements” to get a “degree” what kind of a society is this anyway

~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

~✧°+* 33/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

05.09.2023

(this post is written several days in retrospect)

Whenever I visit my family for longer periods of time it's usually around bigger events. Christmas, Easter, birthdays. This time around it's my sibling's birthday and an air of planning, organizing and setting things up in advance controls my day. In all actuality, it has more of an indirect effect on me. I think what I'm experiencing is called waiting mode? This state your in when you have something planned later in the day and can't do anything in the morning because of it. That's what I'm going through at the moment, just that what I'm wating for is days ahead.

Positive things I did today:

put some things up on ebay

did the laundry

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~700

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