They Should Invent A Being In Your Twenties In Which You Do Not Feel Your Life Is Unsalvageable And Ruined

all these unfunny jokes about how german is such a hard and awful language >:(

well, can your language do this?

for those of you who don't know "we should write a paper on this" is equivalent to "we should start a band" in academia

~✧°+* 40/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

12.09.2023

While my sister started school again yesterday, my brother only started again today. Obviously, I am just as proud of him as I am of my sister! He also graduated earlier this summer but will continue to go to school for 3 more years in order to get his Abitur (secondary school diploma which enables you to go to university in Germany). He's actually going to my old school now, which I am probably more excited about than he is!

Because it was the first day I drove him to school and because it was only 3 hours long I killed some time in the city before picking him up again. I got breakfast and then did some shopping. I also managed to finally finish Swimming in the Dark! I really loved the novel. It's close to a 5 star read for me (and might have been a definite 5 star if it hadn't taken me this long to finish it). I'll definitely keep an eye on Tomasz Jedrowski for any future releases. His way with words, his prose, was one of the best things about the story in my opinion. Maybe I'll also get a German edition of the book to check out the translation.

Positive things I did today:

went out for breakfast

did some shopping

finished Swimming in the Dark

went grocery shopping

prepared lunch for the next day

Hours slept: ~ 6hrs 30mins Screentime: ~6hr 30mins Steps taken: ~7.800

~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

Does anyone wanna be 2014 revival mutuals??

Various stars & moon details from my gouache paintings 🌙✨

I saw god yesterday

She came to me in a

dream, kissed me on the head

And whispered everything

will be alright my child

~✧°+* 12/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.08.2023

Today was chore day. I got a lot done, just nothing for school, sadly.

I also rearranged one of my book shelves! (As you can see above) Space is always a problem in this apartment so I'm preemtively rearranging for future books

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked a warm meal

cleaned the kitchen

changed the sheets

did the laundry

packed my siblings' birthday presents

Hours slept: ~7hrs 45mins Screentime: 4hrs Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 5/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

02.08.2023

And, just like this, we are back in the groove.

After a slow start to the day i managed to get some important tasks done. No progress on essays I need to write, but I've made plans to meet up with a friend at the library tomorrow, so I hope I'll make some progress then.

I edited an essay for my professor and nearly went crazy over it. I enjoy editing a lot and I am very grateful I get to take part in a project, even if it's just in a really small way. But got damn, that one was not pleasant to work through. It used a citation style I am not very familiar with and then didn't even use that one consistently. I had to ask the other student assistant for help. He's been doing the job for a while and he's being very patient and nice, but it was quite anxiety inducing. I am very grateful for his help, tho, and I hope I'm not causing him too much of a hassle.

Besides that today was just more of the usual. Watched Peaky Blinders and am currently getting some reading in before bed.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo spanish streak going

cooked a meal

got some admin work done

did edeting

watched Peaky Blinders with a friend

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: 7hrs Steps taken: ~100 (very rainy, no walk for me :(( )