Sunny-downpour - Books, Bands And Bad Decissions

29.03.2023

deadlines are the only thing making me feel alive

what studying literature feels like

~✧°+* 39/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.09.2023

My younger sister started school again today! She graduated earlier this summer and is now starting vocational training. I am super proud of her! She has some health issues that affected/affect her development and because of that many doctors predicted that she wouldn't ever be able to get to where she is now. Despite all that she worked hard and got far because of it. She'll have to keep working hard and it won't always be easy for her, but I believe that she's going to accomplish great things <3

I also did some self reflecting those past days. My mental health declined a little bit ever since I arrived at my parents'. I'm pretty sure it's mainly stress and the change of environment that is messing with me, but I do believe that my diet is playing a part as well. My family eats a lot of processed food as well as a lot of animal products. When I moved out last year I changed my diet quite drastically. I don't eat animal products often anymore and rarely buy candy and so on because I know I tend to over-eat on things like that. Now that I'm surrounded my all those foods again I gotta make more of an effort to watch what I'm eating. I really hope that'll help.

Positive things I did that day:

started research for my big essay again

continued looking for internships

got some work done for my job at the university

watched Breaking Dawn part 2

Hours slept: ~9hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~600

“I want to fill my mouth with your name.”

— Pablo Neruda, Twenty Love Poems and Song of Despair

I saw god yesterday

She came to me in a

dream, kissed me on the head

And whispered everything

will be alright my child

~✧°+* 13/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

12.08.2023

Super late update because things have been a bit hectic :/

Had a good day but pretty much only did chores again. It is what it is. This is all about balance after all. Sadly let the Duolingo streak die after 20 days, tho >:(

Positive things I did today:

went for a walk

got errands done

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

cooked and meal-prepped

played some minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~9hrs

Screentime: 3hrs 30mins

Steps taken: ~5.800

~✧°+* 26/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

(first and last screenshot from: 虎狼来 (Kororon) - Eve Music Video)

29.08.2023

Feeling a lot better today! Meds helped a bunch, but they made me quite sleepy during the first half of the day. Because of that, I only really managed to be productive towards the evening. Regardless, I got a decent amount of work done. My Hamilton essay is due on Thursday. I'm planning on wrapping up my literature review tomorrow and then writing it all (minus the introduction, I got that done already) on Thursday!

Positive Things I did today:

continued working on the Hamilton essay

cooked lunch for my family

spent quality time with my siblings

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~500 (note for self: go on a walk tomorrow)