25. Trying to enjoy the little things
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You will wake up some day and the same thoughts of regret and guilt won’t be as present. The feelings of unworthiness will subside. The path of true healing begins when you start to understand that we were designed for fuck up. The human experience is best described as a timeless story, you will be a masterful stroke of terrible bad luck, but your redemption arc is worth every fucking penny. You learn to laugh a little at your pain and silliness. You learn to live a little more than usual. For sure; you are flawed and imperfect, sometimes you cannot feel the warmth of your own body but still you walk through the numbness. You shine when the stars dim out, when the sun doesn’t show, even when the moon is entangled with the clouds, you shine and shine and shine.
You will learn patience. You will learn that quite slowly. The hardest part about forgiving yourself that they don’t tell you about is the silent journey of your internal exchanges. Change doesn’t begin in a day, if rome wasn’t built in a day, you cannot possibly change in your moments of rage and depression. The courage to look at yourself and understand that you cannot possibly do this alone. You will attract your support system into your life, with your own hands, you’ll craft something worth waking up to. The company of tomorrow won’t always stay, but at least you’ll still have your freedom. The greatest feeling is knowing that you’ll always keep moving forward. for better or worse, you never stop going. Your first step is the hardest step, but it’s the only one you’ll ever be acquainted with.
One day you’re going to feel amazing again. You are the unconditional love that you must give to yourself first. A light version of what it means to truly be free. So proceed with caution, but always proceed. You are both an ending and a new beginning. You are the first page and the last chapter. You are the worst parts of your life, but you are also the sweetest moments of a midnight dance in the dark shared between innocence and young love. You are the road least traveled. The rose that grew out of concrete. You are the most beautiful person to complete this unfinished story. You are both author and reader. You are the rain. You are the flowers. You are the plucked. You are dry-pressed petals hidden under beds for a rainy day that might never come, but still you arrive all the same. You are the stars and all of its wishes. You are the faults and the mistakes, but you are also the answers and the corrections. You are the struggling, but you are also the unshakable. You are the calm, but you are also the storm. You are that very strange fixation to go on, because there’s nothing sweeter than your road to victory. You are every time you’ve watched yourself cry, you are also every moment you decided to smile. You are so damn incredible and worthy of a happy life. You still don’t have everything figured out, but my god, aren’t you just a sight to behold? Breathe gently, because it’s really going to be alright, no feeling is final. I am sending you so much love, with all that I am. You are the warm blood rushing back to cope with the absence of the sun, and it really is bright enough to shut out the darkness forever. I promise. Everything is going to be alright.
Just a gentle reminder that you were not put on this Earth to hate your body.
kofi
One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.
some advice: if the next step seems too big, it's not the next step
Dance as an act of rebellion. Dance as an act of joy.
Change is hard but staying somewhere you don't belong to will destroy you
You are not hard to love. You were just trying to bloom in places that didn’t have enough sunlight.
everything ive lost has been replaced with something better. i never lack, i just transition.
Sources: 🌿 🌿
I have a joke about math but im 2² to say it
personally, i really wanna enjoy my life this year. no more survival mode.
𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐤𝐫𝐚𝐬
chakras (from the sanskrit word cakra, meaning “wheel” or “disc”) are spinning vortexes of subtle energy that exist within your pranic body (also called the “subtle body”). they’re not physical organs, but energetic hubs where mind, body, and spirit meet.
chakras were described as energy centers (padmas, or “lotuses”) that store prana: life force, within the subtle body, which is different from the physical body.
this subtle body is composed of nadis (energy channels), koshas (layers of consciousness), and chakras (energy hubs).
the original chakra texts were written in sanskrit, and the most detailed source comes from the shat-chakra-nirupana, a 16th-century tantric text that laid out the seven main chakras and their symbolic, spiritual, and physiological associations.
they influence your thoughts, emotions, physical health, spiritual growth, relationships, and even your damn bank account.
when your chakras are healthy and flowing freely, your whole life aligns like sacred geometry. when they’re blocked or chaotic? expect spiritual lag, emotional glitches, physical illness, and endless chaos.
important to note:
in the original tantric system, chakras weren’t “self-care tools” they were maps to divine awakening used during intense yogic, meditative, and kundalini practices to transcend ego, illusion, and reincarnation. it was liberation tech, not lifestyle inspo.
but now, in this modern age of energy work, psychology, and soul evolution, the chakra system has become a universal template applicable to everyone, not just yogis. and we’re gonna fuse that original wisdom with real psychology, real healing, and real magic.
• earliest references to energy centers show up in the Vedas (ancient hindu scriptures) around 1500–1000 BCE.
• the shat-chakra-nirupana, a 16th-century tantric text, outlined the 7-chakra system most people know today.
• the system was never meant to be aesthetic it was part of a serious spiritual practice to activate kundalini shakti, the dormant divine feminine energy said to be coiled at the base of your spine.
originally, chakra work was about liberating the soul from illusion (maya) and achieving moksha (spiritual liberation). but in today’s world, chakra healing can help you:
• release trauma + emotional baggage
• align with your highest self
• create energetic flow in your career, love life, and creative path
• experience divine connection + psychic expansion
imagine 7 power stations wired along your spine. each one governs a certain aspect of your physical body, emotional world, mental patterns, and spiritual connection.
when they’re:
• balanced → energy flows freely = peace, joy, purpose, radiance
• blocked → stuck energy = fear, fatigue, illness, toxic patterns
• overactive → too much energy = burnout, anxiety, ego overdrive
• underactive → not enough energy = apathy, insecurity, numbness
1. root chakra – muladhara
“i exist. i survive. i am grounded.”
• sanskrit: mula = root, adhara = support/foundation
• location: base of spine, pelvic floor
• element: earth
• color: red
• mantra: LAM
• gland: adrenal glands (fight-or-flight center)
• body link: spine, legs, bones, colon
• psych themes: survival, money, stability, belonging, family, safety
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: anxiety, disconnection, poverty mindset, fear of abandonment
• overactive: hoarding, controlling behavior, stubbornness, material obsession
• trauma imprints: childhood neglect, abandonment, physical abuse etc.
when balanced:
• you feel safe in your body and the world
• you can build structure and discipline with ease
• you attract abundance + grounded stability
• you trust life even when it’s hard
healing tools:
• grounding meditations
• red foods: beets, root vegetables, chili
• physical touch, body-based therapies (somatic work)
• walk barefoot, work with hematite, black tourmaline
• build routines + financial structure
• affirmation: “i am worthy of safety and abundance.”
2. sacral chakra – svadhisthana
“i feel. i create. i allow pleasure.”
• sanskrit: sva = self, adhisthana = dwelling place
• location: lower abdomen, 2 inches below navel
• element: water
• color: orange
• mantra: VAM
• gland: reproductive system
• body link: womb, bladder, hips, genitals
• psych themes: sensuality, emotions, creativity, pleasure, intimacy
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: numbness, shame, low libido, creative block, disconnection from body
• overactive: hypersexuality, addiction, obsession, drama
• trauma imprints: sexual abuse, body shame, religious guilt, heartbreak
when balanced:
• you radiate magnetism, sensuality, and artistic flow
• your emotions move freely without controlling you
• you’re tapped into your divine feminine and creative life force
• you allow yourself to feel pleasure without guilt
healing tools:
• sensual dance (belly dance, twerking, slow flow yoga)
• sacred baths with rose + orange oil
• creative practices (painting, singing, scripting)
• orange calcite, moonstone
• inner child + womb healing
• affirmation: “i honor my body. i deserve to feel good.”
3. solar plexus – manipura
“i act. i choose. i claim my power.”
• sanskrit: mani = jewel, pura = city → “city of jewels”
• location: stomach, between ribs and navel
• element: fire
• color: yellow
• mantra: RAM
• gland: pancreas + digestive system
• body link: liver, gallbladder, intestines
• psych themes: identity, ambition, boundaries, ego, self-discipline
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: low self-esteem, indecision, victim mentality
• overactive: arrogance, perfectionism, aggression, burnout
• trauma imprints: bullying, strict parenting, humiliation, failure shame
when balanced:
• you’re decisive, empowered, and assertive without arrogance
• you have strong boundaries and healthy self-esteem
• you feel motivated and energized to go after what you want
• you become a natural leader
healing tools:
• sunbathing, breath of fire, core exercises
• wear yellow, work with citrine or pyrite
• personal power rituals (write + burn limiting beliefs)
• practice saying “no”
• affirmation: “i am the author of my life. i am enough.”
4. heart chakra – anahata
“i love. i forgive. i connect.”
• sanskrit: anahata = unstruck, infinite sound
• location: center of chest
• element: air
• color: green / pink
• mantra: YAM
• gland: thymus (immune system)
• body link: lungs, heart, arms, hands
• psych themes: compassion, forgiveness, empathy, romantic love, grief
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: isolation, coldness, fear of intimacy, bitterness
• overactive: martyrdom, people-pleasing, jealousy, attachment
• trauma imprints: loss, betrayal, rejection, emotional neglect
when balanced:
• you feel deep connection to others and to life itself
• you radiate unconditional love without losing yourself
• your immune system strengthens (yes, real science backs this)
• you can forgive, grieve, and love again
healing tools:
• breathwork (especially heart coherence)
• ho’oponopono (forgiveness prayer)
• emerald, rose quartz
• write love letters to self
• self-compassion meditations
• affirmation: “i am love. i radiate unconditional compassion.”
5. throat chakra – vishuddha
“i speak. i express. i tell the truth.”
• sanskrit: vishuddha = purification
• location: throat and neck
• element: ether (space)
• color: sky blue
• mantra: HAM
• gland: thyroid
• body link: vocal cords, mouth, jaw, ears
• psych themes: communication, truth, expression, listening
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: fear of speaking, introversion, repression
• overactive: gossip, interrupting, dominating convos
• trauma imprints: being silenced, punished for truth, gaslighting
when balanced:
• you speak with clarity, confidence, and integrity
• your voice becomes a tool for healing and influence
• you can express yourself artistically and emotionally
• you’re deeply heard by others
healing tools:
• chanting, singing, vocal toning
• write + speak affirmations out loud
• journal your truth
• use lapis lazuli, blue lace agate
• affirmation: “my voice matters. i speak my truth with grace.”
6. third eye – ajna
“i see. i know. i trust my inner wisdom.”
• sanskrit: ajna = to perceive, to command
• location: forehead, between eyebrows
• element: light
• color: indigo
• mantra: OM
• gland: pineal gland (melatonin, circadian rhythms)
• body link: brain, eyes, sinuses
• psych themes: intuition, imagination, perception, clarity
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: confusion, over-intellectualizing, lack of faith
• overactive: paranoia, delusion, dissociation
• trauma imprints: disillusionment, spiritual rejection, fear of intuition
when balanced:
• you trust your intuition without needing external validation
• you see life symbolically, not just literally
• dreams become vivid and prophetic
• you develop inner wisdom + spiritual intelligence
healing tools:
• meditation (especially vipassana + visualization)
• dream journaling
• limit screen time
• work with amethyst or labradorite
• third eye massage
• affirmation: “i see clearly. i trust my soul’s vision.”
7. crown chakra – sahasrara
“i transcend. i merge. i remember who i truly am.”
• sanskrit: sahasrara = thousand-petaled
• location: top of the head
• element: pure consciousness
• color: violet / white
• mantra: OM
• gland: pineal + pituitary
• body link: brain, nervous system
• psych themes: spirituality, divine connection, oneness, transcendence
imbalanced symptoms:
• underactive: atheism, existential dread, lack of purpose
• overactive: spiritual bypassing, superiority complex
• trauma imprints: spiritual rejection, religious abuse, nihilism
when balanced:
• you experience oneness with the universe
• you tap into divine downloads, flow states, soul alignment
• you feel limitless, guided, and expansive
• you recognise yourself as a vessel for higher love + wisdom
healing tools:
• meditation in silence
• crown chakra mudras + breathwork
• read sacred texts / study universal wisdom
• selenite, clear quartz
• fast or detox occasionally
• affirmation: “i am one with the divine. i am infinite consciousness in form.”
• do chakra meditation
• listen to solfeggio frequencies for specific chakras
• wear color-coded outfits / makeup to amplify each chakra
• eat chakra-aligned foods for lunch + dinner
• pull tarot spreads for each chakra to check your energy
• speak chakra mantras out loud in order to harmonize your field
• visualize golden energy spiraling from root to crown every night
might fuck around and make myself a priority