WI HAJOON BOYFRIEND VERSION

Things no one tells you about when you’ve been mentally ill for years and it won’t get better

— everyone will give up on you. Some will say it upfront, some will have indirect ways of showing it (you’re a lucky mf if you still have someone )

— your symptoms/ breakdowns/ panic attacks are cute for a few months. Everyone wants to help. Later on people find them annoying and inconvenient

— you will be blamed for not getting better. Doesn’t matter if you’re doing therapy, taking meds, exercising, eating well and sleeping. You can do all of it, some of it or none of it. They will find fault in your efforts.

— desensitization to your pain. This one isn’t their fault, it’s human nature. But it happens and yes it hurts cuz you would wish you were desensitized to your own pain but you have to feel it no matter what. Doesn’t matter if it’s the millionth time. It demands to be felt.

— people move on. But you can’t. You see people cope and get over things while you simply can’t. And it’s so much worse if you’ve been mentally ill for years. Even the smallest things break you and trigger you.

— you slowly realize this world isn’t made for mentally ill people in any way

— you’re tired / fatigued all the time. You have been for years now. You simply exist but you aren’t capable of living anymore. Your illnesses have taken everything that made you feel alive. You’re nothing but a shell. A body.

They are so precious to me 😭💕💕💕

Mood

me, reading late at night: "i'll be so tired tomorrow"

also me: *keeps reading until 3am*

lay me down tonight, in my ribbons and pearls

movie sub-genres • coming of age

coming of age focuses on the growth of a protagonist from childhood to adulthood, or “coming of age”. coming-of-age stories tend to emphasize dialogue or internal monologue over action, and are often set in the past.

my five year plan? read a lot of books. visit museums. walk through woods. stand in a river. adopt a little kitty. drink lemonade while sitting in a rocking chair on my porch.

Boop

me listening to my spotify wrapped filled with songs i've loved and constantly listened to all year: damn i have good taste in music

“Your unforgettable name.

Deep in my heart, your name is engraved and I long for you.

You set fire to my heart.

In my heart, you ignited the inextinguishable flame of love.

Before your name can be forgotten, I long for you again.

Oh, even at the moment of death, I shall call out your name.

Even as I am living, my heart longs for you.

Until the moment of death, I will long for you.

You set fire to my heart.

In my heart, you ignited the inextinguishable flame of love.”

i don't rate books based on character development and plot holes. if it made me bawl my eyes out and search up its fanarts at 3 am it's a 5/5