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godslayer â ft. mydeimos
your husband is a king who knows little else outside of being a warrior. that is the truth you cling to until slowly, month by month, he makes his way into the cavity of your chest and refuses to leave
â¤ď¸ word count: 18.2k words â i know, i know. but plssss give it a chance plsss
â¤ď¸ before you read: female princess/queen reader ; crown prince/king mydei ; arranged marriage ; NOT canon universe + NOT canon compliant - royal/historical au ; mentions of war and politics ; slow burn + falling in love ; lots of bickering LOL ; reader has a (king) father and is implied to no longer have a mother ; sexual harassment but mydei saves reader ; reader drinks alcohol + gets drunk in once scene ; jealous mydei ; fingering ; nipple play ; unprotected vaginal sex ; creampie ; hand jobs ; cockblocking LOL sorry ; blood and injuries (mydei gets stabbed) ; love confessions and cheesy bantering
â¤ď¸ commentary: IT IS FINALLY HERE MY GOD. my god. BIG THANK YOU TO @osarina for not only beta reading this fic and fixing WAY too many grammar errors (LOL) but for literally listening and helping me work through every struggle i had with this fic and being 70% of the reason i even finished it. you are my biggest inspo forever ily dearly
You do not remember most of your wedding to Lord Mydeimos.Â
On the day of your wedding, the beginning of your ceremony goes by like a blur, and you pay little attention. Itâs not until Kremnosâs royal advisor steps forward does your reality sink in. You watch wearily as he faces the crowd of peopleâenough of the Kremnoan commoners have gathered to witness the ceremony, and you feel more like a spectacle than a bride.
âThe son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood!â The Advisor chants.Â
âThe son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood!â The people of the nation bellow in tow. Men and womenâeven young children who cannot understand fully what is happeningâscream in sync for your union with Lord Mydeimos.
You realize quickly, by just a glance, that your nation of Janusopolis is everything his nation of Castrum Kremnos is not.Â
Janusopolis is a wealthy land built on the industry of gold. Beneath your fertile soil is the precious metal, and the mines stretch from one side of the border to the other. Trade is easy when you hold such a luxury beneath your soil, and the people of your land have never known what it means to be hungry. But for all its riches, your nation is fragileâsmall, with a military force that pales in comparison to the other armies of Amphoreus.
Castrum Kremnos is filled with warriorsâpeople who are bred for battle as though they were handpicked by the Gods themselves to fight. There is not one nation in all of Amphoreus that stands a chance against their strength, and yet, the people die of starvation every day. The streets are filled with mothers and fathers who feel the despair of poverty, feeding every small morsel to the hungry mouths of their children before themselves.Â
It is little surprise to anyone that you form an alliance. Now more than ever, when there are rumors that a war is comingâa war that you cannot fight and Kremnos cannot afford. They linger in the air, thick and heavy, carried through the wind by whispers that slip from court to court. The rumors are not just rumorsâyou know it by the deepening creases in your fatherâs brows, in the way his advisors speak in hushed, urgent tones.Â
Should war come, Janusopolis will not endure on its own for long. And should war come, Castrum Kremnos will not survive on just its strength.Â
So, when your father offers your hand to Lord Mydeimos for a union, you are not shocked when the crown prince agrees. You have heard rumors of him often, the hushed whispers of a man who is a warrior first and an heir second. A man whose bones are built for battle before his blood runs from a lineage of royalty. He sits beside you now, silent and broodingâin fact, heâs spoken not one sentence to you.Â
Good, you think to yourself as you glance at him from the corners of your eyes, he does not seem like a man who knows how to speak to a lady.Â
Youâre broken out of your thoughts quickly as a shadow covers your faceâthe Advisor has returned from facing the crowd, standing over you as you listen to the shouting behind his figure. The son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood! The son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood! The son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood! Itâs all you hear. Shouted over and over like a prayer to a God of a land you are unfamiliar with.
Lord Mydeimosâs advisor hands you a blade. The marriage rituals of Kremnos, you find, are as brutal as war itself. You hesitate for a moment before glancing at your father. He stares at youâhis precious daughter, whom he loves more than his own lifeâwith eyes filled with sorrow that he does not dare voice. You can practically hear his plea:
If not for Janusopolis, then for me.
Numbly, you take the handle, your fingers tightening around the cold metal. You steal one last glance at your father. The man who has always treated you like a delicate flower, as if you are to be carefully shielded from the harsh storms of winter until spring could smile upon you once more. The man who spoiled you as a princess should be, yet shaped you with the discipline of a future ruler. The man who, until now, has never let the weight of his crown come before his love for you.
But today, he has no choice. Today, he is a king first and a father second.
You carve his face into your memory. Youâll miss itâthe days when he was your king, the time when heir to the throne was your title. You are just the Lady of Kremnos now, bound to share the burdens of a new nation alongside a new king. An heir that is not you. You wonder how you will cope with that fact, how you will learn to accept that your birth rights mean little in a new set of borders.Â
But you give your father a nod, as firm and convincing as you can muster, before gripping the blade tightly and dragging it across your palm.
It stings. You donât flinch.
Blood wells instantly, deep red against your skinâthe same palm that has never known violence, never held a weapon, never bled for anything, now spills heavily on your first night in the strongest nation in Amphoreus.
How ironic, you almost want to say.
Instantly, Lord Mydeimos takes your wristâhe wastes little time. (Youâre not sure why you expect it, but a small part of you is disappointed he shows little care for the wound on your palm.) His hands are rough and calloused like you imagined they might be. They feel like the hands of a warrior. You wonder if this blood spilled across your palm is laughable to him. Surely, with a man as strong and fierce and accustomed to battle as he is, he must have felt the warm spill of life across his skin countless times. Whether his own blood or that of others, surely he must know the feeling familiarly enough that this is nothing to him.Â
He dips his thumb into the dark crimson of your hand and smears a stripe along his forehead. His advisor, slowly, with eyes that do not leave yours, lowers the crown onto your husbandâs head. No longer a crowned prince but a king.Â
The nation cheers. âThe son of Gorgo shall be crowned in blood!â
Such a brutal man, you think as you stare at your husband, to have his fate sealed through nothing but bloodshed.
âââââ
Lord Mydeimos is quiet during your trek to your now-to-be-shared chambers. His first words to you are far from romantic.Â
âYou are not happy with this arrangement,â he says, and for a moment, you think perhaps he is offended by the fact. You realize only a second later that he has little care. He is merely making an observation.Â
âUnhappy is not exactly the correct term for it,â you mumble, âHowever, it is no lie that all envision their marriage to be one of love, not political convenience.â
âThen you should have married for love,â Lord Mydeimos responds blandly.Â
You raise a brow, staring at him as if he has grown two heads. (Surely, the man you just witnessed willingly take your hand in marriage while he becomes king for the sake of his nation could not possibly think you could marry out of love. Surely, he is not so naive when he bears the responsibility of his people entirely on his shoulders.)
âThat would not be possible,â you furrow your brows, âI have always prepared myself for a marriage of alliance.â
âThen you should not have such fickle dreams.â
Oh.Â
Some part of you is more shocked than it is outraged. But then the better part of your emotions takes over completelyâhow dare he have the gall to tell you what your desires should and should not consist of? You wonder if all warriors are cold-blooded in Kremnosâif they only know their ways around the heart when it is to pierce a blade through the delicate tissue and nothing else. Perhaps to expect Lord Mydeimos to understand the ways around emotions and desires is to lead a blind man into the dark, bare room.Â
There is nothing for him to grasp his footing and find his way around.Â
âForgive me,â you spit bitterly, soured by his dismissiveness, âI did not realize accepting my circumstances meant I could not wish for things to be different.â
âYou can,â he says, still infuriatingly detached, âBut it would be a waste of energy.â
You have a sharp retort ready on your tongue. Perhaps itâs unwise to speak to a newly crowned king in such a manner, husband or not, but you are too used to the way your father tolerated your every thought. Welcomed them, even. You were never raised to hold your tongue, and the habit will be a hard one to break.Â
But before you can hiss out your reply, you are interrupted by a maid.Â
âYour chambers are ready, My Lord,â she tells Lord Mydeimos, bowing slightly before taking her leave. She avoids your eyes entirely, blush dusted across her cheeks as though she has stated a scandalous fact. You realize rather quickly why.
Lord Mydeimos, apart from the stiff nod, seems mostly unbotheredâbut the tenseness in his neck and shoulders is enough to tell you that even he is not unaffected by everything. You almost want to tease him, but your words die on your tongue as the large doors to what is now your shared chambers are opened by two guards. You follow him inside, and the doors are quick to shut behind you before hurried footsteps echo down the corridor.Â
There is no one nearby, you realize. You expect as much, of course, but it doesnât make your skin feel any less hot.Â
âWellâŚâ you start awkwardly. (You are certain there is a ghost of an amused tug at his lips at that, but before you can properly look, it is gone.)Â
âWellâŚ?â he repeats, raising an eyebrow.Â
âI suppose it is customary that weâŚâ You donât want to say it. What would you say? It is customary that we fuck on the first night of knowing each other so our marriage is properly completed, My Lord? You have little interest in consummating a marriage with him.Â
But you are not above your duties, and youâre positive that neither is he. Of course, he isnât, in fact. With an attitude as uncaring and bothersome as his, he sees no issues with doing what is expected of him. He would probably finish with that stupidly straight face of his, too, you think somewhat bitterly.Â
âDo you not wish to say it?â He finally cracks a small grin as though watching you squirm under his gaze is entertaining to him. You scowl. He has enough tact to go back to looking serious as he continues: âWe do not need to do anything.â
âButââ
âUnless what is your wish, of course,â he adds.Â
You sputter. âI do not care regardless,â you huff, pretending to be as unbothered as he seems to be. (You know, as well as he does, that neither of you are unbothered at all.) âIf you wish to complete our marriage, then I will do as you wish.â
âEven if that is not what you wish?â He cocks his head to the side.Â
âIt matters little what I wish,â you say darkly, narrowing your eyes as you pointedly add: âAnd, I suppose it is a waste of my energy to hope for what I wish, is it not?â
He eyes you for a moment. Something about his gaze makes you feel more bare while being fully clothed than if you were to strip yourself in front of him. He turns abruptly, leaving you to blink in shock before you watch as he begins to pull off his armor, one piece at a time.Â
Oh. You swallow thickly, realizing what is happening.Â
âThe least you could do,â you start as you walk over to the bed, âis to pretend to be interested in bedding your wife if you are to do so.â
He looks at you, carefully laying his armor on the wooden stand by your bed, before humming, âI will not bed anyone if that is not what they wish. It is distasteful.â
You gasp, offended. âI should have you know many noblemen would not find me distasteful by the slightestââ
âYou are not distasteful,â he interrupts. âBut taking you against your will would be. We can be husband and wife without such outdated customs.â He pulls back the covers and prepares to settle onto the mattress. âNow, I am off to bedâI have training at sunrise. Which side do you prefer?â
You blink, still processing. He stares expectantly.
âThe left,â you murmur.
âGood.â He nods, lying on the right. âI prefer the right. How agreeable.â
With that, he turns and settles under the sheets, leaving you with the privacy of getting ready for the night yourself. You stand there for a moment, utterly shocked, before you collect yourself and despite still being in your wedding robes, slip under the sheets and stay as close to the edge of your side as you can. (There is little need for that, of courseâthe mattress is large enough that you could fit two more bodies between yours and his, but you spitefully cannot help but leave as much room between you as you can.)Â
âGoodnight,â he mumbles.Â
âGoodnight,â you huff in return.Â
âDo let me know if I hog the blanketsâI have never shared the sheets with someone before.â
âNo need to fret,â you say matter-of-factly, âIf you do, I will simply pull them back.â
He chuckles. You almost wish you could see a proper smile on his face, but you donât dare turn. âI have no doubts about that.â
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
One month into your marriage, you learn that the palace is a lonely place in Kremnos.Â
At least, it is for you.Â
You are still learning who your husband is, so he offers little companionship to your lonesome heart. And more often than not, attempting to understand him leaves you with a headache. You still hardly know Lord Mydeimosâin fact, only yesterday, you learned that despite his robes and attire strictly following a red scheme, his preferred color is actually yellow. An absurdly preposterous revelation, you thinkâyou have no understanding of why he would dress the way that he does if he prefers a color soâŚopposite, but only Lord Mydeimos knows for certain what goes on in his head.Â
The first person you can consider as proper company is an attendant called Agnes. She is your personal attendant, and her days are reserved strictly to cater to your every need should you require it. Lord Mydeimos has made it very clear that she is to be nearby in case you are in need, and she follows his orders strictly.Â
Agnes is wonderfully kind. She is skilled in many artsâstitching and embroidery, cooking and baking, and even music. In a few weeks, you have learned the basics of the harp, her best instrument, and she teaches you fondly as she tells you about your husband.Â
âHe is just so stubborn,â you huff, stretching out your sore fingers. âAnd he has an attitude I cannot even begin to describeâI am certain children must cry at just the sight of him?â
âActually, they do quite the opposite. Lord Mydeimos enjoys playing tag,â Agnes says as she applies balm along your tender fingers after a lengthy harp lesson, âHe does not seem like it, but he does. He is fond of the children who play by the ponds outside of the palace gates.â
âAnd are they fond of him?â You raise an unconvinced brow, wincing as the blisters on your fingers sting. âHe does not seem like someone who knows how to converse well with children.â
âThat is partly true,â Agnes chuckles thoughtfully. âHe is a tad bit stiff with his words. But the children are indeed fond of him nonetheless, yes. He brings them treats from the palace bakery.â
âWell, at least I can trust that he will not lock me in the dungeons for one wrong move,â you break into a teasing grin. âThey say children are a good judge of character. I suppose he has passed that test.â
âWhat test?â You and Agnes straighten at the sound of Lord Mydeimosâs voice as he enters your chambers, exchanging looks before she clears her throat.
âNothing, My Lord,â she says evenly, standing up as you follow. âI was simply telling My Lady about what a seasoned warrior you are.â
Your husband does not look particularly convinced, but he nods politely as Agnes excuses herself, leaving you and Lord Mydeimos alone. He walks up to you, glancing quickly at your fingertips as you rub them and wince.Â
âWhat has happened to your fingers?â he asks with a frown.Â
You look at them sheepishly, murmuring quietly, âI have been learning to play the harp from Agnes. My fingers have blistered against the strings.â
âAh,â he nods, holding up his own gauntlet-clad hands and mumbling, âPerhaps you should consider armory. They are most useful for shielding simple pains. In any case, I have come to speak to you about our trip.â
You blink. Once, then twice, and then finally, you ask hesitantly, ââŚOurâŚtrip?â
âYes. We will be departing in two days' time for Styxias to negotiate on military affairs. Should this go successfully, that is one more ally we can tally in case war breaks out. You are to accompany me, of course,â He raises an eyebrow, surprised by your confusion. âHave they not told you?âÂ
âNo, they have notâŚbut regardless, you are king,â you point out.Â
This time, he blinks, unsure exactly what point you are trying to make at all. âYesâŚâ he says carefully. âAnd you are queen, which is precisely why you shall accompany me. It is only four nights.â
âI have never had to accompany my father in official matters when I was princess.â You furrow your brows, creases forming in your forehead that he almost instinctively reaches out to smooth. Almost.
âThat is because you were a princess,â he muses. âIf your father had a queen, it would be customary for her to travel alongside him to the kingdoms of his dealings. It is seen as the polite thing to do, to have both rulers make an appearance.â
âBut you will speak on military negotiations. I am of no help in those matters, you know.â
âI am aware,â he says patiently. âThat is why you will not accompany me to the negotiations. You will only attend the social gatheringsâas I mentioned, it is simply for appearances. However, it would be greatly appreciated if you could glean a piece of intel or two about other nations from the mingling.â
That puts you in a sour mood. Not only will you join him on a four-day trip for no other reason than existing as a sight to bear witness to by the other nobles, but you will be in a nation yet again where you are a stranger to everyone. Lord Mydeimos, the only person you even somewhat know, will be busy with official matters, and that will leave you with nothing to do.Â
And Agnes has promised to teach you how to sew in the coming days.Â
Unhappy, you bargain, âAlright, then perhaps Agnes can join us to keep me company while you are busy.â
âThat is not necessary.â He waves a hand and denies your request. âAgnes is an attendant, so there is no need for her to join. She shall remain in the palace where she belongs.â
âIâm sure it will be of little difference if the palace is missing just one attendant,â you reason, âAnd besides, Agnes is my personal attendant, so Iâm sure the other nobles will think nothing of it. My father would often be accompanied by his own attendants to make matters simpler for him in regards toââ
âWell, that is the way of Janusopolis,â he interrupts, patience wearing thin. Strictly, Lord Mydeimos adds, âYou are in Kremnos now. And in Kremnos, we do not allow our maids and attendants to neglect their duties to join pointless expeditions that they have no concerns with.â
His tone is clipped. Firm. A touch reprimanding like that of a parent scolding a child, and some part of you, underneath the hurt, simmers in rage. One attendant, among hundreds, will make not the slightest dent in the palaceâs operation. More frustrating still, Lord Mydeimos leaves you with little say in anything regarding this tripânot whether or not you will go, not what you will do, and now, not even who you will be accompanied by.
Stubbornly, you refuse to accept his terms.Â
âIf you will not allow me the company of Agnes, then I will be most troublesome. Mark my words, Lord Mydeimos,â you warn, âIf you do not wish for me to make a fool of this kingdom, then Agnes and I will both join your senseless journey.â
His lips take a dangerous shape, morphing into a hard line that you fear could cut you with how sharp it is. âIs that a threat?â he questions.
âIt is but a mere promise of an outcome,â you reply smartly, as though he is dense in the head. (You think he might be, just a tad. To ask a lady that question is to only ask for trouble.)
âAgnes is an attendant,â he says exasperatedly.Â
âI do not care,â you bite back. âShe is also the only one I have befriended in this kingdom, and her position as attendant should mean little compared to the wishes of your wife.â
âShe is meant to stay behind palace doors and do her duty. Just as you are to do yours and accompany me as my wife and as Queen. You cannot bend such rules just because you simply wish to do so.â
âAnd who is the one who set such standards in the first place?â You challenge, âDo not tell me that as king, you do not have the authority to undo the regulations that only a king can put in place? How laughable.â
Lord Mydeimos is becoming impatient. You can tell by the twist of his features and the blazing fire behind his eyes, the light shade of his amber deepening into a dark honey. He is not happyânot with you, not with your attitude, and not with your tendencies to question everything.Â
And you like it that way. If you do not get your way, you sure as hell will make sure that his way is difficult to enjoy.Â
âYou are your fatherâs only daughter,â he says through a grumpy snarl, âIt is as apparent as the tideâs ebb and flow. Only would a woman who has never known the word no be so maddening.â
âI am simply highly revered where I come from,â you shrug, giving him a purposely haughty smile just to get on his nerves.Â
It seems to work as he grits, âYou are spoiled beyond reason. It is ill-suited for one who carries the burdens of duty.â
And with that, your satisfaction is short-livedâyou sputter at his insult, doing a double take while his eyes lighten with amusement at your reaction. He is enjoying this, you realizeâenjoying denying you of a simple pleasure all for the sake of his petty, twisted desire for authority. And to question your devotion to your duty, too, is an outrage. You, who married a stranger who knows little outside of bloodshed and brutality, all for the sake of your people, being accused of putting your own pleasure before your duties.
You will have nothing of the sort.
You glare at him, ferocity in your gaze as you huff, âDo not speak to me of duty and obligation when I have left all that I know for the sake of my nation and for the sake of yours. I carry the burden of sacrifice for two lands, not just one. It is not out of line, I believe, to wish my husband would indulge me in a harmless request. But if you must deny me, then so be it. I will pack for our departureââ
He catches your wrist just as you turn to leave. Itâs gentle. Heâs gentle. You cannot wrap your head around how quickly Lord Mydeimos is able to switch between a stubborn mule and a gentle doe, but carefully, he pulls and spins you to face him, taking a step closer as he studies you thoughtfully for a moment in mild fascination. You do not like itâyou feel like an animal under his gaze, cornered in a cage and waiting to see what fate his cruel hands may hold for you.Â
Except, never do you face a cruel fate. Instead, after a painfully silent moment of being scrutinized under his gaze, he lets out a defeated chuckleâalmost a snort, you could even say. Equal parts tired and equal parts amused.Â
âNo need,â he hums. âThe attendants will see to it that your belongings for the trip are packed. As for your requestâŚI suppose I could make an exception for my wife. Do not make a habit of thinking you shall always get your way, though.â
You relax in his grip for a moment, staring into his eyes carefully to decipher if he is lying. He is not, you conclude after a momentâand just like that, your anger washes away as fast as it came. You perk up, excitement gracing your features and brightening them.Â
âAgnes will join me?â You ask to double-check.
âAgnes will join us,â he corrects, exasperated.Â
âOh, wonderful,â You bring your free hand up and clap, your other still in his grip. He stares down and watches the motions of your hands, and by extension, his, as it moves with the flow. âI am most grateful, Lord Mydeimos.â
And just to be devious, you lean up, planting a small, mischievous peck to the edge of his jaw before promptly pulling away and brushing past him, excitedly on your way to find Agnes and tell her the good news. Lord Mydeimos stands, paused and tense from shock. After a moment, he shakes his head and rubs his face tiredly, ignoring the heat blooming across the swells of his cheeks and spreading as far as the tips of his ears.Â
âThat woman is a most wicked thing,â he grumbles to himself. âA most wicked thing, indeed.â
âââââ
Just as Lord Mydeimos had promised, Agnes joins your carriage as you take your leave to Styxias. She is thrilled to leave Kremnos for the first timeâitâs abundantly clear by her expression alone, even if she maintains a humble mellowness in both of your presence.Â
Lord Mydeimos looks tired after all of ten minutes of being stuck listening to the two of you as you converse and giggle endlessly.Â
âI hear the waters are beautiful in Styxias,â Agnes murmurs. âI am most excited to see if that is true.â
âOh, they are,â you nod eagerly. âFather had taken me for a ball many years ago. I still remember the water lilies like it was just yesterday that I had witnessed them bloom. They are the most breathtaking sight I have yet to see.â
Lord Mydeimos scoffs. You throw him a withering glare. Agnes sighs as she predicts the argument to come.Â
âIâd consider them to be mediocre among flowers,â your husband says roughly. âClearly, you have yet to see the blooming of the flowers that stem from Kremnophilas.â
âPerhaps IÂ have yet to see them because clearly nothing that could make an impression on me has bloomed on the dry soils of Kremnos. There is nothing but cliff and rock here,â you retort.Â
Lord Mydeimosâs lips press into a firm frown, clearly displeased with your assessment of his homeland. (You are correct, of course. Kremnos is not known for its botanical splendor, and part of the reason for its financial struggles is its dependence on imported crops rather than growing them on its own soil. Something tells you, though, that voicing that particular fact would sour his mood even further.)
âKremnophila flowers bloom once a year,â he grunts. âThey are beautiful. And they were my mother's favorite. There is no sight quite like it.â
âThey are rather beautiful,â Agnes nods earnestly. âLady Gorgo would wear the blooms in her hair during the spring. She was known for being quite a beauty across all the kingdoms.â
You have heard about Lady Gorgo. Lord Mydeimosâs mother was a cherished Queenâyour father had spoken highly of her in passing. You know little of the woman who raised your now husband, but the tragedy of her death spread across nations like wildfire.Â
She was murdered in her own chambers, poisoned by an attendant who had been bribed by a rival kingdom seeking to invade Kremnos. They found her lifeless body on the floor the next morning, and the attendant had vanished without a trace.
(âTruly a shame,â your father had muttered once the news had spread. âBetrayed by her own trusted maid for the sake of another nation. Such an awful way to go. Her son is utterly alone now. May the Gods bless him to be a formidable king some day.â
You donât even remember the name of the nation that harbored the assassinâit no longer exists. The palace was burned to the ground by Lord Mydeimosâs army, and rumors claim he had been the one to behead the king himself. He was only fifteen at the time. In an act of mercy, he spared the commoners, allowing them to flee to Kremnos. But not a single noble was left alive. Some whisper that he keeps the severed head of the fallen king somewhere in his palace, both as a trophy and a warning: no one is a match for the Kremnoan army.
After his motherâs death, Lord Mydeimos was to take on the nationâs affairs officially. Most believed Kremnos would crumble under a young, inexperienced rulerâthat the kingdom would soon fall, an easy target for invasion.
âPerhaps we could acquire Kremnos, Father,â you had said once. âWith an unfit future king, surely the kingdom will fall. We would benefit from such a strong army, no?â
âDo not be so quick to gamble on such matters. He is brilliant,â your father had murmured, âEven our best knights were no match in a duel with that boyâhe may be young, but he is a godslayer of a warrior. He will make a fine king, I am certain.â)
In the end, your father was right. If not for the raging battle against poverty, Kremnos could easily be the fiercest nation of all.
Godslayer. You still recall the title heâd given your now husband, and you wonder if your father would still call Lord Mydeimos such a title now, or if he regrets handing over his daughter to such a fierce man.
Perhaps not even the Gods know. Not when faced with a man who could slay them in a heartbeat.
âIâll believe in their beauty when I see them for myself,â you hum. Lord Mydeimos scoffs yet again. Agnes rubs her temples, exasperated by the bickering that seems to follow you both wherever you go.Â
It is several more hours before you finally arrive in Styxias. You fall asleep midway through the journey, and youâre startled awake by a cool, pointed piece of metal to your ribs. You shriek, flinching away as your eyes fly open.Â
âWe are here,â Lord Mydeimos states in amusement. You realize quickly that the object that assaulted your ribcage was one of his gauntlet-covered fingersâhe has enough wit to at least try to hide the smile on his face at your moment of panic.Â
âYou saw no better way to wake me than with such a sharp piece of armor?â you hiss, rubbing your side
He grins, holding out a hand for you as he says through a cocky voice, âNo. You are a deep sleeper. Agnes could not wake you after countless attemptsâtherefore, I took it upon myself.â
âDo not lie to me,â you scold accusingly. âIâm positive you did not even give Agnes the opportunity. Surely, you saw your chance to get under my skin, and you took it.â
âI do not lie,â he hums. âNor do I need to. The evidence of your deep slumber is written clearly in the drool on your chin.â
You quickly wipe at your chin. There is nothing.Â
Before you can scowl and scold him further, he chuckles, yanking you by the wrist and tugging you to exit the carriage. You gasp, hardly managing to make sure your clothes are neat and orderly before you are dragged to come face to face with Styxian nobles.Â
The introductions are boring. Lord Mydeimos holds you delicately by the hand and leads you down an endless line of nobles, their names blurring together as he introduces each one. You smile, bow your head politely, and offer the right words at the right momentsâyears of royal training make your social skills effortlessly polished. At least this part is not complicated.
Itâs not long before your husband escorts you to your shared temporary chambers and murmurs, âI will be back before sunfall to collect you for dinner. The maids have packed your finest robes, and Agnes will know which one to prepare tonight for you to wear. Do not be shy to call for the maids of this palace should you need somethingâthey are accustomed to aiding us when we visit.â
âHow long will this dinner last?â you pout.Â
He fights the urge to roll his eyes, sighing before he murmurs, âLong enough that you should have no trouble making acquaintances with such a dazzling personality. Now, I shall be on my way, wife.â
With that, Lord Mydeimos leaves.Â
You are bored within the first hour. After sifting through the books and trinkets in your guest chambers, you have little to doâand Agnes, who came with the purpose of keeping you company, is too busy steaming and preparing your robes to pay you proper mind for the moment.Â
So you do the only thing you can think to do: wander the halls in search of something, anything to keep you entertained.Â
That was your first mistake. Your second was to wander to the gardens where no one would hear you at this hour if you were to scream.Â
âWhy hello, my lady,â comes a voice. You flinch in surprise, turning quickly to meet the gaze of a young man, clearly a noble of sortsâheâs too old to be a teenager but too young to be a proper man. You canât help but feel put off by the glint in his eyes.
âHello,â you blink, âW-who are you? I believe all the nobles are to discuss important matters at the current moment, yes?â
âAh,â he hums. âThat would be correct. But I am not here for such mattersâthe king of Styxia is my cousin, you see, and it seems I timed an impromptu visit rather poorly. My cousin has banned me from entering the chambers where they hold such important negotiations; thus, I am left bored with nothing to do.â
âI see,â you nod slowly, offering him a small smile. âI suppose we are in the same predicament. Lord Mydeimos has also abandoned me for the moment as he discusses away.â
âYou came here with the king of Kremnos?â the young man asks, lips curling into a wider grinâyou cannot help but feel unsettled by the way it curls happily at the news. A shiver runs down your spine as he walks closer. And closer. âYou must be exceedingly special to have caught his eye.â
âN-no, it is not like that,â you try to explainâ
He cuts you off, humming as he murmurs, âI have yet to see a lady who has earned the attention of the great Mydeimos for courting. Tell me, what is it he is fascinated by?â
âWe are not courting,â you try to correct. âHe is myââ
âAh, no need to be so shy.â This stranger, who begins to make the hairs stand at the back of your neck, seems hellbent on cutting you off at every sentence. By now, you have stepped backward from him enough times that a cold stone hits your back, and you are left nowhere to go, pinned in place by his body as it hovers over you.Â
Your hands sweat. Something is not right about him.Â
âI must go,â you smile shakily. âThe attendant who is meant to look after me must be worried, soââ
He cuts you off again.Â
âWhat is the rush? Surely, they are aware the palace walls are safe. Weâve only just begun to know each other.â A hand reaches over to trace your jaw, making you stiffen as he hums at the touch of your soft skin. âWell, youâre certainly a sight. I suppose that is what might have caught the attention of The Great Mydeimos,â he muses mockingly. âBut I wonderâŚperhaps there is somethingâŚdare I say, more tantalizing about you, My Lady?â
His hand trails from your jaw to your collarbone, wandering lower, lower, lowerâ
âEnough,â you hiss, shoving his hand away, but he is fast. He catches your wrist and pins it above your head. The glint in his eyes is no longer playfulâit is hungry, dangerous. Panic grips you. No one can hear you from here, not when they are all busy preparing the grand feast. Not even Agnes. âUnhand me this instant, or Lord Mydeimos will hear of this, you know!â
âAh, I wouldnât bother,â he hums. âYou wouldnât want to tell him you wandered to the gardens alone, would you? He might get the wrong impression of your intentions.â
The meaning is crystal clearâno one will believe you. Not even Lord Mydeimos.Â
And perhaps he is right. Why would Lord Mydeimos believe you? You, who have done nothing but push against your husbandâs will since the moment you arrived? Who forced him to bend the customs of his own kingdom? Who argues with him at every opportunity, simply to watch his lips curl into a frown? Surely, of all people, Lord Mydeimos would be the first to assume you had done this to humiliate himâflirting with the first man you could find, just to make a fool of him before royalty and nobility alike.
A sob breaks through your throat, and you wrestle to free your wrist from his grasp.Â
âUnhand me,â you spit. âI wonât say it again!â
âYou heard her.â The voice is low. Dangerous. âShe will not say it again. Unhand my wife.â
You stiffen. So does the wretched man pinning you. His face drains of color as realization dawns on him.
âWife,â he echoes weakly. Then again, as if he cannot believe it: âHisâŚwife?â
âThat would be correct, Albus,â Lord Mydeimos says, his voice eerily calm. âHave you not heard the news? Surely, you could not have been dwelling beneath a boulder for this longâI have wedded the princess of Janusopolis to form an alliance. You do recognize her, donât you?â
âP-princessâŚâ the manâAlbus, repeats, hands trembling as he pulls away from you quickly, recoiling from touching you as if your skin burns him.Â
âWell, a princess no more,â Lord Mydeimos corrects. âQueen is the title you should use now. Queen of Castrum Kremnos. And I trust you, of all people, understand the proper way to address a queen.â
âYes, yes, of course,â Albus chuckles nervously, turning to face Lord Mydeimos with tense shoulders.Â
You watch as your husband closes the distance in a single step, gripping Albus by the collar and yanking him close. Lord Mydeimos whispers somethingâsomething too low for you to hear. But you do hear the strangled whimper that escapes Albus before he stumbles back, tripping over his own feet in his haste to flee. He does not look at you again.
With that, your knees give out. You are certain you would fall if not for the steady arms that catch you, pulling you against a firm chest.
âAre you alright?â Lord Mydeimos asks quietly. You say nothing, only letting out a soft sniffle. A bare fingertipâone not covered by armor, you noteâgently captures a tear from your lash line before it can fall down your cheek. âAgnes nor the other attendants could find you, so they alerted me. I thought perhaps the gardens would capture your attention, so I came to look. Lucky I did, I suppose.â
âLucky me, indeed.â You give a forced, watery chuckle. âGood thing My Lord knows just where I might be causing trouble.â
He frowns, tightening his grip around your waist. âDo not say such absurd thingsâthe only trouble is that shallow vermin of a man. I shall see to it that he is properly dealt with.â
âNo need,â you sniffle, not meeting your husbandâs gaze. âHe was right about one thing: people might get the wrong impression by my wanderingââ
âIf my wife were to desire wandering the streets under the moonâs light, then she should be able to do so. I will tolerate none who take advantage of her moments of indulgence. Believe me,â he says fiercely.Â
You swallow, and somethingâan odd, warm, and fluttery thing, forms in the pit of your belly at his words. A small smile forms at the edges of your lips as you nod slowly. âI shall hold you to such a vow, My Lord,â you murmur.Â
âGood,â he nods, satisfied. âCome. I will escort you to Agnes. Do not leave her side until I return, understood? It would seem your stubbornness to bring her paid off in the end.â
By the end of your trip, Lord Mydeimos is able to negotiate an alliance generously in favor of Kremnosâa little too generously in favor, in fact, that you wonder if part of it is so that Styxia can escape the wrath of your husbandâs rage. You even run into Albus briefly before your departure, not a long run-in by any meansâhe hurries off as soon as your eyes meetâbut you are happy to find out that he is nursing a broken nose.Â
Oddly enough, the skin looks torn as though sharp metal dug into it upon impact. You eye Lord Mydeimosâs gauntlets as he carefully holds your hand and helps you into the carriage.Â
âReady to return home?â He asks.Â
You hum, smiling knowingly to yourself. âYes, Lord Mydeimos,â you say softly.
Agnes, to her surprise, is able to return home the entire journey alongside the both of you without the headache of witnessing a petty back and forth.Â
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After four months of marriage, you believe it is safe to consider yourself and Lord Mydeimos as companions. You suppose, under the indifferent brutality of a warrior, that he can be quite good-natured. And when you are not feeling especially argumentative, he is easy to get along with. You fall into a comfortable routine of addressing your husband and sharing your life as good friends.Â
That is how you like to view it. He is a man who you share your life and duties (and perhaps bedâin a literal sense) with, and he is a companion whom you have put your trust in. Itâs an easy routine:
Good morning, wife. I am off to official mattersâI shall see you in the evening.
You have returned, Lord Mydeimos. The evening is still youngâshall I have the maids draw you a bath to ease your aches from training?
I have finished my bath, and the attendants will see to cleaning the bathhouse, wife. Have you eaten? Join me for dinner.Â
Lord Mydeimos, you must rise before the sun tomorrow. Shall I prepare our chambers for you to rest?Â
Wife. Lord Mydeimos. Itâs what you know each other as. You prefer it this wayâyou are just that: his wife, and he is just that: Lord Mydeimos of this nation of Castrum Kremnos. You are bound through marriage on parchment by duty and nothing else. For four months, that is the truth you cling to, and you find it comforting this way.Â
It takes all of four months before he decides otherwise.Â
âFrom now on, you are to call me Mydei,â he commands one day in your chambers. He sits in his chair, polishing his armor, while you sit nearby on the bed, practicing the stitching Agnes has recently taught you.Â
You pause, furrowing your brow in confusion. (And honestly, you are a little bit unhappy with his toneâhe should not get used to making his desires be known through such demanding manners. You will not stand for it.) âAnd why is that?â
âBecause I have asked it of you,â he replies plainly. And, as if sensing your irritation (which he has gotten very good at through practice), he adds an earnestly mumbled, âPlease.â
It surprises you sometimesâLord Mydeimos seems brutish by his exterior, but he is unpredictably perceptive at times. And, more importantly, he is shockingly gentle by nature. He is not above a please or a thank you. It is just that he happens to never need to use those phrases, you supposeâbut he tries. (For youâyour heart suggests. Only because he is cunning when he wants somethingâyour brain counters.)
âBut your name is Mydeimos,â you say stubbornly. (In truth, calling him by a nickname feels a touch too intimate than you are willing to admit. You are not yet prepared to accept that you are approaching intimacy in thisâŚwell, whatever your circumstance with Lord Mydeimos is considered.)
âAre you now attempting to teach me my own name?â His brow arches, a look of mild amusement flickering across his face.
At this, you crack, unable to resist a playful quip. âIf I must educate you on something as fundamental as that, perhaps you are not as suited for the role of king as everyone seems to think, Lord Mydeimos.â
âMydei,â he corrects gruffly. âDo not be so stubborn all the time.â
âBut I quite like Lord Mydeimos,â you insist. âYour title is important, is it not? And besides, it would be strange for me to address you with such familiarity while you continue to call me simply⌠wife.â
His expression shifts, darkening slightly, his lips pressing into something dangerously close to a sulk. He is pouting, you realize, amused by the notion. Or, at least, as much as someone with such sharp features can pout. He looks more childlike than usual like this, and there is something undeniably endearing about the way it softens his rough features. Oddly enough, you find him almost...charming.Â
The thought unsettles you deeply, but you bury it quickly.
âMydei,â he pushes once more. (There is an undeniable, almost spoiled edge to his tone, as though he is unaccustomed to hearing the word no. You find that somewhat ironic, considering he had teased you himself for being spoiled not too long ago.) âI shall call you dear wife.â
âYou do call me wife,â you point out blandly.
âYes, but now I shall call you dear wife,â he corrects. âThere is a difference between simply being a wife and being a dear one.â
âAnd what would that be?â
âYou are dear to me,â he says simply. As though it is obvious. (Perhaps it is.)Â
And you cave.Â
Not because the curve of his lips as he all but pouts is undeniably charming, not because being called dear causes a strange flutter in your heart, and certainly not because the sight of his frustration is in any way captivating. No, you only concede because you have no desire to deal with a grumpy husband who might make your life far more complicated than it needs to be, all over something trivial. That is the only reason.Â
âFine. I suppose Mydei is easier on the tongue,â you huff.Â
You ignore the way you feel oddly lightheaded when he smiles the tiniest, yet softest, of smiles at your agreement. He is undeniably handsome, you thinkâand that thought, too, scares you.
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It is only a few weeks later when you start to question if you and Mydei are two people who have married and become friends or if there is more beyond your carefully strategic union.
You and Mydei share a bathhouse. It is reserved strictly for the two of you, though Agnes has informed you that before your arrival, it had been Mydeiâs alone. (He is quite fond of baths, you come to realize, and is rather particular about them. Only a select few attendants are permitted to prepare the bathhouse before he bathes, solely because they are the few who meet his standards. Some part of you, if you are honest, feels just a bit flattered that he allows you to share a space he holds with such high importance.)
Sharing the quarters has always come with an unspoken routine: you bathe at separate times, preserving the polite distance you have managed to keep yourself from him.
âLord Mydeimos is finished with his bath,â one of the maids tells you, handing you a large, fresh towel as you smile. âI delivered him freshly laundered robes just a bit ago.â
âThank you,â you smile.Â
With that, you undress, wrapping yourself in nothing but the warm towel the maid has handed you before you make your way to the bathhouse. You knock once and wait, just to be sure he has left before you enter.
Silence. Perfect.Â
Humming to yourself, you step inside, the thick steam curling around you instantly, enveloping you like a warm blanket against your skin. The scent of the lavender and cedar Mydei uses lingers in the air, the water still gently rippling from recent movement. Mydeiâs fondness for this space is easy to understandâit is grand, carved from marble and stone, with towering pillars and vines that decorate the delicate interior. It is extravagant, built lavishly for comfort.
But before you can fully take it in, you notice a figure.
You barely manage to stifle a squeal as you snap your eyes shut and immediately turn away, your face burning. Mydei stands near the waterâs edge, a towel slung low around his waist that he is still in the process of tying in place, droplets clinging to his skin. His hair is damp, pushed back from his face, and when you dare to glance his way again, he is watching you with a knowing look.
âThe attendants had told me you were done,â you squeak, quickly turning away again as he finishes wrapping the towel around his waist.Â
He looks amused when you finally have the courage to turn and look at him properly, lips curled into the faintest yet most obvious smirk as he runs a hand through his wet hair and brushes it further away from his face.Â
âI am done,â he agrees. âJust that I did not leave.â
âI knocked! And no one had answered soâŚso I assumedâŚâ
âI did not hear,â he replies, entirely unbothered by the predicament.Â
âW-well, my apologies, My Lordââ
âMydei,â he corrects.Â
âMydei,â you huff in exasperation. âI did not mean to intrude on your private moment. I apologize.â
âIt is our shared bathhouse,â he points out. âYou are allowed to be here as you please.â
âBut you are using it,â you all but whine.Â
âThere is plenty of room,â he shrugs, looking at the large, very large bathhouse.Â
That much is true, but that is not why you are horrified. And he knows it. Mydei, you have learned, has a penchant for casually being a nuisance. He purposely evades the true meaning of your words often, and it is for no other reason than to tease you. You are aware, of course, but stillâyou cannot help but feel frustrated that he is missing the point.Â
He is nude, just as you are under the towel. And neither of you have so much as let your lips touch, let alone seen each other so bare and vulnerable. Sure, you pecked his jaw that one time to be teasing. And, of course, for appearances, he spares you a small kiss on your cheek or your knuckles, but neither of you shares affection for the sake of being affectionate.Â
Seeing him bare just feels like a sin when there is the absence of even the simplest forms of intimacy.Â
âYou are teasing me,â you frown, hugging your arms tighter around your chest as if the towel is slipping.Â
âI am not,â he says simply. He walks, and your gaze follows him as he makes his way to the neatly folded pile of clothing, freshly washed and dried for him to wear. Without warning, he turns his back to youâthen lets his towel drop.
You shriek, whipping around so fast you nearly trip over your own feet, one hand flying to cover your face. But not before you catch the briefest glimpse of his entire backsideâof bare, toned skin and the unmistakable curve of his ass. (It is a nice ass, you would think later when you are less horrified by the situation. Round and firm, sculpted in a way that is almost unfair. But for now, you are simply horrified.)
âMydei!â you hiss, refusing to turn around. He chuckles. You can hear it. And by the name of the Gods, do you want to kill him. âHonestly! Have you no sense of shame? Letting yourself be so immodest in front ofââ
âIn front of who? My wife?â he snorts, completing your sentence. âAh, yes, how improper of me.â The bastard, you thinkâhe knows exactly why this is not ideal, wife or not. âBut you were the one looking.â
âWh-what ever do you mean?â You sputter at his nonsensical accusation. You would not look on purpose. âI did not think that you wouldâŚ.that you wouldâŚ.â
âThat I would remove the towel and begin to dress myself before I exit the bathhouse? It would be immodest to leave that way, wouldnât you say?â
âDo not jest at my expense,â you huff, feeling the tips of your ears get hotter by the second. âYou could have warned me.â
âYou were the one looking,â he reminds you once more. And suddenly, heâs in front of you, leaning so close, you can feel his breath fanning across your lips as he bends eye level to you and stares directly into your face. Itâs maddening. You feel sick. You can feel him so close, and it takes all of your efforts not to turn your head and look at him. âBut I do not mind if my wife looks.â
âEnough,â you bite weakly, âAre you decent?â You donât dare to look for fear ofâŚ.of an entirely different view than just his ass.Â
And you swear you can hear the smirk in his voice when he speaks and says, âYes, you may turn now. I am decent.â
You hesitate, suspicious. âAre you certain?â
âI would not lie to you, dear wife.âÂ
You take a breath and lookâand just as he had said, he is decent. With a huff, you shove his chest and scold, âThen out! Out! Off you go,â you usher. âYou have matters to see to, and I have a bath to finish myself before the water cools. Out!â
He laughsânot his usual soft, low chuckle, but a boyish laugh straight from his belly. It is as charming as a small, young lion cub as it prances about. âAs you wish, my dear wife.â
He leaves. Not before he grabs one of your hands clutched to your chest, which makes you gasp and clutch the other tighter to keep the towel from slipping. He does not break his gaze as he brushes his lips against your knuckles before standing to his full height and walking past you.Â
You exhale shakily as soon as you hear the door close.Â
âI have married an absolute shameless buffoon,â you shake your head, âCompletely mad in the head, that man. Unreasonable beyond comprehension.â
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In the seventh month of your marriage, you meet Mydeiâs childhood friend for the first time. It is by accident, of courseâhe comes to surprise Mydei in the gardens in a short visit while he passes the area, and you just so happen to enter the gardens to read under the sun for a bit at the same time. It is most unfortunate, you think, because had you known that you would meet him, you would dress a bit less comfortably and a bit more exquisitely and have the maids prepare tea and pastries.Â
But Lord Phainon is charmingly easy to get along withâhe insists there is no need for such formalities, and you find yourself happily conversing with him as you wait for Mydei to arrive.Â
âAh, such a beautiful garden, isnât it, My Lady?â Lord Phainon asks, lying on the grass with his arms behind his head. âVery few places in Kremnos are not just rock and soil. It comforts me that you can enjoy the feeling of grass between your toes, at least somewhere.â
âYes,â you snort. âThere is very little to see in Kremnos. Do not let Mydei hear you say that, howeverâhe is still in denial. Iâm afraid it puts him in a very sour mood whenââ you cut yourself off with a gasp.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â Lord Phainon asks in concern, âDo tell me, My Ladyâif Mydei were to know you are troubled in my presence, he would surely see to my death himself.â
He moves to sit up, but you quickly hiss, âNo! Do not moveâthere is a bee.â
âWhere?â he asks in panic, eyes flashing in alarm. âWhere? I do not see it! Where is it?â
âLord Phainon, you mustnât move,â you warn in panic, âOtherwise, you will startle the bee, and it will sting.â
âSting?!â he gasps, quickly sitting up to move away from the small threat as it buzzes nearby. âHow can you expect me to be still near such a beast?â
It happens all too quicklyâjust as you reach a hand forward and take a step toward him, he jerks away, and the startled bee, caught in the sudden movement, changes course. You barely register the sharp, sudden sting before you yelp, instinctively flinching as pain blooms across your palm.
Lord Phainon gasps. âMy Lady! Youâve been struck by the bee!â
And, as if perfectly timed, you hear a deep voice call: âAh, I see the two of you have already been introducedââ Mydeiâs voice is behind you in the distance, and before you know it, you turn to find him.Â
You stumble towards your husband, tripping on your feet, and before you can react, you find yourself falling directly into his arms. Mydei is quick to catch you, of course. He looks at you in confusion, entirely calm and unbothered by the proximity. You are so near hysteria that you hardly register the position youâve found yourself in: pressed flush against his chest, his strong, armored arm securing your waist with careful authority to keep you balanced.
âWhat happened?â he asks gruffly. Once upon a time, youâd mistake his tone for coldness. Now, you can hear the underlying concern.
Sniffling and utterly distraught, you lift your palm toward him with wide, teary eyes and a trembling lip. âI have been stung! By a bee,â you say, offering your hand closer in a pitiful attempt to prove your claim. âSee?â
He gently takes hold of your wrist, inspecting the large welt on your skin. After a moment of silence, he hums disapprovingly. âUnacceptable,â he mutters, his voice softer now, attempting to soothe you, âI cannot stand idly by while the bees of my own gardens turn their venom upon my dear wife.â
âAnd it hurts!â you wail miserably as a single delicate rivulet of misfortuneâa tearâslips down your cheek. He frowns at the sight. âMy dominant hand is stricken! I am useless now!â
âYou are not,â he fights back a smile at your borderline theatrical sorrow. Youâre past the point of holding onto your composure enough to even notice his amusement, so you say nothing. âI shall have the courtâs healers prepare a salve for this at once.â
âIt should have been Lord Phainon,â you continue to sniffle, ignoring the offended gasp in the distance, still not keen on moving past such a tragic turn of events, âNot me! Why must the Gods turn their back on me in such a cruel manner?â
This time, he chuckles softly. You pout at the gesture but say nothing else, too exhausted from the whole ordeal to put up a proper fight. He makes up for it, though, and raises the wrist in his hold, bringing your hand up before gently pressing a kiss to your swollen palm.Â
You blink in surprise.Â
âWere it possible, I would have every bee in the kingdom executed for such a treacherous offense,â he mumbles quietly.Â
âBut then weâd have no flowers,â you frown. âI favor the flowers, you know.â
âDo you?â he grins. And before you can register what is happening, Mydei has leaned down and pressed his lips under your eye, kissing away the offensive stain of your pain. Your tears on his lips feel like a terrible burden to bearâhe does not like the taste of your unhappiness. But you are his wife, and he is your husband. Kissing away your tears is but one of his many duties.Â
âI do,â you nod, looking away bashfully at his rare act of affection. âThe bees are the reason the flowers bloom. But the bees have been unjustly harsh to me today.â
âThey have,â he nods, agreeing.
Suddenly, the world is moving, and itâs moving fast. The ground is lower than you remember, and the gentle breeze of moving through the air kisses your face against your will. You let out a small squeal, unsure of why the world seems to be moving in such a sudden motion, and the only thing you can think to do is hold onto Mydeiâs shouldersâwhich are a lot closer than they usually tend to be, given your height difference now that you think about it.Â
It hits you when youâve finally stilled that it is because he has you hoisted in his arms, holding you easily as though you weigh nothing. You suppose for a man who trains as tirelessly as he does, very little is difficult for him physically.Â
âMydeimos,â you gasp his full name so that he is well aware that you are scolding him. You look around frantically for potential witnesses of such a sceneâit seems your husband lacks the sense of tact you tend to hold onto so dearly. âWhat in the Godsâ names are you doing?â
âI am bringing my dear wife to seek medical attention for her current ailment,â he says simply, âIt would be careless of me to allow you to walk under such circumstances.â
âIt is a bee sting, not a stab wound!â you scowl. He fights back a smirk at your remark.
âAh,â he nods slowly, âForgive me, my lady. Your tears persuaded me to believe it was more grievous than it perhaps truly is.â
âYou are amused by my misfortune,â you accuse, pouting once more. You give up on caring who sees you in his arms like this, deflating in his arms as he tightens them around you. You curl into his chestâif he is carrying you regardless, who is to say getting comfortable in the process is a crime?
âI am not,â he insists, âI am offering you care, am I not?â
âDo not think a kiss or two to my injury will distract me from your mischief,â you warn, though your tone holds little conviction. You settle into his arms more willingly, one arm wrapped around his neck while the other rests carefully against your chest to protect your wounded palm from further harm.
âThen, in that case, I shall offer you a kiss or five,â he declares with a devious grin. And with that, he leans and presses a peck to the tip of your nose before straightening and looking ahead once more. Only the slightest tilt to the edges of his lips hints that he heard your breath hitch in your throat. He turns over his shoulder and adds causally, âAnd I will deal with you later, Phainon.â
Lord Phainon sputters, calling out in a wail, âIt was not my fault, you know!âÂ
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Despite your horribly tragic injury, you are fond of Lord Phainon. (Just call me Phainon, he tells you sheepishly, gesturing to your hand before he adds, I have caused you as much trouble as I do for Mydei. I am sure we can be familiar enough with each other.)
You enjoy his company at dinner, giggling through wine glass after wine glass as he tells you tales from Mydeiâs childhood.Â
âDid you know Mydeiâs robes are only red because his father did not allow them to be pink when we were children?â Phainon chuckles, sipping more of his wine. âHe favors pink far more than yellowâhe simply wonât admit it. And he cried terribly after he was denied pink clothing, too.â
âWhat?â You turn to Mydei, raising a brow as you ask through a small giggle, âIs that true?â
âNo,â he grumbles. But his ears are turning pinker by the second, letting you know that it is, indeed, the truth.Â
âOh, how adorable,â you whine, reaching to pinch Mydeiâs cheek. He frowns deeply at the way both you and Phainon chuckle drunkenly at the gesture. âWho knew you could be so fragile, Mydei.â
âI am not fragile,â he clicks his teeth, unhappily nursing a glass of pomegranate juice. (He does not drink wine, which you suppose you understand. Even after placing such strict precautions after his motherâs death on all food and drinks that reach nobility in Kremnos, Mydei is still unable to bring himself to stomach a glass of wine.)
âHe is very fragile,â Phainon chuckles, rising as he downs the last bit of his beverage, âBe careful with his little heart. He is a delicate one, you know.â That earns him a glare from your husband, and Phainon skillfully dodges a cup thrown at his head before he laughs and stumbles his way toward the door of the dining hall. âGoodnight, My Lady, and goodnight, Mydei! Iâm afraid I am feeling the effects of such a long journey. It is well past the time for me to rest.â
âGoodnight, Phainon!â You wave cheerily, hiccuping through your laughs as you murmur, âDo tell me more stories of Mydei at breakfast, wonât you?â
âNo more stories,â Mydei groans. âNow come along. You should start preparing for bed as well.â
âNoooo,â you whine, slumping against his chest as he wraps an arm around you instinctively, keeping you in place as you lean your weight on him. âNo bed.â
âIt is getting lateââ
âMydei, you are very handsome when youâre shy, did you know?â You hum, leaning up to get a good look at his face. This, of course, makes him just a bit shy as blush dusts over his cheeks. You beam, poking his cheek with a finger as you murmur, âSuch precious cheeks that redden at small praise. I could eat you, you know.â
He clears his throat, clearly unused to your behavior being soâŚwell, forward. âYou are intoxicated,â he mumbles.Â
âAnd you are intoxicating,â you retort, giggling, âAnd so, so, so, so handsome! Have I ever told you that?â
âIâŚwell, yesâyou just have,â he stumbles over his words. (You are easier to deal with when you are stubborn and argumentative. This side of you is far too much of an uncharted territory for him to properly know how to handle.)
âMmh,â you hum, leaning in to press a kiss to his jaw, trailing your lips along his skin until you find his lipsâand you kiss him. His breath hitches in his throat at the move. Never, in your seven months of marriage, have you shared a kiss like this with Mydei. Sure, you have afforded him a peck here and there, just as he has with youâbut you have never kissed him plain and simple. Lip to lip, mouth on mouth.Â
He melts for a second, on instinct alone.Â
And then, as soon as realizing, he stiffens and quickly pulls away. âYou are inebriated,â he reminds you, gently pushing you away. âWe mustn'tââ
âNo,â you whine, wrapping your arms around his neck as you whisper huskily. âCome back. Kiss me, Lord MydeimosâI cannot believe I have wed the most handsome man in all of Amphoreus. What a waste it would be if I did not properly appreciate my husband!â Â
âYou are mad,â he croaks, tiredly eyeing you in alarm. âWhat has gotten into you?â
You press a litter of kisses everywhere you can reachâhis jaw, his neck, even down to his collarbone. Something stirs in him, something that Mydei is ashamed to admit and even more ashamed to even dare to act on.Â
âWonât you kiss me, Mydei? In fact, let us do more than kiss! Bring me to our chambers and take me, wonât you? I want you to fucââ
âEnough,â he says through a cracked voice, pressing a hand to your lips before you can finish being soâŚvulgar as he closes his eyes and breathes. (Mydei is unsure what is worse: the fact that your words actually have such aâŚphysical effect on him or the fact that he has no choice but to ignore his desires because yours are only built on intoxication.) âYou need sleep.â
âButââ
He kisses your pouty lips with a brief peck, silencing you before you can finish. âIf you awaken in the morning, and you remember what you wished for, then I will give it to you. Whichever way you want it. Fair?â
âFine,â you huff, slumping against him unhappily. âBeing a warrior has disciplined you too much, Mydei. It is such an unfortunate thing.â
He chuckles, easily lifting you into his arms, murmuring, âI am unsure if you would agree with yourself while sober, my dear wife.â
âââââ
In the end, you awaken with nothing more than a pounding headache, latched onto Mydeiâs figure with your cheek resting on his chest. (You insisted on sleeping this way, and no amount of compromising could sway you on the matter. He gives up soon enough and allows you to have your way when he notices the developing tears in your eyes at your emotionally heightened state.)
You meet his amused gaze, heat blooming on your face as you whisper, âIâI must have rolled over in my sleep. My apologies.â
âNo need to apologize,â he hums, pulling you in closer as soon as you try to put a gap between the two of you. âIf not your husband, who else will hold you while you sleep?â
âSuch a cheeky bastard, arenât you?â you huff, but you relax into his chest once more. âAre you sure holding me is all you did last night?â
âIt is,â he says quietly, rubbing the small of your back. He gives you a knowing look of sortsâyou donât quite understand it.Â
âWell, good,â you huff, âAt least you can be trusted to be quite the honest man.âÂ
(You do not remember your wishes from the previous night, and he does not remind you, keeping the events a close-kept secret in his heart. A small part of him is disappointed, but the larger part of him is more endeared than ever with you.)
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It is ten months into your marriage when the first time you are intimate with Mydei comes, and you realize that he has fallen in love with you.Â
He does not tell you, but you know. And you are grateful for the fact that he does not utter the words because, in your heart, you wonder if you could truthfully whisper them back.Â
You care for Mydei. That much is as true as the sunâs promise to rise from the east and set in the west. When he rises from bed beside you with a low groan and moves tiredly to put on his armor, you know you care because tiredness in his face pulls a frown onto yours. And when he looks at you with a fond, exasperated look as he ushers you to fall back to sleep, you know you care simply because the stretch of a smile on his face is enough to soothe you back to slumber.
It has been ten long months since your marriage. You have not seen your father since the day he handed you over to your husband, but you would tell him now not to worry.Â
He is a good man, fatherâyou think you would sayâhe drives me mad and is as stubborn as a stone unmoved by the riverâs current, but he has never let me want for anything since the day the duty of caring for me became his. You need not worry.Â
Mydei is a soft man who was molded into the role of a warrior early on. Like the finest of silk, he is delicate to the touch but most durable for the wear and tear of everyday use. He is used to training every day, to putting his needs last and his duties first. He is good at wearing a face of indifference and masquerading through his day as though he cares little for the fact that he is still in his youth, shouldering the burdens of the previous generations and their mistakes. And, as a husband, he is the same. Soft and gentle as he holds you, but firm and unmoving in his principles. He indulges your whims and silly requests with patience and little bickering (apart from the kind that is simply meant to poke fun at you, of course), but he does not let you forget that you are the queen of this land and that your duties come first.Â
He is the perfect example of discipline and patienceâyou did not expect it, but he is. He is not the cold warrior you had believed for so longâand sometimes, you are reminded that he is very, very human. It is a rare reminder indeed, but every once in a while, the young boy in him breaks free and makes his emotions troublesomely apparent.Â
At least, they are troublesome for him. Not for you, however.
âMydei, do not sulk because I was friendly with other nobles,â you chuckle.Â
He sulks harder at that, curling a deeper frown on his lips before he stubbornly mutters, âI do not sulk.â
âBut you are sulking right now,â you poke at his cheek, earning a huff from him. âJealousy is unbecoming of a king as mighty as you.â
âNothing is bothering me,â he says. A lie. âI am perfectly fine.â Another lie. âI do not get upset by these petty matters you accuse me of.â By now, you would say he has mastered the art of fibbing better than wielding his lance.
âIt would be impolite of me not to treat our guests with friendliness, you know.âÂ
âFriendliness does not need to consist of laughing at such horrible jokes,â he bites, crossing his arms. âThose were terrible jokes.â
âThey were,â you nod along, stifling a giggle as he remains with crossed arms as you boldly seat yourself on his lap. âMy poor husband. He is pouting.â
âI am notââ
You kiss his (pouty) lips gently, cupping his cheeks. He stills, pausing before letting out a shuddered breath and letting his arms uncross to hold your hips.Â
âYou live just to drive me mad, donât you?â He breathes, rubbing up and down your hips as you move up, sitting closer to him as he grunts.Â
âYou do not seem to hate it,â you whisper, glancing down at the bulge in his pants. He does not even try to hide itâhas no shame and does not even try to hide the arousal between his legs that stands fully erect, hidden from your view by nothing else but cloth. (Why would I feel shame in finding my wife alluring? you can practically hear him ask. You are almost certain that is what he would say if you teased any further.)
Mydeiâs jaw tightens, his hand gripping your waist tighter as he tries to maintain control. âNo,â he finally grunts after a few deep, labored breaths. âI do not. I could never hate you.â
âReally?â You hum, pressing a hot, open-mouthed trail of kisses to his neck as he shivers. âPerhaps you should prove it.â
For a moment, his hands grip your hips tighterâalmost enough that you believe heâll give you what you want. But heâs quick to let go of them just as fast, sighing as he whispers, âNo. Intimacy simply to ease my bad temper is not what you deserve.â
âAnd if I want it?â You raise a brow in a challenge, making him study you closely. Mydei, as you have heard, has the eyes of his mother. They are the color of truth dipped in gold honeyâhis eyes cannot tell lies. They hide nothing, bearing everything to you with sun-soaked flecks that bore into your own gaze.Â
You tell him your own truth with your own gaze: I want this. I want you.Â
And he accepts. With a shaky breath, his body presses against yours as he traps you against the wall, filling any and all space that offensively keeps you away from his touch. The heat that radiates off of his skin is palpable even through the cold metal, and when he leans down, lips brushing just barely over yours, the warmth of his breath sets you ablazeâstarting from your lips, making its way down to your fingertips.Â
âAre you sure this is what you want?â he rasps, voice just barely above a whisper.Â
âYes. It occurred to me the other day that we have never completed our marriage, you know,â you breathe. âShall we be husband and wife tonight, Mydei?Â
Mydeiâs hands shake as they rub your hips slowly, his body trembling slightly at your words. In excitement, maybe. Or perhaps impatience. His control crumbles little by little, and when your lips brush against his with a teasing, phantom touch, he lets go of his resolve entirely and lets out a guttural soundâsomething crossed between a grunt and a moan. âYes,â he murmurs. âTonight you will be mine.â
âI have always been yours. So take me,â you goad, âTake your wife and mark me as yours.â
His control snaps at that. Cradling your cheeks in large, cold gauntlets, he angles your head up and kisses you deeply, hungrily, desperately. Itâs warm like his touch but burning like his desire. It does not take long before it turns into a needy, impatient kiss, the two of you pressing into the other harder as if trying to melt into each otherâs skin.Â
âTake off that wretched armor,â you huff, âTouch me.â
He groans, quickly slipping off the gauntlets and tossing them to the floor. âAs you wish,â he murmurs, and before you can stop him, he tears your robes open from your chest, pulling the fabric away as if unwrapping a present impatiently and catching a glimpse of your bare chest.Â
âMydei!â you shriek. âI liked those robes!â
âYou act as though I cannot have the seamstresses replicate it as many times as you want,â he snorts. He doesnât slow downânot in his persistent trail of kisses along your collarbone and not in his wandering hands that feel every inch of you and your curves. âThey were in the way. The only thing that suits your skin is my touch.â
You whimper as he quickly moves, tossing you onto the mattress and hovering over you, shedding himself off his own clothing as quickly as he canânothing left but his underwear, the thin cloth doing little to hide his thick, bulging erection. You eye it, half-lidded gaze falling hungrily over the trail of blonde hair at his navel and the thickness of his hidden cock.Â
âThey will question what happened when you present the torn ones to replicate,â you huff. âHave you no sense of shame?â
âWhy does a king need to find shame in desiring his wife?â Delicately, his finger traces along a breast, mapping along your skin until it circles your nipple, making you gasp as you arch into his touch. âWhy would I find shame in wanting to rid my wife of what separates her from me? Anyone who tries to shame me for it will come to find a rather undesirable fate.â
âYou are impossible,â you breathe, gasping when he leans down, latching his lips onto one breast and rolling his tongue around the pebbled nipple, the other traced by his thumb and pointer finger as he rolls and tugs at the skin. You mewl, grasping at his shoulders as you mewl, âM-Mydeiââ
âYes,â he hums, interrupting you. âThat is my name. Say it a few more times, just like that.âÂ
His lips move off of your breast. The string of saliva that connects him still to you is a scene that is utterly vulgar enough to make you shiver as he moves to the other breast, giving it just the same amount of attention. Except his fingersâŚwell, they wander further down your body, trailing over your belly and moving until they find the hem of your panties. You gasp as he tugs them down, exposing your wet, needy cunt to him before he teasingly moves to feel at your entrance, collecting your slick between his pointer and middle fingers.Â
He pulls away, bringing his hand up to stare at his fingers, separating them so a web of your wet arousal connects the two appendages.Â
âMydei,â you whine. âYou scoundrel!â
âWhat?â he chuckles. âCanât a man appreciate the wonders of his dear wifeâs beautiful body?â
âYou are filthy and obscene,â you hiss. âHardly a respectable trait for a king.â
âThen I will be an improper king,â he decides. âIf that is what I am considered for appreciating my dear wife.â
His fingers are back in an instant, plunging into your entrance and prodding at your walls as if to find somethingâ âFuck,â you wail, body spasming as he hits a particularly sensitive spot in your walls.Â
âAh,â he grins, âI found it. The place that makes you sing.â
âHorrible,â you sob, whining softly as he thrusts his fingers back and forth, back and forth inside of you over and over and overâuntil your nails leave crescent-shaped indents into his shoulder where you grasp onto him. âYou are horrible!â
âBut you do not feel horrible, do you?â he hums, and his thumb moves to roll over your clit, his eyes admiring the sight of the sensitive bundle of nerves as you quiver at the sensations.
You donâtâthat much is obvious when, in a sudden crash of waves, your orgasm washes over you, and you gush around his fingers, wet, messy slick coating them as your walls suck him in and spasm around him tightly. Tightâyouâre so tight around his fingers, he canât help but groan from that alone, envisioning the way youâll squeeze around his cock.Â
âGods,â you whimper, clinging to his shoulders as he helps you ride through the waves of pleasure. âFeelsâŚfeelsââ
âGood, doesnât it?â he finishes for you, grinning to himself at the way pleasure breaks over your face like light. âIt will feel betterâI had to prepare you. Cannot risk hurting my precious, delicate little flower, can I?â
You watch it in a trance as it happens: his fingers leave the warmth of your pussy and leave you unbearably empty, but you watch with wide, entranced eyes as he rids himself of the last remaining piece of cloth, bearing his painfully hard erection to you fully. You gasp at the sheer size of him, and he chuckles at your expression.Â
âWe will make it fit,â he hums, leaning to press a kiss to your lips. âNot to worry, my precious lady. Youâll take me, slowly, and soon, weâll carve this pretty cunt to fit around me like it was made to take me, hm?â
âYes,â you whisper, nodding like the idea is the only thing you care for. (And in the moment, it is.) âYes, yes, yes,â you say greedily, pulling him closer and closer until your chests brush and his forehead is against yours. âFuck me, Mydei. Take me and make me yoursânow, please.â
He groans at the words, eyes fluttering shut before he loses all little traces left of his self-control. Instantly, his mouth is on yours, teeth clashing against teeth as he kisses you harshly, hungry nips at your lips and starved tongue on yours, tasting you as much as he can savor. The tip of his cock presses against your entrance, slowly intruding past your folds and sinking into you inch by agonizingly slow inch.
Heâs patient. Even when he is on the brink of insanity, Mydei is patient about taking you.Â
âYou are mine,â he says possessively, and a part of you knows he is still speaking from jealousy. âYou feel it, donât you? The way you take me in? The way you squeeze around me? How your body responds and yearns for meâjust as I yearn for you. Youâll never yearn for another, will you?â
âNo,â you sob, shaking your head, tears of pleasure coating your lashes as you blink up at him. âNoâgive me more, Mydei. More. Harder.â
And he listens. Because you are spoiled. You came to him spoiled, and against every bone in his body initially, he could not help but indulge your sweet, needy whims. Every argument, every back and forth, every moment of bickering, you never let him winânot truly. And he spoiled you. He continues to spoil you. When you ask for more, he gives you everything.Â
âOkay,â he grunts, panting as he rolls his hips and slams into you as you suck him in further into your tight little pussy. âBut just be warned that you asked for this, dear wife.â
With that, one leg is hoisted over his shoulder, giving him better access to drill his thick girth into you, pistoning his hips as the tip of his cock kisses perfectly against the sweet, spongy spot in the back of your walls. He angles so perfectly inside of you, itâs like he carves himself into your hole and molds the shape of himself into your folds. So that only he fits. So that only he can take you. So that only he can be the one you take.Â
âYes,â you whine. âLike that M-Mydeiâplease. Please.â
âYou drive me insane,â he mutters, gritting his jaw as he groans lowly when your walls hug around him tightly, squeezing him as his arms quiver and barely hold him upright over you, âSince the day you came to my world and became half of my soul, you have driven me mad. You must take responsibility for that.â
âYou should take responsibility for driving me horribly mad first,â you say stubbornly, still so fierce even as you are split open on his cock. He chuckles, leaning in to press a soft, lingering kiss to the corner of your mouth.Â
âYouâre right. Let me make up for all the trouble I caused you, hm?â
His thumb latches onto your clit, rolling harsh, quick circles as your body arches up into his touch, responding to every sensation he pulls so easily out of you. One thrust, and then a second and third, and by the fourth, you come undone once more, walls erratically squeezing around him.Â
âFuck, MydeiâyouâŚyou feel so good.â
âAnd so do you,â he murmurs, moaning softly as he turns his head and presses a kiss into the skin of your leg where itâs hooked over his shoulder, âSo, so goodâyou were made for me. Made to take me. Made to drive me wild enough so that only you can tame me. You wicked, beautiful thing.â
When you sob his name once more, he comes undone himself, spilling hot, thick ropes of his seed into your abused cunt and painting your sensitive walls white. They welcome him, sucking him in deeper, letting him succumb to his pleasure and fuck his load deep into you.Â
And when he collapses over you, youâre too numb from pleasure to protest at his weight, wrapping your arms around his sweaty body and holding him tightly. âIt only took ten months,â you whisper, âBut we are officially husband and wife, according to the customs.â
He chuckles, nipping at your shoulder as he buries his face. âI care little for the customs. You are my wife if I say you areâand you have been mine since the day you agreed to take my hand. It is as simple as that.â
âGo to sleep, you fool,â you groan, rolling your eyes as you fight back a smile.Â
Sleep comes easier than it ever hasâyou fall asleep against him, fitted where you most belong.
ââââââââââââââââââââââââ
The night of your anniversary, Mydei is having a bad day.Â
You are unable to do much but watch from the sidelines as he enters one chamber after the other, meeting with advisors and council members left and right until even you grow weary of how burdensome his schedule is.Â
After a year of marriage, you are used to his daily matters not allowing him time until later into his day, and you have never been a stranger to the busy demands of political affairs. Your father is a king himself, after all. You were once a princess, and now you are a queen. Therefore, you know, without doubt, that your husbandâwho is no less consumed by responsibility than your fatherâwill return to you in a foul mood. And it will be yours to contend with.
âYou have returned,â you say quietly as soon as he enters your shared chambers. He drops his armor to the ground, one piece at a time, uncaring where they fall. Any other day, you might scold him for such untidiness (though, really, he is not untidy at all. You would not have to scold him on any other day). Today you choose to bite your tongue and focus on his face instead of the misplacement of his garments.Â
âI have,â he says plainly. Mydei stands. For a long, agonizing moment filled with deafening silence, he stands, and he does not say one word. It makes your skin pinprick with an uncomfortable feeling, making you want to crawl into yourself and hide. His gaze feels scrutinizing. Always. Something about the piercing, golden amber of his eyes staring into you makes you uncomfortably exposed.Â
Then, he walks.Â
As if a moment of clarity has struck him, he sets his shoulders back like heâs made up his mind, and he walks. To you. Before you can react, he collapses himself on top of you, draping his weight like a blanket over your unsuspecting body and pressing you down onto the silken sheets.Â
âM-mydei,â you gasp, glancing at him in confusion as you shift under him. âWhat are youââ
âNo more words,â he huffs, voice heavy with exhaustion. His arms curl around your waist to keep you still. âI have exchanged enough of them for one day. I request but one simple thingâsilence.â
âA most impossible request,â you scoff indignantly. âYou know well that you provoke argument from me unlike any other.â
âMmh,â he hums, whether in agreement or mere acknowledgment, you are unsure. Regardless, you frown petulantly at it and expect moreâhe is meant to persuade you otherwise. (No, my dear wife. You are as gentle as the breeze through the valley, ever soothing, ever constant. That is what he ought to say to you.) âYou say this as if I am to find displeasure in it.â
That only seems to irk you more.Â
âYou take pleasure in getting a rise out of me?â You narrow your eyes, glaring down at him as you watch the way he presses his lips to fight back the oncoming smile.Â
âYou put words in my mouth, dear wife,â he murmurs. âI merely meant your spirit is endearing. TheâŚcomplications that come about it are tolerable at best.â
âSo you find me only tolerable?!â you ask in disbelief.Â
Fondness, as clear as the warm light of the Kremnos sun, settles onto his face and softens the sharpness of his eyes a hue lighter, the amber now glazed in a honeyed glow. He lets out a low chuckle in amusement, and it is softer than anything you have ever heard. Not just from himâno, you have never heard a gentler sound through the entirety of your life. It is as though the Gods have decreed that the first time you listen to something so tender will come from the man they have handpicked to be bound to you.Â
âDo you willingly choose to hear only the unsavory parts of what I say? If so, then it is a talent I am most impressed by,â he murmurs. âYou do not challenge my tolerance. I am unable to find faults when it comes to you, even when you drive me mad.â
âSuch a romantic. Have you been spending time with poets recently? You speak as charmingly as one,â you chuckle teasingly as you shift under him, and your leg brushes accidentally against the innermost part between his legs. It brings him to shiver and let out a low grunt, but you do not realize. Not for a while as you try to get comfortable under his weight.Â
Not until he stops you with a nearly painfully tight grip on your hips as he grits, âBe still.â
âWhat?â You tilt your head. âWhy? If I am to lay under you like your personal mattress, then at the very least allow me toââ
âYou torture me,â he says, voice strained.Â
You blink in confusion. And thenâ
Ah. You realize soon enough that there is a hardness poking at you. You only now feel it, but itâs been there for some time. Throbbing against your thigh is his erection, separated from you by the fabric of your robes and pressed as tightly against you as possible, and you have been rubbing against it this whole time. The thought should horrify you, but all you can focus on is the way his cheeks take on a flushed hue.
Pretty, you think. Mydeimos is pretty. Just like his name, just like his throne, just like his nation, everything about Mydeimos is pretty. (Mydeiâyou can hear his grumpy voice correct you in your own mindâyou are to call me Mydei.)
âWhat is that?â you ask through a cheeky, whispered breath.
He exhales shakily, looking at you unamused. âIf I have to answer that, I am unsure if you are old enough to be wedded to me.â
You giggle, rubbing a hand along his back as you murmur, âIndulge me.â
âIf I must,â he grumbles tiredly. âIt is proof that you are what I desire. Does that satisfy you?â
âExceedingly,â you nod. âShall I now offer you the satisfaction of fulfilling your desires in return?â
âYou do not need to,â he mumbles quietly. Mydei is an honorable manâhe is kind to women and children, and he does not see himself above other men simply because he is king. He is a man of principles, if nothing else. Stripping him of his principles is not a simple task.
âAnd what if I want to?â you pout. âWill you indulge your dear wife?â
âDevious,â he hisses, stiffening when you flex your leg to press more pressure against his hardened cock. âYou are a devious, dangerous thing.â
Your hand slips between your bodies at the same time as his lifts up, held over you by two muscled arms that cage either side of your head. You stare up at him, watching the flickers of his expression as your hand carefully untucks his hot, lengthy erection from the confinements of his pants and gives a small squeeze to the shaft.Â
âToday is a rather special day,â you murmur, âWouldnât you say?â
âOf course,â he chuckles breathlessly, groaning as your thumb strokes along his slit, gathering pre cum and carefully smearing it along his tip. âI have survived the wicked schemes of my wife for an entire year.â
âAnd I have survived the brutal warrior that is my husband,â you grin. âMy father will be relieved to hear I am still alive.â
âYou mention him while you have me like this?â He grins wolfishly, shivering as you slowly stroke his cock. His eyes flutter shut, and for a moment, his arms waver as they hold him upright above you. âFuck,â he whispers, âDo not tease.â
âTease?â you gasp, stopping at the base of his cock and giving him a small squeeze. He grunts, cracking an eye open, displeased. âI would never.â
âThen donât,â he says roughly, his voice a gravelly sound that shoots an ache straight to your cunt.Â
âOnly because it is our anniversary,â you murmur, leaning up to kiss him gently between his furrowed brows.Â
Your hand drags along his thick girth, stroking it quickly as he lets out low groans, burying his face into your neck. You can feel himâpulsing in your hand, hot against your neck, heavy over your weight. His breath fans against your skin as he makes pleasured sounds into your ear, making wetness stain between your own legs. And he knows it, tooâyouâre certain because otherwise, the bite to your earlobe wouldnât be so tantalizingly slow.Â
âHappy Anniversary, my dear wife,â he murmurs. âIt has been a year of enduring your madness. Wonât you drive me just a little more insane?â
âHappy Anniversary, my darling husband,â you breathe, stroking him faster as he moans into your ear and shivers. âIf you are not already insane, I have yet to properly fulfill my duties.â
He makes a sound at thatâa cross between a chuckle and a low groan, and with just a few more careful strokes of his aching cock, he spills into your hand, painting your delicate fingers and the intricate stitching of your robes white with his seed. You feel every twitch of him, every rope he spills of thick, warm cum that spills from his reddened tip, and in a daze, you imagine it to fill you to the brim.Â
And youâre certain he will, too, by the hungry look in his eyes as soon as his blissed-out expression dies out. He opens them, eyeing you like you are the first meal presented to a starved manâand perhaps he is. He is always starved of you, no matter how often you let him get his fill.Â
âOne year since I have had such a beauty to call my dear wife,â he whispers. âHow unfortunate it is that you will never get to see the sight of yourself. But I am too selfish to allow anyone but myself to witness it.â
âYou talk most when you are feverish,â you tease, pressing a hand to his forehead. âAre you feeling well, Mydei?â
âNot until I have you,â he responds cheekily, grinning in amusement as he leans in to kiss you hungrily. You gasp against his mouth, hands instantly traveling to his hair. âWonât you look after your sickened husband?â
âIf I must,â you sigh playfully. (The slick wetness between your legs almost screams at you to quit your agonizing schemes and simply give yourself as quickly as he wants to take you.)
His fingers tease along your collarbone, trailing just between your cleavage as you shiver. Just as his hands reach for your robes, ready to expose your breasts, a knock disturbs you as you both stiffenâ
âLord Mydeimos,â calls a guard, âThere has been an ambush on our patrolling troops outside of the border. It is urgent.â
Mydei stills. You glance at him worriedly.Â
âOf all times,â he grunts, cursing under his breath.
âThere will be plenty of time later,â you soothe, tracing the angry creases in his forehead, âDuty calls.â
He glances at you miserably before sighing, rising from atop your body. But not before planting a soft, lingering kiss on your lips that he reluctantly pulls away from. âWait for me. I will take care of it quickly and return to you to finish where I have left off.â
You giggle, poking his cheek as you murmur, âI have no doubts.â
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Mydei does, in fact, return to you.Â
Except, it is not in the condition that he left.Â
He comes back carried by four men at once, ushered quickly into the healerâs wing, and stripped of his armor quickly. You follow along, stumbling over your feet and heart beating in your throat.Â
âWhat hapââ You are carefully tugged to the side before you can even utter the words, moved away from the grotesque scene before you can properly get a look at the stab wound in his chest. The blade has missed his heart by just a hair, you hear one healer mumble. It is a miracle that he has lived long enough to be brought back, another whispers.Â
You hear him groan unconsciously as they clean at the torn flesh, and your knees buckle at the sound.Â
âMy lady,â murmurs an attendant. âPerhaps it is best if you do not witness such a sceneââ
âThat scene is my husband,â you cry hysterically. âWho else is to witness it? My husband needsââ
âHe needs the healers, and they cannot do their duty with your hovering.â Youâre cut off firmly. You blink, and even without the tears in your eyes, youâre certain you would look pitiful as you sniffle.Â
âHe promised he would return to spend the night with me,â you croak. âIf he does not live to see through to his promise, I will kill him myself.â
âI am certain he fears such a fate more than anything else,â whispers the attendant, gently tugging you along and supporting half your weight. âCome, I am positive My Lord will appreciate a properly tidied chamber to recover in, wouldnât you say?â
You let yourself be dragged away, turning to glance at Mydei one more timeâjust in time, in fact, to catch a glimpse of a bloodied rag tossed to the floor by a healer. More blood than you have ever witnessed spilled from Mydei beforeâif at all.Â
âââââââ
It takes hours before there is a knock on your chamberâs door, and before you can even rise from your bed, a handful of guards enter one by one, carefully carrying your husband on a stretcher as he unhappily lays with his arms crossed.Â
âI could have walked myself,â he grumbles bitterly.
âThe healers would have my head if I allowed your stitches to be torn, My Lord.â
âThe healers could not do anything if I had orderedââ
âMydei,â you sob, throwing yourself into his arms as soon as they lay him on your shared bed. Your arms wrap around his neck as he cuts himself off and lets out a low grunt of surprise.Â
And then, he beams. So smugly that even the guards eye each other warily. âDid you miss me, dear wife?â
One by one, they quickly file out of your chambers as your head shoots up, and you glare at him.Â
âYou leave me on our anniversary night to fight an ambush, promise to return to me only to come back bloodied and half alive, and your first words to me are to ask such an arrogantly tasteless question?âÂ
He chuckles, cupping your cheek as he murmurs, âI am fine. Itâs just a small cutââ
âThey missed your heart by a hair! I heard the healers myself!â
âYou know how they are,â he all but huffs petulantly, rolling his eyes as he complains. âI would have been fine to walk myself back, but they insisted that the guards escort me by stretcherââ
âAnd a good thing they did,â you spit. âIf your injury did not kill you, then your ego surely would have finished the job.â
You have never considered the possibility of losing Mydei. Not once in your marriage. Not when you felt no tug for him in your heart, and not even when your heart began to yearn for him more than anything else. A naive little thing you were, you think to yourselfâto think your husband is invincible just because he is as strong as he is. Your fatherâs words had made you think of your husband as nothing more than a warrior at timesâa godslayer, a man not even divinity could stand against.Â
But heâs painfully human. Painfully just a boy who grew into the body of a man and nothing more. Strength means little in the face of chanceâand it occurs to you now, as you eye the bandages wrapped tightly around his chest, that by chance alone did a blade pierce through his skin, and by chance alone did he survive and come back to you.
And you will never risk a chance to lose him again without telling him what your heart knows after a year of marriage.Â
âDo you not have any faith in mââ
âI love you,â you sniffle, the words wobbly and wet like your tear-stained lips. They cascade down your cheeks and collect pitifully at your chin, but you care little for your appearance as you let out an ugly sob and cradle his cheeks. âI love you, and it is the worst fate you have cursed me with. I despise you.â
âThat is a rather contradictory statement,â he says quietly as he processes your words. But the tips of his ears are red as his lips fight to stay still at the corners. âCould you repeat that first part without that latter one?â
âYou are insufferable,â you glare, still blinking through tears. He chuckles, pulling you closer as he carefully thumbs away the wetness of your cheeks.Â
âAnd I love you, as well,â he says gently, âEven though you have possessed me and changed everything as I know it, I love you.â
âDo not scare me like this again,â you command.Â
âI wonât,â he agrees. With enough conviction that you believe him. For now. For now, you believe him, and little else matters. You let him pull you against his side, curling an arm around you as you reach over and brush hair from his face.Â
âDid you know that my father called you a godslayer once?â you hum, tracing his cheek softly and wiping away the sweat that lingers on his skin. âI wonder what he would think now if he were to see you.â
âDid he, now?â he asks in amusement. âFar too high of praise, isnât it? Iâm afraid heâll only be disappointedâI do not know if I could slay a God.â
âWhat if my life depended on it?â you pout. âWouldnât you at least try?â
He chuckles, grabbing your hand from his face and pulling it to his lips, kissing your fingertips slowly, one by one, before he says thoughtfully, âI suppose your father was not wrong then. For my dear wife, I would slay even the divine.â
âIn that case, he will be most pleased to know Kremnos and its king are taking such great care of his daughter,â you finally, finally smile, giggling softly, much to Mydeiâs pleasure as you lean up to press a kiss to his cheek. He hums, happily accepting your affection as he relaxes further into the bed.
âAfter a year spent on this land, what is your favorite part of Kremnos?â he asks. And you knowâbetter than anything, you know what he wants you to say.Â
âThe sun,â you murmur.Â
He frowns. You bite back a smile. âThe sun,â he repeats, dry and in disbelief. âThe unchanging sun that is the same no matter what nation you travel to? Why not your husband?â
Chuckling, you cup his cheeks once more, leaning to kiss over his eyelids one by one. He closes his eyes and lets you as he relaxes under your touch. When he opens them, you are reminded that the Kremnos sun is the warmest you have ever felt.Â
âThe sun does not shine the same in other nations, Mydei,â you whisper. âIn Kremnos, you can find its warmth in not just the sky.â
âAnd wherever else, pray tell, would you find the sunâs warmth in Kremnos?â he asks, his voice husky as he leans closer.Â
You smile, and for a moment, you consider giving in and telling him what he wishes to hear. But you decide to tease him for a bit longer, in retaliation for what he put you through, as you pat his cheek before pulling away. You walk to leave your chambers, but not before you say over your shoulder, âI believe I should fetch more supplies from the healers. Your bandages will need to be replaced soon.â
He gapes, watching your retreating figure in shock before he slumps back and chuckles, sighing before shaking his head as he mutters under his breath, âUtterly wicked. Such a wicked, beautiful thing I have married.â
WOW THIS FIC IS FINALLY DONEEEEE.
It was a 23 day wip to a lot of you guys bc a lot of you guys follow me and saw me posting about this fic during the writing process. So you probably know that royal auâs are very hard for me. I find the dialogue to be difficult to get right and I canât crack the same jokes I normally would through the characterâs lines and I also have no idea how royalty would go about filthy talk LOL. So thatâs rough. But also world building and handling the political atmosphere in these sort of settings is just. Complicated to me. But royal auâs are also some of my favorite to envision and think about, so these scenes in this fic have been a COLLECTION of scenes that Iâve had from many, MANY attempts at writing a royal au. Iâm talking years worth of attempts and compiled scenes that I abandoned and brought back to get added into this fic.
It may have been a 23 day wip to everyone who followed along with my writing updates on this blog, but this is technically a longgggg 5+ year journey that FINALLY saw the light of day, and went through soooo many characters.
First it was for Miya Atsumu from haikyuu.
Then it became a Bakugou Katsuki fic from bnha.
Then it became a Gojo, then Sukuna, then back to Gojo fic from jjk.
Then I was like no no trust me itâll make for the PERFECT Alhaitham fic from genshin.
Now, FINALLY, it has seen the light of day after maybe 5 ish years as a Mydei fic from hsr.
Would you believe me if I told you Iâm hardly an hsr player and Iâve met him for approximately 2 mins total in game? đ LOL. I am not really sure why he managed to make me finally really take all these half written scenes from over the years, polish them up, and finally finish this fic, but I did and I am proud of myself.
For my first proper attempt at a royal au fic, I donât think itâs the worst thing Iâve written. Are there some parts that I wish were executed better? Yes for sure lol Iâm just a failgirl writer who is honestly her own biggest hater. But that being said, I really think that I did not fail at my attempt and I think thatâs a really big step for me in my silly hobby that I take a little too seriously sometimes.
Anyway, if you read this note, and you read this fic, thank youuuuu for reading all my words lol I know sometimes I have a lot of them. And thank you to miss Carinaâif you donât know her, thatâs tumblr user @osarina and sheâs really talented and she probably is 70% of the reason why this fic exists. Thank you for hearing me whine about this, and for literally forcing me to finish it. And also for beta reading it and for helping me polish up my sophisticated royal dialogue. AND for helping me figure out scenes when I was stuck. Aka thanks for being my inspo and museeeee hehehe ily
Merry Christmas, @estupidnoir! I had the privilege of being your Secret Santa this year. Hopefully this satisfies your Gear/Kuro wishes!
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