My Baby Who Was Born On The First Day Of Spring

executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”.  it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it. 

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks. 

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

everlasting love

People wondering if things could have gone differently if Gojo spoke to Geto and expressed his wish to hear him out, we did get that; Yuji and Junpei. The worst part is yeah they could've reconciled. I think Yuji and Junpei speed-ran everything SatoSugu did wrong but also fixed it and made it right. Yuji didn't stop and tried to get through to Junpei no matter what, and Junpei was willing to give humans a chance. They did everything right because they're both a lot more empathetic, compassionate and fundamentally, Junpei and Yuji are underdogs.

Geto and Gojo very definitely aren't so they're assured in their own decisions so when they make a choice, they go all out. Yuji and Junpei at this point were very unsure of themselves and they had the sense to acknowledge that and saw the same in one another. Junpei saw that Yuji will have to kill people and asks him questions forcing him to confront that. Junpei says people have no hearts and he believes it on many levels but he also acknowledges that it's a difficult thing to convince oneself of, and when Yuji hears him out he finds hope in that and is very willing to change.

Yuji and Junpei are the Emotional Awareness and communication AU of satosugu, i think. The reason these two ended is because of outside forces. SatoSugu did it all on their own.

Like to play! Also running on my twt!

I had to

[ID: digital art of young Gojo and Geto from Jujutsu Kaisen. they ride a bike, facing left. Geto is on the seat, head turned slightly away from the viewer. Gojo stands behind him, one hand on Geto's shoulder and one hand reaching forwards. he grins widely. the background shows the ocean with a fence in front of it and a coral-colored sunset sky. /End ID.]

quick what is everyone doing right now

boyfriends? boyfriends.

he totally stole them from geto's closet without his permission

Girlboy with a he/him pin on one sleeve and a she/her pin on the other. Two people sitting on either side of her aggressively correcting each other on his pronouns