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2 weeks ago

what if you released part 2 of Smoke and Light early as a birthday treat for me šŸ‘‰šŸ¾šŸ„¹šŸ‘ˆšŸ¾

I mean it’s Easter Sunday….. but it’s also 4/20 so perhaps I will just post tonight instead šŸ˜µā€šŸ’«


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2 weeks ago

Actually like in love with plug az I hope u know that. U did amazzziiinnngggg with Smoke and Light!!!!!!! I’m so glad it’s back🫶

🄹🄹 thank you!! All of your guys’ positive responses to it mean so much h to me!!


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2 weeks ago

plug az has me giggling and kicking my feet!!!! i’m fucking hooked omfg. how many parts are you planning on having

YESSSSSS he is my favourite I’ve ever written there’s just something about him 😩😩 and I’m trying to make the chapters like 8k + words each so I’m thinking maybe 5 or 6 parts!! But we’ll see


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2 weeks ago

Heyy! I was wondering if you’ll be continuing plug Az? Im obsessed!

Hey my love!! Yes I am!! Part two is ready for next week and I’m half way into writing part three hehe


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2 weeks ago

Smoke & Light — Series Masterlist [Plug!Azriel]

Smoke & Light — Series Masterlist [Plug!Azriel]

ā˜… indicates smut 𖤓 indicates fluff ā™” indicates angst

SUMMARY: Azriel is a well known dealer with top quality bud. He has clients from all walks of life… but his newest, he can’t seem to get enough of.

WARNINGS: This series includes heavy mentions and descriptions of drugs. Azriel is a drug dealer so please do not read if that makes you uncomfortable. Includes swearing, sexual themes and content, mentions of blood and weapons, illegal activities.

PAIRING: Plug!Azriel x Reader

STATUS: Ongoing

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Smoke & Light — Series Masterlist [Plug!Azriel]

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Part One ā˜… — Your ex-boyfriend gives you his dealers number, but you don’t expect for him to be so fine. And you certainly don’t expect him to be so goddamn flirty. (9.9k)

Part Two ā˜…š–¤“ — A run in with the cops is another reminder of the horrors Azriel faced through his childhood. Maybe one day he’ll open up about it, but not today. Today, he's solely focussed on helping you out of a bad trip. (8.2k)

Part Three ā˜…š–¤“ — When Azriel’s blind date goes nothing as expected, you keep him company while he drops off to customers where Azriel comes to the realisation that you could be the answer to all of his problems. (Coming soon!)

Part Four ā˜…ā™” — TBD

Part Five ā˜…š–¤“ā™”ā€”TBD

Smoke & Light — Series Masterlist [Plug!Azriel]

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2 weeks ago

if anyone wants to be added to the tag list for smoke & light (plug!az) pls like or comment on this post besties. part 2 is 8.2k words long and scheduled for next week!!

3 weeks ago

Smoke & Light — Part One

Smoke & Light — Part One

SUMMARY: Your ex-boyfriend gives you his dealers number, but you don’t expect for him to be so fine. And you certainly don’t expect him to be so goddamn flirty.

WARNINGS: heavy mentions and usage of drugs and driving under the influence (weed), azriel is a drug dealer, kissing, swearing, teasing, masturbation -- don't fuck your plug guys

WORD COUNT: 9.9k

SERIES MASTERLIST

Smoke & Light — Part One

Your patience was wearing thin. Very fucking thin. Those three grey dots mocked you as they bubbled at the bottom of the screen—disappearing and reappearing again—until they were replaced with another less than satisfying message.

Brandon: are you taking the piss? Why didn’t you just ask when you were here earlier?

You scanned the message over, swallowing back the groan at the idea of another potential argument. You needed to nip his attitude in the bud, you weren’t entertaining his bullshit anymore. Gnawing at the inside of your cheek, your fingers quickly typed a response.

You: I didn’t realise I was out until I got home. Can you get any or not? Just lmk

The dots appeared again after a few moments of silence, and you prepared yourself for the snarky remark he was most likely to give you, and took a deep breath to compose yourself in advance.Ā 

Brandon: no. I can’t get you any. Sort it out yourself for once.

There was no way in Hell you were going to let your frustrations show. Despite the pure anger and annoyance that began to bubble even more within you.

Brandon could be a lot of things. A liar. A cheat. And a fucking asshole. In all honestly, the only thing he was truly good for was the occasional above par fuck and the fact that his dealer had the best weed you’d ever smoked.

But when they were the only two good things he had going for him, it was hard to justify the disgusting behaviour he showed throughout almost your entire relationship. You broke up every few weeks as it was, but if you’d known about the cheating before, you would’ve left for good sooner.

Instead, you found out a year and half into the relationship, coming to the deafening conclusion that he had, in fact, never been faithful for a single moment of his teenage and adult life.

Fuck him. And fuck his shit sex. The weed, you could get yourself.

You: lmao ok. What’s his number?

A heartbeat after he read the text, he was calling you. And the moment you answered the call, he was his usual, un-charming self.

ā€œWhat the fuck do you mean what’s his number?ā€

ā€œHello to you, too.ā€ You murmured, tucking yourself under the blanket on your couch.

His clipped tone didn’t startle you, didn’t worry you about any form of consequences. He wasn’t scary, even when he tried to be. He was just a douche.

ā€œWhat do you mean what’s his number?ā€ He repeated himself, that agitation growing thicker and thicker with every word he spoke.

ā€œHow else am I supposed to get any?ā€

ā€œFind your own dealer.ā€

He was being bitter now, pathetically so. You picked at the aged edges of your book, a novel you’d read five times over but one you couldn’t get enough of. Your love for it could be seen by the fading print of the front cover and the severely broken spine—despite how careful you tried to be with your readings.

ā€œBrandon, I’m not going to find a random dealer. Your Azriel guy has good stuff and I know it’s safe. Besides, me going to the same person as you is not going to affect you in any way.ā€

He was silent for a moment, mulling over your words. Despite his dreadful personality and lack of love and care and compassion, he knew how little you knew about marijuana. He was the one that taught you to roll, after all.

You’d barely smoked before you met him, and on the rare occasions you did get high, it was usually in the form of gummy edibles your friends had. And you weren’t addicted or reliant on it in any way. You just enjoyed a smoke every now and then if you’d had a long day.

Alcohol had never been your favourite, and you much preferred to feel the chilled buzz from a joint than cradle a hangover for two days after a soirƩe.

ā€œFine. I’ll text you his number. Say Marco gave you his number, it’s a code he made up—had cops on him a while ago. He can be a bit of an ass, don’t let him shit talk you. Ask for a 3.5, he usually charges 40 for it. It’ll last you a couple weeks unless you’re planning on smoking heavy.ā€

It was easy to be pulled back in when he was like that. When he did the bare minimum of offering advice on things he knew you weren’t too sure on. But you were better than that now, smarter. You weren’t going to fall back into your old ways again.

Not with him. Not with anyone.

ā€œI’m not. Thank you.ā€

The line went dead as soon as the words left your mouth and a few moments later, he texted you Azriel’s number. You would’ve appreciated a reminder of what you were supposed to ask for but at least you got his number. Small wins. You weren’t his responsibility anymore.

It took you a few minutes to figure out what to say, your fingers hovering over the keyboard as you typed and erased, typed and erased. Until you settled on ā€˜Is this Azriel?’ and finally sent the message.

Ten minutes passed and you didn’t get a response. Your nose was tucked back into your romance novel as you chewed on the drawstring of your hoodie. In all honesty, you could’ve quite easily slipped into a peaceful slumber under the warm golden glow of your lamps.

That was another thing Brandon couldn’t respect. Your No Main Light rule. The vibes were always immaculate with gentle warmth from lamps. The main light was not allowed on under any circumstances. You much preferred the cosy feeling of golden hues that accentuated the deep green leaves of your plants and vines that scattered the walls and crevices of your home.Ā 

Your phone chimed from your lap, a small surge of anxiety pulsing in your chest. You unlocked the screen and read over the message.

Azriel: depends who’s asking.

Ah, Brandon did warn you. You considered fucking the whole idea off. Maybe cracking open a bottle of wine and snuggling on the couch with a book or tv show would be better than having to meet this asshole, but the bottle of White Zinfandel wouldn’t give you the mellow buzz you wanted.

Not unless you had at least four glasses which was usually paired with a hangover the next day. Something you did not want to entertain. So, you bit the bullet and typed your reply.

You: y/n, got your number from Marco. You about?

The more you let your mind wander, the more you realised how little you knew. You had no clue how this sort of thing worked. Would he come to you? Your home? Would you meet at a location of his choice? Or would he just stash the weed somewhere for you to collect and you don't cross paths at all?

But the burning fire of the what-if anxiety was quickly trampled and extinguished when another text came through and instead of him deciding for you, you were given a choice.Ā 

Azriel: sure, I can meet you at old tower in 20 if that’s good for you? If not I can drop to your location.Ā 

He didn’t seem as much of an ass now. No, quite the opposite. But you supposed that offer was something he probably gave to all new, female clients. If he truly was an ass or not, you couldn’t fault him for the consideration.Ā 

Old Tower was the old old watermill tucked slightly away in the centre of the city. It had been derelict for years, but due to its location—so close to all the necessities and right opposite the police station—no one ever tried to break in or set it alight like many other derelict listed buildings had been in the past.Ā 

Even now, at almost midnight, that part of the city would still be bustling with city-natives and tourists alike. And you appreciated the safe and public meeting spot he suggested.Ā 

You: old tower in 20 is fine.Ā 

As quickly as you sent the message, you received another reply. A text describing his blue Mustang and his licence plate. You shook the nerves off as soon as they came. Azriel was respectful and well known. He dealt to make his money and that was that.Ā 

But the facts didn’t stop you from sharing your location with Brandon just in case, nor did it stop you from double checking you still had your little pepper spray clipped to your keychain.Ā 

The walk to the Old Tower wasn’t a bad one. There were many ways you could access it, most of them leading you through the city, but here were a few that hid you behind back roads and alleyways—those were routes you never took. Not on your own and certainly not in the middle of the night.Ā 

The air was still a bit sticky from the summer heat, and while the denim shorts you wore kept your body cool, you were grateful you kept on your hoodie—just that extra layer that protected your arms and shoulders from the chill of the breeze that your legs never seemed to experience.Ā 

It didn’t take long for you to reach the Old Tower, and it took even less time to spot the electric blue 2022 Ford Mustang. Small tufts of white smoke emitted from the exhaust as it sat in its standstill, headlights facing the opposite direction of what you came in, but you could still hear the engine humming from your short distance away.Ā 

You double checked the licence plate to the number Azriel texted you, and slowly made your way closer. While you didn’t know much about drop offs, deals, and weed in general, you did know the unspoken rules of picking up. And if you were picking up from someone in a vehicle, most people got inside for a few minutes before leaving.Ā 

Azriel must’ve noticed you from the rear view mirror because just as you approached the back of the car, the passenger seat opened wide, inviting you in. You sucked in a breath but accepted the invitation, keeping your eyes forward as you settled into the warmth of the leather seat and closed the door shut.Ā 

You finally let your body shift and your eyes met his. And you were fucking done for.Ā 

You’d never seen a man so strikingly fucking beautiful before. He was tall, lean and muscular and oozed pure sex and charisma. Tan, golden skin and dark, luscious hair that swept loosely down his forehead and curled gently around the tops of his ears.Ā 

His face was chiselled not too sharply, a subtle gentleness to the stark contrast of the cold, brooding aura he carried. And those eyes. Christ, those fucking eyes. Hazel iris’ that dripped with a golden hue of honey.Ā 

You swallowed down the dry lump in your throat and willed your lips to part so you could finally speak. ā€œThank you for meeting me so late.ā€

And Azriel was absolutely hooked.Ā 

When you’d texted barely thirty minutes ago, he did not expect to be meeting with someone so fucking gorgeous. Your soft hair was twisted in a loose braid that hung over your shoulder, wayward strands having fallen from the updo and framing your face mesmerizingly.Ā 

Your eyes were the most captivating thing he’d ever seen; rich in colour and wide with slight anxiety, despite the sleepiness he could slightly notice beneath them. Your voice sounded like a fever dream. It wasn’t sickly sweet like most women he knew or dealt to. Perhaps it was just the sleep, but there was a rasp—a very slight ruggedness—in your tone and Azriel was certain he’d never heard something quite so sensual in his life.Ā 

He cleared his throat, that all too cheeky grin teetering on the corners of his mouth. ā€œI was already out,ā€ he shrugged, nonchalantly. ā€œHow much are you after?ā€Ā 

His voice was a perfect blend of sweet and rough. A deep depth to his tone that skipped hand-in-hand with a sweeter note. God, he was unreal, and the sound of him had you forgetting entirely what exactly Brandon told you to ask for.Ā 

You pulled your lips between your teeth and offered a very sheepish—but mostly embarrassed—smile. ā€œUm… I’m sorry,ā€ you found yourself apologising for the second time tonight. ā€œMy ex used to do this part, so I have no idea how this works.ā€

You couldn’t help the flush that rose to your cheeks at your own admission, couldn’t handle being the subject of his firm gaze, and you absolutely could not fucking handle the soft rumble of rich laughter that chuckled through him.Ā 

ā€œDo you smoke a lot?ā€ Azriel finally asked, a slightly amused smile on those full lips of his. His pink tongue swiped out to wet them and your heart thundered against your ribcage at the sight.Ā 

ā€œNot really,ā€ you cleared your throat. ā€œJust every now and then. Semi-regularly, I guess.ā€ There was no such thing as semi-regularly when it came to drugs and alcohol. To someone’s own self, sure. But not the general mass that consumed whatever it was they did.Ā 

Some considered three joints a day ā€˜semi-regular’, while others considered it as a joint every few days. Azriel had a feeling you were the latter, but he didn’t say anything about his thoughts or what you’d said.Ā 

Instead, he hummed and chewed at the inside of his cheek in thought. He wasn’t laughing at you or your lack of knowledge or understanding. Usually, he’d have kicked a new client out of his car by now and told them to figure it out on their own—he was a dealer, not a fucking private tutor—but with you, he didn’t seem to mind explaining or breaking things down so it was easier to understand.Ā 

Neither of you white understood why he was happy to explain, but you didn’t complain. You’d much prefer this than the alternative version of him that you’d been warned about.Ā 

ā€œA 3.5 would probably be best for you, then.ā€ He decided.Ā 

Yes, a 3.5… that sounded very familiar. You nodded, slowly, considering your next words carefully. You had already disclosed the most embarrassing part of not having a fucking clue how this worked, one more probably wouldn’t hurt, would it?Ā 

ā€œThis is going to sound absolutely ridiculous,ā€ you chuckled nervously, scratching at the nape of your neck. ā€œBut can you break that down in joint terms?ā€

Azriel laughed again, softer this time, through a breath. It was odd, really. He wasn’t laughing to be cruel or to embarrass you further. It seemed to you that perhaps he found it endearing—your innocence on the matter—and maybe, just maybe, you reminded him of himself when he too at one point, had no idea either.Ā 

ā€œIt depends on how strong you have them. Do you smoke blunts or just joints?ā€Ā 

Your eyes widened animatedly. ā€œGod, no. Just joints. I think a blunt might wipe me out.ā€Ā 

A glint of warmth and light fluttered through his eyes for a split second. ā€œSo, a 3.5 would get you like seven joints.ā€Ā 

ā€œYeah, that would last me like a week, two weeks.ā€ You nodded. ā€œI’ll have a 3.5 then, thank you.ā€

Azriel hummed in agreement, and it was only when he reached for the centre console and flipped open a compartment that you saw his hands. His golden skin was marred beyond belief, etched in burns and an array of pigmented colours. Your stomach lurched at the sight. Not from fear or pity or disgust, no. Your stomach twisted in agony, your brain couldn’t comprehend a reason for scars like that.Ā 

You looked away as quickly as you clocked them, not wanting to stare and not wanting him to notice. You supposed he was used to lingering gazes, but you would not be a name added to that list of people.Ā 

Azriel did nothing but make you feel comfortable in the brief few minutes of meeting one another. He was kind enough to not laugh in your face and kick you out of his car after your admittance. You were not about to make him feel uncomfortable either.Ā 

He pulled out a small plastic baggie stuffed to the brim with forest green nuggets and handed it to you between two scarred, pinched fingers. You took it gratefully, a full and genuine smile on your lips now as you thanked him, reaching into the back pocket of your denim shorts for the cash.Ā 

ā€œDid you want me to roll them for you, too?ā€ Azriel’s teasing voice dripped with sarcasm and your eyes snapped to him with a stern look. ā€œā€˜Cause that’ll cost you extra.ā€Ā 

ā€œI know how to roll, thank you.ā€ You bit back, and while your voice and tone held all the conviction, the amused glint in your eye and the corners of your mouth told him he hadn’t offended you in the slightest.Ā Ā 

ā€œIt’s twenty-five.ā€ Azriel chuckled from beside you.Ā 

Your brows furrowed as you pulled out two twenty’s, meeting his gaze again. ā€œIsn’t it usually like forty?ā€

The air now smelt of that tangy, vile scent, something that you don’t think you’d ever get used to. Or enjoy. He shrugged, flipping down the lid of the compartment between you. ā€œYou’re a new client.ā€

You raised a brow now, a taunting smirk creeping at the corner of your mouth. ā€œDo you always undercharge new clients, then?ā€

Azriel liked you. Very much. You didn’t shy away or hide your personality from him, even after only knowing one another for barely an hour in total. He had a feeling he was barely scraping the surface.Ā 

He matched your stare, only he wasn't teasing. ā€œOnly the pretty ones.ā€

There was no hiding the heat that crawled up your neck and sat heavy on your cheeks. It had been a long while since you received a genuine compliment. Let alone one so forward and from someone so unexpected. You averted your gaze from him, looking at the two twenty’s in your hand. Raising them, you pursed your lips.Ā 

ā€œI only have two twenty’s on me. So you may as well take the full forty.ā€Ā 

Azriel didn’t listen. Instead, he pinched one note from your hand, his skin brushing yours but you didn’t falter, didn’t shy away. He was warm, and despite the scars and marred skin, his skin was softer than you expected.Ā 

You huffed, not ungrateful for the discount but this was his livelihood and taking away from that felt wrong to you.Ā 

ā€œLet me know when you’re out.ā€Ā 

You smiled appreciatively and nodded, stuffing the bag and cash into your hoodie pocket and reaching for the door handle. ā€œI will. Nice to meet you, Azriel.ā€Ā 

He watched you climb out of the car, offering another warm smile as the cooler evening air kissed at his skin. He wanted to ask how you were getting home, if you’d be walking alone or if you needed a ride. But Azriel couldn’t cross those lines, especially not with someone he only just met.Ā 

So he bit his tongue and prayed to the Mother above to get you home safely. ā€œYou too, Y/N.ā€Ā 

He started up the engine again as soon as the door closed, but he didn’t drive away. He watched you through the rear view mirror until you were out of sight and when he finally looked down, he found his jeans tight around his crotch and a painful erection.Ā 

ā€œFuck.ā€

Smoke & Light — Part One

ā€œWhy don’t we give the brownies idea a try?ā€

Azriel’s head felt like it may explode. For the past two hours, he’d been stuck in a discussion between his brothers regarding new ideas for new products to sell. And while Az and Rhys had no ideas to suggest (all agreeing cocaine, molly and ket were not up for discussion), Cassian was still hellbent on making weed brownies—despite knowing not a damn thing about baking.Ā 

ā€œCass,ā€ Rhys sighed, pinching sharply at the bridge of his nose. Azriel was going to lose his shit, he couldn’t go through this again—for a fifth fucking time. ā€œWe literally spoke about this last week! None of us know how to bake!ā€Ā 

Cassian paid no mind to Rhysand’s clear frustrations with him and scoffed as he threw his head back on the couch. ā€œIt can’t be that fucking hard.ā€Ā 

ā€œThen by all means, buy your own shit and burn it while you try and figure it out.ā€Ā 

Azriel blinked, looking between the pair. He’d barely said a word, too worried he may get a bit too heated. Cassian got like this sometimes—most of the time—and more often than not, Az got the idea he only did it to get a reaction out of Rhys, who had very little patience when it came to him.

Someone had to play mediator and devil’s advocate in every situation, and somehow, even since they were teens, that role always landed on Azriel’s shoulders.Ā 

Deciding enough was enough, he leant forward and peered between them both. ā€œAs much as edibles would help out sales, Rhys is right,ā€ Cassian snickered at him, ā€œIt’s not a good idea right now. Not when we have no clue what we’re doing, and especially not when we’re having problems with our supplier right now.ā€

It was silent in the room for a moment, for the first time in an hour. And after a few minutes passed and no one spoke, Rhys stood from the couch with a sigh. ā€œI’ve gotta get going to the parlour. All my sketches are there and I’ve got a long day and a huge back piece to tattoo tomorrow.ā€Ā 

He clapped a hand against both Az and Cassian’s shoulders before bidding them a goodbye and leaving. Cassian remained sulking on the couch, thick and toned arms crossed on his chest with an unsatisfied scowl on his face. Azriel took purchase on the coffee table in front of him, lips pursed to suppress his amusement.

Cassian often got like this if he was told no or something didn’t go his way. When they were younger, Azriel used to roll his eyes and tell him to get over it. But now, in their mid-twenties and Cassian sharing a striking resemblance to that hunky character from that one Disney movie, Azriel found his sulking the best form of entertainment.Ā 

ā€œAre you not working tonight?ā€ Az broke the silence with a lighthearted question. As much as he found his brothers face amusing, he didn’t really have the energy to deal with it all fucking night. He had shit to do, people to see. And he didn’t particularly want to bring Cassian along to his drop off’s—not when Cass scared the shit out of most people.Ā 

ā€œClub’s closed, waiting for Nes to finish. Staying at hers tonight,ā€ he mumbled.

Relief was quick to flow through Azriel’s blood as he let out a breath. His phone chimed from his back pocket as he said, ā€œTell her I say hi,ā€ and a gentle smile tugged at the corners of Cassian’s mouth.

Az and Nesta had a decent friendship, he was closer to her than he was Feyre, but maybe that was because Nesta didn’t tiptoe around Az like most other people did. Maybe that was why he liked you so much. You didn’t shy under his gaze, and you didn’t treat him differently after noticing his scarred hands.Ā 

Yes, he saw you watching, inspecting with hurt and curious eyes. But you didn’t say anything so neither did he. And when you purposely brushed your skin against his when you took that bag of bud, he knew you’d done it out of silent reassurance.Ā 

And yet, he hadn’t heard from you since you met three days ago. Not that he expected you to message so soon, not after you said the 3.5 would last around two weeks, but he still felt that deep disappointment whenever he checked his phone and your name wasn’t the one to have messaged him.Ā 

He needed to get a grip on himself, really. But you were different. So different from anyone he’d ever met or known before. You didn’t play up to any facade, you didn’t hesitate to tease him back. You were honest, painfully so when you admitted you were clueless, but that only made him find you even more endearing.Ā 

ā€œWhat about you?ā€ Cassian’s voice drilled into his ears, abruptly pulling Azriel away from the memory of you. He quickly typed back a reply to a client that he could drop off within the hour and shoved his phone back in his pocket.Ā 

ā€œWhat about me?ā€ Az asked.Ā 

ā€œAny plans?ā€Ā 

Azriel shrugged, elbows leaning on his spread thighs and the oak coffee table creaked beneath his firm weight. ā€œI’ve got a few deals to do, but that’s about it.ā€

Cass nodded, finally unfolding his arms and letting them drop to his sides. ā€œWell, you know where I’ll be if you wanna come by, Nes would be happy to see you.ā€

Azriel raised a brow. ā€œI saw her two days ago.ā€

His brother gave him a look, one that suggested ā€˜yeah, I know, but you’re like her best friend and she loves you to literal death’, and that was that.Ā 

Cass left soon after, picking Nesta up from work and leaving Azriel home alone for what seemed like the thousandth night in a row. He didn’t mind it, not really. He enjoyed his own company and when Cass stayed at Nesta’s and Rhys stayed at Feyre’s, it meant Az could play around with new melodies and not be scolded for playing guitar at 4 a.m. and waking everybody up.Ā 

Having the apartment to himself was a win-win for everyone involved.Ā 

Only tonight, he didn’t want to sit and play with new sounds and rhythms. Not when his mind was completely distracted by you. By your smile, your eyes, by that sensual voice of yours that he hadn’t stopped replaying in his memory for the past three days.Ā 

It wouldn’t hurt to send just one text, right? Just the one, just to check in on how you were finding the bud. As if you hadn't smoked it before they met.Ā 

He shouldn’t. This wasn’t what he did—he didn’t chase after girls, he never had, and he most certainly did not get hooked—especially not on someone he’d known for three days.Ā 

And yet, despite that, Azriel found himself on your messages, hovering his fingers over the keyboard and typing out a quick text and sending it before he could even think about it.Ā 

Azriel: how’s the bud?

But it wasn’t his lack of thinking before sending the message that had his jaw slack, no. It was the fact that as soon as the message travelled from the box to the messaging thread, you had already opened it. Like you were already on the chat. Perhaps debating your own text to him.Ā 

Those grey bubbles appeared at the bottom of the screen and Azriel made quick work to click out of the conversation. His heart should not have been stammering in his chest the way it was, he should not have felt so anxious about what you may think if he read your text as quickly as you read his.Ā 

You: very good. And you were right. 7 joints!Ā 

And then, another.

You: I may need a top up sooner than i thought, if that’s ok?

Azriel: what happened to it lasting you 2 weeks?? Nah, that’s fine. Did you wanna meet up tonight?

You: would that be ok?

Azriel: yes. Old tower in 20?

You: life saver <3 see u then!

He tried his damned hardest not to stare at the little heart you sent him, tried his best not to picture you thinking about texting him to meet up again. But all he tried, it didn’t work and a smirk began to tug at the corners of his mouth.Ā 

Smoke & Light — Part One

His Ford Mustang parked outside the Old Tower fifteen minutes later, the engine still humming softly and his eyes flitted between the rearview mirror and his view in front of him, trying to gauge which way you’d come from.Ā 

He didn’t expect for you to come out of the shadows in a third direction, one in the wake of the passengers side, and he didn’t realise until the door opened and you slid your body inside his car, shutting the door behind you.Ā 

ā€œHi,ā€ you turned to him with a beaming smile—eyes gently blazed with a moody pink hue.Ā 

Azriel drank you in. Your hair was down today in what he presumed was your natural waves, face bare of makeup save for the sheen of pinky lip gloss that coated your mouth. You wore an oversized cropped olive cardigan; the large buttons done up just enough to offer a slither of a peek of the white bralette you wore beneath, and a pair of straight-legged black cargos.Ā 

Gods, you looked even better than he remembered, but Azriel wasn’t naive to your staring either. Your eyes caught notice of his thick, muscled arms. They weren’t hidden beneath a jacket this time. No. They bulged from the black t-shirt he wore, and his brown skin was etched in intricate swirls and shapes and designs in black ink.Ā 

You gulped, visibly so. Tattoos had always been an immediate attraction for you—not that Brandon ever had any—but the sight of Azriels and the one that hid beneath the sleeve of his top and curled up and around his neck… Gods, your throat felt extremely dry.

And Azriel noticed everything.Ā 

ā€œI thought you said you didn’t smoke much?ā€Ā 

Your eyes finally snapped to his hazel ones and warmth coated your cheeks and chest. You cleared your throat, blinking a few times to regain some sense of composure. ā€œI don’t,ā€ you retorted. ā€œGirls night. And it was my turn to host.ā€Ā 

Azriel tried not to think too deeply into the idea of you having a night at home with your girlfriends, stoned and warm and cosy and all inhibitions thrown out the window. He wondered if those were the types of things you did with your friends. He’d been with a few before that did.Ā 

He looked away as soon as he felt that familiar tightening in his jeans. ā€œSo, you want another 3.5?ā€ He cleared his throat, lifting the compartment between your seats.Ā 

You hummed, eyes following his movements. Your gaze lingered on his biceps for a moment, trailing down to the veins that protruded from his smooth skin. You didn’t know what was wrong with you. Oftentimes than not, you found yourself horny and riled up when under the influence, but never like this. Never so strongly at the sight of two veiny, tattooed arms.Ā 

ā€œUm, yeah… please.ā€ You finally spoke. ā€œI promise it’ll last me longer than three days this time.ā€

Azriel prayed to the fucking mother above that it didn’t. But he didn’t say anything. Instead, he retrieved a 3.5 baggie and handed it to you, closing the compartment again and the second he opened his mouth to speak, you were already grabbing a marred hand and shoving two twenty’s into it before forcing his fist closed.Ā 

Perhaps it was the buzz of the joint you smoked on your way, or perhaps it was the pure arousal you felt at the sight of him and the feel of his hand in yours that gave you a surge of confidence. Whatever it was, it had you saying, ā€œPretty clients might get a discount from you, but incredibly attractive, tattooed plugs get full pay from me.ā€

Azriel was stunned for a moment, by both your boldness and the shameless compliment. His mouth blubbered open, a retort just as flirty as yours on the tip of his tongue when the sound of his ringtone blaring through the car’s bluetooth speaker cut him off.Ā 

He disconnected the call a bit too quickly, an amused smile teetering on the curves of your already twisted lips. Azriel paid no mind to his own actions, instead turning back to you with a fire in his eyes that you couldn’t quite place.Ā 

His lips parted in another attempt to speak when that gods-dammed phone interrupted him for a second time and you could no longer hold your laughter. Azriel decided there and then that the next time he saw you, he’d make sure he heard that sweetness again.Ā 

You didn’t give him time to cut the call off again. Instead, you reached for the door handle and offered a grateful smile. ā€œI’ll text you when I’m out.ā€

His senses were too on overdrive. Too torn between wanting to stop you, even if to spend a few more moments in your presence, and the deafening sound of his fucking phone. But you’d exited the car and closed the door behind you before he could do anything about it. The cash was still stuffed in his warm hands and the incoming call continued to make his ears bleed.Ā 

ā€œWhat?ā€ Azriel seethed the second he answered the call. It was silent for a moment, the caller caught off guard by Az’s tone but that only pissed him off further.Ā 

ā€œIt’s Brandon,ā€ the line paused for a moment again. ā€œYou about?ā€Ā 

Azriel felt his blood boil. ā€œIf I don’t fucking answer the first time, that usually means no.ā€

He disconnected the call without another word, marred hands now gripping the wheel until his knuckles turned white. He hated the way he was reacting over you—over being interrupted from your presence. But he couldn't help it. Couldn’t get the thought out of his head of how sweet your lips probably tasted with that gloss. And without it.Ā 

Azriel’s chest heaved slightly, that all too familiar sense of arousal tightening in his pants. He couldn’t stand this, couldn't understand how a tiny slip of your bralette could have his mind and body reacting like this. How a subtle smirk and a sultry gaze could have him ready to blow a load in his pants.Ā 

Christ, he needed to sort himself out. Absent-mindedly, Azriel snuck a hand between his thighs, large scarred hand palming at his length through the fabrics. His breathing turned quicker, his movements growing needier. If he didn’t sort himself out soon he’d been in agony.Ā 

With one hand on the wheel, he forced himself to drive—only for a moment or two until his Mustang was parked idly between two buildings and switched off the engine to not draw too much attention to himself.Ā 

He was above this—above getting himself off semi-publicly. But he couldn’t fucking help it. He didn’t care how shameful and icky he might’ve felt afterwards, not when he was so desperate.Ā 

As soon as the car was covered in shadows of darkness, he unclasped his seatbelt and unpopped the buttons of his jeans. He didn’t bother to pull them down, only releasing the zip and reaching into his boxers to tug his length free.Ā 

The second he felt his skin on him, he shuddered. His slender fingers wrapped around his thick shaft, offering himself a teasing squeeze as he slowly moved. Azriel didn’t need lube or lotion—not when pearly beads of semi-translucent arousal leaked from his pink, ruddy tip. He smoothed it down his length, mewling at the contact he rewarded himself.Ā 

And all he could think about was you.Ā 

Your eyes, your lips, your voice.

He let his mind wander to sinful images of what may lay hidden beneath your clothes—beneath that little white bralette. Azriel quickened his pace as his eyes fluttered closed, the back of his head hitting the headrest. He throbbed in his hand, a gruff moan tearing from his throat.Ā 

Azriel could picture you clearly in his head; on your knees in the footwell, your dainty hands around his cock as your lips kissed and sucked him. His hand in your hair, bobbing you on his length, watching your eyes water from the size of him as he hit the back of your throat.Ā 

His breathing grew ragged, filthy images of your choking on his cock filling his brain, clouding his sensing and coaxing a release out of him. Azriel didn’t think he’d ever come so quickly before in his life, but the idea of you looking up at him with sultry eyes through thick lashes had him spurting warm ribbons of cum into his hand as he cupped his head to minimise the mess. A desperate attempt to replicate what he imagined the warmth of your mouth would feel like.Ā 

As his breathing began to even out, the post-nut clarity hit him like a ton of fucking bricks. Shame boiled in his blood, a tint of pink embarrassment painted on his cheeks as if the shadows judged him, too. The idea of seeing you again while knowing what he’d done to the thought of you… it made his insides churn slightly.Ā 

But more than that, it made his cock leap again in anticipation of soon being in your presence once more.Ā 

Smoke & Light — Part One

ā€œAz, what do you say? Up for a double date?ā€Ā 

Feyre couldn’t hide her smile, unable to keep her emotions in check when it came to her attempts to set Azriel up. But the instant disappearance of his smile wasn’t missed on her. Nor was the way his shoulders tensed slightly.Ā 

He sighed. ā€œFey, as much as I appreciate your concern for my love life, I don’t need to be set up.ā€

She pouted at him. Despite that always being his answer, she still held a shred of hope every time she suggested it. Even if he never changed his mind, she was willing to continuously try, even if he did find it annoying. Even if she didn’t tell him until the very last minute.Ā 

ā€œWho’s the lucky girl then, Az?ā€ Nesta piped up with a wide grin from her seat in the couch, tucked closely into Cassian’s side who paid no mind to the conversation at hand.Ā 

He rolled his eyes at her. ā€œThere is no girl.ā€Ā 

ā€œGuy, then.ā€ Nesta scoffed, waving a hand.Ā 

Azriel didn’t want to entertain this conversation, especially not because it had somehow brought his mind back to you. Something he’d been so desperately trying to avoid.Ā 

Though, he supposed it was inevitable. He would be seeing you again at some point and then he’d be stuck right back where he started. In all honesty, he wasn’t sure why he was doing this to himself— why he didn’t allow himself to pursue you if that was what he truly wanted.Ā 

His phone chimed from his pocket.Ā 

In hindsight, it was probably a good thing that Azriel didn’t hear from you for two weeks. It gave him ample time to attempt to get his hormones in check, but it didn’t stop his blood from warming everytime he received a notification. Each time, he was left with slight disappointment to find it was just another client.Ā 

Until today. Until now. Where your name was in fact the one on his lockscreen and all of that forgetting and willing to get you out of his mind faltered.Ā 

You: Hey, are you free later?

Azriel: I'm free all night.

When you didn’t respond, Azriel assumed you were looking for a more direct answer. So he sent another text.Ā 

Azriel: old tower in an hour good for you?

You: see you then.

He couldn’t help the frown that furrowed in his brows at your reply. Given, your only communication was mainly through text, and perhaps he was looking too much into it, but you didn't seem yourself. And that thought shouldn’t have irked him as much as it did.Ā 

He barely bid anyone a goodbye, throwing a mumbled ā€˜see you later’ as he grabbed his shit and left.Ā 

His first stop was to Sean, a lean Asian guy that had been buying off Azriel for two years now. He was decent enough, never tried to haggle or complain about the prices. They shared a mutual respect and minimal words were shared when Az handed him a Q and Sean gave 140 in one swift motion.Ā 

And just like that, Azirel moved onto the next.

And then another.Ā 

And another.Ā 

Until he was waiting at the Old Tower and watching your silhouette approach the Mustang. You entered the car just like you always had done, though you didn’t meet his gaze this time. Instead, you kept your line of view ahead. Your hair obstructed the side of your face, effectively shielding you from his prying eyes.Ā 

ā€œSorry I’m a little late.ā€Ā 

Azriel absolutely did not like the quake in your voice as you spoke, nor did he like the way you seemed to cower into your body and clothes. Clothes that didn’t seem to match your usual vibe—instead, the mismatched black sweatpants and bright pink puffer jacket gave off the impression you threw on whatever was around you.Ā 

Somehow, Azriel still thought you made it look good. On you, the outfit looked both planned and effortless. But he couldn’t shake the feeling that that wasn’t the case.Ā 

ā€œYou good?ā€ he asked through the piercing silence.Ā 

You hummed, twisting the bulky silver ring on your thumb. ā€œYeah, just tired.ā€ You tried your hardest to offer a convincing smile as you turned to him, but Azriel noticed the way it didn’t meet your eyes—the eyes that appeared slightly bloodshot, though he had a suspicion it wasn’t from smoking.

Not wanting to press on the matter, Az opened the compartment and pulled out a baggie of your usual amount and kept it pinched between two scarred fingers. You reached for it, the cash in your other hand but he kept his grip tight.Ā 

Azriel raised a brow. ā€œYou’re sure you’re alright?ā€Ā 

You could see the concern flood his hazel eyes, and the sight pulled on your aching heartstrings. How could someone who was a virtual stranger care more for you than the ones who were much closer in your life?

You didn’t trust your words, so you nodded and he finally released his hold on the bag. ā€œAlright,ā€ Az sighed. ā€œIt’s a different strain than my usual stuff, so go a little lighter with it. It’s pretty strong.ā€Ā 

You were incredibly thankful for the warning, though you couldn’t help feeling a little offended. Did he really think you were so naive and new to this world that you couldn’t handle a new strain at your usual strength (which, admittedly, was very weak) without greening out?Ā 

But as quickly as that feeling rose, it faded. He was a dealer, afterall, and he couldn’t afford to lose business all because someone thought they knew better and had a bad trip.Ā 

ā€œThank you,ā€ you muttered out, already reaching for the handle when his ruggedly soft voice stopped you.Ā 

ā€œYou wanna smoke before you go? I can drop you back after.ā€Ā 

You whipped your head to him, blinking through slightly blurred vision. With a brow raised and widened eyes, your lips parted. ā€œTogether?ā€

A smile stretched across his full lips, one so full of charisma and keen interest that it awakened something deep in the pit of your stomach. Something you distinctly remember feeling the last time you saw him.Ā 

ā€œWhy not?ā€Ā 

You swallowed as your hand slowly fell from the handle and made its way back in your lap. Your smile morphed into a smirk that matched his and the air shifted into something unreadable. Something palpable but not quite real.Ā 

ā€œReally? Do you normally smoke with your clients?ā€Ā 

Azriel’s wicked grin widened. ā€œI do with the cute ones.ā€Ā 

You choked on a laugh, rolling your head back until it hit the headrest and Azriel didn’t think he’d ever seen or heard anything so fucking beautiful in his life. That laugh would haunt him in his dreams to a blissful paradise.Ā 

ā€œFirst, I’m pretty. Now I’m cute… what’s next?ā€Ā 

Damn the rules he set himself. Damn the restrictions he forced when it came to someone who piqued his interest. It was about time Azriel took what he wanted for once. Even if that meant he started with no longer feeling guilty for flirting with you.Ā 

Chewing at the inside of his cheek, Azriel started up the engine and shifted the gearstick. ā€œGuess you’ll have to wait and find out.ā€Ā 

He tilted his head to the dashboard compartment and you pulled it open. The small warm white light lit the cove, a golden hue casting on a small yellow tin. Throwing a glance to Azriel, he nodded and you pulled it out, closing the compartment and popping open his travel tin.Ā 

It was packed with perfectly rolled joints and blunts. The smell was strong—potent—but you didn’t mind. Not as much as you had before. You picked one random of the bunch and pinched it between two fingers. It was rolled tightly and packed full, a very small twist of paper at the end and you hummed, impressed.Ā 

Of course he could roll perfectly. And you had a feeling just two pulls of one of those would keep you warm and fuzzy for the remainder of the night.Ā 

ā€œThere’s a lighter in the cup holder.ā€ Azriel spoke as he pulled out of the space and began to drive further out of the lights of the city.Ā 

You pinched the lighter. Just a simple black one, no funky pattern or engraved initials like most others had. No, Azriel’s was one that came in a pack of five and the other four were somewhere in the car or back at his apartment.Ā 

ā€œWe can smoke in here?ā€ you asked softly, that crack in your voice easing.Ā 

Az hummed, taking a right turn. ā€œIf you’re comfortable to.ā€

You waited a moment, eyeing the joint and then him. ā€œYou drive when you smoke?ā€Ā 

He seemed to notice your somewhat apprehension when he nodded again. He turned to you briefly before flicking his eyes back on the road again. ā€œI drive better when I’m stoned. But if you’d prefer, we can park up somewhere.ā€Ā 

You shook your head, warmth caressing every inch of your body. You didn’t know what it was, but something had overcome you. An overwhelming sense of pure yearning. You could admit when you first met Az that he was attractive, incredibly so. But now? Watching him, speaking with him, smoking with him… oh God’s… you had a fucking crush on your plug.Ā 

ā€œYou wanna start it or should I?ā€ Azriel’s voice broke you from your epiphany and you blinked quickly, willing the rising heat to just fuck off and give you a moments reprive.Ā 

ā€œOh,ā€ you squeaked. ā€œYou can, it’s your weed.ā€Ā 

He didn’t look away from the road, not for a second. With a hand on the wheel and the other shifting gears, he edged his head closer to yours and angled his face just slightly with his lips parted. You were stunned for a moment, realising what he was asking you to do, and you swallowed back that bubbling arousal as you placed the unlit joint to his lips and sparked up a flame, igniting the end.

Az hummed in thanks as he took a long, deep drag. You couldn’t take your eyes off him. He was a fucking sight. Cheeks ever so slightly hollowed and eyes barely squinted as the smoke filled his lungs.Ā 

A scarred hand left the gearstick to reach for the joint, his thumb reaching for the bottom while his forefinger grazed the top and he pulled it away with another fresh intake of breath, settling the drug further.Ā 

You were soaked, you were sure of it. Your previous problems from today were a distant memory as you finally watched him exhale and bring the joint to his lips again for another long pull.Ā 

The sound of the windows opening broke you from your trance and only then did you realise you hadn’t yet put on your seatbelt. You tore your gaze away to clip yourself in and when you turned back, Azriel was offering you the joint.Ā 

With your free hand, you accepted it, the other stuffing the cash in his cup holder with the lighter. You inspected the joint, tried not to let your heart race. You’d only ever smoked with your friends and Brandon. Never with a dealer. Never with someone like Azriel.Ā 

You slotted your pursed lips over the same area Az did, and inhaled as deeply as you could. The burn at the back of your throat was stronger than when you smoked your own joints, and as it filled your lungs you pulled it away and held back a cough that gagged to release from your throat.Ā 

With a shaky exhale, you swallowed around the dryness of your mouth before bringing it back to your lips for another drag. When you pulled it away, the burn wasn’t as bad and you passed it back to Azriel who took another turn on the roads.Ā 

ā€œWhere are we going?ā€ You pondered, a certain rasp to your voice from the strength of the joint.Ā 

Azriel took two short pulls and angled the burning end out the window, flicking off the excess ash before offering it to you again.Ā 

ā€œWherever you want,ā€ he replied. ā€œBut first, we should probably get some food for when the munchies kick in.ā€Ā 

You laughed as you exhaled another breath and handed the joint back to him, waving a hand to signal you were tapping out and did not intend on smoking anymore. Five pulls of that shit was more than enough for you. You could not handle the idea of greening out in his car with him.Ā 

Azriel stifled a laugh and finished off the rest of the joint by the time he pulled into a drive-thru. He placed his order first, turning to you with flushed cheeks and hazy eyes. You blinked a few times, your brain requiring a few moments to catch up with what was happening.Ā 

ā€œI’ll have the same as you.ā€Ā 

He stifled a laugh as he spoke into the machine, doubling up on his order and driving through to the next window. Azriel paid no mind to you when you attempted to offer him your money—barely even looked at you as he tapped his card against the reader and then reached for the cash in the cup holder, shoving it back in your empty palms.Ā 

ā€œYou can keep that, too.ā€

You knew it wasn’t up for discussion, so you begrudgingly took your cash back and stuffed it into your jacket pocket again. Az stopped in the parking lot, the two of you eating through hushed yet uncontrollable giggles at the people that passed by.Ā 

It was the first time you’d heard his laugh so unrestricted and it spread another shot of warmth through your body. It continued like that for another undisturbed hour, where after the food, Az sparked up another joint and began the drive to your apartment. You’d told him Old Tower was fine, but he wasn’t okay with that.Ā 

ā€œToo many freaks around at this time of night. I’ll drop you to your door. Put your address in the GPS.ā€

And it wasn’t until the drive back to your apartment that you were reminded of your previous troubles. The ones that caused your teary eyes and sombre mood. The buzz off the night felt like it had dwindled away the second you thought of your situation, and you were left slumped in your seat again, fiddling with your fingers.Ā 

Azriel noticed your change in mood almost immediately as he glanced over to you before flicking his eyes back to the road. He took another drag of the joint.Ā 

ā€œDo you want to talk about it?ā€

You pondered his offer for a few moments, weighing out whether or not you should. In the end, what difference would it make? If you divulge your issues or not, it wouldn’t fix them. But perhaps talking about it might help.Ā 

ā€œMy sister got married yesterday and no one told me.ā€

Azriel blinked rapidly, almost spluttering on the breath he exhaled. ā€œWhat?ā€Ā 

ā€œYeah.ā€Ā 

He waited patiently, eager for some sort of explanation as to how and why something like that was kept from you. But he didn’t know the relationship with your family, he couldn’t presume anything. For all he knew, you had troubles just like his.Ā 

ā€œMy family and I didn’t have the best relationship growing up. I was born from a toxic relationship so I was cast aside as a kid, I guess. I thought we were past that, though. I thought things were better.ā€

That familiar ache sat heavy in Azriel’s chest. He knew all too well the hurt that came from being shunned by your own family. He wouldn’t wish that upon anyone. Especially not somebody like you.Ā 

ā€œI’m sorry.ā€ His words held such compassion and sympathy. No pity, just pure understanding.Ā 

You blinked back the tears, not wanting to show just how much it had all affected you. But it was no use. A single drop slipped down your cheek and as quickly as it fell, you wiped it away.Ā 

You were agitated now, extremely so. ā€œI didn’t even know she had a boyfriend, Az.ā€

ā€œWhy would they do that?ā€

There was a pause. And then, ā€œbecause her now husband was my first everything.ā€Ā 

You waited for the statement to settle into the thick night air. Your first kiss, first boyfriend, first time. First love. Azriel could understand even more now just how much it hurt you. And the fact they kept it a secret? Even your family knew what they did was wrong.Ā 

ā€œI’m so sorry, that’s truly fucked. But you know, families suck sometimes. I only speak to my mom.ā€

ā€œOh?ā€ You hadn’t realised you were even on your street until he parked right outside your apartment and flicked on his hazards.Ā 

Azriel flicked the but of the smoke out the window and held out his hands, showcasing the marred flesh and patchy skin. ā€œMy half brothers did this to me when I was eight. They didn’t like that our mom had me with another man before she had them. They said that my bastard blood tainted the family, so they wanted to taint me.ā€Ā 

Azriel had absolutely no fucking idea why he was divulging such an intimate and traumatic part of himself. But he made no attempt to hide or sugarcoat any of the truth. Especially not when he looked up from his hands and caught sight of your face.Ā 

Salty tears silvered the linings of your eyes at the truth of what had happened to him. Bile crept up your throat and hatred for his family formed. Eight years old. You felt sick.Ā 

ā€œAz… I’m so sorry. That’s… I can’t evenā€¦ā€

But Azriel waved it off with a gentle smile. ā€œIt’s awful, sure. But I’m fine. I wouldn’t have met Cass and Rhys if that didn’t happen. They may be my found family, but they’re my brothers. Blood doesn't mean shit to me.ā€

A single tear slipped down your warm cheek, staining the skin in its wake. Azriel reached out to wipe it away, his touch gentle and soft and yet all-consuming. Your gaze met in a flickering glance of hazy eyes and fluttering lashes.Ā 

And then next thing you knew, your lips were on his.Ā 

Azriel was quick to kiss you back; moulding his plump lips around yours as his large palms cupped the sides of your face. He was sweet on your mouth, a hint of salt from his fries and he swiped his tongue across the seam of your lips, you almost imploded.Ā 

Azriel was no better. The second he got a taste, he was a starved man. Your tongues met in needy strokes and Az had never tasted anything like you before. Sweet like the watermelon lip gloss you wore, and a tang of smoke that haunted your mouth.Ā 

He was hooked, desperately fucking hooked. Your own hands reached up to hold his wrists in hopes of keeping his touch on you. Azriel kissed you deeper, licking across your teeth before settling even deeper in your mouth.Ā 

It was needy and messy and every unspoken word of desire was poured into that kiss, your touch. He could stay like that forever, kissing you, tasting you. Azriel could feel himself stretching in his pants, and from the almost inaudible whimper that strained from the back of your throat, he was certain you were just as needy between your own thighs.Ā 

The thought spurred him on, as it did you. Your hands trailed down his forearms to his biceps, feeling at the muscle that tensed beneath your touch, until your arms were wrapping around his neck and he was pulling you closer over the centre console.Ā 

Azriel kept a palm caressing your jaw while the other snaked to the side of your neck, his long fingers weaving through the hair at your nape and blunt fingernails scratching at your scalp.Ā 

In your drug and lust filled haze, Azriel was shifting in his seat. You let one arm leave his body to reach for your seatbelt, planning to unbuckle it and crawl into his lap for a deeper, richer taste of him.Ā 

But the second the safety belt was released, the blaring sound of an incoming call through the car's speaker jolted you both apart. It was then, and only then, that the gravity of the situation finally sunk in.Ā 

His eyes were glazed over with something you’d never seen on him before, his lips even plumper and smeared with your gloss. You didn’t look much better. Only your eyes were wider than his and your hair had been a lot more dishevelled.Ā 

Your chest heaved as you tried to catch your breath, the insistent ringing of his phone jarring your eardrums. For the fourth time tonight, warmth settled over you again but in the form of embarrassment. He confided in you about a trauma so deep, and you’d kissed him.Ā 

ā€œI’m sorry,ā€ you apologised breathlessly.Ā 

Too caught up in your own fear and anxiety of what you’d done, you missed the way Azriel’s brows furrowed. His confusion quickly turned into panic when the thought settled in that perhaps you had regretted it. That even though you kissed him, perhaps you felt he had pressured you.Ā 

And that made him sick to his stomach.Ā 

Before Azriel could utter a single word, your hand was on the door handle and you were pushing it open. ā€œI’m sorry, I should go.ā€Ā 

You climbed out of the car as you uttered another apology, and slammed the door shut without so much as offering him another glance. The incoming call died to voicemail but Az couldn’t take his eyes off your empty seat, couldn’t get the taste of you off his tongue, the feel of your lips off his.Ā 

Frustration grew at himself. Azriel turned forward in his seat, nostrils flared and teeth grit. He’d fucked it. He’d gone and fucked it entirely. His open palm smacked against the wheel before gripping it tightly, taking a moment to compose himself.Ā 

He looked over at your seat again.Ā 

Despite the lack of your physical presence, you were still there. In scent and touch and taste.Ā 

Azriel was fucking done for.Ā 

Smoke & Light — Part One

A/N: guys you have no idea how EXCITED I am to finally be reposting this series. I love plug!az with every fibre of my being and I cannot wait to share it again and finally finish it!!! This is the original first and second part merged together and I’ll be scheduling the next part for some time next week!!

Smoke & Light — Part One

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Smoke & Light — Part One

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3 weeks ago

ok I’m posting in 30 mins

GUYS SHALL I REPOST PLUG AZ TOMORROW

3 weeks ago

YES PLEASEEEE REPOST PLUG AZ I MISS HIM SO MUCH 😫😫😫

FUCK IT DO YOU WANT IT TONIGHT


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Hi Sophie it’s me again. I just wanted to say how happy I am that I’ve found your new account!! I have missed you so much🄹🄹 when I saw that your rhysazriel account got deactivated I was so sad and thought l’ll never see you again so I’m grateful that I decided to revisit your Plug Az Ai and saw your new tumblr nameā˜ŗļøā˜ŗļø

I’m sorry for bombarding your ask again but yeah that’s all I wanted to say. I hope you’re okayā¤ļøā¤ļø

you'll be so happy to know i'm bringing plug!az back this week!!! i can't wait for you to see all the stuff i have planned too <3


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OH MY GOSH SOPHIEEEEEEEEE!!!! I have missed youuuu🄹🄹!!! I’ve been looking everywhere for you and finally decided to go on your Az plug Ai today after so long and that’s when I saw your new tumblr account. I was wondering what happened to you but I’m so happy that I’ve finally found you again.

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GUYS SHALL I REPOST PLUG AZ TOMORROW

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THE MAKEOVER LOOKS SO GOOD ML!! <333

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i confess..... that i am in luv with u

don’t make me horny on main it’s not even noon

I Confess..... That I Am In Luv With U

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4 weeks ago

omg sexy layout purrrr

everything I do is to impress you 🫔


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1 month ago
Please Do Not Copy/repost My Work And/or Claim As Your Own, You Do Not Have My Permission To Do This!!

Please do not copy/repost my work and/or claim as your own, you do not have my permission to do this!!

ā˜… indicates smut

𖤓 indicates fluff

ā™” indicates angst

Please Do Not Copy/repost My Work And/or Claim As Your Own, You Do Not Have My Permission To Do This!!

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— š‘†š‘’š‘Ÿš‘–š‘’š‘ 

Ghost in the Wind ā˜…š–¤“ā™” — All your life, your presence had been nothing more than a faint kiss of a breeze—nothing impactful, nothing worth noticing. You should’ve known that wouldn’t change when Nesta took you back to Prythian to save your life. [Completed]

Press Play ā˜…š–¤“ — Scouted as a new camgirl at Press Play Pornography, you’re thrown into the world of professional sex work. However, it very quickly becomes more than just you and your camera when directors notice yours and Azriel’s chemistry off-set, and invite you to film with him. [Pornstar!Azriel] [Coming soon!]

Smoke & Light ā˜…š–¤“ā™” — Azriel is a well known dealer with top quality bud. He has clients from all walks of life… but his newest, he can’t seem to get enough of. [Plug!Azriel] [Ongoing]

Please Do Not Copy/repost My Work And/or Claim As Your Own, You Do Not Have My Permission To Do This!!

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Loving You (Loving Me) ♔𖤓 — In the five centuries of his life, Azriel has never had someone take care of him the way that Y/N does, and he can't seem to stop those dark, unworthy thoughts from resurfacing. (2.5k)

Hot Distraction ā˜… — After breaking things off with your girlfriend, Azriel offers himself as a distraction to take your mind off things. [Bisexual!Reader] (2.8k)

Only Angel ā˜… — Azriel is a dangerous Mafia leader, you are his favourite dancer at his strip club. His usual Friday night dance turns into something a little more. [Mafia!Azriel]

Special Brownies ā˜…š–¤“ — When your quiet plans for a night alone are disturbed by Azriel’s cancelled date, you make the most of it with a little help from Cassian’s brownies. It’s a shame no one warned you about the weed.


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1 month ago

Hi! I love your work so much! Just wanted to let you know as I am rereading everything you have ever written while being lazy in the sun aha :) xx

You’re the cutest 🄹 I’m really trying to get out of this funk so I can bring more stuff to you guys, I have the ideas but not the inspo or time :( but alas, I hope you enjoyed the sunshine honeykins! šŸ’–


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1 month ago

Press Play — Series Masterlist [Pornstar!Azriel]

Press Play — Series Masterlist [Pornstar!Azriel]

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SUMMARY: Scouted as a new camgirl, you’re thrown into the world of professional sex work. However, it very quickly becomes more than just you and your camera when directors notice yours and Azriel’s chemistry off-set, and invite you to film with him.

WARNINGS: This series includes foul language, very explicit content (a lot of smut, in-depth warnings will be at the beginning of every chapter), brief mentions of sexual harassment, mentions of anxiety and self-doubt. This series is set in a modern AU where Azriel is a very sought after pornstar and the reader is a camgirl. Minors DNI!

PAIRING: Pornstar!Azriel x Camgirl!Reader

STATUS: Coming soon!

Main Masterlist

Press Play — Series Masterlist [Pornstar!Azriel]

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Take One ā˜… — New to the business but not the job, you’re going into Press Play Pornography with five years of home experience on your back. But despite how desensitised you are to a man’s peacocking, you can’t quite deny the allure of your new, well-seasoned coworker. (Coming soon!)

Press Play — Series Masterlist [Pornstar!Azriel]

TO BE ADDED TO THE TAG LIST PLEASE SEND ME AN ASK, I DO NOT ALWAYS CHECK MY COMMENTS SO MAY NOT SEE IT, YOU WILL ONLY BE ADDED TO IT IF YOU ASK VIA MY INBOX!!


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1 month ago

something might be coming this week in relation to this ask ………………. šŸ‘€

Pornstar or OF AZ and it's just him being a pure filthy slut who's experienced as hell x virgin reader

Bonus points if he almost comes when he sees reader naked

oh my good grief…. i have the most perfect buildup/plot for this akskkajdkakdkdkdkdk

Pornstar Or OF AZ And It's Just Him Being A Pure Filthy Slut Who's Experienced As Hell X Virgin Reader
1 month ago

hiii! I was wondering if I can dm you a modern Az series idea that’s been living rent free in my head since Tate McRae released her new album? šŸ„ŗšŸ’•

Hey bestie!!

If you mean for me to write, I’m not currently taking requests BUT if you meant for your own idea and you wanna talk about it then PLEASE go ahead hahaha we all know I’m a huge sucker for modern!Az hahah


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1 month ago

What the fuck have they done to the mobile dashboard

1 month ago

The Catalogue

The Catalogue

Hello!! It’s @tarotsoul and this is my little side blog for all the fic recs!!

Full credit is given to every author for every fic recommendation. Please do not steal from creators by reposting and/or claiming them as your own! Minors please do not interact!

Feel free to send in recommendations if you have any!

The Catalogue

ACOTAR

Azriel | A filtered collection of all Azriel fic recommendations. Or, find them all under #azriel rec

Cassian | A filtered collection of all Cassian fic recommendations. Or, find them all under #cassian rec

Rhysand | A filtered collection of all Rhysand fic recommendations. Or, find them all under #rhysand rec

The Catalogue

I will update this as often as I can. Please remember to feel free to send recommendations in to add to this!! (Lucien and Eris will also be added soon to this!)

Alternatively, you can also use #fic rec to go through every recommendation on the blog instead!


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1 month ago

Hey bestie, are you ever bringing back FWB Az? I’ve got so many stories I want to copy down šŸ’—

Hi!! I will eventually get round to writing FWB!Az. Life is just super busy right now and finding the motivation and inspiration is a struggle too lol šŸ’–


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1 month ago

Besties! I made a side blog for my fic recs!! Still setting it up but will hopefully be posting some recs tomorrow!!

You can follow it at @tarotsoulreads (and also feel free to send it recs to the blog aswell!!)


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