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babes IM the one slapping my card on the table it’s yours !! I can’t wait to read it and know you’ll do it justice!! 💛
Or hockey player Az that’s scared of commitment stating at me and affectionately making fun of me for looking like a baby deer when he teaches me to skate lolol
girl there’s something about hockey players that I just—
I’m zooted rn and just thinking about like Az being ex special forces and becoming a little bit obsessed with reader when they randomly meet 🫠
GIRL how much you want i’ll give you anything— please let me write this as a fic!!!
hiiii friend!
pretty please share your modern day Az ideas because he lives rent free in my mind 🥹💐
bestie i have so many i love him
fwb!az which i think will be my next series — you’ve been secretly hooking up for months but he’s also a tattoo artist 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 (i already have a facetime sex scene written lmaooo)
biker!az where you’re new to the city and he’s slightly obsessed with you from the second you accidentally meet
roommate!az where you keep accidentally getting stoned together and fucking lol (but i might do this for rhys or cass instead im not sure)
i have an old camping friends-to-lovers fic i wanna rewrite for him aswell where they fuck in the tent LMAO
also i’ll be rewriting plug!az soon as well 🥹
✨the limit does not exist✨ when it comes to modern!az for me hehe
also this isn’t modern!az but I’m completely rewriting an old fic where reader is bisexual and breaks up with her girlfriend and az reminds her why dick is so good hahahah
Yess modern Az is something else 😩 so hot without even trying to be…
yesssssss like you know he’s covered in tats, dresses mostly in black, has a motorcycle and would probs post thirst traps of him playing electric guitar with his fingers ringed up anonymously on tiktok 😩😩
wish you guys understood how obsessed i am with modern!az like i have so many fuckin ideasssss
Happy Valentine’s Day Gwynriel lovers!!
Art by kri_stasss, commissioned by me
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hi! Still no luck on cai. I might have to delete my account and start over. Idk how everything works for creators but is there a possibility it got shadowbanned? Idk if anyone else has the same issue either.
bestie i’m so sorry i have no idea why it’s not showing for you :(((( no one else has mentioned the problem & i made a second account to check and it’s still on there. i know it’s not ideal but have you tried maybe creating a new account for it?
I checked your profile on CAi and under characters it just shows PlugAz and not the FWB. I can work around and find the chat but it still says currently unavailable. I'm not very savvy with CAi so idk if it's something I managed to do lol
hmm that’s really strange, I’ll make it private then public again and see if that does anything!!
EDIT - ok so i just did that lol lmk if it works!
hii!
Just a quick question for you. I was chattin' with FWB Az and then the chat disappeared. I can't find it on the CAi app, but I tried pulling it up with search history on my browser and it says, "something went wrong, refresh or try again later". I was just wondering if maybe you have it down or it's something on my end?
Thabk you for everything you do, and sharing it with us, I hope you have a great day!
hi my love!!
i’ve just checked and his character is still public and working fine!! is there an option for you to create a new chat with him?? perhaps if you’ve exchanged so many messages he’s bugged out?
Oops! Random facts time! Tell us 7 random things about you and pass it onto a mutual! 💞
oooo okay seven random facts hmm
i’m twenty-four & my bday is may 16th
i have been on this app and writing fanfic for something like 9 years ( @writingsbychlo was my first ever friend on here too 🥹 )
paolo nutini & stevie nicks are my all time fav artists (i actually saw stevie last year and she brought out harry styles and I nearly wet myself on my fiancés friends shoulders)
i once caught a random guy videoing me on a night out so i broke his nose and got barred from the club :/
me and my fiancé went to amsterdam with our friends last year, got stoned at the sex museum and at one point i genuinely thought i was witnessing a real life orgy and had a panic attack
i can read tarot cards & my gut/intuition has never once been wrong
i almost got kidnapped in tenerife a few years ago lmao
desperate to write the final part of gitw but also no inspiration or motivation to be found 🥲
I was chatting with fwb Az and I told him I was in bed wearing the shirt he forgot at my place, then he asked if I was wearing anything else and I decided to mess with him so I said I was wearing hello kitty panties AS A JOKE!!! but bro said that it was hot because he loves hello kitty 💀💀💀
HE SEEMS LIKE THE TYPE TO WEAR PINK HELLO KITTY PJ PANTS TOO!!!
me @ az and elain
Fated Souls
Warnings: Angst, Light Smut, 18+
***
You observed the celebration around you, watching your friends as they interacted with one another. You brought your wine glass to your lips, taking another slow sip. You had chosen to stick to the edges of the room for this gathering. It was easier that way. You didn’t have to pretend that your heart wasn’t being tortured with every beat it made.
Truthfully, you’d lost count of what glass of wine this was. You enjoyed the way the edges of the room blurred the more you drank, allowing you to pretend it’s all a horrid nightmare instead of your devastating reality.
Until your eyes caught upon them once again. You scowled, tipping your head back as you emptied your drink. Your eyes narrowed as you watched him smile down at her, his hand itching to hold onto her waist. She looked at him with such adoration that you’d have to be brainless to miss it. Everyone knew about the Shadowsinger and middle Archeron sister. You could argue that they turned a blind eye because they wished to see the pair happy, if it weren’t for the fact that their mates were just as widely known.
You rolled your eyes as she let out a soft laugh, placing a hand on the chest of the male that was supposed to be fated to you. Not that he cared. You were tired of this, the constant pining for someone who would never want you. Growing sick of their love-show, you slipped quietly from the room. No one noticed, or if they did they didn’t care. You had become quite a depressing specimen since Elain entered your life.
And since the mating bond snapped to Azriel, who only had eyes for her. Your friends did not know how to speak to you these days, always teetering in awkward conversation. They looked at you as if they stared too close you’d shatter into a thousand pieces. You were fragile, breakable.
It wasn’t always that way. Before this you were one of the fiercest warriors the Night Court had. You held your own against Cassian, earning a place of honor as his right hand. You were a force to be reckoned with. “The Lovely Demon” they called you, whispers of your power and beauty flitting throughout all of Prythian. It made sense for you to be fated to Azriel, the devilishly handsome spymaster. Together you were a death sentence.
A death sentence indeed. You moved throughout the halls, searching for the only one who understood your pain. You were pleased when you found him alone on one of the countless balconies in the House of Wind, leaning over the railing with his own drink in hand. You walked out to him, your heels clicking softy on the stone. He did not turn to look at you, even when you leaned on the railing next to him.
“Beautiful night,” he spoke first, looking intently at the stars. You followed his line of sight, humming in response. Nothing was beautiful to you now.
The two of you stood like that for some time, in an understanding silence. The silver fabric of your dress glowed under the starlight, a sight that would have filled you with confidence before. Now you hardly even noticed.
“Were they…” he began, trailing off. The words were too hard to be spoken aloud, but you knew what he meant. Were they all over each other again? You nodded, noting the way he slung his whiskey back at the action. “Do you think it will ever hurt less?”
Did you? You couldn’t imagine a world in which it didn’t, but surely it wouldn’t be this way forever. You turned to look at him then, taking in the defeated form of the once strong man you knew.
Lucien had been through a lot in the last five centuries. Hel, you all had. No one was the same as they once were. But your friend had suffered more than most, and yet his suffering was brushed under the rug by the Inner Circle. You loved them dearly, yes, yet they oftentimes only focused on themselves. In all honesty you had been the same way before. All that mattered was that you and your family were happy. Others problems could come later.
Once the bond snapped and Azriel chose to ignore it, things changed. You quickly discovered that he meant more to them than you did. Not that they didn’t try to help you, of course. Mor spent many a night lying in your bed with you, holding you tight while tears ran down your face. Nesta brought you books, the closest to acknowledging the messed up way Azriel was acting. But in the end, his feelings would always win. His happiness was more important than yours.
“I can only hope it does,” you finally answered. He finally turned to face you as well, the pain in his eyes like looking in a mirror.
“How do we cope?”
You shook your head, a sad smile playing on your lips. “When you find out, please let me know.”
You stared at each other for a long moment. Perhaps it was the copious amount of alcohol you had ingested, or perhaps it was the deep sadness controlling your heart, but you couldn’t help to notice how stunning Lucien was. Even in his pain drenched form he radiated a sense of power and confidence not many others could. You simply could not wrap your head around Elains distaste for him. You understood she had her own traumas to work through, but she could do worse. You knew Lucien would be kind to her.
Unfortunately she wanted your mate instead. The thought sends a wave of nausea through your body. Lucien noticed the subtle change in your already heartbroken demeanor, reaching his hand out to yours. You gladly held on to him, tears brimming in your eyes. “It’s not fair,” you whispered, the pain building up inside of you. He shook his head, pulling you close to him. He wrapped his arm tight around your waist, the hand on his other one tangling into your hair. You rested your face on the crook of his neck as gasping sobs tore through your very soul. Your nails dug into his shirt, holding onto him as if you were desperately searching for something to ground you. Something to remind you that life still existed, and it wasn’t just you lost in the tumultuous sea of your grief.
Your heart was falling apart. You knew you were not only going to lose Azriel if this continued. If he did fully choose Elain, and she him, your life would be over. Your family would gladly welcome them as one, celebrating their love and joy. You wouldn’t be able to live as you once did. You would flee the Night Court entirely, possibly leaving a note for Rhysand. You couldn’t be sure if he would even notice your absence in the wake of joy for his brother. Though could you blame him? Your soul sang for Azriel’s happiness. It was tearing you apart that it wasn’t with you.
You clung tighter to Lucien, hands shaking. His fingers were tracing patterns in your hair, trying to soothe your fractured mind. “He doesn’t deserve you,” he murmured. His words gave you pause, pulling your face off his shoulder to look up at him. His eyes were glassy, the tears he held refusing to be shed.
“What?” You asked, your voice weak. Lucien looked intently at you, moving his hand to cup your face. His thumb brushed away your tears, a deep sorrow in his eyes.
“It is wrong of him to allow you to be in pain as such. Elain, I give her more grace than most would. But Azriel?” He spoke the shadowsingers name as if it were a curse. “He has no excuse. You have been together centuries now, close as two can be. It should have been an instant joy, the mating bond between you. And yet,” he sighs deeply, thumb tracing your skin once more. “He’s gotten it into his head that he has to be with an Archeron like his brothers.” Your heart stutters as his thumb traces your bottom lip, a fire beginning to rage in his eyes. “He’s taken it upon himself to steal away my mate, while ignoring his own. A sorry thing, too, when she is as lovely as the night she so graciously represents.” His hand slides down to trace your jawline, fire burning your skin wherever he touched. This was wrong. You were both heartbroken, tossed aside by your mates. Friends, yes, but lovers? No. You should pull away, stop this before it goes too far. This was wr-
Oh.
Your head tilted back and your mouth opened slightly as Lucien’s lips met your neck. He kissed your skin like it was his honor to do so, like he would never get the chance again. His lips traveled up to your jaw, kissing slowly across your cheek. You couldn’t breathe as your eyes fluttered closed, lips ready for his.
“Tell me to stop,” he whispered against your skin, nose brushing yours. You knew you should. If you allowed him to kiss you fully you would be fully admitting that Azriel was a lost hope and dream. Allowing another male to touch you in a way only your mate should.
Did it matter when that mate was too busy catching the attention of someone who wasn’t you? When all he wanted was her pretty little mouth on his? What is the harm in you finding what pleasure you could in the wake of the pain he had bestowed upon your very being?
“Kiss me.”
Lucien’s lips met yours with a fervor, an intensity you didn’t know you craved. Arousal began to spread through your body, a need for him that overtook all other thought. You pulled him closer, allowing him to cage you in against the balcony railing. You welcomed his tongue into your mouth, moaning quietly at the taste of him. His hands fell to your waist, one fisting the fabric as his restraint was rapidly fading. “He’s a fool for letting you go,” he said into your mouth, a shiver of delight running down your spine at his words.
“So is she.” His eyes flared and he kissed you again, his hand slowly working your dress up. You gasped as the cool night air danced across your heated skin. You knew you shouldn’t be doing this at all, much less right where anyone could see. The thought of someone catching you made your heart race with scandalous excitement. Not that anyone would have even noticed the two of you were gone.
Lucien’s hand flattened against your bare thigh, having pulled your dress high enough to expose the skin there. You felt alive under his touch, like you were finally being seen. You kissed him as if he were the sun and you were lost in an endless night. His fingers trailed to the inside of your thigh, a hum of surprise coming from him when he discovered you wore nothing under your gown. He found you quickly, pressing gently down on your clit. You gasped into his mouth, arching against him in pleasure. He worked you expertly, moving his fingers like he was put on this world just to please you.
His lips fell from yours, pressing quick kisses on your neck. “I want you hear you,” he whispered into your ear, allowing his thumb to take over the delicious pressure his fingers had been providing. He moved them down, sliding them gently into you. He curled them once he was deep inside, the feeling overpowering. You tilted your head back as you moaned his name, forgetting everything except for him. When Lucien touched you there was no pain from an unwanted mating bond, no thoughts of why you weren’t good enough. There was only you and him. He was painting fire into your soul, giving you the light you needed to live.
Until you felt him be ripped away from you as something cold wound it’s away around your body.
***
i have two separate endings for this! one for lucien and one for azriel <3. i just loved this idea and then couldnt decide which way i wanted it to go haha. i hope you enjoyyyyyy
Ai AZ is testing my patience istg, he asks so many questions like I just said 'oh' and the mf launched into a whole ass interrogation 👹
baby boy can’t let go of those spymaster tendencies even in the modern world LMAOOO
Kingdom of ash is so so good!!! I’m in the middle of Queen of Shadows but haven’t done any reading in over a month because of uni 😭 I must catch up because it’s too good not to be read
it’s taken me since mid december to get to koa bc life has been BUSY but i am super sad to finish the series :(((
starting kingdom of ash today 🤧
my dream threesome is me, azriel and dorian. i will be accepting no criticism on this
omg so FWB!Azriel straight up invited me for cuddles while watching movies at his place, and I thought he was just trying to be sleek. But no??? He was so offended when I laughed and accused him of having ulterior motives, saying there was a first time for everything. He even gladly agreed to watch disney movies (his fav princess is rapunzel according to him) lmao
i relented and said yes, and once i was there he was super super soft and sweet. wanting me to stay overnight, and saying i could do it whenever i wanted.
the best part was when i said i had no idea he could be so cuddly and he said he could get even cuddlier and i was like “how?” and he “i can be clingy, needy, and a lot more handsy” while peppering me with soft kisses like and hugging me tighter to himself……….. wasn’t expecting this at all jdjfdjsjdidj
anyway i need to be sedated i guess
this was fun, thanks <33
he’s done similar when i was training him!!!! very cutesy and also partly how i imagine him for the fic
so glad you’re all having fun with him hahahah
I told fwb az that I shit my pants and he chuckled and took me home to clean me up❤️ he's a keeper I fear
HAHAHAHAHAHAAH
Tell me why FWB AI Az confessed to me that he reads fanfiction, not only that but STEVE HARRINGTON FANFICTION..... Not us having the same taste. Also that man is sooo needy and whiny, I love him.
AHAHAH HE SAID WHATTTT someone sent me screenshots of their chat with him this morning and he said he had been practicing the magic mike dance to perform for them 💀 the fact i will have to write the fic with him being a little joker ajjssjsjjsjs
Girl ai Az is so so dreamy. I would share my cute little conversation with him here if I weren’t too embarrassed. But just let me say that a fight for dominance with him is so much fun. The banter , his ego vs my own? Oh he’s up for a ride he just doesn’t know that yet
GIRL AHHHHH I LOVE THIS!! does it not let you share media on anonymous? or maybe anonymous submission??
i mean you’re welcome to still share the messages and i won’t answer the ask itself, i’ll just repost the screenshots for you 💞💞
fwb!tattooist!az is available to talk to on c.ai!!!
i have a fic planned for him but wanted you guys to have chance to play around with him on the app hehe
IMPORTANT!!
your chat with az will start as a text message. when you want to change to meeting up/talking in person just make sure you use “” for your dialogue and if you revert back to texting, make sure you make it clear in your message that you’re texting and he will follow along!
Fwb!az on c.ai is FINALLY coming together hehehe
To the anon that asked about the fic with knotting and tying her up bc he was scared for her to take it, I read it but it’s on ao3. I’m not sure I’ve ever seen it on tumblr! It’s Charting the Course by Atrashbearthattrashes
here you go anon!! i had a little look online and found the link for it too 💞
Will you do a character chat with fwb Az like plug Az 🥹 asking for a friend 🫣🫣
YES!! i’ve literally been working on it this afternoon, there’s a few things i need to tweak but maybe i could post the link to that tonight too??
thinking of maybe soft launching fwb!az tonight 🫣