BPD culture is snapping over little things and trying to apologize for the way you acted and freaking out again when the person you snapped at doesnt get over it as fast as you do because then you think “they hate me why are they still upset over this theyve never liked me they're still mad they hate me”
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Bpd culture is having too much love and care inside you and not knowing how to distribute any of it so you give it all to one person and get sad when they don't care about you as much as you care about them.
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bpd culture is when your fps tone changes alittle from how they usually talk and now you NEED to isolate yourself until they act “normal” to you again
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BPD culture is wanting to know who your fp is talking to and if they're talking about you, and if, god forbid, they are, what they're saying, at all times, because you're so scared they're secretly telling their friends how much they hate you.
And you also want to know when they go out and with who, so you don't have to find out from other people that they went out with mutual friends and didn't invite you, so you can stop feeling like they don't want you around.
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BPD culture is getting a dry message from someone and thinking "Am I being annoying again?" or "I should shut the fuck up"
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bpd culture is the ironic fact that all of your splits are due to misunderstandings which are resolved in the end yet your brain still manages to convince you that "yeah this is a real one. they hate you and you're annoying" every single time
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Can you explain more about delusions and npd? I don't remember if you've talked about it before
Of course! NPD is actually primarily definable by the delusions commonly associated with the disorder. These are commonly described in general as 'delusions of grandeur'' but there’s a lot more to them than that.
In general, there are several different variants of delusions, including but not necessarily limited to: Erotomanic, grandiose, bizarre grandiose, jealous/infidelity, persecutory, referential, negation/nihilistic, and somatic.
Within NPD, as far as I know, the most common types are erotomanic, (bizarre) grandiose, persecutory, and negation/nihilistic can also show up mixing with grandiose. I suspect somatic could also show up based on what I know about the disorder, but I don't see it commonly spoken about.
Specifics about what each type of delusion means under the cut!
Erotomanic - Delusions regarding someone being in love with them. According to most sources, erotomanic delusions are commonly targeted toward a person of great importance or fame. This type of delusion can often involve reading into the world as giving one 'signs', things like thinking certain gestures are a beckoning or things such as that. May have overlap with grandiose ("Everyone in the world is in love with me").
Grandiose - Delusions regarding being special or having extraordinary talents ("I know how to do everything", "If I were to try to do that I would do it perfectly", "If I were in a position of power the world would be fixed"). These are most the delusions most commonly associated with NPD or ASPD.
Bizarre Grandiose - These are a subtype of grandiose. These often focus around spiritual or religious beliefs ("I am God", "God chose me") but can also focus upon supernatural ability ("I have powers nobody else has"). Again, these are most commonly associated with NPD and ASPD.
Jealous/Infidelity - Delusions regarding the loyalty of those around you/that you may just be being lead along by those in your life, also commonly associated with fear of incoming abandonment, and they must be for little to no reason ("My partner is cheating on me", "My best friend doesn’t actually like me", "I saw my partner with someone, they’re going to leave me"). Commonly seen in disorders like BPD or PPD.
Persecutory - Delusions regarding people in the world intending on harming you ("I'm being watched", "People are tracking me"). Most commonly associated with psychotic disorders or PPD. Can show up in NPD by mixing with grandiose ("People want to hurt me because I’m special").
Referential/Delusions of Reference - Delusions regarding ordinary, everyday experiences having hidden meanings ("I believe this song has a message specifically for me", "the clouds are telling me something"). Most commonly associated with schizo-spec disorders.
Negation/Nihilistic - Delusions rendering life/the world meaningless ("No matter what I try, I cannot affect the world", "nothing is real"). Delusions suffered in this type typically fall under the realm of Cotard’s delusion (delusions regarding being nonexistent or dead). Can have commonalities with bizarre grandiose ("I'm the only person in the world", "Nobody is real except me").
Somatic - Delusions that someone suffers from a disorder or medical issue. Associated with hypochondria.
Unspecific - Delusions not fitting into any particular category.
Mixed - Showing delusions of two or more different types.
Hope this helps!
Bpd culture is living in constant guilt and misery over the fact that some personality disorder you had no control over and didn't ask for will permanently ruin your life and relationships forever. Nothing is more discouraging than knowing that the way I am is literally exactly what people are told to avoid in friends/partners/etc. making me virtually untouchable and most likely forever alone. The isolation really gets to me sometimes and honestly at this point I'd rather be dead than alone and hated by society for a disorder that I never even asked for in the first place.
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bpd + maladaptive daydreaming culture is while not indulging in anything like alcohol or drugs, instead you indulge in the other world inside your head so you dont need to be in the current, painful reality – and with a low price!
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BPD culture is never being able to tell who is the toxic one in any of your relationships because it is always assumed you are the bad one.