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questioning bpd culture is going from feeling borderline suicidal due to the amount of anxiety and self-loathing you're experiencing to being completely fine the next day

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Suspected bpd culture is going "nope, not happening. Not real. I'm not real. Why do I feel nauseous" everytime something bad happens

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bpd culture is getting annoyed when someone tells you to not do the things that make you feel like a bad person. like you think I can control it?

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lmfao

thinking about how funny it is that you pay therapists and they can diagnose you with a cluster b personality disorder...literally giving you money and in exchange you're calling me manipulative orsomething...this is making me feel so pathetic wtf I paid you to degrade me *kills mys

OCD symptom i struggle with but don't see talked about a lot: inability to trust your own memory and/or perception.

as an example: i put my headphones in my bag. i say im sure they're in my bag, but what if i imagined putting them in my bag? i have to check, so i stick my hand inside and grab them. but then i have to check *again* because what if i just so happened to have another object shaped and sized exactly like my headphones that i just forgot about? so i have to pull them out of my bag and look directly at them to fully confirm they were in my bag

this is a fairly benign example but this also happens with other worse scenarios for me and it's. not fun

i have impulsive bpd but i only get impulses to cut and dye my hair i would never do anything to hurt anyone because i'm a good boy 😇

BPD CULTURE IS wishing that non-bpd people would understand how 90% of what people consider to be "manipulative behavior" from us is literally just.. us expressing emotions. Me expressing how I feel guilty for being so draining and apologizing for how I behave on bad days (ex: ghosting, or meltdowns) is not so I can win your affection or pity, it's literally just so I can explain how I feel in a way that you can understand me better..

It gets so tiring when everytime I try to express my own guilt and shame about my disorder I get accused of "guilt tripping" "manipulating" or "being attention seeking" instead of actually being recognized for how I feel.

Like, c'mon guys.. I'm a person too.. I'm allowed to be sad and feel lonely and feel guilty and I should deserve the same comfort/to be heard as much as someone without BPD 🥲

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BPD culture is getting a dry message from someone and thinking "Am I being annoying again?" or "I should shut the fuck up"

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