Can Everyone Be Nice To Me Forever

“are you mad at me?” “do you still like me?” “are you sure you’re not mad at me?”

Okay so are we gonna take this to the bedroom or should I fuck the sense and reassurance back into you right here?

its always "mental health matters" until you start showing symptoms.

What Does ADHD Look Like?

The Mini ADHD Coach

i have tourettes where I say sudden funny things but never any slurs because I am good boy 😇 I have OCD but not the one that makes me really concerned about piss and shit but the movie one that makes me line things up properly nice and neat because I am a good boy 😇 I have bipolar but not the one that makes me act embarrassingly in public because I am on the highest point of a downward curving emotional pendulum swing, but the one that makes me creative af via safely utilizing my tendency towards extreme emotions in my art (because I am a good boy 😇) I have autism but it's the one like from the movies where I'm good at math or being a detective, and not the one that makes other people hate me so bad they want to kill me because I am annoying to them. because I am a good boy 😇 I have schizophrenia too but I also don't, because somehow in the cultural lexicon no one who has schizophrenia is a good boy and there is rarely a stylistic bullshit depiction of the condition, but I'm still a good boy 😇 society knows this. society knows this.

tw sui ideations + jealousy + a lotta self hate

Why does it hurt why does it hurt why does it hurt Why does it hurt so much when i find out my fp has a partner fuck fuck fuck this is so stupid i literally am dating someone romantically and my relationship with my fp is strictly platonic so why does it hurtso much when i found out xe's dating someone Am i that scared of abandonment fuck this is so stupid fuck i hate this i hate myself im so scared i might lose xyr fuck i made a mistake getting too comfortable fuck xyrd be suspicious if i just started distancing myself from xyr and our friend group but god it hurts so much god i hate relationships so much i wish i could just bury myself alive god god i dont know what to do i really wished i just killed myself i wished one of my two attempts succeeded it hurts So much to be alive knowing this i wish i didnt have bpd i wish i didnt have to deal with this i wished i was alone but i have to stay strong i guess i have to Stay alive just for everyone i love and i fucking hate it i hate being loved please stop loving me it isnt worth it please please let me die alone crying myself to sleep

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bpd culture is feeling like your fp hates you because they’re not talking to you bc they said they are busy with stuff irl (but what if they are lying? making up excuses to not talk to me??)

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bpd culture is crying all the time because you will never be loved the same way you love others. crying because you are constantly being torn apart by the violence of your own love

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BPD culture is easily starting to hate someone i thought i liked only because they raised their voice at me or made a joke that was a little too mean and now i want them dead

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tw vent submission

suspected BPD + self-evaluated AudHD culture is finally getting the courage to cut off your (suspected) FP after repeatedly having your boundaries disregarded and allowing your own mental health to deteriorate for the sake of preserving theirs and STILL having moments of soul-crushing guilt, paranoia, and anxiety despite knowing it was for the best. it's feeling like such a fool and feeling like you should've seen the red flags sooner. it's realizing just how unfair it was that you were held to a more strict standard in the relationship than they were and splitting on them because you feel so betrayed. it's breaking down multiple times because you feel like you're just giving up on them and maybe they'll finally change after you showed them the damage they caused you. it's being so scared and paranoid about even sending in asks to talk about this because what if they see this and retaliate against me for cutting them off and speaking about this publicly even if anonymously? it's being unable to focus because of the overwhelming amount of emotions you're feeling at one time. it's struggling to reach out to those who are supporting you because you don't want to be a bother.

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