I Wonder What Life Feels Like If U Aren't Feeling Terrified 24/7

btw I recently discovered that you can actually SEE reblogs of shadowbanned posts, just not in the notes but in this thing

of course if there's a lot reblogs you can't go and check them all. but if a post has a few notes you can click on the reblogs one-by one and... here!

my reblog :) and if you click on it and the post with my tags will show up!

I think while you still won't get the notification if I reblogged you will still be able to see my tags without going to my blog specifically and that's a little improvement for our communication or a lifehack if some of your other mutuals get shadowbanned :>

What the fuck ever 3zun ParkCiv AU who cares anymore what the fuck else have I got going on

@3cosmicfrogs sadly no, I can't even respond to your comment :( that's why I'm so angry about the shadowban, it cuts almost all the ways for communication...

ok. ok. I'm thinking about the ways I could still communicate with my mutuals if my fate is to be shadowbanned. I think even if I delete this blog and make a new one it will be banned in less than a month to because apparently they may just be banning all people with russian ID...

Maybe I just will reblog things with tags and people who care enough could be just checking my blog sometimes to see if I reblogged their stuff or something? The most problem is that the only way we can communicate now is through the tags; no dms, no asks and no comments are available... I have a Telegram btw. I'll try to get a Discord since I've seen some of you have it but I'm not sure if it's available for people from my country.

I do not want to give up that easily but honestly I don't have many ideas... I really like you all. I want to chat, to discuss things and to communicate! I don't care about popularity, but I do care about preserving my connection with all the cool people I met here (•ˋ _ ˊ•)

help me. I have a feeling that I'm annoying and if I post anything it will annoy my mutuals. not straight up "everybody hates me" just. I know I'm not very likeable and so I'm scared.

I love you tragedy I love you corruption arcs I love you doomed relationships I love you character succumbing to their fatal flaw I love you codependency I love you characters doomed to die from the start I love you road to hell paved with good intentions

Nie Huaisang's adoring post

how do I be interested in people without being obsessive. like I want you to tell me your thoughts why you like this ship why you draw this character like this what are your opinions on that fan fiction or on this headcanon. but if I just go to ppl and ask them directly I will look weird af.