Thinking About How Guilty And Ashamed Zane Feels Because Someone Took Advantage Of His Nindroid Nature

This is where I got my profile pic it was so beautful

Detective AU that me n my brother (@h-llow-d) have been working on hehe. It follows Zane n his assistant Pixal in solving a murder mystery at the Gordon estate.

Each character shown appears as the following role:

Zane- Detective

Pix- Assistant

Kai- Mafia

Jay- Host/Actor

Cole- Musician

(Jay n Cole r also drawn by @h-llow-d !!)

Spinny Zane

Bitches will look at Zane and think damn i could spin him

So Pretty!!💜💜💜

Outfit Design

What are you guys thoughs on these colors for her?

Outfit one is my favorite just because it's just so comfy looking and the digital lines. Outfit two looks like to me more like something that would existed in ninjago. The last one doesn't really work on a lego body. Not the way I've done it here anyway. I originally made these designs in a non-lego style. Her crop top just doesn't show the same layered look on a Lego body.

Thanks For The Tag @pixanefan!

Were You Named After Anyone? Nope

When Was The Last Time You Cried? When I saw my Friends for the first time in a long time and just the thought of missing them wanted me cry!! Because before, I was on a school trip overseas and we stayed there for 10 days, I was missing my friends and family so much. Just that day which was the 9th day we were all reflecting on our whole adventure before flying back and thinking home got us to tears and there were hugs and tears shared around!! I will always remember that moment!!

Do You Have Kids? No

Do You Use Sarcasm a Lot? Yes!! Nearly all the time when I get annoyed and upset!!!

What Sports Do You Play? Not a lot but Cricket, Volleyball, Badminton, Footy, Baseball and Table Tennis!

What is The First Thing You Notice About People? Well, Their Appearance, Voice and Style!!

What is Your Eye Colour? Brown or Black (Depends on where I am)

Scary Movies or Happy Endings? Happy Endings I Guess? I am actually not a fan of both of them, I rather plot twists, cliffhangers and Happily Never Afters!

Any Special Talents? Well... I can make quotes that have huge meanings, For Example "Never Rush! Just Go With The Flow" and people call me an inspiration!!

When Were You Born? Can't Say, Mate!! Info Not Found!!

What Are Your Hobbies? Writing (Calms My Nerves), Thinking of New Stories, Appercitiating Pixane when I am distressed, Painting, Drawing, Reading, Sewing, and Learning more about Space and The Galaxy!! Listening to Music!!

Do You Have Pets? Oh Yes, A cute lil doggie!!

How Tall Are You? No Clue, I forget to check my height all the time, although I feel so short!!!

Favourite Subject at School! Food Tech or Art and Visual Design

Dream Job? Travelling around My Country as a Teacher and Educating others who need it!!

15 questions, 15 mutuals

tagged by @hxilstorm my love :)))

1. are you named after anyone? No, fun fact my parents still hadn't chosen a name for me when we left the hospital! They chose my name pretty randomly from a baby book I think. My middle name's from some great aunt on my mum's side but I never knew her

2. when was the last time you cried? umm two weeks ago when i realised I was gonna have to submit my final essay a day late

3. do you have kids? um NO at this age??? Maybe down the track but yk, depends on the partner/circumstances/general state of the world I guess

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? yeah I probably do, I don't really notice though

5. what sports do you play/have you played? I've been playing soccer nearly 10 years now and it's one of my favourite things, I also did gymnastics, AFL and swimming when I was a kid.

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people? their voice and the way they talk

7. what’s your eye colour? blue baby

8. scary movies or happy endings? I don't dislike scary movies it's just that I don't really get it? so I guess I'll say happy endings

9. any special talents? define special- I can juggle, I'm ok at devils sticks. OH and I'm pretty good at using and fixing printers!!

10. where were you born? a while outside Melbourne, abt half an hour from where I live now

11. what are your hobbies? I play the piano! I also like to embroider, make friendship bracelets, and I'm learning to sew

12. do you have pets? yes yes yes! I have 2 dogs, a cat and 2 horses. I'm so excited atm bc this holidays we're hopefully going to start building a chicken shed and I can finally have chickens again after 5 years!!

13. how tall are you? around 5'7? I don't actually know exactly

14. favourite subject in school? tbh i didn't really have one- literature, maths and french are probably tied but they it depends on the teacher

15. dream job? dream job is no job, I would very much like to just sit around and make things all day. Is that an option? I wanted to be an artist when i was a kid. More realistically though, I'd like to teach or do some kind of support work in schools

u don't have to if u don't want to but I'm passing it on to @glitchydyke @startingfires, @megadan94, @thelonelyrainbowdude, @thedumpsterwizard @learnyourlessonswell, @bedrock-sedodn @violet-prism-creatively @omg-a-shark @boobie-fucker, @sentimental-lil-thing, @skyward-nerd, @emilreloaded, @punkocelot @my-dude-james, @dinsicle

OMG OMG YES YES YES THANK YOU!!!!!!!!! I NEEDED THIS FOR THE SPINJIZU MASTER'S SAKE!!!!!!!!

WE WON PIXANE AND PIXAL FANS!!!

Awww a pixane kissy

(asdfghklldks your art is such an inspiration to me!!!! i love what you do so much <3333) for the kiss meme. . . pixane and #12 or #1? I can't decide-- do whichever one you feel like doing in the moment!!!!

(thank you!!!!!! i'm so glad i can provide inspiration🥺🥺🥺💕)

i did the good morning kiss:)

[kiss meme]

E-girl found.

Time and again, Pixal is placed in a position of watching Zane suffer/die, and trying to save him, even as early as season 3. Their first real bonding moment happens while she's repairing him. And not long after that, she rescues him from being dropped into a metal shredder. Then in season 4 she helps him get his memory back, and in season 6 she defends him from the Mechanic trying to scrap him for spare parts. And that's all before she became Samurai X - a role she only took on because Zane had been shut down and was out of commission.

Since becoming Samurai X, she's had to deal with the aftermath of Zane being presumed dead aboard the destroyed Bounty, his banishment at the hands of Aspheera, and then later the Mechanic abducting him and electrocuting him to near-death.

The long and short of it is, Zane has been through a lot, and whenever something bad happens, Pixal gets front-row tickets to watch it all unfold.

Naturally, this has left an impact on her emotional state. And I think the nightmare she experienced in season 11 (shortly after Zane was banished to the Never Realm) showcases this best:

The nightmare depicts Zane holding onto Pixal for dear life, desperation and fear on his face as she's the only thing keeping him from falling into the white abyss below. But then, something causes Zane to slip from her grasp, and he falls beyond her reach, with her flailing helplessly, unable to save him.

Again and again Pixal has watched him die. Again and again she has lost him. In her mind, no matter what she does, no matter how hard she tries to protect him or how tightly she holds on, something will happen that will tear Zane away from her again, and she will be powerless to stop it.

It's not unreasonable to assume that Pixal considers Zane's safety her own personal responsibility, and blames herself whenever something happens to him. Note in particular the way Zane is characterized in her dream - desperate, afraid, with her as the only thing keeping him from falling into the abyss. And when she fails to hold onto him, she is - quite literally - letting him down.

Now that on its own is enough material to keep my poor Pixal Stan heart beating for months. But there are a few more details I think are worth mentioning.

First - the abyss dream!Zane falls into seems vaguely reminiscent of the ice torrent he falls into at the end of season 3. Here's a side-by-side comparison for reference:

I know it's a bit of a stretch, but you gotta admit the similarities are at least a little bit uncanny. If we're following this train of thought, then this may suggest that Pixal not only feels responsible for her inability to save Zane from Aspheera, but also blames herself for Zane's death in his battle against the Overlord. Or at the very least, she's noticed enough similarities between both instances of losing Zane that her mind is subconsciously projecting them.

Either way, it's safe to say Pixal is almost definitely traumatized from past experiences of watching Zane die. I mean, let's not forget that Zane's fight against the Overlord was, as far as we know, her first real experience with death, and Zane didn't exactly die peacefully.

Another thing to note is that the version of Aspheera in her dreams wasn't trapped in ice, but rather standing freely and unharmed. On the left is how she appeared in Pixal's dream, and on the right is what her actual condition was when she banished Zane.

It could just be an inconsequential dream thing, but idk since we're overanalyzing things here I want to make the comment that it almost erases Zane's conflict with her - how Zane had fought her (and her entire army) and won, and was only banished due to her breaking her arm out of the ice when he had his back turned. But in Pixal's dream, that context is removed, with only Aspheera standing there as powerful as can be, blasting Zane seemingly without prompt.

The reason why this is noteable is that the abyss scene and that singular shot of Aspheera are the only two moments in her dream that aren't exact recordings of the events that transpired. Everything else in her dream is just an exact, near-flawless memory of what happened - except for the abyss scene and the moment when Aspheera blasts Zane. For some reason, Pixal's dream ignored all of Zane's involvement in that fight, and disregarded the fact that Zane had already defeated her.

There are two possible meanings of this:

She views Aspheera as an intimidating individual, and the version of Aspheera in her memory reflects Pixal's feelings about her. She views Aspheera as a strong, formidable, and terrifying opponent. A bogeyman of sorts. Aspheera is Pixal's bogeyman

Pixal is subconsciously victimizing Zane. And yes, he is a victim in this situation - but just moments before his banishment he had successfully incapacitated not just Aspheera but all of her soldiers as well. Her dream not only largely neglects to acknowledge his involvement in the fight itself, but his contributions to Aspheera's defeat - effectively cementing Zane's victim status further into Pixal's mind

With all this in mind, I think it's not unreasonable to say that Pixal, on some unconscious level, views Zane as a victim whose safety she is responsible for. I don't think she has this viewpoint intentionally, and I think Pixal is aware of Zane's competence and respects his merits as a teammate, a hero, and a partner. I'm not making the case that Pixal thinks so little of Zane that he can't stand up for himself.

But I do think that, after years of watching Zane suffer and having to look after him, her experiences have begun to affect her view on not just Zane, but herself as well - with her subconscious hinting to her in subtle ways that Zane is someone she needs to protect, and that his protection is her responsibility.

In a way, I think Pixal views her responsibility for Zane's wellbeing in a similar way that Kai views his responsibility for Nya and Lloyd - you know they're skilled fighters in their own right, and that they can look after themselves, but you will still blame yourself first and foremost if any harm comes to them because you feel like it's your job to protect them.

Anyway, the long and short of it is that Pixal has a savior complex targeted primarily at Zane, deriving from years of trauma involving his repeated deaths and her repeated inability to save him, and in this essay I will -

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