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Today is a battlefield, and I am the only soldier. Anxiety, self-doubt, intrusive memories- they all showed up, dragging their sharp edges through my mind.

The magical thinking whispered lies about escape, about fixing everything if I could just be someone else. I’ve been fighting them all day, and now I’m too drained to even think about self-care. Survival may be the only thing I can manage today

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I’m not sure if it supposed to be funny but I laughed out loud reading texts 😂

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1 month ago

by the way, quietly bottling your discomfort with someone and just hoping they'll "get the hint" until you can't take it anymore and then taking it to the nearest moderator isn't "setting a boundary" or "being victimized," it's actually called "being a huge piece of shit" and "expecting people to read your mind."

Sorry about your conflict aversion, but you actually need to tell people when they're making you uncomfortable. like, with explicit, clear, unmistakeable words that don't give you a safe cover of plausible deniability with which you can back out and "still be the good guy." It is kinder to let someone down face-to-face so they can hurt and move on knowing what went wrong than it is to lead someone on and then stab them in the fucking back, you know?

Also, I cannot stress this enough, it is not actually someone else's fault for making you uncomfortable when you literally make a point to lie to them about how much you like them by pretending you're enjoying their company more than you are. That's your fault. That's called making a bed to lie in. Maybe just desperately hoping someone who has already misinterpreted how close they are to you will just happen to pick up on the subtle signs of you desperately hiding your discomfort is, frankly, fucking stupid, and you need to get over yourself and say real words to them instead of getting some third party to punish them for your own inability to communicate.

Sorry this one isn't as nice as my other posts, but some of you need a wake-up slap. Stop fucking burning autistic people and trans women one-by-one because being a coward is easier than being a villain. It's not fucking nice, it's not cute, and the more I see it happen, the less forgivable it gets. Grow the fuck up and change in the scary but necessary ways.

Because it's kinder to tell someone when they're fucking up than it is to let them make the same mistakes in ignorance until you've secretly tallied enough transgressions to safely write them off as unforgivable, and thus disposable. Because I care about you, and everyone else, enough to give you a real chance to actually correct your harmful behaviors by being honest to you about the harm they cause. Because I believe people can make hurtful mistakes while still being genuine unintended mistakes, and that they can change.

Hint, hint.

3 months ago

“ Look Around You and Try to Live Somehow “

- ORV -

I am still trying to fully understand it’s meaning…


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1 month ago

Thank you Sogeking 👍🥹

Positivity Post 😁😁!!!!
Positivity Post 😁😁!!!!
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1 month ago

Did Sung Hyeonje ever fail?

Most people wouldn’t even think to ask such a question. He seemed like someone who had never even scraped his knee, as if he had succeeded in walking on his first try without ever falling. He must have effortlessly maintained first place throughout his school years, naturally taking the position of student council president. He probably entered university as the top student, graduated with honors, and, rather than working under someone else, built his own business—becoming one of the top 100 wealthiest individuals at a young age.  

A person whose brilliant golden path naturally shines before your eyes.

But the real Sung Hyeonje. He was someone who had experienced more failures than anyone else in this world.  

He failed, and failed, and failed again, stacking up failures like an impossibly high mountain until he finally reached its peak.  

Before my regression, I must have admired and envied Sung Hyeonje. Even after turning back time, I still thought the same. I believed he was perfect. I secretly harbored the expectation that, if he helped me, everything I had to do would become much easier.  

But now, I know about his failures. I know how long he had wandered. The perfection I once looked up to had cracked and faded, yet—  

That imperfect Sung Hyeonje felt far more amazing and wonderful. I couldn’t help but be impressed. 

The path that exhausted me after just walking it once—he had endured it for an unimaginable amount of time.  

He never gave up. He came all the way here, right before my eyes. And in the end, he surpassed it.  

- MSCH side story chapter 83

2 months ago

Please send help….😢

just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen just because i think something doesn't mean it will happen


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1 month ago

Fell in love with the storyline

Got Plopped In A Ghost Story, You Still Gotta Work: A Visual Primer For English Speakers
The premise:
Kim Soleum is a wiki contributor for a Creepypasta wiki/SCP Foundation wiki pastiche. While visiting a pop-up shop, he's sucked into the universe of this horror wiki to be recruited by the evil corporation faction. The problem? He is a born and bred coward, and the only way home is buying a wish ticket with his company credits. Which means participating in high-fatality horror stories. 
The solution? Speedrunning the horror stories before anything super scary happens.

In summary: SCP Isekai. Ghost Story Work is a serial horror where creepypastas are treated as escape rooms with increasingly dangerous stakes, and the main character has to carefully design a persona his coworkers will allow to do insane suicidal gambits he learned from the wiki.
SETTING:
Daydream Co. Ltd.
A pharmaceutical company that uses Monsters Inc-esque collectors that process the horror story as a base for their potions. Exploration squads are expected to die for this material, baited by having a wish fulfilled. Uses their animal masks for codenames. 

Disaster Management Bureau
The analogue to the SCP foundation. A government agency tasked with containing and eliminating the paranormal. There is no trolley problem; obviously you must kill one to save five. Uses noun codenames.

Church of the Luminous Unknown
A mysterious cult that absorbs the paranormal into themselves in order to reach true enlightenment.
CHARACTERS:
Kim Soleum: Alias Roe Deer, though he has a weird wood mask. Main character. Coward, meek salaryman, and gifted actor who's greatest skill is thinking under stress. Not really cognizant of his extremely heroic qualities because his foreknowledge makes things easier.  Sleek and relatively good-looking.

Go Yeongeun: Alias Goral. A gentle, calm, and focused woman who dropped out of med school. First to meet Kim Soleum, but ended up in a different squad.

Baek Saheon: Alias Goat. Comes off as easygoing and naive, but is actually ruthless and vicious, preying on other's weaknesses. Because he's so scary, Kim Soleum has decided to act like a sociopath to scare him off. It's working a little too well.
Lee Jaheon: Alias Lizard. A lizard. Manager for D-squad. Everyone but Kim Soleum sees a sleek and handsome face; it's unclear why he is a lizard. The ideal boss. Resolves ghost stories by beating the shit out of them. 

Eun Haje: Alias Falcon. Assistant Manager of D-squad. Jaded but friendly, Kim Soleum's first coworker. Tries to make things easy on the new recruit.

Park Minseong: Alias Badger. Supervisor of D-squad. Beefy, good-natured, and lackadaisical about how fast the company will kill you.

Braun: An eldritch abomination that runs a talk show where if you get it wrong, you die! Later gets summoned into a keychained-sized ghost doll and is a delighted audience to Kim Soleum's stunts.
Jin Nasol: Alias Butterfly. A member of the elite A-squad. Cutthroat and quick to kill, but prioritizes efficiency.

Jang Heo-un: Alias Boar. Squeamishness with gore led him to be treated as disposable by the company.

Ryu Jaekwan: Alias Bronze. An officer of the Disaster Management Bureau. Serious, by-the-books, and working for the good of all. Easily moved by acts of kindness.

J3: Security team of one. None of his business.

Executive Cheong Dallae
Executive Ho Yuwon

Got Plopped In a Ghost Story, You Still Gotta Work: A visual primer for English speakers

This took me a week. I did this for ORV like 4 years ago so it felt like my moral obligation to make one again.

Some notes on character designs and images without text:

Gorals and domestic goats look very different, but in Manor of the Blind attention is put into how these two are similar and contrasting, the truly noble Go Yeongeun with the white goat and the sinister Baek Saheon with the black goat. I also picked a literal goral instead of a mountain goat (which are naturally white) because gorals look more like roe deers than goats, making the 3 of them more closely linked.

Because this is a horror novel and unnatural features aren't mentioned, I tried to keep this as grounded as possible. Sorry to the three WHABs I eliminated in cold blood ⭐

Another hardliner of of grounded designs is Jin Nasol, who gets the most ostentatious anime character treatment besides Jay in fanart. She is coldly utilitarian and prizes efficiency over all else, there is no way that woman has bangs

I am not giving Park Minseong brown hair. There is nothing wrong with a good warm black

Lee Jaheon is often depicted as an adorable little newt in fanart, but a huge part of why he is so hysterical is that he is scary, so I picked more intimidating lizard traits so he functions in both dramatic heroic scenes and eating granola bars with the wrappers still on. He gets to keep the newt mask though

I gave Braun white gloves at first but I saw a Braun cosplayer and a demon possessed me. I have no idea what colour is canon. who doesnt love black leather

Making Jang Heo-un the "sharp eyes meek personality" trope made my brain light up so good. I was trying to contrast with the relaxed eyes of the easygoing Park Minseong to make them more obviously different but this feels cosmically correct

Got Plopped In A Ghost Story, You Still Gotta Work: A Visual Primer For English Speakers
Got Plopped In A Ghost Story, You Still Gotta Work: A Visual Primer For English Speakers
Got Plopped In A Ghost Story, You Still Gotta Work: A Visual Primer For English Speakers

You can use these pics in whatever. ⬆️

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