RELIEF, Night.

[ Spacegy ]

congrats to et al. for their very quantitatively impressive contribution to every scientific fields

not now kitten daddy is too busy contemplating the minutia of death cult office politics to kiss

whoever invented beds was a fucking genius im just all cozied up in here like u don't even know how cozy i am

pubbys

i'm like a stray dog in a lot of ways but i will not elaborate on that

@streetsofwhiterun

WHOA!!!!! i love my friends' ocs

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

looking at indeed dot com at 3:30am will have you trying not to cry & throw up simultaneously