List Of Things I’m Currently Handling Well:

i wonder what it's like to be emotionally stable. anyways [thinks about fictional characters to survive] i am fine

i am a firm believer that ocs are a reflection of the self in the way that every character you create has to hold some piece of you to really feel alive. sometimes this is why all your ocs have certain traits, sometimes this is why you can track your various issues and traumas all the way from middleschool to now based on what your ocs are like. this is a feature not a bug

Little things I personally love to see in Durgetash ships (this is really just what I enjoy, not what I think needs to be there for it to be valid or anything)

Fearsexual Gortash. He’s gotta be a little worried for his life and horny about it. But also…

Conquestsexual Gortash. The idea of owning the thing he is afraid of? Very sexy to him. Definitely not indicative of…

Absolutely out of control parental issues. Leaning in heavy on his experiments with people on how far they would go for their children.

Durge having full blown religious crises over holding somebody’s hand with tenderness.

Fully taking the “I consent! But I don’t!” Meme energy into Bhaal being a constant present threat to their relationship.

Both of them having a truly monstrous streak. Even if they might be soft for each other, it never stops them being a nightmare for everybody else around them.

Both of them having complimentary but different genius, whatever that looks like. The surgeon and the engineer. The politician and the empathetic killer. The mechanic and the butcher. Whatever it is, they revel in sharing space as equally smart people.

Gortash having actual injuries from Durge. Maybe he actually needs that cane…

Durge having a really tender spot somewhere for Gortash that manifests in strange ways. What strange means can vary but I delight in a huge Dragonborn bringing him breakfast pastries as much as I delight in a cute Halfling leaving him body parts of patriars like a cat with a dead bird.

this too shall pass but like… when

LMAOOO i tried to post the car fight from deadpool 3 on youtube with casual playing in the background and it immediately got copyrighted. marvel your homophobic side is showing /j

anyways here is is cause i'm not a pussy

congrats to et al. for their very quantitatively impressive contribution to every scientific fields

"I'm too sober for this," I say before taking a huge chug from a wine glass full of chocolate milk

"I drift in space, no oxygen // I suffocate again // Slow motion now, can't feel the ground // So wish me well, my friend

I disconnect reality // Like static on a TV screen // Feels just like a fever dream // When nothing's what it seems to be

Ask God to save me // But she won't take me, no

I'm in between the sky and sea // I'm floating in oblivion // I'm in between entrapped and free // I'm floating in oblivion

I'm in the middle of the best and worst of me // Hurts to breathe, can't believe I'm so lost // All I want is someone to find me // Bring me back from oblivion"

- Oblivion by Palaye Royale