Excluding Many, I Have Two Moods

Not really a situation- but pred and prey dynamic

I absolutely love a scared anxious pred paired with a fearless and stern but kind prey.

The pred can barely order their own food at a restaurant, and the prey would absolutely fistfight anyone who dare make their pred sad.

Just- the drastic role shift from what is considered normal is wonderful.

🎃👍

9/10

I love that, very adorable

Non vore post but alas (G/T stuff)

One thing that I find pretty cute is the tinies using oversized stuff. Having to walk along the keyboard and jump onto the key in order for it to even register. Just adorbs.

Thinking about healing stomachs, and the idea of injured prey being like crack for preds with those stomachs.

Imagine a pred who’s normally just a sweetheart, always trying to help people and is just an all around good guy, but there happens to be a prey with some type of injury like a broken arm or something around them, and this pred just can’t help sneaking glances at them, licking their lips, and thinking about eating them, though they try to hold themselves back to not scare the prey or cause any issues.

Eventually the pred can’t take it anymore and ends up eating the prey after getting them both alone.

It’s jarring to both the prey and predator, the prey being shocked at being suddenly eaten of course. While the pred is shocked that they would even do this, especially because of how much they’ve pushed themselves to avoid it.

Despite the prey not being in danger, the pred desperately wants to get the them out because they know they’re scaring this person, yet they just can’t. No matter how much they try, how much they want to, they just can’t bring themselves to release their new meal.

They’re broken. They need to be fixed. So the pred will keep them until they’re fixed.

The pred hates that they’re doing this, keeping someone against their will like this, but they’re technically doing something good for them, right? Their arm will be fixed! They don’t need to let them out, in fact, they shouldn’t. They can be let out when they’re healthy. Just ignore them for now…

I’m turning 19 soon

This is not a cause for celebration, this is a warning.

So..what hapened ?(In regards to the ''drama'')

Hey Pine here. So im sure the SFW vore community has been made aware of ''drama'' that was caused by me and another user nammed Static.I want to ask for the community to at least spread this post around and not label it drama.PLEASE DONT SWEEP THIS UNDER THE RUG AND READ THE CONTENTS OF THIS POST! THIS POST WILL INCLUDE /MENTION THE FOLLOWING: Mentions of the genocide in palestine, antisemitism, national socialism (aka nazism), false alligations, harrasment, threats of doxing, potential ACTUAL doxing, manipulation , mentions of self harm (including suicide),a bit of misgendering among a few others. Again as triggering as these topics may be I heavily encourage you to the read the full contents of this post . And if you have alluded to this situation to no longer label it as drama or ''2 minors arguing over the internet''. Thank you. This post is HEAVY in terms of content and length.So be prepared for that as well.

Edit as of 4:13PM of june 2nd.I forgot to add the misgendering bit.

So who are the players? This whole thing sorrounds 3 main people ; me (pine) , Static (Aka staticmoonshock) and Zet (OpikArts). I need to clarify as of Febuary 18th im 16 years old. Static to my knowladge has also been 16 for a while same goes for Opik/Zet. So everyone here is either 16 or near 17. Another clarification needed is that Static has supposedly left their tumblr account and HAS deleted their side blog oyasumioyasumicloseyoureyes. Even if they arent active targated harrassment is NOT ENDORCED,ENCOUREGED AND IF I SEE ANY HARRASSMENT YOU ARE DIRT TO ME AND ARE NOT HELPING AT ALL. Static is someone who was frequent in the SFW vore community and were best known for sending people asks usually accompanied with their OC's and wanting people to engage with them.They would usually find someone and then proceed to almost spam that person with asks (in an rp fashion sometimes) Zet or OpikArts is someone id say is a very well known figure in the SFW vore community that I dont believe needs much introduction. And them me aka 1#dumbass. Now onto the rest: In early march Static and I had our first interaction via this ask - https://www.tumblr.com/pineappleparfaitie/744426151470071808/i-give-you-the-smol-prey-he-is-very-squish-and?source=share I had problems with them from the start that being the overcrowding of my blog with their asks and it cluttured my blog. However i should have told Static this directly which was my first mistake. I then added this type of behaviour as not accaptable on my BYI. I need you to know this was MARCH 9TH the date will play a role later. on march 11th I followed them back and we started chatting

Static here told me to tell them if they were overwhelming. And it was a mistake on my end for not saying it sooner.

So Static has known me for more then 2 months. I need people to be aware of that. We had friendly convos on and off and they ;after a period of time- gave me some not so pleasent thoughts. What I mean is Static had behaviours comparable to my abuser. My abuser would vent with no warning, would not put triggers, would talk about his personal life and tell me triggering things and would also mention harming himself. (in 1 instance he sent elf harm scars he inflected on himself so i could send them to his ex partner in an attempt of guilt tripping them). I am all for mental health awearness, and venting but NEVR vent to someone without any warning because you have no idea wtf they are going threw. I was a child therapist at 11 years old to a 15 year old dude and was till he was halfway threw being 20. I know this is HEAVILY personal from my end but I need people to be aware of this notion to better understand WHY i didint like talking to this person and WHY I should have cut them off when I initally started talking to them, After them yet again telling me personal details i asked them this (i have censored their messege as it had personal details regarding their life and i do not want people weaponising this against them or revealing private stuff regarding their life.)

NOTE!EVEN HERE I TELL STATIC WE ARE MOOTS!I KNOW I SOUND MEAN BUT BEING MY FRIEND IS A LOT MORE PERSONAL THEN BEING A MOOT!STATIC WOULD STATE LATER I WAS THEIR FRIEND SO I BELIEVE WE HAD MISCUMUNICATIONS FROM THE START!THIS IS A FAULT ON MY END WITH NOT CLEARLY COMMUNICATING  M Y   FEELINGS AND NOT TELLING THEM THINGS MORE BLUNTLY. In ALL HONESTLY i should have been upfront with them and immidietly told them what made me uncomftrable but I wanted to be nice because its rude to just tell someone who likes your work ''can you not?'' Static would maybe onc or twice after this forget about me telling them this but it was alright for the most part. Now then. on May 14th i sent Static this messege (this is where the subject of the Genocide in Palestine starts)

For context:I had a back and fort with someone who i talked about Hazbin Hotel with and how i simply dont like the creator due the fact she has the otpion to boycott but doesnt. And I still stand by the fact if you CAN and are PRIVALEGED enough to boycott you should . Thats not the point of this however it was just context. Static (from what i believe) saw this and on their side blog said how they wished so much pressure wasnt put on my minors to boycott. As well as the main problem regarding everything that being how much antisemitism they were seeing. THIS is where my BIGGEST issue lied with Static. I am ALL for critisizing people who associate jews with israelis and then use that as an excuse to be antisemetic. THAT IS NOT ''OKAY'' THAT IS BLATANT ANTISEMITISM AND YOU ARE DOING HARM TO INNOCENT PEOPLE WHO PROBABLY DONT EVEN AGREE WITH THE THINGS HAPPENING.But Static THEMSELVES for this whole time had the notion that Israel= jews/judism and that if you hated Israel you hated its citizens therefor you hated Jews. I cannot show certain screenshots as they are PERSONAL to Static and I am not going to mention THAT. The reason MOBIZEN is visible is because later down the line Zet suggested I recorded mine and Statics whole Tumblr chat (may 29th) and I cant remove the audio to the recordings so I cannot link the videos due to my voice being on those recordgins, my fathers voice and my own cries and sobs as I was suffering a full on meltdown.WE WILL GET INTO THAT.HOWEVER AS PROOF OF THE VIDEOS EXISTENCE :

Static and I had back forths on this topic . I WANT TO RE-ITTARATE STATIC DIDINT EVEN KNOW WHAT ZIONIST MEANT AT THIS POINT AND WAS IN MY OPINION UNEDUCATED ON THE TOPIC OF THE GENOCIDE HAPPENING.

Isreal is a JEWISH state but not every Israeli is JEWISH. Isreal has hurt and killed their own citizens, has killed and hurt Palestinian Rabbis because they dont care about Jewish people they care about using it as a weapon and shield for the autrocities they commit.I WANT TO EXPLAIN THIS BECAUSE STATIC IS CLEARLY UNDER THE NOTION THAT ISREAL IS ALL JEWS ! I do not think they found good sources for this topic. Static had a period of educating themselves, we agreed more then ONCE to not mention this topic (i became more distant as this really made me upset – look up Srebrenica Massicare it relates to my country )

Static didint know what the word ''state'' meant and made assumptions on my words and their own personal definition. I WANT TO RE-ITTARATE I WAS NO ANGEL DURING THIS AND WHEN THIS TOPIC CAME AROUND I WAS VERY QUICK TO BE AGRESSIVE AND NOT TOLORATE THEIR VIEWS. I WAS A TOTAL DICKWAD AND STATIC HAD EVERY RIGHT TO BE MAD ATME FOR IT!! I DO NOT TOLORATE ANY ZIONIST VIEWS OR ANYTHING IN SUPPORT OF ISREALS EXISTANCE!I DO NOT THINK STATIC THEMSELVES IS A ZIONIST NOR WILL I CALL THEM THAT I THINK THEY NEED TO BE EDUCATED AND PROPERLY SO!BUT THEY HAVE SHOWN VIEWS RELATING TO ZIONISM AND I WANT TO MAKE THAT EVIDENT! This all went on during may , Statics general behaviour put me off and their overwhelmingness made it worse for me. THIS WAS MY FAULT I SHOULD HAVE CUT THEM OFF IN MARCH AND NOT LET THIS SHIT FESTER!I NEED TO SAY THIS BECAUSE I WANT TO BE BLUNT! H a d  I not let this fester for as long as it did I would have not been in this situation, neither would have Zet. And their views on Israel and Palestine didint help a bit. Static isnt jewish, they are an atheist and are in a church , however they have Jewish herritage. Wil al this here is the prolouge to the main event of this shitshow: This will be shown in full Static said they were going threw a episode during the writing of this, and I will not fault them for having one. However I couldnt handle being around someone who clearly wasnt mentally well and was making ME mentally WORSE. (fyi we were talking abt smth completely unrelated to this when Static sent this)

(this is what the japanese text translates to:)

I WANT ALL OF THIS in full to be here so people know why I wanted to cut ties with Static.The following is what had us cut ties.

After this Static proceeded to block me.Quick clerification: The reason i asked Static about the Japanese thing is because I wanted to see how premeditated that episode could have been.Because if they wrote that only to put it into google translate that would have needed more effort then to simply write that text in dm's. However I do think Static GENUINELY had a episode here- what kind I cannot say. (deppresive or something else. Static vauge posted about me in a vent

It was back and forth of me and them vaugeposting about eachother. On this blog you can find EVERY ONE OF MY REAL TIME RESPONSES TO THIS https://www.tumblr.com/thessituation I have made edits to the post to provide further context. I will not be summarasing them up excpt 1 important post that caused this mess to get worse.The rest I trust you – the reader to go look threw them, I rebloged them chronologically so start from the last post and work up to the latest. The post I want to talk about is this one: https://www.tumblr.com/pineappleparfaitie/751836863121293313/normally-i-dont-justify-nazis-with-a-response-but at the end of the post i explain stuff but to elaborate: I put sfw vore community tags on this post because it was clear evidence of Static wishing me harm and saying the vilest of the stuff they said during this situation. However this caused others in the community to call this post drama and also put sfw vore tags and it caused a domino effect. This made people especially more well known creators with larger followings to want to sweep this under the rug, people didint want to interact with this ''drama'' , one user even called this an argument between 2 minors .I was going threw what I now believe to be a SERIES of MULTIPLE panic attacks and since ive never been threw ONE of those . For the majority of may 29th i was going threw hell. And I was on a school trip for the 30th and 31st.

Now here is who Zet/opikarts is in all this. Zet is a polish dude who has a deep rooted hatred for nazis (as most normal people do but him especially) Zet came into play because him and Static were in contact for a simmilar time me and Static were in contact. They first started talking on the 7th of March.During this period the 2 became friends. I was aware of this as Static mentioned it to me beforehand while we were on good terms. Upon me wanting to cut ties and them blocking me- Static told Zet I was an aspiring neo nazi, that i was manipulative , that I hated jews, that I was aantisemetic ect ect ect. They had simmilar behaviours towards Opic as they did to me and they talked about wanting to harm themselves and vented to him about me and all this. They never showed proof for any of this mind you and had Zet blindly believe them and encorouged them to not talk to me about it- effectively making it so he would not only believe them but never question anything. Static also said it would make them feel better if he blocked me, he only unfollowed me and made me unfollow him. Zet liked every single one of Statics posts that they made in response to this situationa as HE believed he was helping a friend fight of a neo-nazi/nazi , this included the post that wished death upon me (he didint read it threw all the way or properly the first time and he didint agree with what Static said after the fact. I blocked Zet in a fit of panic and anger and then a moot and a friend od mine – Koko aka Koko puffs love informed me that Zet wanted to talk with me to clear stuff up. IN THIS TIME PERIOD STATIC CLAIMED THEIR FRIEND SAM COULD DOX ME!THAT HE HAD STOLEN 2 FIGTHER JETS AND HE COULD SEE MY IP  (which couldnt tell u as much as u think it can) AND TRIED LINKING IT TO AN ANON ASKS GIVING THEM A BOMB THREAT!I DID NOT AND STATIC HAS NOT PROVIDED ANY PROPER SUBSANTIAL EVIDENCE! https://www.tumblr.com/staticmoonshock/751839511503339520/aight-hoes-i-know-some-of-yall-will-take-this-and?source=share this is not evidence i requested video proof of Sam showing the code and i have recieved nothing.

Edit for 4:13PM june 2nd:

Static also reffered to me with fem terms like miss,mrs,ms and girlie ,later saying those terms arent gendered in their eyes.However later they told Zet that they thought i had she/her in my bio always.They sent me multiple asks meaning they HAD to have seen my they/them in my bio and I dont think Zet was aware of how long we talked when they told him this. They were either lying and PURPOSEFULLY misgendering me to further dehumanise me ,mock me ect or they literally never read my bio or my BYI EVER .Neither is really cool. KOKO SUPPORTED ME DURING THIS TIME!THEY DIDINT LIKE PEOPLE CALLING THIS DRAMA!IT ACTIVELY SHOWED ME SUPPORT IN THAT AWFUL TIME!THEY DIDINT WANT PEOPLE CALLING THIS SHIT DRAMA! And me and Zet talked. The reason in the screenshots you see mobizen is because Zet suggested recording mine and Statics chat as Static deleted theirs. Everything. FROM M A Y   9 T  H . I did this along with providing numerous screenshots and after the  fact. And then Zet saw Static lied to him ,overexagarated shit ect ect. And now we are on very good terms. The reason I make this post is because people either swept this under the rug ,encorouged it to be done and spread the info this was an argument. It was in fact someone who clearly isnt in the best headspace actively harrasing someone who wanted to cut ties with them, lying about said person (me) to their friend (Zet) and then after all this. Static deleted most of the posts regarding this situation. (i mention this in the post that started the whole ''this is only drama'' mess.)

I sincerely hope this is spread around the community and that this being a drama is no longer the thought behind this situation. People got hurt for no reason because someone couldnt take people not wanting to be their friend. Upon my post ''Regarding recent events'' Static made a now deleted post saying that they forgave me when they probably shouldnt and they would let me talk with them about the genocide (fyi they rebloged posts and shit saying how this wasnt agenocide) and I did not get 1 apology. I have made multiple to Static, multiple. I have not recieved  1 single ''sorry'' about the death wish, the dox threats, the insults, the nazi labeling I hav recieved NOTHING. This is the text i sent to Static on May 30th after that post was made

I put all this fourth so people can understand WHY I acted the way I DID, WHY this thing happened AND WHY it was handled so poorly on my end. I was in a state of panic I could not describe to you, a large creator with a following twice your size seemingly supporting the idea youre a nazi and that you deserve to be hit by a train, someone you just wanted to cut off threataning to DOX you and your poor decision to tag a post with community tags to spread awareness causing others to do the same except labeling it as ''DRAMA'' – making the whole community leave you on your own. Yeah May 29th was WORSE then the WORST EXPIRENCES I HAVE  E V E R  had with my ABUSER. Zet and I are thankfully on good terms now and I dont blame him for being manipulated it wasnt his fault. And I – well angry  and upset with how the community handled this- I cant blame it for not wanting to get involved what was painted as ''drama between 2 kids''. Please go show your support to Zet as well as he also felt like crap during this time.Being manipulated feels awful and isnt fun in the fucking slightest and its just a shitshow frankly. To Staticmoonshock I hope you are well, I hope you get the help you need.I dont wish you harm, of any kind. Just please get the help you need before you return to a community space. But please, never contact me again. -Pine

I need to share some of my fave songs (by 鬱P / utsu p) (I love them too much)

That is all

Vore thingamajig

// Introductions to the whole text

// P.s There is no TLDR; read the whole 3k word doc.

// To add more clarification on something that is not only already clear (at least for me), but also unnecessary. I will proceed to more or less rant/monologue. This will most likely be used to explain essentially me with some context on this specific thing to purely hypothetical people in purely hypothetical scenarios, centred on making people understand those who like vore in the way that I and others do. It will be long enough and extensive enough so that you know nearly as much as me, though that may border over sharing. It is important that you read all of this before you ask questions or berate me because I will not listen.

// This is a very extensive and long post, that includes three chapters and five important sub-sections, the three chapters are: the elaboration on why I like vore, trivia on slang and one focused purely on the emotions and conveying that through thingies. The sub-sections for the first chapter are: general information, personal experiences, the communities around it, it as a coping mechanism from my own experience, how it can be used for storytelling. The sub-sections for the second chapter are: fatal, digestion and reformation vore and it’s connotations, vore as a fetish all whilst excluding slang as it’s on a different post. The sub-sections for the third chapter are: theatre.

// The first chapter details on what I deem as all the information that a person could need to understand the SFW vore community and mostly myself. The ‘general section’ covers everything that’s relevant and everything that not covered in the others. The ‘personal experiences’ section will cover anything that focuses on me or the people close to me: so how you will think of me, my own development and it’s possible origins. The ‘vore community’ section covers knowledge about vore in general and not just how i like it, with additional clarifications on a myriad of things, and excluding certain parts that I choose to not to associate with. The ‘coping mechanism’ section is one of the sections of how I enjoy it and covers any additional emotions/feelings and their origins. The ‘storytelling’ section will be focusing on: FHRD vore, non-FHRD vore, pred traits, prey traits, pred-prey dynamic and world-building. FHRD meaning fatal, hard, reformation and digestion. They will contain how they can be used for storytelling, containing an in depth analysis of those. // Ch 1: Clarification on the vore thingy

// Sc 1: General stuff

// First of all I when I use the word ‘vore’ I do not refer to the nsfw vore community or it’s possible sexual connotations, I mean it as an all-encapsulating term for when characters ‘eat’ each other. Not in a cannibalistic sense but as a non-fatal and unique form of either bonding, based on trust or as protection as a tool to cope with personal trauma, or as a tool for storytelling. I may use other terms such as; extreme cuddling, Swwh etc to refer to specific elements of vore.

// One of my main concerns that I think we will share is the weird-ass cravings, as no matter how much I write/add to this there is no way that you could understand these emotions. That concern is based on how we have different lived experiences and that yours fundamentally can not match with mine as I like vore and you probably don’t, so how could I explain my feelings to you when you’ve never felt them. It’s like trying to explain colour to a blind-from-birth person, impossible right? So, what I expect is getting stuck in a state of anxiety from the both of us, and I frankly don’t know what I could do about that.

// To give any merit to the argument that I don’t like vore I need to give you important context which summarises into; you do like it. Although that summary is true it oversimplifies the dynamic between me and it; it has more in common with how one enjoys a television series, any old hobby or as a coping mechanism. To elaborate on that argument I could argue that because a significant part of it is a coping mechanism with the dominant reason that I like it is of how I perceive it as a sense of protection and closeness rather then being due to the vore itself. However, that I don’t think argument doesn’t mean that I don’t like vore as it’s only provides an explanation but do read that sub-section and make your own assessment. The most convincing addition that I could give the argument would be storytelling, as I will state; it has nothing to do with vore and more to do with it as a tool. In addition, if it has too much emphasis on the vore it’s more probable that I won’t like it.

// One of the issues that you may have reading this is that I’m trying to avoid saying what the material exactly is and so instead of being blunt I beat around the bush, though how much will vary per paragraph. This is because, as I will mention, it’s a little fucked up and being vague avoids the pain. That’s extremely useful as being vague on something that your trying to clear up is clearly much better then not being vague at all. Very fucking useful. If I believe you understand then the vagueness should dissipate, though I can’t guarantee that.

// There is also an argument to say that vore, the sfw version altleast, is a lot more normal than people think although you may think that’s just denial or something else. For example, when people say “they’re so cute I just want to eat them!” it’s not something you’d be surprised to hear from anyone as if it’s normal. Though I assume it’s only weird when it’s mentioned. Also, it’s pretty prevalent in our media. In my opinion, some good examples from the media are from adventure time or dragon pilot, there are others but I’ve excluded then for a variety of reasons. Adventure time has a few examples worth mentioning and the entirety of Dragon Pilot as it’s basically just a vore anime. Adventure times’ one is where Jake the dog noms Finn the human to help protect them though is same size and not my style. The other episode is basically just them hanging out in a dream monsters’ belly whilst doing a quest. Dragon pilot is much more akin to what I like, though I prefer humans instead of dragons not that I’m complaining, as not only is it cool for storytelling — piloting a dragon through its stomach, very unique and they’re dragons what could be cooler — and protection vore plus you can cozy up in there. I think it’s a good recommendation to understand this interest of mine and because it’s a good show. Although I have missed A LOT of examples, what I’m trying to say is that it’s a lot more prevalent in our, more so my, culture then I think we’d like to admit.

// Though the existence of this, practical essay, may amount to nothing in terms of its original intended use, it has nonetheless reduced my not unreasonable anxiety about being found out to near nothingness. As I may have stated, I originally used this anxiety in an unproductive fashion that did not reduce it, as it was inevitable that I wouldn’t remember every talking point in a way that would be easily understood and not sound psychopathic, that’s not the right word but I have no idea what that could be. So instead, I wrote all of my talking points in a, not quite, document that anyone who did find out and who likely didn’t like vore could read and sit with it. As trying to get someone to understand it’s not 100-0 it’s more 50-50 with some error. As it is completely futile to try and make someone understand who isn’t trying to understand and that all the effort is coming from me, all I can do after giving them this is nothing. So from there it isn’t up to me, and no matter how much I wish I could control that I can’t so, it’s up to them. I have realised and embraced that any anxiety that from point is fucking useless so as long as it covered here it’s gone. This doesn’t even have to be about vore it works with a lot more then that

// Sc 2: Personal experiences

// I wouldn’t be surprised if you think less of me due to this, I believe that’s because of its frankly unavoidable connection to cannibalism. I know this is biased, but it isn’t even close. Trust me, I would’ve taken ANYTHING ELSE, but no, I’m stuck with this. And, as far as I remember I’ve liked it since 2016, though it could’ve been earlier. Which would’ve made me 10, approaching 11, so it is very old. If you’re concerned about me acting on these feelings, the way that reality works makes what I want diametrically opposed. You can’t just get eaten alive and not die, you could die from any of the following and more: hypoxia, hyperthermia, being dissolved/digested. But if it could happen the way I wanted, though my posts would indicate otherwise I still wouldn’t act on them. The only ways I could imagine it happening is being so moth-coded that I just crawl into a giants mouth and get swallowed, like an idiot. Or being so desperate to protect my friends that I vore them, even though I will and would avoid that option unless they made it very clear that they wanted it.

// When I was first introduced to vore I proceeded to have an existential crisis as I realised ‘oh shit, I like this. This is so fucked up. God, I’m so fucked up. FFFFUUUUCCCCKKKK.’ especially since it was considered something to jack-off too. Clearly I believed this without any consideration for it to be something else, as I didn’t understand what the fuck my brain was at all thinking/doing emotionally. As I incessantly worked to understand it, I realised it was a coping mechanism and anywhere near not as fucked up. Initially, it was just trying to figure out how to satiate this desire that I had — I did find a way eventually. So basically I started to collected material that I hoped would work and all it did was remind me that I wanted it, hence doing the exact opposite for what it was initially fucking for. However, once in a millennium it works because of sheer desperation.

// To extend the previous paragraph, since I’ve pin-pointed the cause I found a way to minimise that happening it has changed to what it should’ve been. ASMR and/or RP changed only slightly, as it took a turn for more of a sleep aid as that is comforting and nulls me to sleep. Most of the remaining are somewhat boring as they aren’t focusing on the bond as much, except for the narratively interesting ones. Videos, I’ve been the most picky as like 90% are just vile or plane boring, though still cause the weird-ass cravings for the reason above and bonus emotions/feelings it has ultimately reduced. Nowadays it’s more like tv as it’s a fascination and I find it cool for some reason. On tumblr, I post relatable content and fandom.

// Every now and again my brain reminds me, although I may understand why I enjoy it the way I do, I still do not understand how I got there. I theorise(d) about the possible factors and how they may culminate into me having it, like: genetics, (formally) puberty and trauma. The biggest torment about that is, other then the genetic component, they aren’t actually testable. So, it ends up being source of confusion and anxiety. However, the genetic component is a lot more testable as I can find out if they like it, the problem with that is I have to break an unwritten rule amongst vore enthusiasts; don’t talk about it, not ever. Which means that if I’m too blunt, something which I’m known for btw, it risks my exposure. Something that I do not want. However, they’re certain traits that I think gives the game away, so to speak: frequency (the amount of times you bring it up when it does, usually media) and phrasing. This can lead to having suspicions about family members, friends or maybe even strangers, and that depends on how observant you are.

// Let’s say that I do have that suspicion, what EXACTLY do I do about that? You can plan, ask, do whatever but how do I know when anxiety is just anxiety and not real, where is the boundary between the rational and the irrational? Where is it?! Where is that boundary?! Hell do I know, especially when it comes to this, this isn’t known for being socially acceptable. I know how isolating that is, and if my suspicions are right I know somewhere where they don’t have to feel that I should help, shouldn’t I? Anyways, I think I should test my suspicions and gently push them if that’s the rights course, fast would be easier but that’s too risky. It’s difficult.

// Sc 3: Vore Communities Info stuff

// If you, yourself, are fairly familiar with vore — either because of unrestricted internet access or you went on a quest for this kind of material — you will be aware that ‘vore’ (not in the way that I meant it) covers a whole lot more then what I talk about. And, that it is fairly dishonest to exclude cannabilism from the equation. Saying that, cannibalism is pretty much just extra niche topic in vore as it has to fit: hard vore, digestion, no reformation/fatal, same size and same species. However, for many reasons but due to it making me recede in horror I refuse to associate with it at all. There is more to cover in terms of the side of vore that I don’t like but I refrain from covering all of it since it isn’t relevant to your concerns and how I feel towards it.

// Again, if you’re familiar with vore you would’ve likely heard that it is always sexual, it is not. I don’t like that point, mostly because it’s very reductionist and non-materialist. In other words, it is overly-simplified and doesn’t take into account what conditions it takes to form that interest, aka it’s stupid. For two distinct reasons I came to realise it wasn’t a fucking fetish; No.1 for reasons I won’t elaborate on (I will if asked directly) I put everything that was remotely enjoyable as sexual and as I unlearned that I realised it wasn’t. No.2 as I have interacted with people who I share this hobby/interest with I realised that it was in the same way and hence not sexual.

// To expand the previous paragraph, one of the main things that I will change on this blog is the DNI but as of when I wrote this I’m unsure when to put it in place. It is that not only because as it’s kink-adjacent, which is whole ordeal by itself, but because one’s own tolerances. I’ll expand on the kink-adjacent-ness as it’s come up, from my understanding — which is completely made up of educated guesses; is that it is extremely likely that the sfw vore will be interpreted as sexual and because I don’t yet have a ‘minors DNI’ it is probable that it backfire heavily: pedophilia allegations etcetera. I haven’t put a DNI on my account as is it isn’t sexual and any interpretations that say that would immediately be false; hence, nullifying those allegations. I’m not overly concerned with those allegations as they aren’t rational and easily dismiss-able. I will put that DNI in place anyways as it feels weird interacting with people below a certain age bracket.// If you wish that I stop hanging around communities that I share this with, I don’t recommend it. Not only has it made me comfortable with this, it has helped manage it in a way that nothing else does. A bonus to that, the bonus emotions have gotten less frequent. There are additional quirks it has given me, which I will not name because it’s a bit odd. However, if you’re more concerned about my anonymity — which I would find that very confusing — I avoid anything that could expose my irl self. This is why I’m only share this stuff on tumblr not anywhere else.

// As I have put in this now 3k+ word document, I’m interested in how vore came about. Where and when did people like watching others, or themselves, get eaten alive? Is it even limited to people? From an evolutionary standpoint it has every reason to not exist and kind of breaks evolution, though not completely; it’s confusing as ‘vore’ is synonymous with death and apparently that’s a good thing for some. Based on what I know it’s not even suicidality that makes the case, it just is appealing for some reason. Even if ‘vore enthusiasts’ don’t like fatal it’s still paradoxical, like me. I can’t even really explain why I like watching it: it’s just fun I suppose and the next sub-section too. Even as a coping mechanism it’s origin is still alludes me; why did my brain go “you know what would be good idea? Vore for as coping mechanism instead of anything normal”? Occasionally, it baffles the fuck out of me as I gain a sudden self-awareness; the self-awareness isn’t a bad thing as I do analyse my life to insure I’m not doing anything that could harm others, it’s that one of those side effects.

// Sc 4: Coping mechanism (C.M.) and bonus emotions/feelings

// On the coping mechanism side of things, it is much more focused on the feelings of security and trust then the actual vore itself. This manifests as some weird-ass cravings (reverse craving and strange craving). Since cravings are a desire to eat a particular thing, and I’m the one wanting to be eaten, reverse craving fits the bill. The strange is obvious given the context. // Reverse craving is a word that I use to label a desire to be swallowed hole by another, usually someone I deeply deeply trust, and for the purpose of ones’ own safety in an unsafe environment. Functionally speaking, it works by both direct and indirect ways. Directly, because the pred is usually more powerful then yourself they can protect you as you’re tucked away inside of them. Indirectly, because they are much larger then you; it acts as an escape as no-one will know your there. A bonus to that, you are literally as close to them as you can be, which is nice. Although I tend to try to ignore these feelings and pretend they don’t exist I have noticed some interesting phenomena that co-inside with them. One of those is a strange fondness of heat that I otherwise don’t experience; my current understanding of that is because it’s usually pretty hot, too hot even.

// A similar yet different reasoning goes for the ‘strange cravings’, instead of the desire to be eaten, it’s to protect others who can’t protect themselves and out of fear of their loss. As these were much rarer of the cravings I have much less to go off to understand these and I really don’t want to acknowledge that they exist I don’t know anywhere as much. Although as my emotional intelligence has risen I don’t need as much data anymore. As the other is much rarer it is much harder to satiate and I believe more so a byproduct of clinginess or protectiveness and I have noticed that it makes me salivate like crazy. It’s really weird.

// As one of the most relieving, yet the most frustrating, part of vore is that it’s a fantasy it is hard to come to a consensus on whether or i would want that to be a reality. It would be nice to be in there as to me it is the actual best place in the universe, as there is no real negative as long as it meets the conditions which is foundational for. It’s frustrating as it makes me feels a sense of protection and to a degree closeness that I am lacking. It would be nice to have that. Having the ability to protect others through that is also important. If protection and healing vore were seen as a norm then I might take it. The reason why I’m against it, is not really a reason its more so a feeling that I don’t even know how to describe, is very potent. Sometimes, realising that I’ll never have that has made me teary-eyed. Those feelings end up cancelling out leaving me in a state of very unsure no-ness.

// As I may have said and potentially deleted from this post; I won’t cover the bonus emotions cuz they’re a bit odd, I have decided that I will cover it anyways. I also do not understand these as well compared to the cravings so there may be a bit wrong or under-explained and they’re not simple to understand. To my brain, looking at certain vore art or descriptions — not one’s where you see the prey being nommed but where it shows/describes the interior, especially unoccupied, of the pred — it goes “ooo! Comfy, I want in.”. Because, as I have posted before, to me it is the best place in all the universe, for the following reasons: no.1 it’s warm, it’s comfy, automated massages, closeness to a loved one, safety I could keep going. There’s isn’t a competition, unending positives and no real negatives, tell me that doesn’t sound like the best possible place. The other one that I remember isn’t anywhere near as easy to explain, as there is just something so pretty about a maw — it can vary though — it activates my moth-like brain and I proceed to get myself eaten. There is another that is should go under ‘weird ass cravings’ but as I’m an observer it technically isn’t really a craving.

// Sc 5: Storytelling

// Although FHRD vore is something that I’m quite unfamiliar with, as I generally avoid it, it can be quite interesting. Due to my unfamiliarity, I am unable to do/say much but I will try anyhow. As FHRD can have romantic implications, as you become a part of your loved one, it can highlight the bond and devotion to one another. Especially since the effects are usually permanent. Alternatively it could not be romantic and just be cruel.

// Non-FHRD vore, something that is much more my style and much more familiar with, I should be able to add more content. Saying that, most of the things I can mention either goes in ‘pred traits’ or ‘pred-prey dynamics’. Anyways as previously mentioned, as for me it symbolises protection and warmth this can be shown.

// As most vore scenarios are reliant on the characteristics of the pred to make it interesting, this will be longest paragraph. One that I like is the petrified preds, I wrote a fic cantering on that, where the tinies thought it was just statue and decided that they would pretend to be eaten and one of them did actually get eaten. The conversations between the two can be interesting too, like they could be arguing about that they shouldn’t be crawling into peoples mouths or how be both be in a panic as neither of them wanted to be on this situation. Instead of just being traits for scenarios it could be species; so the pred could be a naga/lamia meaning the prey could nap in a living sleeping bag. There’s SO many things you could with their characteristics.

// However the characteristics of the prey can also add to scenarios and is quite difficult to make interesting characteristics for those scenarios in my opinion. As those not much you can do with them, which is frustrating. I’d like to have some more prey-centric fic’s/posts. For example the prey could get sweeter as the bond between the prey and pred grows, I find that pretty cute. Or the prey could change of their own flavour.

// The pred-prey dynamic, aka how the pred and prey interact, can be considered vore scenarios by them selves but are crucial to good scenes. Some have their own tags, like: fear-play, protective preds etc, while most don’t as it is too complicated to simplify to a single tag. They are also somewhat unique to the individuals in there. Fear-play, being the most obvious one as it involves the pred scaring the prey about how they are going to die and is usually paired with FHRD. Although I prefer it not being paired with FHRD and it used as more a bluff, meaning the prey isn’t very happy with the pred, and I love it most when they are besties. There a lot of options for tropes that could be used and they ultimately determined by the author.

// All the previous thingies can be used as world-building, as the history of OC’s/characters or other stuff. I don’t know what else to add to this so called paragraph so that’s it.

// Vore scenarios can be quite fun to imagine IMO. …

// Conclusion thingy

// If you read this and still don’t understand why I like this, either you aren’t trying to listen/understand and clearly not worth the effort to maintain our relationship. Or, you are trying but you just need time, that won’t be easy for the either of us, so please be patient. Sorry if I rambled there’s a lot to say, and I want to make sure that NONE OF IT is misinterpreted. As the anxiety of being found out — pinning on the weird-ass cravings because how in the fuck do I explain that and — has partially dictated my life. I have expanded and edited this post, it is possible that I have missed something. What that ‘something’ is have no idea. So, if you have any questions please ask, or return to this post. There be written in print form once I am content with its content.

Ch 2: Conveying my emotions

Sc 1: theatre

I’m going to convey how my emotions via theatre. I don’t if that’s right but eh.

I’m going to have re-type this argh

As others have mentioned before; inexperienced pred/prey.

Inexperienced preds that are a bit hasty are just peak, or even just hasty ones. Like a pred who’s never vored anyone before but desperately wants to eat their friend and it consumes his mind every time he looks at him, mouth filling saliva at the mere thought. When his friend sits upon their palm he gets practically chucked into his mouth at the sheer speed and immediately swallowed. The shock takes what feels like a minute before he realises his friend just fucking ate him without a second thought. Oh, the options!

Prey is just damn cute. Full of nervous energy trying to sake his mate to eat him unsure that he will even understand his request let alone his feelings. Adorable imo

Thinking about body horror being used as a way to comfort in vore. More specifically while a prey is within a stomach. You get eaten alive by this terrifying creature and gulped down into its stomach, which is warm and tight and completely dark. Naturally panic follows; this is interrupted when things start happening which at first come across as disturbing, but are simply a way for the pred to calm you down. Eyes forming out of the stomach muscles to make sure you are okay. Arms pushing their way out from between the grooves to hug you, hold your hand, pet your hair, etc. Hypnotic whispers cooing softly into your ears that everything will be alright. Flowers blooming from different angles which give off a sweet, relaxing scent.

Idk this is weird but I like it lmao.

I will make strange sounds to stim and you shan’t stop me!

“Gleep glorp schmungly boo”