-Franz Kafka

since everyone has the headcanon that ted is homophobic and an abuser, I’d like to talk about MY headcanon that ted actually likes will, and tells mike, "I like this byers kid," so mike knows that he supports and approves of his bf 😌

boris pavlikovsky be like is anyone going to talk this tiny prep boy out of his haze of self-loathing and tenderly hold him through the night & then not wait for an answer

“the snow in the mountains was melting and bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to understand the gravity of our situation” - Donna Tartt

Saying my life would be over if byler doesn’t happen would be an understatement. I would drop out of college

Can't believe it took me until I was lying in the dark trying to fall asleep last night to realize that Theo's mental breakdown trapped in an Amsterdam hotel room after a disaster and waiting to find out if Boris will ever return was fueled by its similarity to his time years before in his childhood NYC apartment after a disaster, waiting to find out if his mother will ever return.

Like I don't think I'm an idiot, but how did it take me so long to realize the connection there?

Anyway, Boris is the hero of the novel, weirdly! He subverts the central trauma of the book!

Theo is uprooted and shipped off to Vegas, a place where he himself says nobody loves him. Not true though, because Boris does!

Theo discovers his fiance is cheating on him, that he's betrayed and completely alone. Except then Boris shows up, and even though he did betray Theo, he wants to make it right!

Theo is stuck with no answers and no way to call his mother who he knows deep down will never return. Except when it happens again, it's Boris. And Boris completely subverts the mirroring of the book's central trauma! He does return! Not only that, he's fixed everything! The painting is returned and the guilt is gone! The money will fix Theo's mistake with Hobie! Come to Antwerp with him and get over your cold, you're fucking fine!

learning that people want you in their lives is a skill you can develop if it does not come naturally

& you know what it actually IS lifechanging to smile at strangers & say please & thank you & goodmorning & compliment someones outfit & help someone in need & be more accepting of loving other people just because they are other people!!!

More than anything I was relieved that in my unfamiliar babbling-and-wanting-to-talk state I’d stopped myself from blurting the thing on the edge of my tongue, the thing I’d never said, even though it was something we both knew well enough without me saying it out loud to him in the street—which was, of course, I love you.

If I had a nickel for every time I deeply related to a Finn Wolfhard character who has horrible internalized homophobia, I would have two nickels!! Which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice!