"You Were In My Dreams Last Night" Yeah Our Souls Have Been Clawing Through Our Chests To Get To Each

yes all my favorite characters are desperate to be loved. no i don’t think that says anything about me

I engage with fiction in a normal way. don’t look at my blog

oh boy i wish someone would notice my cries for help! [someone actually notices] noooo i'm fine don't worry about me

donna tartt - “the goldfinch” (2013) // some kid - yik yak (2021)

sorry i can't stop thinking about the goldfinch being theo's heart. and boris STOLE IT. anyway.

i think the hardest thing to accept is that my life is not a novel. there is no omnipotent reader rooting for me, loving me despite my flaws and character deficits. my life does not have a poetic theme or overarching narrative, and if it ends bitterly it will not be beautifully tragic or hauntingly relatable, i will just have wasted the life i was given trying to make it that way, always trying to see myself in the third person

*rocking back and forth as I look into mirror* it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things it's not embarrassing to like things

since everyone has the headcanon that ted is homophobic and an abuser, I’d like to talk about MY headcanon that ted actually likes will, and tells mike, "I like this byers kid," so mike knows that he supports and approves of his bf 😌

It's the first of December.... only 24 sleeps til the Amsterdam Ordeal 🥰🥰💖🎄

I love thinking about the goldfinch's religious symbolism

Theo's name meaning "God's gift"

Boris introducing Theo as "Fyodor" to people the night they meet again, name which means the same thing

Still, Boris rarely uses the name Theo, preferring nicknames instead

The Goldfinch being wrapped by Theo like "a Christmas present"

The Goldfinch returning on Christmas

The Goldfinch being described as something "immortal" as long there were people that loved it

Boris converting to different religions solely because of people

Like Islam because the people were nice to him

When he tattooed David's star because he wanted to work for a Jewish man

When he loves Dostoyevsky's philosophy on orthodoxy

at the same time, he can't manage to be a good man or follow through with any of them

like when he starts drinking and leaves Islam because of that