Killjoys Make Some Noise! ↳ Fun Ghoul

This is a nsft blog but by far the book I hate and love the most is Kneller's happy campers. The themes of hopelessness and depression are prevalent throughout the entire book, and as somebody who struggles with depression and got better, I was waiting for the same thing to happen to my main characters.

This is not the case. It's a beautiful novel that I need to reread through the lens I have now and see if I missed something in my first reading, but as I remember it, it's just edging you and has the message of "everything sucks forever" instead of "find your own happiness one step at a time". I might have been too immature to understand it though.

Please read these book if you aren't sensitive to depression, su*c*de, AH, self harm, or things of that sort, I fucking hate it so much. I also love it. It really captures the monotony and hopelessness with depression and puts a very interesting take on the afterlife.

Please then tell me what you think if you read it.

Oh yikes. Gonna stay far away from this one in that case. I really don't like depression narratives that - intentionally or not - play up the idea that it's just hopeless. I don't want sugarcoated "have you tried not being sad" stuff either. I feel like both can be really damaging. Especially since the people most likely to seek out depression narratives are people who are going through it themselves

Okay, so here's my problem.

I have issues and criticisms of Contrapoints and Lindsay Ellis that I would love to actually discuss with people who would actually know who and what I'm talking about, which excludes everyone in my real world life.

But I also can't really discuss this sort of thing online either because both of these women have hatedoms that will glom onto any reason to harass them and I really don't want them using anything I might say to do so.

Like, look at the contrapoints tag here on tumblr and, aside from the fans just enjoying stuff they like, you'll find that most of the criticism is either full TERF bs or quickly attracts full TERF bs.

And I want nothing to do with that. I don't want to read the nasty vitriol they spew out or in any way contribute to their gross bigotry.

My issues/criticisms really don't have anything to do with either of these women being women. And I don't want to get mixed up with the crowd for whom that is their issue.

I just really don't like feeling like I need to bite my tongue because bigots want to act in bad faith

I finally fixed the issues I was facing last night, so please come join me on twitch for Far Cry 5

I am back from the gym and ready to fight some demons! https://www.twitch.tv/therobichaud

i love narratives that are two fundamentally different experiences on the first and second read. stories you have to experience at least twice bc crucial information is withheld from you the first time

How did I forget that Brittany Murphy was in an episode of Boy Meets World?

good <3

I had some technical difficulties but I am back with Dragon Age Inquisition

Honestly, this shit with Hogwarts Legacy is just like what happened with Chick-fil-A like ten or fifteen years ago. Some of y'all might be too young to remember it, but it went almost exactly like this shit today, only the target was technically gay people (not like we aren't all lumped together when push comes to shove, but gay was the political scapegoat in US politics at the time, as trans people were still on the fringes of social awareness).

It came out that the people who own Chick-fil-A were donating to organizations in other countries that were actively working to get gay people there killed, and were also very monetarily invested in stripping gay people of any legal rights they'd amassed in the US. So a lot of queer folks were asking for allies to boycott Chick-fil-A to show solidarity.

And it turned into a giant fuckin circus for bigots to rally around. There was even a support Chick-fil-A day, I remember it because I was a server at the time and our restaurant was empty most the day - while the line for Chick-fil-A down the road was like a mile long consistently.

But while that was obviously annoying, that wasn't what hit people the hardest. Cuz we expect clowns to wear the shoes, right, it's not shocking.

What disappointed people, or really demoralized a lot of young queers at the time especially, was the allies who would still go there. Because they like the sandwiches or fries or whatever. The people who'd march with them in the parade or be supportive of marriage equality, who would then turn right around and give their money to people who were trying to actively harm their friends.

Because the chicken was good.

I remember a friend of mine being really just absolutely broken up over that, trying to understand some of her friends reasoning and at the time I couldn't give her an answer. I could now, though.

And it's this:

Talk is cheap.

It costs nothing to say things. A person can say whatever the hell they want, any feel good flowery thing, and it doesn't really cost them.

But when they are asked to actually give something up - or put their money where their mouth is and just....can't do it. Well then there isn't much else for them to say, is there? At least nothing that's worth anything.

Some people had to find out the hard way that the choice between a chicken sandwich and funding people who did not believe in their dignity as a human being was, in the eyes of certain allies, apparently really hard. Too hard, in fact.

These allies would march in the colorful parades and go to the bars for drinks, but in the end, you couldn't actually depend on them to inconvenience themselves. They were fair weather allies, and they were there for the party and that's about it . They wanted entertainment, and it didn't matter if that came from having fun gay friends or a tasty sandwich.

This is the same thing, really, or pretty close to it.

These types of people just wanna have fun. Either you, their friend or whatever, are fun or the game is fun, and if you stop being fun by incidentally making them feel a little guilty about where they spend their money , then they might just choose the thing that doesn't make them currently uncomfortable.

And I'm not saying these people who say trans rights online but who also really, really want to play wizard game and already have are horrible people or anything - they're just not very good. They have no real character. And unfortunately there's not much you can do to change that, other than investing time and energy in people who do.